[The summer solstice has not yet come] Carving time

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Gu Qiaochu's confession was really not very good. He washed his face in cold water and rushed upstairs in the dead of night. Even though he tried his best to restrain himself, he couldn't make the sound of banging on the door quieter.He was dragged into the room by Lu Zhiang who rushed over to open the door, and a man a little taller than him who was in the stage of a man or a teenager raised his index finger on his lips, "Hush your voice! sleep!"

"So?" Gu Qiaochu licked his dry lips, raised his eyes and stared at Lu Zhiang, who seemed to be holding his breath unconsciously, and said softly, "Lu Zhiang, every time I think of something, I think Ask you... do you want to be with me, even if it's only for four years."

He's not the kind of person who can talk sweetly, and it's a good thing that both of them are male and don't need that set of fancy things.But every time the two of them quarreled, Lu Zhiang couldn't help but think of the night when they first got together.

He was finally younger than Gu Qiaochu, and he yelled at Gu Qiaochu hysterically like everyone who encountered setbacks in the love process.But no matter how the quarrel develops, the topic of the final quarrel cannot escape after all.

"Others are thinking about how to make two people live better together when they are in a relationship! Only you! You figured out from the beginning when we will end!"

I forgot when the first quarrel was, it was probably not long after they got together, when Yan Mo started going to Lu Zhiang's house for dinner every three days.

Gu Qiaochu was busy at school every day, and he was taken by Morikawa to the school's innovation laboratory, where he dealt with various bottles and various chemical reagents every day.He didn't go back until after ten o'clock at night one day, and when he opened the door, he saw Lu Zhiang sending Yan Mo out of the house.

He raised his eyebrows and said nothing, nodded to Yan Mo and then walked sideways into the room.He didn't say anything, it was Lu Zhiang who sent someone back to see his half-smiling eyes, he couldn't stand it anymore, he frowned and asked him, "Can you stop that look."

Gu Qiaochu went to the kitchen to take a look, and there were meals left alone in the pot.He didn't answer Lu Zhiang's words, he closed the lid and turned around to go back to his home, "I have a lot of things to do today, I'll go back first."

He had always known that the two of them were more fragile than anyone else.Whether it was the days when he disappeared, or Lu Zhiang's mother's funeral he knew but did not go back, there are many other things, it is the eternal knot between the two of them.But in the past few days, none of them mentioned these things, and they were all giving in to each other.But how can it be a solution to resist each other and retreat like this.

When he was grabbed by Lu Zhiang's arm, there was a smile on the corner of his mouth, but the words he said were not pleasant, "Let go now and let me go back, we both look better."

Lu Zhiang didn't know what the consequences would be if he didn't let go, he just felt like he had been suppressed for a long time.He suddenly yanked Gu Qiaochu, slammed the door shut, pinched Gu Qiaochu's neck with one hand and kissed him.

Gu Qiaochu's lip was bitten and two cuts were broken, he pushed away Lu Zhiang, sucked in hissing air, and licked the wound with his tongue.He frowned in pain at first, but when he looked up at Lu Zhiang, he suddenly smiled, "You are a dog."

His voice trembled when he was joking, because this was the first time he faced such a sad Lu Zhiang.

He remembered the first time he saw Lu Zhiang at the school gate in his sophomore year of high school. He was riding a bicycle and smiling exaggeratedly, his whole person was like the most refreshing sunshine after the rain.But now, when he was standing in front of him with his head bowed, it was obvious that he was the one who was bitten and bleeding, but the sad aura on his body rushed towards his face, making him a little out of breath.

When his mind was free, he began to wonder if he was like Lu Zhiang when his grandfather passed away.Thinking of this, he couldn't help regretting, after all, he underestimated the position of Lu Zhiang's mother in his heart.

He didn't know that the death of that woman could turn Lu Zhiang into what he is now.Although Lu Zhiang tried his best to suppress the two when they were together, he was clearly not the same Lu Zhiang back then.Gu Qiaochu thought at the time, if he knew this was the case, then he should have crawled back in the first place.

He shouldn't let Lu Zhiang bear it alone.

I don't know who started that night. They embraced and kissed each other, touching each other's bodies in the night of this still unfamiliar city. In the end, the two of them took turns to take a shower in the bathroom.

The next day was the weekend, and the atmosphere between the two seemed to have eased up a bit. They sat on the sofa and read a book together on that sunny afternoon.Lu Zhiang looked at the cover of the book that Gu Qiaochu was holding, "Why are you tinkering with those chemical things every day when you have nothing to do?"

The management science that Gu Qiao studied at the beginning has nothing to do with chemistry from the beginning to the end.He raised his head and pushed the glasses on the bridge of his nose, "Chemistry is quite interesting."

Lu Zhiang thought for a while and asked him, "If chemistry is interesting to you, why don't you study chemistry?"

After saying this, Lu Zhiang regretted it, because he knew in his heart that there would be no answer to this question, or both of them knew the answer in their hearts, but it was difficult to say it out.He thought about it, and unconsciously changed to a more deadly question, "Ah Chu, do you have any dreams?"

Gu Qiaochu always thought that this was a topic in elementary school composition, but unfortunately, he hardly ever had a very childlike moment.When he was in elementary school, when other classmates wrote that they wanted to be an astronaut scientist or a hero protecting the earth when they grew up, he wrote a composition called a parent.

"Dreams don't belong to me, I have my future."

This sentence was used by Guqiao Elementary School as the beginning of the essay. At the beginning, he was invited by the parents because of this sentence. The Chinese teacher talked with his parents for two hours from the perspective of the child's physical and mental health. After more than ten years Didn't see any effect either.Now he told Lu Zhiang what he said exactly, he couldn't understand what the pity in Lu Zhiang's eyes meant.

Gu Qiao thought about it for a while, but he really didn't understand the necessity of the existence of something like a dream, a stream of consciousness.In his view, unattainable expectations can almost be called dreams.But he never thought that what he had expected would be difficult to achieve.

When he was young, he never thought about becoming a scientist and astronaut, or a prince who overcame all obstacles and defeated dragons to marry a princess. What he thought about was simpler, that is, to constantly enrich himself to the point where he could inherit the family business.It doesn't matter if you develop any hobbies or start your own business, but in the end, you have to pick up the burden of the family.

He went smoothly all the way, except for Lu Zhiang's accident, he never made any other mistakes.

After all, whether it is the art festival that took a lot of time to prepare in the second year of high school, or the things he did for Lu Zhiang overtly and secretly, if Gu Qiaochu grows up, he will find an accurate word to describe himself. Behavior is called "reasonable investment".

He told Lu Zhiang the description of "reasonable investment", and the man couldn't straighten up with a smile, he patted the table and pointed at him, "That just means you've been looking at me for a while."

Gu Qiaochu began to regret saying these inexplicable words, he thought more deeply, and always felt that his confession at this time seemed to have given Lu Zhiang some courage.

Having said that, what I have to mention is the guard that Gu Qiaochu brought to Lu Zhiang when he returned to school in the year of SARS.He didn't tell Lu Zhiang that he went to the shrine to ask for it himself, not something that can be bought with money from the hawkers at the gate.He took Omoru home that night and took it apart, and put the coin in the wallet into it.

He thought that Lu Zhiang didn't know that he gave him the coin, but in fact Lu Zhiang knew it all.

One night, he took the Omoru and looked at it carefully, rubbed around it and found a round hard thing inside.He hasn't been to Japan in the past ten years, and he doesn't know about omamori.He checked online that not every yushou had this thing before he realized that it should be the coin he got in Gu Qiaochu, Shi County.

Therefore, in the process of communication between two people, there will inevitably be some things that "you think I don't know, but I know everything about it".

It is undeniable that Lu Zhiang, who knew the facts, was happy, so that even if Gu Qiaochu disappeared when he needed it most, when he reappeared or even confessed too abruptly, he was willing to agree.He would also think that at that time Gu Qiaochu knew but did not come back, there must be some difficulties.

The reason for that choice, as long as you tell me, I can believe it.

Lu Zhiang had been waiting for quite a long time, until he and Gu Qiaochu spent four years of university on and off, noisily, and he didn't wait until Gu Qiaochu personally told him the reason he needed in the first place.

Of course, this is another story.

Apart from the friction between the two rookies during the running-in process at the beginning, it is obvious that falling in love is still a very beautiful thing.

They are in a fresh and crazy city, where they experience folk customs and customs that are different from those in Asakawa.Together, they are used to the overly polite people here, to the almost endless bowing activities with the salesperson after every purchase, and to the noisy streets here even late at night.

Occasionally, two people have a whim and start some inexplicable topics.

For example, Lu Zhiang asked, "If we were in China...would everything be different?"

He changed the question in a subtle way, and the original words were actually, "If we were in China, wouldn't you be with me?" When he asked this question, he kissed Gu Qiaochu on the cheek, without moving his hands. Consciously gripping the cushions of the sofa tightly.

Gu Qiaochu smiled habitually. He thought about the necessity of deceiving a man who was too sincere in facing this question, and finally said softly, "Yes."

If we were in China, no matter which city it was, Lu Zhiang, I would definitely not be with you.

"However, such an assumption really doesn't make any sense to me," he added.