Reborn as a little director

Seeing this photo, Xie Siqing didn't care about anything.

He ransacked Yao Shunyu's house like crazy.

Then, nothing was found except that photo.

Xie Siqing felt very anxious. After sitting on the bed and scratching his hair for a while, he called sister Yao Shunyu.

"Brother?" Sister Yao Shunyu's voice came from over there.

"It's me." Xie Siqing took a deep breath, "There is something I want to ask you."

"It's so annoying, you tell Dad and Mom that I don't have a boyfriend!"

"……That's not it."

"Oh...then you continue."

"Yeah," Xie Siqing said with great composure, "After the operation on my brain, I can't remember... that actor named Shao Yu... Do I know him...?"

"...Don't you know each other?" Yao Shunyu's younger sister replied, "You two are from the same middle school... I asked you, and you said that you never talked to him."

"……Oh."

Xie Siqing looked at the photo carefully again.

The two seem to be quite familiar with each other, and it doesn't look like they just met each other for a group photo, because the photo was taken at Yao, Shunyu's home.

"..." He went to look through the album carefully again, but he didn't find Shao Yu's shadow in any of the photos in it.However, some of the empty spaces apparently originally held photographs, only to be removed later.

Will it be another group photo...?Tossed those and forgot there was another one in the book?

Xie Siqing didn't clean up.

He returned home with a dizzy head.

No matter how I think about it, I can't figure it out...

This is too coincidental... The body I was reborn in, I knew Shao Yu in my previous life?

However, it wasn't this that he couldn't figure out.What he couldn't understand was why Shao Yu wanted to hide it.

How many things did that person lie about?

Could it have something to do with his own death?But... what is the relationship between these two things?

Xie Siqing just felt that he didn't know that person less and less.

As soon as he got home, Zhong Yang realized that something was wrong with Xie Siqing.

"What's wrong?" Zhong Yang asked.

Xie Siqing shook his head: "I'm a little tired from the movie promotion recently."

"Shall I ask Chen Zhengzhi to make less arrangements?"

"No need." Xie Siqing managed to pull himself together, "Movies are more important. I have nothing to do. It's nothing to be tired."

Zhong Yang still looked at Xie Siqing.

Xie Siqing knew that he was a little worried, because he had never cried out that he was tired in the past, no matter what the conditions were.Now the intensity is not as good as the previous few months, but I feel very tired physically, which is not normal no matter how you look at it.

So, in order to reassure the other party, Xie Siqing added another sentence: "Probably because I don't like participating in publicity."

"...Well." After a pause, Zhong Yang said again: "But I think...you are not tired."

"what?"

Zhong Yang continued: "It looks like he is absent-minded, he seems to be thinking about things all the time, and he is in a very bad mood."

"..." Xie Siqing was surprised at the other party's sensitivity.It seems that no expression can hide from him.

"Did something happen?" Zhong Yang asked again.

"One thing." Xie Siqing leaned forward and kissed Zhong Yang, "I'll tell you in a few days, we're busy with movies now, don't focus on other things... The same goes for other things after a while."

"Just let me know when you think it's appropriate."

Zhong Yang understood that it was related to that secret again.

"……Um."

——Even if you still think about this matter in your heart, you must do what you should do in the movie.

Soon, the screening of "Planet Killer" officially started.

Chen Zhengzhi also chose to screen in universities.

And because of sufficient funds, there are quite a few screenings.

And this time, Chen Zhengzhi also got a machine, and he would take this machine with him to every screening.

If someone stands in front of the camera of the machine and presses the button, the machine will take the initiative to take a video, and then combine the face of the person standing in front of the machine with the body of an actor in the play and place them in a plot, as if the person has traveled through It's like being in a movie.After the playback is over, the machine will ask the participants to choose which social network to share with—Weibo, WeChat, and Renren, or which email address to send it to.There are several episodes to choose from - ones in space, and ones on planets.In fact, this is a very rough film post-production, but because many viewers are very interested in film post-production, even though it is rough, it still attracts many people.Moreover, those episodes of the plot can also be used as a preview. Except for the faces that were forced to be pasted, the other parts of the technology are all very delicate.

Among these screenings, Xie Siqing took Zhong Yang and Gu Fei to participate in several of them.

Generally speaking, these activities went smoothly. Only after a certain student asked a question about Gu Fei's ex-boyfriend's marriage news, Gu Fei rolled her eyes before answering. Sporadic discussions about the truth of their breakup back then.

As for Xie Siqing, if Zhong Yang is with him, he will be fine.

I don't know when it started. With Zhong Yang around, I feel at ease. No matter what the road ahead is, I have never felt this feeling in my whole life.

……

—and then, just a week before the movie was released, another big thing happened.

In the morning, Xie Siqing talked on the phone with Yao, Shunyu's family members.

In the past, he was very afraid of dealing with them, because Yao Shunyu's family must know Yao Shunyu's life best, and if he is not careful, he may be exposed. At that time, he can only infer that the memory is a bit blurred due to brain surgery. It's always strange to have too much, so Xie Siqing went to the hospital for follow-up visits n times.

Moreover, in addition to memory, there is also character, I don't know what Yao, Shunyu is like in front of his family.Although he can learn a little about Yao, Shunyu's style of life from Xiaoputao's mouth, Xiaoputao is only a colleague after all, and it is difficult to see Yao, Shunyu's side at home, and there are many people who are completely like two people in the company and at home.

However, now Xie Siqing is much more natural.

Yao Shunyu's family has long been used to him not being able to remember things.

As for character, he is becoming more and more himself.He is a well-known director now, and it is normal for him to have some changes in his personality, but Yao, Shunyu's family did not find it strange.

"Brother," Yao Shunyu's younger sister said, "Have you read the news?!"

"...Which one are you referring to?"

"Doctor Feng committed suicide...!"

"...What?!" Xie Siqing couldn't believe it at all.

Doctor Feng was the doctor who operated on Yao Shunyu after he fainted.

He is the dean of a university-affiliated hospital, as well as the most famous scholar and doctor in brain surgery in the country, and has published many influential papers.

Even so, Xie Siqing had some doubts about his level.

Because Yao Shunyu died obviously, and he passed through to live on his behalf, and this person... didn't feel anything wrong during the whole process.

Over there, Yao Shunyu's sister repeated again: "Doctor Feng committed suicide!"

"How could it be?" Xie Siqing said, "His life is full of success... Doesn't it mean that he has the hope of winning the Nobel Prize?"

"Why am I lying to you! You can look online yourself!"

"I'm not saying you're lying to me..." Xie Siqing said, "It's just hard to believe..."

"I also find it incredible!" The other party continued, "The suicide note is also very strange! I can't understand it at all! Now everyone is discussing this matter on the Internet...!"

"……I gonna go see."

For some reason, Xie Siqing felt a strong uneasiness in his heart.

He checked the news.

Sure enough, it was a sensational news.

Even though most people on the Internet didn't know him at all before this, they couldn't help but feel sorry for him and the scientific community after seeing his achievements.

Xie Siqing also saw the suicide note mentioned by Yao Shunyu's sister.

It was indeed a strange suicide note.

Just one sentence: I entered the realm of God...since [-] years ago...I can't go any further...

For some reason, Xie Siqing felt that it had something to do with him.

That operation was three years ago.

Shao Yu knew Yao, Shunyu... Shao Yu killed himself, and he changed into the body of Yao, Shunyu... Doctor Feng committed suicide, saying that he entered the realm of God three years ago.

Xie Siqing suddenly had a terrible thought.

The thought made him tremble slightly.

Impossible...he must have made up his mind again.

Xie Siqing clenched the phone, went to the study and found Zhong Yang: "... Zhong Yang."

Zhong Yang looked up, and then seemed a little worried: "...what's wrong with you?"

"It's okay." Xie Siqing forced himself to smile, "I went to the rental house to continue cleaning."

"That's not in a hurry." Zhong Yang stood up, "You look very bad."

Xie Siqing shook his head: "I have to go there."

"Then I will accompany you."

"……do not."

"But you—"

"Zhong Yang," Xie Siqing's voice seemed to be begging, "please...don't go."

Xie Siqing felt that this was definitely not a good opportunity for a showdown.

In this situation, he himself felt very inappropriate to tell Zhong Yang about it.

Zhong Yang stared at Xie Siqing for a long time, then sighed: "Then I will take you there."

"……Um."

The reason why he chose to stay in the room that Yao Shunyu rented was not because he was looking for something, but because he was afraid that he would collapse suddenly, and he didn't want Zhong Yang to see everything.

After arriving, Zhong Yang asked him: "I am waiting for you outside?"

"It may take a long time..." Xie Siqing looked at him, "Can you go back first? I'll call you after I'm done."

"……it is good."

"Then I go in."

"...Yao, Shunyu." Zhong Yang suddenly called Xie Siqing.

"what?"

"No matter what happens, I'm still here."

"...I see." Xie Siqing nodded, "I'm fine."

"I..." Zhong Yang asked unwillingly, "Can I really not share the burden with you?"

"Yes." Xie Siqing smiled, "It's just that things changed a little suddenly...I have something to confirm before I let you share."

"..."

"Then see you later."

After entering the small room, Xie Siqing made a cup of tea first.

He wanted to calm his mind.

Then, he made a phone call to his personal doctor in the past.

After confirming some things, Xie Siqing dialed Shao Yu's number.

His fingers were still trembling.Because it was shaking so badly, I pressed the wrong button several times.

"...Hello?" A familiar voice finally came from the phone.

"...Shao Yu." Xie Siqing kept himself from going crazy immediately, "I, Yao Shunyu."

"Oh, Director Yao." Shao Yu asked, "What's the matter?"

It was still the cold tone, the tone of alienation when talking with unfamiliar people.

—fucking alienation.

"I'm going to ask you something."

"Ok?"

"you……"

Xie Siqing thought that he would have to ask sooner or later anyway, and there was no need to beat around the bush, so he took a deep breath, "I want to ask you... what did you do to Xie Siqing the day he disappeared three years ago?"

"..."

"What did you do to him!"

His feelings could no longer be suppressed, and strong emotions gushed out of his chest.

"..."

"You tell me right now!"

He really couldn't bear it any longer.

Over there, Shao Yu was silent for a long time, and then said softly, "Did you finally find out?"

"..."

"Thank you, Director... I'm sorry."

Xie Siqing's eyes darkened.

He heard correctly.

Shao Yu said "Thank you, Director".

Xie Siqing's fingers were still trembling: "Tell me everything."

"Didn't you already guess the truth?"

"You have to listen to everything from your own mouth, and I want to be honest, not to be deceived by lies again and again."

"...Well." Shao Yu's voice was no longer cold and alienated, but Xie Siqing's familiar tone, "Yao, Shunyu... I know."

"Ah."

"I think you should know... Yao Shunyu committed suicide many times."

"...Yes." Xie Siqing knew this very early on.On the first day after entering Tiny Tiny Company, when she discovered that Yao Shunyu was actually the director of that kind of film, Little Putao once said to herself, "Director Yao, have you had an operation and lost some of your memory? If you don’t get to work, you drink too much and go crazy, you jump into the river and commit suicide, our boss saved you and gave you this job…”

"He..." Xie Siqing asked with difficulty, "Why did he commit suicide?"

"Hopeless career, hopeless love, hopeless relationship, hopeless everything. In his words, he never did what he wanted to do. Every day was like being tortured, but he couldn't change anything. He Pretty sure the pain will last until he dies."

After a pause, Shao Yu continued: "However, I don't know if he was lucky or unlucky, but he was saved by others every time."

"..."

"He still wants to get rid of it." Shao Yu hesitated for a long time when he said this, "Then...it was your illness."

"……"really.I fooled the former family doctor just now, so Xie Siqing already knew a lot about the situation.

"At that time, you had less than three months left in your life. I would never let you die like that. Yao Shunyu told me...he gave you his body."

"……what?"

"He said... as long as he thinks that I love him, even if it's just a shell of him that doesn't contain him at all, he thinks it's the happiest thing he can think of. And... the only thing he cares about is his Family, parents and sister, if someone can replace him, he will feel less guilty. ——He said this is his last wish, and it is the best ending he can think of. "

"You just agree?!" Xie Siqing couldn't calm down at all, "Why didn't you persuade him?!"

"Before you got sick, I kept trying to persuade him, but it was useless. He still didn't want to live. Even if you had nothing to do, he would die."

"Then watch him."

"...I'm not sure." Shao Yu is also a somewhat pessimistic person, "He has never done what he wanted to do, he has never made any choices, and every step seems to be forced. So, even if he Doesn’t he have the right to choose life and death? Isn’t this his most basic right as a person? It is not for others to comment on whether a person chooses life or death, because others cannot understand that feeling. I don’t know...I am qualified How about choosing for him and forcing him? Just like a certain religion, it is more humane to prohibit people from committing suicide? Why must he die naturally instead of just getting rid of it and starting all over again?"

"No..." Xie Siqing repeated, "No..."

"He doesn't have depression." Shao Yu continued, "He is sober and knows what it means to choose death - to bid farewell to all familiar people and relationships, as well as old experiences, while refusing to encounter future people and relationships, as well as new ones. Go through, in other words, give up all hope."

"No..." Xie Siqing murmured, "No..."

"Maybe." Shao Yu laughed, "Maybe in order to save you, I don't want him to change his mind. Those words just now were all just to excuse my selfishness."

"...And then?" Xie Siqing asked.

"Then... actually he knew Dr. Feng. The friend of Yao Shunyu's father was Dr. Feng's classmate. He once introduced him to see a doctor for Yao Shunyu. When Yao Shunyu's father gave a treat and thanked him, the two classmates were very drunk while talking about old times. Inadvertently said he thought he could..."

"...a brain transplant?" Xie Siqing found it difficult to breathe.

"That's not true." Shao Yu denied the answer, "Brain transplantation is too complicated, and the nerves are extremely complicated. He doesn't think anyone can do it within ten years."

"That is……?"

"It can be regarded as memory transplantation... I don't really understand the details." Shao Yu explained, "Simply speaking, he deciphered the way and method of transferring short-term memory from the hippocampus to other parts of the cerebral cortex to become long-term memory. And how these long-term memories are retrieved and reset when they are used. The information in the brain is transmitted through electric current, so he stimulates the parts that store long-term memories, so that the information is retrieved and received through artificial neuron synapses. Then, he imitated the process of transferring short-term memory to form long-term memory, and transmitted information to the cerebral cortex where long-term memory is stored during deep sleep. This process seems to be related to the hypothalamus? I don’t know very well. Dr. Feng He is a lunatic. In order to crack the secrets of the human brain, he conducted many memory-related experiments during the craniotomy on the patient. Later... he wanted to experiment with the memory transplant he imagined. You and Yao, Shunyu, it was him The person I have been longing for all this time... After listening to his introduction, I said yes, I will do this, as long as you have a chance to live."

"...Then," Xie Siqing asked, "why did he commit suicide?"

"I think... after you, in the past three years, he has operated on other people, and he has become more and more afraid of this technology."

"..."

"Do you remember? We used to discuss what determines a person is himself? The heart? Or the brain? At that time you thought it was memory. Now the human body seems to be able to change everything, blood, organs... you say, even if the body is changed, As long as the memory is still there, you are still you... Even if in the future human beings can be decomposed at any time like in science fiction movies and form a new body in another place through artificial cells, as long as the memory is not damaged, you will not be another person. "

"But, but..." After thinking for a while, Xie Siqing finally knew what was wrong, "If I only have three months to live, why do I have no memory at all?"

"That memory has not been implanted." Shao Yu's voice was still very gentle, "Just wake up that memory in your light sleep, observe the reaction in your brain, and then remove that part. Even if you don't have light sleep Sleeping but waking up to receive stimuli, these are also short-term memories and will not be transplanted together."

Xie Siqing knew very well that his body was quite miserable when it was found. The head and heart were damaged. It turned out that everything was due to this reason, so no abnormalities were found during the autopsy.

"Sure enough..." Xie Siqing seemed to have exhausted all his strength, "You killed me."

"It was I who beat you unconscious and sent you out through the back door. Yao Shunyu waited there and brought him to Dr. Feng... I didn't expect other people to come, but I made an appointment so I did it... After the operation was completed, the corpse It's all done by me."

"Is Chi Wenyue involved?"

"No." Shao Yu replied, "He didn't know about it at the time."

"..."

"You were diagnosed with the disease, and he was the first person to tell."

"Because he is the boss of the company and needs to plan for the future."

"Yeah." Shao Yu didn't seem to care, "I'm just explaining for him. You said you wouldn't let me know, but I saw it myself... and Chi Wenyue still thought I didn't know, so in that homosexual meeting After what happened, he took advantage of it and made me misunderstand that you were on the side with him. I hope that my feelings for you can be weakened in the past few months."

"..."

"So you didn't misunderstand the person in your previous life."

"...You," Xie Siqing didn't know how to react: "You really dare to do it."

Shao Yu smiled: "Director Xie...as long as you can live and continue your dream, I can do anything."

"So," Xie Siqing asked in disbelief, "you... have known that I am Xie Siqing from the first day of commercial shooting...?"

"Of course..." Shao Yu smiled again, "Because I did everything."

"Then, why...why didn't you show it at all?!"

"Have you forgotten?"

"...?"

"I'm the actor brought out by you alone."

"..."

"It seems to be exaggerating to say it like this... Most of the time, it's just to stay away... I'm afraid that I will inadvertently show eyes that shouldn't be there."

"..." This is why he is indifferent to himself...?

Shao Yu has been hiding it, let Yao Shunyu destroy the group photo, and lied to Zhong Yang... He didn't want Xie Siqing to know the truth, because for Xie Siqing, this fact was too heavy.

"Shao Yu...do you know how crazy you are? Why can you do such a thing?!"

"Well, I know." Shao Yu was silent for a while, and asked, "Are you going to call the police?"

……Call the police?

Xie Siqing said, "I don't know."

"Ah."

"Are you scared?"

"Afraid? No." Shao Yu replied, "Since you decide to kill someone, you have to be prepared to be found out as the real murderer. I don't have any luck, and I am willing to try even if it is the death penalty. If I am found out, I will bear it alone. , it will not involve Yao, Shun and Yu, or in other words, it will not involve you."

Xie Siqing murmured, "You two... there is something wrong with you two? Are you completely crazy? For someone who doesn't love me at all..."

"..."

"For people who don't love themselves at all, ethics, life, and the future are all gone?"

"..."

Xie Siqing felt that he and them were not from the same planet at all: "Could it be... Could it be that you have lived your whole life for people who don't love you at all?"

"That sounds pathetic...but it seems to be true."

Xie Siqing shook his head: "Isn't it okay to forget me and live a good life? This is like moths jumping into the flames to kill themselves...it's not worth it at all."

"You're not a moth, how do you know it's not worth it?"

"I……"

"Anyway, that's how things are..." Shao Yu's voice sounded a little far away, "If you don't call the police, I will quit the showbiz circle."

"……what?"

Last year, Shao Yu shined brilliantly - quit the circle at this time?

"Well." Shao Yu said, "This way you won't see me again - I hope you can forget all this and live a good life."

"..."

"It's for both of us."

"Did you plan to do this from the beginning?"

"Yeah." After a pause, Shao Yu said again, "I'm going to fly abroad tomorrow."

"……tomorrow?"

"Yes." Shao Yu replied, "I will not appear in front of your eyes again. In the future, if there are things that you and Zhong Yang can't do, or you don't want to do and don't want Zhong Yang to do things, you can Come to me, and I'll do it for you. For the rest, forget it."

Not knowing what was going on, Xie Siqing burst into tears all of a sudden.

He tightly covered his mouth to keep himself from whimpering.

Over there, Shao Yu laughed at himself like a self-mockery: "Sometimes... I really want to ask Zhong Yang what it's like to fall in love with you."

Xie Siqing bit her finger to keep herself from making a sound.

"Then," Shao Yu said again, "That's it. If you don't call the police, I'll leave tomorrow."

"..."

"The phone...I'm going to hang up."

"..."

Shao Yu listened to the man's breathing, but did not move for a long time.

Probably... this is the last time I heard it.

From now on, there will be no intersection.

"Is there anything else to say?" Shao Yu asked again.

"..."

"Then, this time it's really dead."

"..."

"... Thank you, Director." Shao Yu finally said suddenly, "There is a sentence... I have never said it to you."

"...?"

"Thank you... I love you."