I heard you still love her

When Xiao Ruoyan stepped off the stage, she was drenched all over. In fact, singing is a particularly exhausting task.

Gao Yu was thinking of passing the tissue over, Xiao Ruoyan was already leaning against Yan Zhilan with a smile, Yan Zhilan bowed her head, and gently wiped the sweat off her forehead with her hands.

Yan Zhilan looked at her with such gentle eyes, coaxing her like a child, but what about Director Xiao who has always been aloof?Seemingly used to her taking care of her like this, she even said weakly, "I want to drink water."

Every time she is on the stage, she can't feel it, just the feeling of having fun and burning herself.

But as soon as I got off the stage, I was exhausted.

After all, this is a bar. Xiao Ruoyan used to drag her body back home no matter how tired she was. She didn't want to show her weak side to outsiders.

But now, with a lover, everything is different.

They didn't make any intimate moves, but everyone who looked at them was envious.

Bobo lowered his head and said in a low voice: "The relationship between girls and girls is so delicate. My boyfriend doesn't even send a message all day outside. When my aunt comes, she knows to let her drink hot water."

Gao Yu looked at him and said with emotion: "Don't talk about you, my boyfriend is gentle and delicate enough, he is not like this."

……

The topic ended in the envy and blessings of everyone.

When Xiao Ruoyan and Yan Zhilan walked back, the wind blew, and the alcohol was almost gone.

Gao Yu and the others were going to send her back, but Yan Zhilan shook her head and refused, "No, you go back and pay attention to safety."

The wind is a bit cool at night.

Xiao Ruoyan held Yan Zhilan's hand and put it in his pocket, "Shall I take a taxi?"

She thought about it, and when she went back, she still wanted to buy a car.

Xiao Ruoyan likes the type of off-road jeep, but money is not allowed at the moment. She still wants to buy a house first and then consider a car.

Look now, you can buy a second-hand or cheaper transportation first.

Yan Zhilan looked at her, and when the wind blew, her eyes were as dark as jewels: "How do you usually go back?"

"You—" Xiao Ruoyan looked at her helplessly: "You don't want to take the bus with me, do you?"

Of course it is.

Yan Zhilan wanted to experience everything about Xiao Ruoyan's life in this city.

Xiao Ruoyan knew what she was thinking, and sighed softly, "I will work hard to let you live a better life."

Yan Zhilan smiled, she hugged Xiao Ruoyan, and rubbed her cheek in her arms: "Fool, I only want you."

In this case.

If it is placed in the current society, it will be ridiculed by many people who hear it.

But for Xiao Ruoyan and Yan Zhilan, it really came from the heart.

If not to protect each other.

They may all embark on different life trajectories, and their material conditions may be much better than they are now, but they will regret it for a lifetime in their hearts.

At this time, there were not many people on the bus, but after all, it was at the entrance of Bar Street, and when they got on the bus, it was almost full, and Yan Zhilan gave up the only seat to an elderly grandmother.

Yan Zhilan stood on one side. She usually goes to class very close, basically on foot. She rarely goes to other places, and since her sister had an accident, she has a strong desire to protect her. She has to arrange people to follow her wherever she goes. .Yan Zhilan hadn't been on the bus for many years. Xiao Ruoyan protected her very well, holding her in his arms with both hands, and the two of them leaned to one side, casting suspicious eyes from time to time. They were very calm.

"Are you still afraid?"

Xiaoyan asked softly, remember when they went out to play together in high school, Xiao Ruoyan would hug her like this.

Lanlan and the boss are used to their appearance, and they also feel that their fourth child should be taken care of, but people turn their heads and look strangely at them from time to time.

At that time, Xiao Ruoyan was very indifferent, with the guitar on her back, and she held Yan Zhilan in her arms with both hands. There was a faint fragrance on her body, and her unruly long hair would slide over Yan Zhilan's cheeks. Yan Zhilan liked being surrounded and cared by her like this Sometimes, she would naughtily draw words on her hand, stroke by stroke, Xiao Ruoyan felt the corners of her lips rise slightly.

——My Ah Yan.

really like you.

It's just that there were scruples about love when I was young.

It's okay if you meet a stranger, but whenever an acquaintance appears, the two will deliberately keep a distance.

They are afraid, not because they are afraid of strange eyes from the outside world, what they are afraid of is that this invisible intimacy will not be accepted by the world and will hurt each other.

Long, long ago, they regarded each other as more important than themselves.

Love, is an unfathomable word.

Some people say that young love is really like the wind, and some people say that 80.00% of first love will end in a mess.

But who knows.

They have been in love for so many years.

And the girl in Xiao Ruoyan's arms will always be Yan Zhilan.

Yan Zhilan's hand was like when she was young, gently writing on Xiao Ruoyan's palm.

The corners of Xiao Ruoyan's lips were raised as before, but unconsciously, the circles of her eyes turned red.

——A Yan, I love you, don't separate again.

Well, don't part again.

She swore it.

Get out of the car.

After all, she drank a little wine, and Xiao Ruo's alcohol and tobacco spirits came to the fore, so she insisted on carrying Yan Zhilan on her back.

She is taller than Yan Zhilan, but she is a girl after all, Yan Zhilan is afraid of crushing her, Xiao Ruoyan is flattered: "Don't worry, I have been to Gao Yu's hometown with Gao Yu before, and I can help fight half a big pig when killing pigs." Piggy."

Yan Zhilan: ...

What is this straight girl speech?

"Am I a pig?" Yan Zhilan pursed her lips and looked at Xiao Ruoyan, with spring waves in her eyes, Xiao Ruoyan was so numb from the electric shock, she couldn't help but hugged him and went to the small woods in the community.

"What are you going to do?"

Yan Zhilan looked at Xiao Ruoyan amusedly, she must be thinking of some bad idea again.

Xiao Ruoyan has always been like this, a wolf with a big tail, who looks pure and ascetic on the surface, but in fact there is a little gray wolf living in his heart.

This is her secret, only Yan Zhilan knows, only Yan Zhilan can see how sharp the wolf's teeth are.

When they were in high school, the two were gluey and loved each other more than any couple. They had the same views and hobbies, but occasionally, they would quarrel over a little difference.

At that time, Xiao Ruoyan was a little sensitive in her heart. In the school she was in, there were quite a few students who were talented in music, and all of them were from wealthy families.

When she first came to school, she was full of vigor. She believed that as long as she worked hard, she would break out into a new world and repay her parents in the future. If she started a family in the future, she would also create good conditions for her children.

At that time, the teenager was always full of enthusiasm, she disdained many rich second-generation squanderers in the campus, at a young age, there was a luxury car driver at home, a famous brand, especially when many boys changed their girlfriends like changing their clothes.

Don't bully the youth to be poor.

When she was in her sophomore year of high school, her tuition was basically paid for by performing outside, or by making up lessons for lower-level children.

Yan Zhilan knew what she was thinking, felt distressed, and knew that it was a small barrier in her heart, no one could touch it, not even her.

At that time, Xiao Ruoyan knew that Yan Zhilan's family seemed to be good, not because of anything else, Xiaoyan was also very low-key on weekdays, wearing school uniforms, and would not use any luxury like other girls.

But there is some temperament, it is a journey from childhood to adulthood, Xiaoyan basically does not know how to do housework, even simple bed sheets can not be made well, and the noodles are boiled into lumpy soup.

Xiao Ruoyan always poked her on the head with a smile: "Little stupid."

When she climbed onto the bed and made her bed up and down, when she cooked a delicious noodle for her, Yan Zhilan's eyes would glow with admiration, "Ah Yan, hello!" sharp."

Xiao Ruoyan knew that she was coaxing herself, but her heart was still warm.

When she was studying in the second year of high school and caught up with October [-]st, the school was going to be on holiday. Yan Zhilan knew that Xiao Ruoyan would stay as usual, and was running around to work. She was also tired of wanting to stay, but Xiao Ruoyan refused.

"It took me a while to rest, go back, or my sister will come looking for me again."

Yan Zhilan left reluctantly, and when she came back, because her sister had something to do, she was driven by Su Zhe.

Su Zhe was a few years older than her. At that time, the family had a faint desire to let them be together. Every time, Yan Zhilan said coldly: "I'm still young, so I don't want to think about it."

She didn't want to take Su Zhe's car at all, but she couldn't stand Yan Feng's persuasion: "How can we say that our two families are family friends? Yesterday, Uncle Su heard that your sister had something to do, so he specially asked Su Zhe to bring it to you. If you don't If you like Su Zhe, you have to give Uncle Su this face."

Uncle Su has been very kind to Xiaoyan since he was a child, and Xiaoyan respects him very much.

Yan Feng looked at Xiaoyan's refusal, lit a cigarette, and couldn't help asking: "Xiaoyan, you won't fall in love behind your father's back, right?"

My heart jumped violently.

Yan Zhilan knew that if she hesitated any longer, her father would definitely find out.

When I got into Su Zhe's car that day, Yan Zhilan sent a message to Xiao Ruoyan, saying that she would come back with a ride.

Xiao Ruoyan didn't know that she was "reporting" the information. She just got the money for a performance, and the inviter was a rich and beautiful lady, the kind of girl who would only appear on TV for Xiao Ruoyan. On the table, there was a woman in lazy pajamas with big curly hair and a cigarette in her hand. She called her Sister Song.

Sister Song was generous, treated Xiao Ruoyan very well, and never defaulted on performance money.

Xiao Ruoyan bought a lot of dishes, and sent a message to the boss and Lan Lan, planning for everyone to come back to eat hot pot in a while.

It's over.

She specially went to pick up Xiaoyan.

Su Zhe was driving a dazzling blue Lamborghini at the time. He was very high-profile and wore a famous brand. He deliberately drove the car to the gate of the campus, and many people gathered to watch.Xiao Ruoyan saw it too, and looked curiously. In the end, she saw Yan Zhilan get out of the car.

Su Zhe smiled slightly, "Xiaoyan, brother sent it to you, didn't you even say thank you?"

Xiaoyan glanced at him and said lightly, "Thank you."

Su Zhe: ...

It's really just a "thank you", no other shit.

Su Zhe kicked the accelerator resentfully and left.

As soon as Yan Zhilan raised her head, she accurately saw Xiao Ruoyan who was hiding behind the tree. She ran over and grabbed her hand: "What are you hiding?"

hide what?

Xiao Ruoyan didn't know either.

She has always been proud and full of confidence in the future.

But now, she actually has a little inferiority complex and loss.

on the way back.

Xiao Ruoyan didn't say much, Yan Zhilan explained: "That's the brother next door."

The sensitivity of girls at certain times is outrageous, Xiao Ruoyan looked at her: "Uncle likes him very much, right?"

Yan Zhilan's heart skipped a beat, she looked at Xiao Ruoyan, and held her hand tightly: "I don't like her."

They agreed that they would not deceive each other.

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, and didn't talk too much about the topic, "Let's go, go back to eat hot pot."

Hot pot of the day.

Lanlan and the boss had a great time eating. They drank several bottles of Coke. Xiao Ruoyan was absent-minded. After eating, he didn't even practice his guitar, so he lay on the bed and fell asleep.

Xiaoyan looked at her and sighed faintly.

Lanlan looked at Xiaoyan and said, "That Wang Daya from the class next door asked me for your phone number, Xiaoyan."

Xiaoyan was already unhappy, "No."

"I know." Lan Lan took a sip of Coke with a smile, "I know you won't give it."

At that time, the boss had vaguely known the relationship between the two, "Then you still mention it?"

Lan Lan: "Isn't Da Ya cute? I heard that his family is very rich, but he has always been very low-key, and he is very generous to his classmates. What is this called - being rich but not arrogant, and being friends is good. "

The boss stared at her, "You don't like him, do you? What's the matter, Lan Lan, are you infected by the smell of copper?"

Lan Lan's face was flushed, "Fart, I just think his two teeth are cute, isn't this a chat? Just talk about it, and what happened to the rich? I also saw the fourth sister driving a luxury car. , my sister is still very gentle to everyone, a smile is more beautiful than a spring breeze."

The boss really wanted to cover Lanlan's mouth in his heart.

Xiao Ruoyan on the bed didn't speak, she opened her eyes and looked at the ceiling, silent for a long time.

From that day on.

Xiao Ruoyan worked even harder to make money. Every day, others lay in bed at ten o'clock and chatted at night, and she came back with a tired body after ten o'clock.

The money she earned was considered "rich" among the students, but Xiao Ruoyan was still not satisfied.

She often took her own book and sketched on it. She drew the living room, the kitchen, the piano practice room, the study room...the inside is her and Xiaoyan's future home.

Yan Zhilan knew what was going on in her mind, so she just gave her cold water every night and waited for her to come back, told her to pay attention to her body and didn't say anything more.

□□It was Sunday night, Xiao Ruoyan's performance ended too late, Sister Song drove her back, on the way back, Sister Song looked at Xiao Ruoyan, "Xiao Ruoyan, if you need money at home, You can talk to your sister."

Xiao Ruoyan was originally a simple person, but he was less than eighteen at that time, so how could he understand the hidden meaning behind the lady's words.

She smiled wearily: "Thank you, Sister Song, you have helped me a lot."

When getting out of the car, Xiao Ruoyan struggled to carry the guitar on her back. Today was a day-long performance, and she felt that she had no strength left. Sister Song opened the car door, and touched Xiao Ruoyan's hair with her seductively painted fingers: "My sister will feel bad for you working so hard, you—"

"Ayan!"

Yan Zhilan called Xiao Ruoyan, and she ran over at a sprint speed of [-] meters. Before Sister Song could understand what was going on, someone blocked her arm.

Sister Song froze for a moment, and saw the girl in front of her clearly.

Wearing a long white dress without any makeup, but with exquisite facial features, she looks like a little beauty at first glance.

Sister Song looked at Xiaoyan in a daze, and couldn't help asking Xiao Ruoyan, "Is this your friend?"

Xiao Ruoyan nodded, she didn't like the way Sister Song looked at Xiaoyan, she moved forward to block Xiaoyan.

Xiaoyan took a deep breath, she knew who this Sister Song was at a glance, she had seen too many rich people like this in her father's circle, and she knew what she wanted.

This Sister Song wants to take her and Ah Yan together?

on the way back.

Yan Zhilan was angry, she looked at Xiao Ruoyan: "Is it because of her that you go out so late every day?"

Xiao Ruoyan didn't have much strength in the first place, but hearing Xiaoyan's words gave her a headache.

Seeing her tired look, Yan Zhilan held back her emotions: "Tell me, Ah Yan, why are you? Are you short of money? We are only so young, and if you work so hard, if your body is overdrawn, what do you want me to do?"

Walking to the shadow of the tree, listening to Yan Zhilan's words, Xiao Ruoyan erupted. She threw her onto the tree and pressed her down to give her a fiery kiss.

If she wasn't angry, she wouldn't be so strong.

Yan Zhilan was startled, being controlled by her, she lost all strength in her hands and feet.

After lingering on her lips for a while, Xiao Ruoyan took a step back. Yan Zhilan will never forget how bright her eyes were that day.

"Xiaoyan, I'm afraid, afraid that one day you will be snatched away by others, I...I have nothing, I can't give you much, but I really..."

Others have girlfriends, and she doesn't want Xiaoyan to lose even a little bit.

My sister also once said that uncle should not know about their affairs, otherwise he would be opposed.

Xiao Ruoyan thought, there is no impenetrable wall in the world, if that day really comes, it will be useless for her to say more, it is better to take actual actions to prove it.

Yan Zhilan's eyes became moist when she heard that, she put her hands on Xiao Ruoyan's neck, and said softly: "Well, it's my fault, I misunderstood us, Ah Yan."

After going back.

The two of them didn't go directly into the dormitory, but on the rooftop, Yan Zhilan huddled in Xiao Ruoyan's arms like a rabbit and complained coquettishly: "Ayan, I know you want me to live a good life, but love is mutual. Yes, not alone, do you want me to be a full-time wife at home in the future?"

She found that Ah Yan was a bit feminist.

Xiao Ruoyan remained silent, and Yan Zhilan continued: "You want our home, so we have to work hard together. If you work so hard day and night and break your body, will you let me serve you in the future?"

Xiao Ruoyan's tense body relaxed, how could she be willing to let Xiaoyan serve her, Xiaoyan felt her relaxation, and continued: "And you don't always have such a lot of pressure, you always feel that after I follow you You may not be able to live the life you already have, but do you know? Ah Yan, I often think, if it is not because of me, you can also be spoiled by others as a treasure in the palm of your hand."

The wind was blowing, and Xiao Yan's words seemed to have some kind of magical power, and Xiao Ruoyan's tears flowed down when she said it.

What a crying bag.

Xiaoyan's heart softened. She half-kneeled on the chair, put her arms around Xiao Ruoyan's neck, and pressed her lips against her ear, seductively: "I forgot to tell you, the way you pressed me against the tree just now, so hot."

……

The wind is coming.

Curl the long hair of two people.

so many years.

Xiaoyan felt how handsome Xiao Ruoyan was for a long time.

Kissing skills are not much better than when they were teenagers.

But the physical love and longing made Xiaoyan soft and powerless to resist. She climbed her neck, looked into Xiao Ruoyan's eyes, and murmured: "Ayan, Ayan..."

Xiao Ruoyan was very excited, she had a lot of bold and exciting ideas, and wanted to have a little eye contact with Xiaoyan.

They are together again.

And the support of friends and sisters.

After returning home, I will have my own home, and everything is going in a good direction.

Are she and Xiaoyan looking for the youthful time they missed in the past?

arrive home.

Xiaoyan went to take a shower first, and after she finished, she came out in her pajamas.

She rarely wears wine-red pajamas. The silky texture makes the pajamas hang down, and it feels cold to the touch. She is very thin, and she has been raised by Xiao Ruoyan for a while. She wiped her hair, dripping water from her neck She slid down crystally, "Why are you in a daze? Go take a shower, what time is it?"

Xiaoyan looked at Xiao Ruoyan suspiciously, is she still drunk?

Xiao Ruoyan hurriedly got up and went to the bathroom, blushing hard, and her heartbeat began to speed up.

Not that she thinks much.

It's just that when Xiaoyan was taking a shower, she straightened her coat and saw pink pills inside.

It's in German. Xiao Ruoyan has sung German songs before, so she knows something, and she vaguely saw something, heaven, release, sex, just a few words, she was about to burn with shame.

This, this... What is Xiaoyan doing with this?

Yes……

Compared with Xiao Ruoyan's anxious longing.

Yan Zhilan looked at the desk lamp in a daze.

Her head was in a mess, and the events of the past two days flashed through her mind.

Here, there are Ah Yan's friends, her career, her nobles, her sweat of struggle, everything about her.

And if she goes back for her, Ah Yan can be regarded as starting from scratch. Although she has introduced Mr. Qin, she knows Mr. Qin very well. Only then will he be truly recognized, Mr. Qin still depends on his strength.

Xiaoyan is not worried about Ah Yan's strength, but they are almost thirty, so should she start all over again?

Thinking dimly, Xiaoyan's heartbeat was a little chaotic, she quickly took out the pills from the drawer and ate them.

Once such a situation of entanglement and division occurs, she will feel very uncomfortable, and her body and mind will be in a mess of collapse.

In a trance, she fell into a dream.

In a dream in a cloud.

"Xiao Ruoyan" looked at her, and said lightly: "Come back, only when you come here, you will not be sad, you will not make choices, I only have you."

Yan Zhilan didn't speak.

Yan Feng also came over, and he looked at Yan Zhilan: "Dad said, you are not in good spirits, and mental illness will accompany you for the rest of your life. If you get sick in the future, do you want her to serve you? She can serve you how long?"

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her: "It's different here, it will always be you and me, Xiaoyan, didn't you say that you would give up everything for her, why did she give up so much now instead?"

……

"Xiaoyan, Xiaoyan?"

Yan Zhilan was awakened by Xiao Ruoyan's shaking, Yan Zhilan opened her eyes in a daze, and she looked at Xiao Ruoyan.

Xiao Ruoyan stared into her eyes, "Why are you crying? Why did you change your clothes?"

Is there?

Yan Zhilan raised her hand and touched the tears in the corner of her eyes. She lowered her head again, and at some point, she had already changed her clothes.

Could it be that the subconscious decided to leave?

"You're dreaming about that bastard again."

Xiao Ruoyan's voice became a little colder, she looked at Yan Zhilan: "She bullied you, why are you crying like this?"

The "bullying" she said was just a subtle way of saying it. She had seen Xiaoyan weeping on the bed, and when she thought that in her dream, that bastard might be asking for unlimited money again, Xiao Ruoyan felt jealous. spurting blood.

Yan Zhilan shook her head, she looked at Xiao Ruoyan blankly: "Ayan, will you regret giving up so much for me?"

Such a plausible statement.

Xiao Ruoyan suddenly understood, she took a deep breath, stared at Yan Zhilan: "She asked you to leave me? Solicit us?"

Xiaoyan didn't speak, but bit her lip weakly.

This is her heart disease.

It is the heart knot left after being suppressed and hurt by his father time and time again in those years.

She thought she was very powerful, but she was far less powerful than imagined.

Xiao Ruoyan was both angry and hurt, "Are you leaving with your clothes on?"

Yan Zhilan is a little dazed, isn't she?Is she ready to leave?

Xiao Ruoyan was furious, "That bastard is too shameless." She took a step forward and grabbed Xiaoyan's wrist: "Are you really going?"

Want to go?

Xiaoyan will not leave Xiao Ruoyan, but after coming back with her, the uneasiness caused her to become dazed.

She was wondering if it was a mistake to let Ah Yan go back.

Xiao Ruoyan was almost out of breath, but reason calmed her down, her mind was full of Dr. Xu's words when she left.

——Ruoyan, it's a very critical moment when I go to your city, where you have everything that is unique to you, and Xiaoyan will worry about gain and loss even more. If she doesn't say anything, it doesn't mean that she won't be anxious in her heart. Take good care of her.

Calm down, calm down.

Xiao Ruoyan thought for a while, she could only use unconventional means during the unconventional period, there was a second time for the first time, she had to cut off this demon for Xiaoyan.

She reached out to pull Yan Zhilan's clothes: "You can leave if you want. Before you leave, you leave all my things."

Xiaoyan looked at her silently.

Xiao Ruoyan peeled it off on her own, "The shirt is mine, the vest inside is mine, and the pants are mine too..."

One by one.

In the end, there was nothing left for Xiaoyan.

And the cool wind blew over, Xiaoyan shivered from the cold, and woke up a little bit.

Xiao Ruoyan looked at her like this, knowing that she couldn't leave, she turned around and lay on the bed angrily, pulled her hands, and untied her pajamas, "You go."

Half of Ruyu's shoulders were exposed, Yan Zhilan swallowed, Xiao Ruoyan's long hair was scattered on the bed, she was glowing white just after taking a shower, "If you want to leave, hurry up, don't wait until I get sick later. "

Xiaoyan was a little stunned, she grabbed the sheet on the bed and wrapped herself up, "What's wrong with you?"

How could she be sick?

A cold hand covered Xiao Ruoyan's forehead, and Xiao Ruoyan grabbed it away.

She was almost pissed off.

Qi Xiaoyan.

The self in the dream.

Xiao Ruoyan didn't look at her coldly, "I ate the powder in your bag, and I also want to go to that illusion to see her, and ask her why she is so shameless and bullies me every day."

Xiaoyan looked at her, her eyes were red, "Ayan..."

Xiao Ruoyan shook off her arm, and the loose satin pajamas hung down her shoulders, revealing her jade-like skin, her voice was cold but pitiful: "You go, let me die by myself. "

The author has something to say: Maybe it’s too calm, everyone doesn’t love me anymore, Ye Zi acted like a baby yesterday, and asked everyone if you want a second watch, I can’t feel the love you had for me at the beginning, covered my face, and ran out of tune all the way, Tears spilled all over the place.

ps: I will correct the typo later, so I will put it up first.