Dr. Rin

I am a very forgetful person. The characteristic of forgetfulness is that I will forget what happened before. I don’t remember where I came from, what my life experience was like, and how many people around me. friend...

I know I'm a weird person, so I try not to tell people about these things, because at that time I also realized what life was like for me.

As long as I work hard to earn money, I will have food, water, and a place to rest. It seems that as long as I do this, the goal of life is already framed here, and I can be like a blindfolded cat. Like an animal that is whipped forward by "life" with a leather whip, although it is hard work and hopeless, it can be regarded as a relatively good form of life.

At this point, I feel like I am easily content.

Until I met a person in my life that I shouldn't have met.

It was a man, a man with good looks and unique temperament.

I'm sorry, I really don't know what words to use to describe him more appropriately, he feels like light to me, a beam of beautiful, warm and attractive light, neither strong nor dazzling, but it can Let me know personally that the temperature on his body is a warmth that I can never touch in my life.

I really like him too much. I like his natural way of speaking, his decent manners, and his appearance full of poetry and books.

I later asked my friends what to do if you like someone.They told me that if you like him, you must first become a person like him, because only when you truly become the same kind of person can he treat you with an equal attitude, not pity and love, but true equality with each other.

I think this point of view is very reasonable, so I started to try my best to raise money, in order to be able to enter the school he is studying and become classmates with him. I think if I become classmates with him, then everything after that will go with the flow Naturally, I can happen to pass by the classroom where he is teaching, sit right behind him, and imagine where his eyes are looking through the direction of his body movement, so that I can look at the professor and the blackboard from the same perspective as him , looking at everything in this world.

I think the world in his eyes must be completely different from mine, otherwise how could he be so enviable.

But what I didn't expect was that such a person was willing to know me.

From asking my name to asking if I am a student to asking my preferences, all of this is like a dream to me, pleasantly surprised and with a strong sense of unreality.

And what surprised me was not only this, but the surprise that life gave me was actually getting together with him.

I didn't save enough money to go to school because the cost of college was very high for me, but I had him, a guy who was willing to pay most of my tuition.

So frankly speaking, I was able to become a person who can stand shoulder to shoulder with him, and fundamentally, it was all because he was willing to let me become such a person.

Sometimes I wonder what is the cause and effect that people often talk about, whether doing good deeds will definitely get good rewards, and doing evil deeds will definitely get due retribution, even if these good and bad karma will not be at that time. It shows, but even if it is reincarnation, some things cannot escape.

If it is based on this calculation, I think I should have done a lot of good deeds in my previous life. How soon can I meet such a person, a person who is willing to redeem me from the darkness.

I am very happy every day with him. The reason for my happiness is that he treats me sincerely, and I have nothing to repay. The only thing I have is a sincere heart that no one has ever cared about before. I remember asking him once, "Why are you willing to help me like this? Is it because you pity my situation or is it because of something else?"

He said: "I am cold-blooded and cold-blooded. Even if I pity anyone, I am afraid that I will not be able to do something to redeem myself."

I asked him again: "Then why are you willing to be so kind to me? Not only are you willing to lend me money/let me study, but also let me gain happiness that I never had in the past 20 years by your side."

This time I remember very clearly, he really did smile, his smile was as bright as the sun at noon, so dazzling, he said: "Maybe it's because I like you."

Just one sentence is enough to keep him in my heart for the rest of my life.

Later, I followed him back to the country where he lived, tried to become friends with his friends, and learned to use my own skills to make money. Of course, the most direct performance is that I can speak his mother tongue, not only He can speak simple daily communication terms, as well as some special vocabulary and sentences. I know that he likes me who is motivated like this.

after that……

Oh, by the way, we went through some things together later, he used to protect me, and I have always used my own methods to protect him, the most interesting thing is that we still try to hide each other, for fear that the other party will be wrong because we don’t know. Frowning at the appropriate means.

What about later?

Later, we seemed to go to a place for vacation together, where I like the deep sea and cliffs.

It's a pity that before he could see the cliff, he got into an argument with me.

I don't know why he would talk to me about the transaction. Without opening my mouth, my whole body seemed to be imprisoned, unable to move, I could only watch helplessly as someone used my body to say to him: "You always think that I am an unforgivable sin, but in fact the real unforgivable sin The person is you, it is your love for him that makes him have multiple personalities, it is you who awaken the unstable factors in his blood, you want to heal him with every word, and want him to have a healthy mind like a normal person, but you are not at all. If you don’t want to help him get rid of the real root cause, what kind of treatment do you call this?”

He obviously couldn't understand this man's speech as much as I did, because I saw him lost in thought, just as I was struggling to talk to him, telling him not to pay attention to this monster that suddenly took over my body and senses As if, he said: "Do you have a way to redeem him?"

I was startled, and just as I was about to struggle desperately to talk to him again, I heard the monster manipulating my body again and said: "Of course, you have actually considered this plan before, but you are reluctant to part with all the good things in this world. You can’t do something so cruel to yourself.”

This time I was even more at a loss. Could it be that he, who likes me so much, has kept many things from me behind his back?I didn't dare to struggle at first, because I was afraid that if I really struggled to face him, I wouldn't know what to say. What's more, I wanted to hear his answer in my heart, and see what he had. Other thoughts.

"He has multiple personalities, the main personality, the second personality and the third personality. I used to think that his main personality is the one I often see. He is a bit domineering and difficult to approach but very assertive. I always thought he was His second personality is that soft and easily frightened boy, but it was not until later that he discovered that these were never his main personality. His main personality has always been you, a person who hides in the dark and manipulates these two personalities You who played with me."

The monster in my body seemed to be very satisfied with this answer, because I obviously felt the joy in his heart, and the beating of the heart was a little faster, and he responded happily: "You are really smart, but it's a pity What you said is wrong. I never thought of manipulating these two personalities to play with you. The appearance of these two personalities was an accident that I could not have predicted. Their appearance actually came from the hope of life .”

The monster paused for a while, as if trying to calm himself down, and continued after a while: "Because of the desire for real life, because it is the pursuit of liking, these two personalities can be separated from my spiritual world. , whether it is the possessive one or the clingy one, they all exist based on your existence, which is why you will never be able to make him have a normal personality."

The monster laughed again: "The root of evil originated from you, but you are lucky, because I am willing to negotiate a deal with you today, and you have the right to make a choice, whether to fulfill me or fulfill you Own."

I struggled desperately again, and I wanted to tell him not to listen to the words of this monster, because he wanted to occupy this body with malicious intentions, and he didn't want me and the other personality he said to have another Appearing in this world, such vicious thoughts and intentions can be seen at a glance.

But I don't know why, he doesn't seem to see it at all.

Or, even though he saw it, he was willing to listen to his words and make absurd and ridiculous choices.

I have no way to stop it, because I have exhausted all my strength and have not been able to snatch the initiative to control this body from that monster, so I just watched him look up at the sky, which is not a good thing The weather is cloudy and heavy rain is coming.

I remember very clearly that he didn't like this kind of weather at all, he liked sunny days and white clouds, because every day when the sky was blue and white clouds, he liked to take me outside to play, to have picnics, to go on outings and to go outing.

But seeing such bad weather today, he didn't seem to be as unhappy as before. Instead, he curled his lips and smiled, looking satisfied.

I was a little puzzled, and I couldn't help opening my mouth again to ask him why he could still laugh in such bad weather, but when I opened my mouth, I realized that I hadn't taken back my initiative over this body, Being squeezed in a corner by the Lord's soul, I could only watch him jump into the sea. With the sound of "plop" and the splash of water on the boat, I really realized that maybe my lifespan is here. It's over, after all, I don't have the ability to survive in this body anymore, because all my reliance is in today's present moment, and it has been wiped out.

But the moment I really disappeared, I heard a voice, and that person asked me: "Do you still remember who you are?"

I fell silent, because it seemed that I hadn't thought about who I was for so long.

This question is really too difficult, I think I need some help to figure out this relationship, so I started to think about it again, when the monster was talking to him I like, what name did he use to call him?

It seems to start with Shen and end with Li.

Yes, Shen Li.

The person I like is called Shen Li.

Then, my corresponding name should be Jiang Lin.

A person with multiple personalities, named Jiang Lin.

The person with multiple personalities from the beginning to the end is called Jiang Lin, and Shen Li is the psychologist with mental health, the so-called proud son of heaven, and the person who saved me from the sea of ​​suffering.