half life with you

"Du Ruo, he won't come back. Don't wait any longer. Save some money to redeem yourself. How can he think of you after returning to Beijing? Your appearance is not particularly outstanding. Even if you are a nobleman , That's also... hey." Zhengyue always came to persuade me, what he said was reality and common sense.

I shook my head at him: "I see."

Zhengyue looked at me with a complicated expression, and there seemed to be a trace of sympathy in her eyes. After a long while, she knew that she couldn't persuade me, so she left.

In the past year, I have not received any news from him. I just received a letter from him a year ago. The letter is not too long, only one page. Compatible with me, the number one scholar."

I read and re-read this letter, and it was indeed his handwriting. My heart gradually cooled down. The crackling of the oil lamp on the table made me a little irritable, and I felt more comfortable after cutting the wick.

Reason told me that I really should save some money to redeem myself. After all, I am 24 years old, I am no longer young, and I don’t have the appearance of a country, let alone sell myself.If you are more serious now, you may be free until you are 30 years old.

I could memorize that letter from beginning to end. After thinking about it over and over again, I didn't think that was the meaning.It is a fact that Yin Xi did not have a high school. He was not included in the Jinshi list for the past two years, but no one knew what happened to him in the capital.

Perhaps it was because the capital was too prosperous that it caught the eyes of the young man with a weak crown.

I have raised him for four years, how can I not believe him?Doubt him?Even his temper, I can feel clearly.

After all, I was still bored, I tossed and turned on the bed with my clothes off and couldn’t fall asleep, just playing with the piece of jade he left for me.

"What is a gold list title?" I still remember asking him that day.

At that time, he had just grown up, but he was a full head taller than me. There were tiny stars in his eyes. When he was not smiling, he looked mature and stable. When he was smiling, he looked like a puppy I had raised in my memory.

"It's a day to see all the flowers in Chang'an." Yin Xi told me.

Yin Xi is not something in the pool, he will return to his own world one day, I think.

It wasn't until the second day that I realized that Yin Xi would never come back. How did I feel at that time?It was as if my broken heart was suddenly broken by someone, and I didn't have time to pick it up. Just for a moment, I felt that I was going to follow him.

The man dressed as a rich businessman said: "The master is gone, and these are all left to you by him."

"What does it mean you're gone?" I flipped through the package I brought, a stack of letters, a stack of bank notes, and a hairpin.

"It is the bliss of rebirth. He is not an ordinary person, and he has responsibilities and obligations that he should bear."

"Isn't there bloodshed and sacrifices along the way? But how old is he? Is it appropriate for him to take on such an obligation? He is not as good as a weak crown." I grabbed his collar and questioned him, my eyes were sore, But I can't cry no matter what, I don't believe that he will never come back again, even if he lives in a certain corner, even if he loses me, as long as he is still alive, that is good.

"Sorry." He just said something.

"Sorry, I got a little excited just now, who is he, can you tell me what happened in the past two years? Am I qualified to know?" I felt rude, let go of him and bowed again, which was an apology and another Made him a cup of tea.

The two of them sat on the stool before they began to talk about this matter.

"The master's surname is not actually Yin, but his surname is Ye."

With just one sentence, I knew Yin Xi's identity, and Ye was the country's surname.No wonder when I met him, even though he was down and out, he was covered with silk and satin, no wonder the jade pendant on his body would not be so good-looking like an ordinary son of a wealthy gentry.

"Originally, the master sent you a letter a year ago to make you lose your heart and forget about him. At that time, he encountered a little accident and broke a pair of legs. He thought, you can be happy. "

"The master has the world in his heart. He is a noble man, and he has responsibilities on his shoulders. Although he has lost his memory for more than ten years, and he is in power. He first became a prince and spent more than half a year building his own. He took the opportunity to overthrow the powerful officials and the puppet emperor. He was too anxious. It would take more than ten years or even decades for the court to rectify the situation. It required the efforts of a whole generation. There will be no checks and balances between ministers, and he has only been an emperor for a hundred days. There is a saying that the grass will not be eradicated, and the spring breeze will regenerate. The master said that he does not want to take his time, but he is in a hurry, and someone is waiting for him. He He said that the world is not the world of the Ye family, but the world of the people of the world. He is not greedy for the rich and powerful, but just wants to give the common people a peaceful life. At least he can give the common people peace. Letter. Before he left, he asked me to bring this package to you. As for what happened after that, it was a secret matter of the palace. In fact, you can guess what happened. He gave this Ye family to others, and only let The man promised to give him a Heqing Haiyan," he said.

When he said these things, I felt that my whole body was cold. Literati are always like this. They have the world in mind and want to show their ambitions. The so-called establishing a heart for the world, establishing a life for the people, inheriting the knowledge of the past, and serving the world. Open Taiping.

I can't understand, I just think they are so great, but I don't want this great person to be Yin Xi, he could have been prosperous all his life, even if he doesn't want me.

There are some mistakes and omissions in the words of the rich businessman. Whenever I hold a glimmer of hope, I always feel that he is still alive. If time can be turned back, I should never let him go back to Beijing.

"Is he still alive, sir, please tell me the truth, please." As long as there is a glimmer of hope, even if I only ask for the truth.Yin Xi is so good, his gentleness, his words, and his cruelty, how can they be obtained and then suddenly lost.He is so powerful, how could he leave casually.If you like it enough, you will become a ghost, and you have to come back, come back to me.