pour my life

The apartment has not been lived in for a long time. Fortunately, the hourly workers often come to clean it, and it is not very messy.On the way back, Liang Xusheng bought some daily necessities and some fruits and vegetables in the supermarket.

Returning to this place again, Liang Xusheng felt as if he had passed away.

Or this apartment, or this person next to me.But many things have changed.

He called home and said he couldn't go home for dinner.His mother thought he was working overtime, so she didn't ask any more questions, and only told him to rest.

He hung up the phone and went to the kitchen to prepare dinner.

Chu Qingzhi had already washed the dishes and was about to chop them when Liang Xusheng pushed him out: "You can play for yourself first. I'll just do it."

When the two of them were together before, Liang Xusheng never asked him to do these jobs, not because he thought he couldn't do them, but because he couldn't bear to let him get smoked.

Chu Qingzhi didn't want to go out, so he had to help him.Liang Xusheng didn't say anything else, and let him go.

Two people cooked two dishes and one soup, and had a simple meal.

After clearing away the dishes and chopsticks, it was past nine o'clock. Liang Xusheng looked at his watch and asked him, "Where do you live now? It's getting late, I'll take you back."

Chu Qingzhi's face suddenly changed: "You want to drive me away?"

Liang Xusheng made up his mind and said: "I invite you to come to my house, just in the name of a friend. If you haven't found a place to live, you can stay here first, and I will sleep on the sofa."

Chu Qingzhi bit her lip, and picked up her coat from the sofa without saying a word.As soon as he reached the door, Liang Xusheng stopped him suddenly: "Forget it, don't go. It's getting late, you should stay here."

Chu Qingzhi slowly opened his hand: "You don't have to force it. I know I did too much, and I hope you can forgive me and treat me the same as before."

But he said that, Liang Xusheng felt uncomfortable at all.

He closed his eyes and leaned against the wall of the entrance in some pain, and it took a long time before he said: "I haven't had a good day in the past two years. I've been wondering if I didn't do something well, why did you leave without saying anything?" Yes. I even want to go to the United States to find you, tie you back, lock you up at home, and let you never leave me again."

Chu Qingzhi's eye circles were a little red, he wanted to hug that person in the past, but he was afraid that he would be pushed away.

He choked up and said: "I thought I had lost the ability to like people a long time ago, maybe I didn't like you as much as I imagined, but when I went to the United States, I slowly realized that that kind of life is not what I want at all. .I miss you, I miss you every day... Axu, is there still time for me to come back?"

Liang Xusheng looked at him silently, there was already some water on his face.He asked in a hoarse voice: "You made the decision to leave, why did you come back now? It's not fair to me at all!"

He suddenly grabbed Chu Qingzhi's shoulder, and shook it fiercely a few times: "Sometimes I really hate you, I wish I had never known you! I also hate myself, why should I fall in love with you so heartlessly?" People! I wandered for more than [-] years, and finally fell into your hands, it must be retribution!"

Chu Qingzhi shed tears, but did not resist.

Liang Xusheng went crazy for a while, and finally calmed down slowly, and said, "Chu Qingzhi, you are the only one who is afraid of getting hurt. Am I not afraid?"

Chu Qingzhi suddenly hugged him from behind: "Ah Xu, I was wrong. I will never leave again, please forgive me."

Liang Xusheng closed his eyes and covered his face with his hands, tears streaming down his fingers.

Chu Qingzhi held him stubbornly, crying and saying hoarsely: "I know you hate me for lying to you, and hate me for leaving without saying hello. But I also just want to make myself better! You treat me well , your family is nice to me, but I'm a man! I can't do anything for you! I can't marry you, let alone have a baby for you... I have nothing! If I don't become better , and without the maintenance of marriage, you will get tired of me sooner or later! What should I do then..."

Liang Xusheng felt uncomfortable listening to him cry.

He never thought that Chu Qingzhi would think this way in his heart. He thought he had done well enough, but he still ignored the other party's psychological feelings.

Chu Qingzhi was tired from crying, but the hand holding him did not relax at all. "Axu, don't ignore me..."

Liang Xusheng turned around slowly, raised his chin, and wiped away the tears on his face: "Fool, don't cry."

Chu Qingzhi's eyes were red, and his hands were still on his waist.Liang Xusheng took that hand, held it in his palm, and squeezed it like before.

"Since you're back, don't even think about leaving for the rest of your life. There's no chance to go back on your word. Unless I'm dead, don't even think about leaving me."

Chu Qingzhi was stunned for a moment before realizing what the other party had said.He slowly rested his head on the man's shoulder, letting out a sobbing sigh.

Liang Xusheng pushed him: "Don't cry. Go take a shower and sleep, I have to go to work tomorrow."

Facts have proved that although Liang Xusheng was entangled in his heart, his body was not entangled at all.The two of them were lying on the bed after taking a shower, surrounded by the faint cold fragrance of that person, making Liang Xusheng a little groggy and unable to fall asleep.

Chu Qingzhi fell asleep quickly, but it didn't take long before she slowly rubbed into his arms following the heat, buried her face in his chest, and her warm breath hit the skin, causing waves of numbness.

Liang Xusheng scolded himself for being worthless, and gently lifted the person up, but the other person raised his eyelids as soon as he moved: "Well, Liang Xusheng, what are you doing..."

Liang Xusheng patted him on the shoulder: "It's nothing, go to sleep."

Chu Qing subconsciously kissed him on the chin, and then fell asleep again.

Liang Xusheng looked down at his haggard and thin face, feeling pain and astringency in his heart.

He didn't know whether he was right or wrong, but it was a fact that he couldn't let go of the other party, and he couldn't deceive himself that he had walked out of that memory.

But he also felt unwilling, why Chu Qingzhi left as soon as he said, and could come back if he wanted to.

After thinking about it, he couldn't calm down for a long time.After struggling until midnight, he still couldn't fall asleep, so he planned to go to the balcony to smoke a cigarette.As a result, as soon as he turned over, Chu Qingzhi unconsciously leaned over, gropingly pulled back the quilt that he had just lifted, and tucked the corners of the quilt for him.

The skin of the two people was close to each other, and there was a thin layer of cloth under the hands, which was the smooth figure of that person, but Liang Xusheng couldn't think of any charming thoughts, instead, he felt a sense of steadfastness and satisfaction that he had never had in the past two years .

He hugged that person tightly, afraid that this was just a person in his past fantasy dream, and he was still alone when he woke up.

The author has something to say:

Ah Xu finally waited until his wife came back,,?^?,,