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"Take one step at a time, Fang Min, don't expect me to promise you anything." Shi Min put down his chopsticks and motioned for me to raise my head.When I looked at him, he said in a very serious tone, "Don't make any promises to me. I can't bear it."

I shook my head and insisted that it was not a verbal agreement.

Shi Min smiled softly, whether it was disdain or disbelief.

After the meal, I helped him clean up the dishes, and Shi Min sat back at his table to continue translating.

If I remember correctly, we are rarely like this, back to back, each doing our own things in a small space, but it is very warm, firewood, rice, oil, salt, sauce, vinegar and tea.

I suddenly had less fear of poverty and mediocrity.

I thought, if Shi Min likes this kind of life, then it's not impossible for me to live with him like this.

Thinking of this, I looked back at Shi Min.He read the manuscript very carefully, and the thick dictionary next to him blocked half of his face.

Shi Min seemed to feel my gaze, raised his head, and met me.

"It's true that we have changed places now, right?" He suddenly smiled, "I was standing and saw a pile of dictionaries and papers in front of you, now you are looking at me."

I didn't expect him to speak to me in such a tone.He seldom smiled so easily recently, as if those heart-wrenching things had never happened, and in front of me was still the healthy and carefree Teacher Shi.

"Well, I see the way you smile." I grinned unconsciously as I thought about it, "It looks good."

Shi Min didn't seem to expect that I would suddenly praise him like this, so he immediately closed his mouth and buried his head very low.

After washing the dishes, about half an hour passed.I thought I had no reason to stay at his house, so I dawdled to say goodbye to him.

What I thought was, keep me.

Ke Shi Min leaned on the table with his head tilted, and only said that it was dark and pay attention to the threshold.

"Then... can I still come tomorrow?" I said cautiously.

Shi Min didn't speak, but turned his head further away, I couldn't see his expression at all.

Instinctively, I felt that his condition was not right, so I approached the desk and asked, "Shi Min, are you okay?"

He didn't speak, so I boldly helped him by the shoulders and tried to pull him up.

Shi Min groaned in pain, his body shrank, even except for a thin layer of sweat.

I was at a loss immediately, and asked him what's wrong, if he had committed the old problem again.

"It's okay. Stomach pain after meals is common. Don't be so nervous." His voice was a little hoarse. "It's usually the same, but I may have eaten a little today. It will be fine in a while."

After speaking, he seemed to curl up together, so I hurriedly helped him to the bathroom.

He wouldn't let me in and locked the door.But I could hear the sound of his vomiting, and I could even hear it very clearly, and he cried out in pain in his heart.

I was so anxious that I hurried to pour water and find medicine for him, but this could not relieve the heartache at all.

On the contrary, it was Shi Min who opened the door with a white face, comforted me, and said, "I'll just get used to it."

I've never felt the word habit so cruel.

"I'll help you press the acupuncture points."

I tried my best to calm myself down, recalled the actions I had learned that could help him relieve pain, and told him to sit down first.

When Shi Min was hospitalized before, I took a few lessons from nurses, thinking that it would come in handy after I took him out to live.

Shi Min's expression was not as painful as before, he leaned there halfway and closed his eyes.

I helped him fill the hot water bottle, poured out the pills, put them in the bottle cap, and started to press for him.

"Why do you know this." His voice was very weak, "I've learned quite a lot...I don't even know so much."

I don't speak, I am afraid that my voice will tremble when I speak, and I am afraid that my answer will remind him of those unhappy things.

Shi Min then asked: "You actually know what medicines I need to take and where they are...Who told you?"

I didn't want to listen to him, and wanted him to swallow the medicine obediently, so I said forcefully, "Shi Min, open your mouth first."

He opened his mouth obediently and asked me to put the medicine into my mouth one by one, and then obediently swallowed it with hot water.

"So what you said in your letter is true." Shi Min smiled lightly, and he didn't know whether it was intentional or not, he tapped mine lightly with his hand.

"You really want to...have a good time with me, don't you?"

"Hmm..." I still couldn't help making a little noise, like crying, it doesn't matter.

Although he kept emphasizing that stomach pain after meals is a normal reaction, I still wanted to hear what the doctor had to say.

I carried him into a taxi, the hospital is far away from home, but the only consolation is that there will be no traffic jam.I've been begging all the way, hurry up, hurry up, let Shi Min feel less pain for a while, okay?

"Then I...should I also apologize?" Shi Min said suddenly.

His eyes were closed, and he leaned against the cushion of the car, but his expression was still not relaxed.

"I used to do something in an intimate relationship, called cold violence, right." He continued what he said just now, "And the text messages I sent to my parents-I wanted to reassure them, but I didn't expect it to happen. hurt you."

"No...no!" I told him to stop talking, close his eyes and take a good rest.

He shook his head and said, "You let me talk, I need to divert my attention."

I had no choice but to shut up, put one hand on his stomach to warm it up, and press his Hukou acupuncture point with the other.

"But you can also take the initiative to come to me. Although I am a bit awkward, my temper is not bad. As long as you talk to me well, as long as you know how to change, I won't treat you like that again."

Shi Min's collapsed appearance was actually very obedient, he was leaning on my shoulder without the strength.

"But it's useless to say anything now. You said, how could we diverge so coincidentally? It's a pity..."

"Let's talk about it later, let's have a good talk when you don't feel hurt, okay?" I stroked his hair, trying to comfort him, "Shut up for a while, let's go to the hospital."

Shi Min didn't dodge, probably because he didn't have the strength to dodge, so he leaned obediently all the way to the hospital.When I carried him out of the car, his hands were even around my neck.

It took a long time to finish the miscellaneous examinations. Shi Min was in the general ward, drinking water.

As Shi Min said, this time it was a normal pain after a meal, but it was more severe than usual, because I was too nervous.

But I was still worried, the first time I saw him curl up in front of me, I couldn't keep my cool.I asked the doctor if I could have another physical examination. I wanted to know how Shi Min was doing now.

Shi Min stopped me and said that it was only done two weeks ago. If you are worried, go back and show me the medical report.

If he didn't cooperate, I had no choice but to help him slow down the speed of water transfer, put a warm patch on the infusion tube, and put a towel on his hands.

"Pretty good." He looked at me and said.

"Go to sleep." I looked at my watch, it was early morning.Staying up late can hurt you.

Shi Min really closed his eyes, said "you go to bed early too" and put on the quilt.

I didn't dare to sleep, I needed someone to watch me carry the water, so I lay down next to the hospital bed and watched Shi Min for a long time.

If, as early as a year ago, he had stayed with him, would things have been different?

Shi Min fell asleep, his breathing became very steady, he couldn't hear my regret and heartache.

The doctor came when there was one-fifth of the hanging water left. He saw that Shi Min was sleeping, so he pulled me outside, and said softly, we should not take it lightly, and the patient should observe for a long time and remain optimistic.

Teacher Shi is neither optimistic nor pessimistic, so I need to watch him complete the first half of the sentence.

Whether he loves me or hates me, I can't go.

I want to accompany him to get better.

The worst result is to be a fairly familiar neighbor.