do not like

The first time the two of us quarreled was because of the appointment.

In fact, I always deal with clients, and I have seen all kinds of people, and I think I can handle things calmly.Especially with colleagues, the departmental relationship is very good.The fight with my roommate was purely because I remembered the way Teacher Shi complained that I didn't speak for him.

Of course, he didn't say it clearly, he just kept a cold face all night after returning home.I asked him if he was offended by my colleague's teasing, and he ignored me.

I thought that he would be very happy if I made a mistake for him this time, and would smile at the screen like before, and say, thank you Fang Min.

But he didn’t, he just advised me to be more mature—he was also angry for a long time when I “maturely” helped us drink and rescue the two of us at the dinner table before.

In his eyes, I will never grow up, how hard do I have to work hard to be worthy of him?

No matter what I do, he won't like it.

Maybe this is the seven years that we can't span.

I began to think about what Teacher Shi likes.I want to be like him.

Teacher Shi won't tell me what he likes, I can only guess——

He is such a polite person, he probably wouldn't like my rampage, would he?So I lowered my voice and acted like a baby and made trouble with him;

He doesn't wear a watch very much, so he should be reluctant to buy it, so I spent half a month's salary to buy a beautiful watch;

His students are always angry with him, and the third middle school should not treat him well, so I entrusted a circle of connections and secretly took an assistant position, and I was earning more than him now;

He seemed to really want to have a home. I saved money for nearly a year, working day and night, taking on one big project after another, desperately trying to get the highest year-end bonus, and secretly buying our new house.

The reason why I do this is not conceit, but low self-esteem.

Because I have seen Teacher Shi's smiling face towards others - a smiling face that I haven't had for a long time.

That day Zheng Jiu went to the beach to visit, and happened to take pictures of the gate of No. [-] High School.

He showed me the photo.In the photo, Mr. Shi is standing with a girl in front of the subway station. The sea breeze messes up their hair, just like the scene that often appears in idol dramas - the handsome male protagonist and the sunny female protagonist, looking at each other Laugh, with seagulls and sunset behind.

I was suddenly terrified.

Teacher Shi didn't want to hug me, but she was willing to smile at other girls.They are so close, not the distance that normal colleagues should have.So Teacher Shi is very happy to be with other people, regardless of gender.

I know that jealousy is the devil.

But people can't beat the devil.Not even Fang Min.

So on the day I sent him to his new house, I asked him if he would like to leave No. [-] Middle School.

Teacher Shi was very excited, his face was as black as a black hole - it seems that there is no such way to describe a lover, but I can't understand him like I can't penetrate a black hole.

I don't know the reason why he must stay there, and I don't have the courage to ask, is it because of that girl?

I know that he will be angry because of this question, angry at my incomprehension and distrust.

But I'm mad with jealousy.

The girl gave him something.In the past, every time Mr. Shi celebrates his birthday, I will give something. It seems that there is no one that suits him.On the contrary, in the year of graduation, I was busy looking for a job and forgot to buy gifts, and he was more active than usual at the dinner table.

I thought that he didn't like these ostentatious rituals, so I didn't mention it later, and I didn't even dare to call buying a house a gift.Now it seems that it's not that he doesn't like birthdays, it's just that he doesn't like me.

In the photo, he is holding a thick stack of letters and smiling happily.What did that girl write that made him so happy?

I remember one day, we had such a quarrel that I didn't see him for many days.

The terrible thing about the Cold War is that we all thought that the other party would contact us.But, no.

I compromised first, I called him a few times, but he didn't answer.I started to get scared, very scared, wondering if my teacher Shi was really angry with me, let alone where his heart was in a place I couldn't see.

So I bought a lot of things, a car of roses, two boxes of rings, I want to go to his school to apologize to him, I want to tell him, really, I love him, I want to marry him.

I think, he can do whatever he likes, if he doesn’t want him to resign, it doesn’t matter if he doesn’t love me, just don’t leave me, just don’t leave me...

The school is not far from my company. I waited in the car for a while, and the company called several times to urge me.I never thought these work calls were so annoying.

I don't know if it was a faint premonition or some other reason, I didn't wait outside, but ran inside the school, at the gate of his class.

Then I saw that girl talking to Teacher Shi with tears in her eyes.He smiled so warmly, patted her on the head, and wiped her face with a tissue.

To be honest, I don't think Mr. Shi will suddenly change his sexuality, even if he doesn't like me, he won't like a girl.But the way he looks at people is so gentle, I can't remember how long it's been since he looked at me like that.

I thought that when I shaved my head and got hot, I could always keep Mrs. Shi warm, but in the end, he didn't need to cover it at all, as long as it wasn't for me, it was fine.

I don't know what I'm thinking. It stands to reason that I've been in so many workplaces, why I get so excited when I meet Mr. Shi.I didn't send out the flowers or the ring, and I rarely went home early, wanting to have a good chat with him.

Teacher Shi was still indifferent, I didn't hold back for a while, and said a lot of hurtful things.I'm a real jerk, and I can never manage my bad temper when it comes to people close to me.

He kept silent, and I seemed to have punched the soft cotton with a punch.

I talked for a long time alone before he opened his mouth and told me to resign.

resignation.

I should have been laughed out of anger at the time, and then all the blood rushed to my head, like a clown, settling accounts with him, breaking up with him.

I shouldn't do this, I should calm down and tell him that not only his work is meaningful, but also that Shi Min has his own persistence.

But neither of us was calm, we were arguing, and Teacher Shi finally broke out.

The two of us quarreled many times afterwards, and many of them were just because of small things.

For example, one day I mentioned that there was less salt in the soup, and he said that if you don’t like it, you can go back to the company’s cafeteria.

I asked him, did I do something wrong by staying up late and rushing to work in order to come back for a meal?Don't you want to see me at all?

He said yes, you don't need to do these things, just stay in your company.

But if I really went to the company, the phone would vibrate crazily, and he called one after another, as if it wasn't him who drove me out.

In fact, if we all calm down and think about it, we will find that the cause of the incident is just a spoonful of salt.

I don't know what is wrong.