do not like

In fact, there is no turning point in our relationship.It's more like a basin of water that is gradually getting colder, filled with honey, until my mouth starts to freeze and hurt, and I realize that it's over, something has changed.

It's still sweet after being changed, but I can't tell what has changed.

I work more than ten hours a day, and I feel like my head is filled with messy data.

That building was like a huge glass ball, which made me breathless.

It was okay in the first month of joining the company, but as soon as the staff training was over, I was immediately assigned to the tackling project team.

What concept?A brand new product needs to be launched within half a month. During this period, with the continuous update of the internal test feedback and the continuous adjustment of the plan, it is a luxury to get off work before [-] o'clock in the morning.

But the whole group is young and energetic, and the oldest group leader is only five years older than me.Time is tight and tasks are heavy, my mobile phone often becomes a decoration, and I don’t bother to go to the company’s apartment. I lie in front of the computer and sleep for two or three hours before I have to clock in for work the next day.

After half a month, we all seemed to have peeled off a layer of skin.We stayed up late together, shortened the project completion period by three days, and reduced the cost by 20%.

Most importantly, I can go home to see Teacher Shi three days in advance.

If you can enter this building and find a large office full of small beds, you will find that the room is full of smoke, coffee, and long-term closed smells, which are not good.But it is this ordinary room, the people in it have taken collective honors and individual honors, and bonuses and overtime allowances are paid on a four-month basis.

Everyone in the company is congratulating, but none of us are happy about it.

To our ecstasy, the impossible was accomplished.As it is often said in interviews: come here to prove your personal value.

It sounds empty in the second class, but when I think that my works will appear on the mobile phones of relatives, friends and lovers after I go online, I really feel that I am needed.

On the day of the successful landing, the company held a celebration banquet for us, and all staff were required to be present.

After the end, they clamored to go to the night to sing and sing, but the stimulation brought by cigarettes, alcohol and coffee made my heart beat disorderly, and my hair was unbearably greasy. I wanted to go back to the company's small apartment to clean myself thoroughly, and then go home.

I live on the fifth floor of the apartment, and there are too many people in the elevator, so I have to wait for a long time.I thought about finishing washing up and meeting Teacher Shi, so I simply climbed the stairs.

The higher I go, the more I feel my heart beating so hard that it almost jumps out of my chest in the end.I couldn't breathe, and the pain in my chest prevented me from taking a step.I crouched down in pain and had absolutely no strength to shout for someone or call for help.

In those few seconds, although I didn't feel it, I didn't know if the thing in my chest suddenly went on strike or what, but I really thought I was going to die here, and no one cared.

After all, it was said in the biology class that a heart attack occurs very quickly, and people may be in the hospital before they react.

This is the case with me. Fortunately, Zheng Jiu also went back to the apartment. When he came out of the elevator and saw me, he hurriedly asked someone to take me to the hospital.

After waking up, I was very scared. I searched a lot about the consequences of myocardial damage caused by staying up late and overworked for a long time.

But I still didn't dare to tell Shi Min.I think he is probably in class, and I am even more afraid that if he finds out, he will think I am useless and can't do anything well.

"The young people nowadays don't take their bodies seriously." The nurse said, "When can't money be earned? One person's money is not enough for two people to work hard together. Why do you have to treat yourself? Toss like this."

I shake my head.Shi Min paid for my tuition and gave me a home, how could I bear to let him continue to be so tired.

There are always jokes about our industry circulating on the Internet, about earning a house before the age of 35, and getting a bonus to send to the hospital after the age of 35, but I think, if I can only live to the age of 35, I am willing to let my life be shortened. Teacher Shi spent the rest of his life without worrying about food and clothing.

Hearing such words, he would probably call me childish.Yes, I was really, really naive.

After I was discharged from the hospital, I was in a mess, and a lot of medicines were prescribed, which made me want to vomit.

The only thing I want is to go home and hug the person at home.

There are very few times I can go home this month and see his smiling face even less.

Afraid that he would be unhappy, I tried to make him happy, rubbing his neck like before, he pushed me away, frowned and said, I smell of alcohol, he wants to sleep on the sofa.

But he obviously didn't hate these at the beginning, and even rubbed my head in distress because I was drinking.

I went to kiss him and wanted him to hug me, but he didn't do anything.I was so tired, and the effect of the medicine made me sleepy and nauseous, but I still wanted to force myself to ask him if he hated me.

Teacher Shi usually shakes his head and tells me not to think about it every day.

This time is different.He didn't speak or shake his head, he just turned around and took the new quilt.

I really wanted to continue to ask, but I was afraid to see him practice Tai Chi as if he was hesitant to say something.

"Mr. Shi, our project has landed this time, and the response is very good. The bonus will arrive at the end of the month. What do you want, can I buy it for you?" I said, still using the tone I thought he would be happy .

"Keep it for yourself." He said lightly, changing the quilt non-stop.

I jumped in front of him, lying on the newly changed quilt, wanted him to look at me, tried to smile at him, told him stories in the project team, wanted to hear him praise me like before, and saw him give me a thumbs up and said We are great.

But he asked, what's the point of doing this?

What's the point?I suddenly didn't know how to answer.

The teacher is so great. Since thousands of years, a bunch of people have written poems and songs to praise him. It is not surprising that he asked such questions.

How small I am, a walking dead in a tall building, a screw in a capital machine.But I'm still begging for praise in front of him?

I thought it was a joke that I just danced around.

There is no meaning without meaning.

I said, you don't understand.

After speaking, half of the awkwardness in my heart disappeared, I thought, as long as he said a word to me again, I would open my eyes and apologize, and then continue to coax him.

I don't know how a person should realize value, I just know that I really want to get a hug now.

It's a pity that both of us were inexplicably angry. I pretended to be asleep, but he pretended not to know that I was pretending to be asleep, and left without looking back.

I didn't get a hug until the next day, and he didn't pay attention to me even though he deliberately made the washing sound louder.

Teacher Shi was still asleep, obviously not really asleep.I went to the bedroom, kissed him on the cheek secretly, lay down next to him, and hugged him secretly.

Still angry, he rolled over and I was pushed to the other side.