Yamaishi

Li Fangqian pinched the zero and sent a birthday greeting.

The signal in the mountains is not good, so it was 1 minute late.Li Fangqian looked at the unsightly 0:01, very frustrated.

It's all right in front of my eyes, Li Fangqian sighed for the umpteenth time.In that case, this little deviation in the sense of ritual is nothing at all.

But now the two of them can only embrace this ridiculous sense of ritual to spend the long years that they don't know how long it will last.

The call came back quickly, and through the sizzling electric sound, Li Fangqian heard the happy birthday song over there, and the voice sounded like Lin Quan and Liu Dong.

"Zhuoqing, happy birthday." Li Fangqian walked out with a low voice while stepping over the lying team members on tiptoe.

Every bit of voice on the phone was amplified and echoed, and Li Fangqian heard his blessings gradually mixed with the happy birthday song on the other end of the phone, like intertextual texts separated by a long distance in a chapter.

There was a rapid breathing sound from the receiver, it was Shen Zhuoqing who was suppressing the turmoil in his heart.

"Unhappy. Li Fangqian, I miss you so much." Amidst the singing, Li Fangqian heard his lover say this.

Li Fangqian didn't speak, and held the phone farther away, pointing the microphone at the grass and trees in the mountain stream as he had done countless times before.

The sound of Lingling water came from the valley, turned into electric frequency, passed through thousands of rivers and mountains, and spread to the far north.

"I saw it." His deep and clear breathing was a little unsteady, but he could still hear a strong smile, "Your side is beautiful."

Li Fangqian looked at the dark hole, momentarily at a loss for words.The wilderness is full of poisonous insects, and it really cannot be related to "beauty".But through this distorted voice, Li Fangqian seemed to have borrowed another pair of eyes to see Langyue's head and the clear stream passing through.

"I miss you too." Li Fangqian took back the phone again, and pressed it tightly to his cheek. The electric board began to heat up. It is about 35 degrees now. When it touches the skin, it is very similar to human body temperature.

I miss you, but I can only get close to you in this way.

The days of school closure are too boring.The food section in the supermarket is all sold out, and some small supermarket owners double the price of those ingredients and dry food several times, drag them outside the fence to sell, and stock up on everything from salt to vinegar.

No matter how B University called everyone to watch "Sky Classroom", there were still groups in the dormitory playing Three Kingdoms, Love of Swordsman and Legend of Moon Shadow.

So much so that on the first day after the lockdown was lifted, University B did not have the expected boiling scene. Instead, it was the same as usual. There were only a few people wearing masks hanging out on the road, and most of them were nestled in the dormitory, playing cards in twos and threes, Have a meal.

Lin Quan is a frequent visitor to Shen Zhuoqing's dormitory.Because Liu Dong didn't know how to restrain himself, Shen Zhuoqing had to go out to avoid it.My boyfriend is far away in a ravine, and I have to be pushed out of the door by the young couple. There is really nothing more embarrassing.

"Zhuoqing, come in quickly, ignore him, he's just kidding around." Lin Quan couldn't stand it any longer, opened the door and pulled Shen Zhuoqing back, "We just discussed that when this wave passes, we're going to graduate too. Why don't you go out and play together?"

Shen Zhuoqing imagined the miserable situation of traveling with them, and shook his head decisively: "No, I still have to save money to see my boyfriend."

Now that he is almost busy after graduation, Li Fangqian's project has also come to an end. After entering the job, he can finally save some spare money secretly and go to N University to have a look, right?

Liu Dong cursed and said that Li Fangqian had no conscience when he left, and presented the outrageously low prices of travel agencies in various places after SARS, but he still failed to convince him.

Shen Zhuoqing looked at the two people with very different personalities in front of him, envious from the bottom of his heart.He understood that the two of them should be afraid that their mental state was not good, and wanted to take a break.How can it be so vulnerable?Shen Zhuoqing thought about seeing him off at the station, but he couldn't hold back a single tear, his heart suddenly twitched.

"You two are so close, do your family members agree?" After learning that both Lin Quan and Liu Dong had already secured jobs in City B, Shen Zhuoqing did not hide his envy, and asked in an abnormally disturbing manner.

"I definitely won't agree, keep it a secret." The roommate didn't care.After all, that father Liu who had been out of town for two years never asked him a word after he was admitted to B University and stopped studying music.

Facts have proved that some words have been asked in the dark, and there is always a meaning of prophecy.

Liu Dong's father saw the news about SARS.I used to have the mentality of "as long as you don't die, don't learn music, you can do whatever you want", but this time I finally realized that there was a change in the "immortality" item.Therefore, after the traffic returned to normal, he finally came to University B.

The first thing I saw after I came to the dormitory was the drum set, so I was naturally furious and shouted to arrest people.Shen Zhuoqing had no choice but to lie that the drum belonged to him, but he couldn't deceive that father who had been fighting wits and courage with Liu Dong for more than ten years.Shen Zhuoqing couldn't stop him, he could only watch the drum set was smashed to pieces, and his hand was accidentally injured and bruised a lot.

The ceiling fans on the ceiling were all shaken, and people couldn't help but sigh that the crazy looks are really similar to each other.

The entire dormitory building was attracted, and the middle-aged man was not controlled until the security guards came over.

"My own son's stuff, I bought it with my money, I can smash it if I want!"

This was the first sentence he said when he came out of the security room and entered the political and religious office.This was followed by a long section of persuasive persuasion by teachers from the Political and Education Office, about the correct way to educate "rebellious" youths, and various ways to relieve "psychological problems".But these sermons failed to reach his ears, but he keenly captured a message: psychological problems.

Separately from "rebellion", the tone is ambiguous and does not sound like a simple "problem".

Under the persuasion of hard and soft questions, he got something more shocking than playing drums: his son was on the front page of the newspaper because of his homosexuality, and he was also recorded as a major demerit.

"I fucking sent my son to study, and you taught him a pervert?!"

The teachers of the Political and Educational Office couldn't stop this vigorous and resolute man, only to see him leave a word and go looking for someone aggressively.To make matters worse, he finally found Liu Dong in a bar where an underground band gathered.

What followed was Shen Zhuoqing's all-too-familiar, hysterical insults and threats.The dormitory can no longer treat people, there are scraps of drums and fragments of books all over the floor.Shen Zhuoqing didn't understand that relatives who had been together day and night for many years were often described as "blood is thicker than water" in books, but why such strong emotions could cause such great harm to each other.

On the day the defense was completed, Liu Dong left.Liu Dong also disappeared from the dormitory for a long time before. During the defense, Shen Zhuoqing even saw the bruises on the corners of his mouth and the bloodstains on his arms.

The dormitory was not restored to its original state until graduation.Without the drum, the corner is empty, and there are a few very new marks on the floor, because it has not fallen dust for a long time and is different from other places.

That position was originally the foot of the drum kit.

Shen Zhuoqing did the final cleaning, staring at the trace in a daze.I used to complain to Li Fangqian that the drum set was too loud, which affected my cardiovascular and cerebrovascular health. Now that I haven't heard it for so long, I feel that the dormitory building is terribly quiet.

"It seems that there are only two of us left." Shen Zhuoqing dragged the mark twice, it was very deep and couldn't be erased, so he had to turn his head and smile bitterly at Lin Quan.

Lin Quan also looked at the same place, and there was an auditory hallucination of drums in his ears.He was also exhausted by this farce, suffered from insomnia for many days, and was in a trance even when he was defending, and even said the wrong research framework, so he almost failed.

"Shen Zhuoqing, I admire you a little bit." Lin Quan touched his ears, trying to drive the auditory hallucinations out of his mind, but the moment his hand touched the pinna, he remembered Liu Dong's cold hands always doing evil, grabbing His collar and ears felt sore.

In such a short period of time, the heartache and reluctance can no longer be restrained.Then this year, and even the next many years, how did Shen Zhuoqing make it through?

"There's nothing to admire, just get used to it." Seeing his sunken cheeks, Shen Zhuoqing handed him a toffee, "No matter how sad you are, you have to eat, and if you can't, you have to force yourself to eat."

Lin Quan took it, peeled it off and put it in his mouth, the transparent icing melted on the tip of the tongue, and mixed with the taste of milk flowed to the root of the tongue.He suddenly remembered that Liu Dong often took a sip of sweet water, and it poured into his mouth like a prank. The sugar at that time was also like this, spreading from the tip of his tongue to his stomach.

Lin Quan thought about it, and suddenly covered his mouth, tears streaming down his face.Tears flowed down the mouth, bitter and salty.This is probably the worst toffee I've ever eaten in my life.

Seeing Lin Quan's sudden loss of control, Shen Zhuoqing understood.

Shen Zhuoqing understands this feeling very well.From the moment of farewell at the station, every bit of Li Fangqian’s heart is like a nail. I can think of him when I eat, I can think of him downstairs in the dormitory, I can think of him when I see stones, and I even want to share with him when it rains.

But Shen Zhuoqing understands the nature of Li Fangqian's work. Sometimes Shen Zhuoqing even thinks that in the long-term torment, he is in panic all day long, and a gust of evening wind can make his thoughts rage for a long time, and that person who has traveled all over famous mountains and rivers will also Like yourself?

"I'm sorry." Lin Quan cried and realized his gaffe, and wanted to apologize, but his voice was still trembling.But Shen Zhuoqing understood, silently handed over a piece of paper, and looked at him quietly.

"I'll wait..." Lin Quan suppressed his crying and grabbed the paper with his hands, as if he wanted to absorb some energy from Shen Zhuoqing, "He will come back..."

Shen Zhuoqing said "wait", and gave Qu an encouraging look.After a long time, he sighed and said, "But it's very difficult. It will become more and more difficult."

When leaving the school, Shen Zhuoqing got a souvenir from the school to the graduates. It was the same as last year, it was a metal keychain with the University B badge printed on the back, and it jingled on the key.

Shen Zhuoqing was not happy to hang these gadgets, but he remembered that Li Fangqian also had one, so he displayed it as a couple pendant.

The parting this time was not as sentimental as it was at N University.Although there are still undergraduates singing the school song and passing by reeking of alcohol, there are also couples with tears on their faces saying goodbye at the school gate.But I don't know whether the previous parting was too deep, or the bad memory spread too far. Everything here seems to have nothing to do with him from the moment the certificate is issued. For many years to come, I can't even recall what happened here. detail.

Shen Zhuoqing and Lin Quan tacitly did not say goodbye to each other, saving a lot of tears.

Once again, Shen Zhuoqing walked alone.But this time, he went to a place where there was no Li Fangqian.