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Xia Yulian burned his lifelong fanaticism on Ji Yanfei, that kind of enthusiasm almost melted the ice in his heart.

He kissed a developed photo, and smiled at Ji Yanfei's captured indifferent profile.The background did not match Ji Yanfei's expression. On a bright summer afternoon, a few trees decorated the street.Then he put the photo in the photo album and kept it properly.

It's not that I didn't think about posting Ji Yanfei's photos all over the room, but on second thought, wouldn't that prove that Ji Yanfei is no different from the stars on the street vendors hawking posters.Deliberately posing, a face with heavy make-up.The Ji Yanfei he captures are all integrated into life bit by bit, and must not be confused with well-dressed cheap goods.

Those star-chasing girls are chanting the slogan of only loving you for the rest of their lives every day, but when a new star is born from the fake camera, that love will be transferred to other places without lingering.

Xia Yulian believes that love will wear and tear.Transferring from one object to another, even if the total amount of emotion remains unchanged, the love part will gradually transform into other substances.

And hopeless delusions never deteriorate.

The first time he talked with Ji Yanfei was the opportunity for Ji Yanfei to finally think of expelling the disgusting stalker.

Knowing that the concealment work is not perfect, or that she has no intention of covering herself up at all, it is not too much to describe Xia Yulian's follow-up work frankly.There are no concealing decorations such as sunglasses and windbreakers on his body. In summer, he wears a printed T-shirt and black trousers and goes out loudly.On the one hand, she thinks that the tightly wrapped clothes are too stuffy and the comfort level will be greatly reduced. On the other hand, Xia Yulian feels that in the weather where the temperature is approaching 300 degrees, she feels that she is dressed like the protagonist in a detective TV series. [-] taels, maybe it will be considered as a cosplay enthusiast and the rate of return will increase sharply.

Don't cause any trouble to Ji Yanfei.

When did this habit of voyeurism integrated into his life start?Xia Yulian couldn't calculate the date accurately.From the first time he saw Ji Yanfei, his soul followed Ji Yanfei to the distance.Although the body is still walking on the original track, it is already a pool of dead walking corpses.

For the first time, the regret of missing Ji Yanfei took root in his chest, and in the middle of the night, he repeated his memories and watered it into a towering giant tree, so when he saw Ji Yanfei for the second time, he could not help but move his body before his reason, and followed him in a daze .

At that time, he was full of trembling fear, fearing that this kind of deeds would be discovered, what should he do, he conceived 1 explanations for Ji Yanfei in his mind, for example, I think you and a friend of mine are very familiar, and you have glue on your back. Lame excuses like chewing gum.Those explanations are only applicable to the soap operas of the last century. Even if he utters these malicious excuses to a little girl who is not deeply involved in the world, the one who greets him will definitely be laughed at and shunned. Not as good as it.

His feet were stuck in the mud, unable to extricate himself, reminding himself over and over again that this was wrong, but this inexplicable sense of secrecy stimulated his excitement even more.

Ji Yanfei's eyes once swept across him, and Xia Yulian's clothes were soaked in cold sweat at that moment, a layer of ice condensed on the body surface, her mind was empty and she was at a loss.But then Ji Yanfei's eyes turned elsewhere, looking at him was like looking at a stone on the side of the road, Xia Yulian's heartbeat finally slowly returned to normal speed.

There is a precedent for the first time, and subsequent breaking the bottom line becomes easy.After tasting it once, it is hard to get rid of it. Xia Yulian is like a young boy who has tasted the forbidden fruit. The difference is that his Garden of Eden is built in the closed door of his heart.

Untouchable.

Xia Yulian often watched Ji Yanfei change all kinds of female partners, sometimes tall and glamorous, sometimes innocent and cute, some were models who had just debuted, and some were flourishing Huadans. Entertainment venues, to be fair, Xia Yulian didn't know what kind of relationship Ji Yanfei had with those women.

lover?girlfriend?Or dewy love, day and night playmates.One thing is certain, no matter which woman, in his mind, is incompatible with Ji Yanfei.Ji Yanfei's playfulness just gave Xia Yulian an indescribable sense of security. She doesn't have to worry about who will last forever with Ji Yanfei, and doesn't have to worry about who the final winner is.

It wouldn't be him anyway.

It was only at this time that Xia Yulian would feel that Ji Yanfei was a man of flesh and blood, but the appropriate rumors of scandal only added to his charm.Xia Yulian has self-knowledge, if it is him, he is just an ordinary dick who is not favored by girls.Comparing to the point of being a woman, Xia Yulian sincerely sighed that she was not as good as her.

In his mind, the last person to marry Ji Yanfei will definitely be a gentle and loving wife and mother.But according to the current situation, this type doesn't seem to suit Ji Yanfei's taste. Xia Yulian couldn't help but pray that Ji Yanfei's father must be strict and prevent those dubious girls from entering the house.

In Xia Yulian's camera, Ji Yanfei's ambiguous images piled up like a mountain, but he never cared about it, and neither did Xia Yulian. In his eyes, no matter who the people around Ji Yanfei were, they were just his foil.However, the hotel photo with a boy became the first thing Ji Yanfei asked him for.

The next day happened to be fine, so Xia Yulian simply found a seat and squatted nearby.Boring to count the twinkling stars in the sky, a person appeared in front of him unexpectedly.It was a face he would never forget even in his dreams.

Ji Yanfei glanced at the camera in his hand, and Xia Yulian immediately clenched her hands tightly, fearing that Ji Yanfei would smash it in a fit of anger. It doesn't matter if the equipment is broken, and what makes him feel distressed is that there are many carefully selected angle photos in it.

Fortunately, Ji Yanfei did not lose his composure, "I know you have the bottom plate, how much it is, tell me, you took everything."

The pride that looks down on everything.

Xia Yulian first looked to the side for a figure, and finally found that only the rustling sound of the thick leaves being blown by the wind made her convinced that Ji Yanfei was talking to herself.

"You, you, what, when, did you find me..."

Terrible dialogue.

"You think I'm blind and can't see a living person. The joke that you wear an invisibility cloak that only smart people can see is not funny. I didn't care before, just like people don't care how many mosquitoes there are on the street, but now It's a different matter when a fly lands on a plate of bread."

Xia Yulian was dizzy, immersed in Ji Yanfei's voice wholeheartedly, and her thinking was fragmented.Ji Yanfei's voice was not as clear and high-spirited as he had imagined. I don't know if it was the night's weariness or the laziness after sex.He repeatedly assured that these pictures are only for his own collection and will never appear in front of the eyes of the second person, "What are you collecting? Collection of me? Your behavior, if I call the police to come forward to solve it, it is okay."

"...I just want to collect something beautiful when I see it." Hearing the word police, Xia Yulian suddenly became indifferent from shrinking. The camera in her hand did not relax at all, and she was completely non-violent and non-cooperative.

Ji Yanfei inspected him up and down several times, and unexpectedly, he turned and left.

"I'm free to sell those low-level media as headlines, just as a reward for your tireless recording of me. By the way, you have a lot more vision than those crazy adolescent girls."

It was only then that Xia Yulian remembered that the boy seemed to be a young student who was in the limelight, but he had almost never set foot in the entertainment industry, so he could only remember that he seemed to have seen the boy's billboard on the commercial building.Wanting to squeeze out more syllables, Ji Yanfei has already left.

Their first conversation is aborted.

Meeting by chance, passing by each other, the encounter with more ties than that is enough for Xia Yulian to remember for a lifetime.Ji Yanfei's cold and indifferent eyes, the sound of the wind swaying in the treetops, and the suddenly warming weather.Thinking that the air that entered his lungs might have been exhaled by Ji Yanfei, a certain corner of the nerve endings became excited, and the pleasure deepened so much that it paralyzed the entire brain.

What material is Ji Yanfei's clothes made of? Are his fingertips cold? Ji Yanfei frowned and spat at him as "disgusting stalker", that would be all right. Adhering to the principle of never causing trouble to Ji Yanfei, he will disappear Within a radius of five miles where Ji Yanfei haunts, prevent Ji Yanfei from smelling his rotten and nauseating aura.

But Ji Yanfei didn't, is this tacit consent?Is it connivance?Is it dismissive?Xia Yulian's brain nuclei told to run, and the overheated temperature almost brewed an explosion in the nerve center.

On the way home, Xia Yulian crossed several streets and alleys, and found a familiar address only by instinctive memory. Fortunately, there were few cars in the middle of the night, so no tragedy happened.The moment the key entered the door, a cold hand covered his knuckles.Xia Yulian was terrified, thinking it was a gangster who was following him to rob him, she elbowed the person behind him in the chest, picked up the SLR camera hanging around her neck, and threw it on the unknown person's head.

After seeing who it was, Xia Yulian suddenly stopped, and due to the change of force, the focus of the camera's parabola changed to the ground.Xia Yulian used the back of her foot as the landing point for the DSLR, and there was a muffled groan as the lens inevitably hit the ground. He could only pray that the camera body would not be scrapped after being repaired.

Luo Zhen was carrying a gift box, his face was stiff, and the exquisitely packaged box fell to the ground along with Xia Yulian's camera.

The damage to the camera caused Xia Yulian to be in a bad mood, but what hit him even more was that after the conversation with Ji Yanfei was interrupted by a third party, his voice was hoarse all night, and the air pressure was even lower, "You came to my door so late Is squatting sick? Why didn't you call me first."

Luo Zhen didn't face Xia Yulian's question directly, but pointed to the handbag with the painting of peonies and cuckoos, "Mooncake." He bent down to pick up the overdue gift, "It's Mid-Autumn Festival, I want to surprise you." He squatted on the ground behind , did not get up, Xia Yulian did not urge, first check whether there is any problem with the operation of the camera, change the focal length of the lens, change the mode, and press the shutter a few times to check the image quality. Luo Zhen expressed doubts: "It was my foot that was smashed, not yours. Why can't you get up?"

Frankly speaking, Xia Yulian has no concept of festivals like the Mid-Autumn Festival at all, she is alone and carefree.The full moon hanging in the sky, the ebb and flow of the tide thousands of miles away has nothing to do with him, only Ji Yanfei's whereabouts, which hotel he stayed in on which day, which car he drove, and who accompanied him .

There was a burst of choked up crying, "Did you... go to find Ji Yanfei again." A big inhalation in the middle interrupted Luo Zhen's narration.

Xia Yulian looked downcast at Luo Zhen's appearance. The camera was safe and sound, which made him a little gentler. She reached out to Luo Zhen and pulled him up, "Who else can take up so much of my time? It's not called looking for, it should be stalking. He, I don't know me." When it came to the acquaintance, Xia Yulian subconsciously concealed today's conversation, he did not lie, Ji Yanfei must not know his name.

What is he excited about, what is he looking forward to, what is he worrying about gain and loss.A strong sense of self-loathing hit his heart, it shouldn't be like this, the birth of greed is the signpost of the abyss.

Grabbing Luo Zhen, with a force, Luo Zhen was pulled up by him, and then hugged him tightly, preventing Xia Yulian from witnessing the sad expression.

With his back slightly arched, Luo Zhen leaned over and buried his head in Xia Yulian's shoulder socket, his not-so-slender body trembled slightly visibly to the naked eye.

At this point, Xia Yulian was forcibly choked, and her anger had to dissipate. She just warned Luo Zhen, "Don't be smart in the future, it will be troublesome to you and me. Not only me, but your behavior of talking to yourself may also hurt others. People cause misunderstandings and troubles, you are no longer a child, please realize the importance of discussion. If I don’t come back, are you going to sit here all night? Fortunately, it’s not winter, otherwise you can directly display it as an ice sculpture.” Luo Zhen didn't answer, and hugged him even tighter, like a snake looking for its prey.

It's you and me who do it.

"What's the matter? Lovelorn? Open the door and go in." Luo Zhen stopped Xia Yulian from opening the door, and whispered in Xia Yulian's ear, "Come down with me to see the moon."

"You are not too cold, feel free."

The moon on the fifteenth day was sixteen round, Xia Yulian couldn't tell much difference.His impression of the moon was only those poems taught in textbooks during his school days, and he even slightly teased why the theme of the ancients' chanting was always romance, naturally because there were no TVs and computer game consoles at that time.

The autumn cold dew was heavy, Luo Zhen regarded him as a source of warmth, clasped his fingers, and leaned against him.Xia Yulian felt uncomfortable with the close contact, so she tried her best to shake her off, but Luo Zhen clung to her endlessly.He felt that Luo Zhen was a little abnormal today, so he repeatedly slapped on the sidelines, but Luo Zhen remained silent, so Xia Yulian followed Luo Zhen's wishes and looked up at the starry sky.

"We want to be friends for life, don't leave me." Luo Zhen suddenly said this.

Xia Yulian nodded obediently, "Yeah." Although he didn't have a normalized understanding of the word friend.

How long is a lifetime, no one knows.