In front of the North Gate

"Lou Huaiyu, I have never looked down on you, let alone disgusted you, not now, nor before." Shi Jichang's voice was also a little hoarse, as if he had organized the language for a long time, speaking very fast, non-stop, endorsing Saying the same thing, "I just haven't liked anyone, and I don't know what to do."

Lou Huaiyu froze as if struck by lightning.

"I said the wrong thing, I didn't choose what to say," Shi Jichang said, "I'm just, I'm just too jealous of them."

Jealous of Hu Haitian cuddling with you on and off the stage, jealous of you calling him Big Brother Hu, jealous of you being so close, and jealous of your coquettishness and kiss to Yamaguchi, even if it was fake and false.

Lou Huaiyu's eyes were still moist.

He must have been crying too hard before, and he couldn't stop for a while, hiccupping constantly, looking back in bewilderment and surprise, his chest was heaving and falling, and the tears seemed unbearable, one after another. out from the corner of the eye.

Shi Jichang then stretched out his hand to wipe it for him, this time he was not rejected, but he couldn't wipe it clean.

Shi Jichang looked at him so closely, suddenly seemed to have forgotten everything before, and just wanted to tell him not to cry so sadly.

So Shi Jichang leaned over and kissed away a tear from him.

Lou Huaiyu seemed to be frightened by him, and shrank back suddenly, but only for a short time, he slowly shrank back again.

Lou Huaiyu reached out to touch Shi Jichang, and whispered as if afraid of waking up a dream: "Are you the real Shi Jichang?"

Shi Jichang didn't say yes or no, he leaned over and kissed Lou Huaiyu's other tear away.

Kiss seemed to be more useful than fingers, because Lou Huaiyu really stopped crying, but was very dull, and was dragged by Shi Jichang to sit back on the bed in a trance, and wrapped him in a quilt.

Shi Jichang went back to the ground and picked up the dropped things one by one.

In addition to the few books, there are winter plums with only branches, deformed sugar figurines, candied gourds that are about to deteriorate, and Shi Jichang's hairpins without aesthetics.

When sending them away, Shi Jichang never thought that Lou Huaiyu would keep them well.

Lou Huaiyu is a sudden fork in Shi Jichang's life.

But Shi Jichang's life is not short of forks, so when Shi Jichang first started walking, he didn't think about where this fork would lead to, how far it would take, and how long it would be.

Shi Jichang's life is not short of parting, so that day when he hid in the small bamboo forest, Shi Jichang actually didn't make too many struggles, he believed that he made the choice that was most beneficial to the current situation.

Shi Jichang just didn't think that leaving someone would make him so restless, and he couldn't sleep.

During night after night when he couldn't sleep, Shi Jichang couldn't help thinking of Lou Huaiyu, and also couldn't control his doubts.

Even his comrades who were parting from life and death had never felt so much anxiety and uneasiness, but Lou Huaiyu was clearly living in the world, even having enough food and clothing, and almost never faced danger.

Shi Jichang didn't understand why he was worried, so when he heard that Watanabe Yukawa was coming, he even had some ulterior secret rejoicing that belonged only to him.

"There is probably someone who can help." Shi Jichang heard himself say this.

Lan'er looked at him suspiciously: "Who?"

Shi Jichang said, "Lou Huaiyu."

Shi Jichang didn't even think about it, just saying a person's name can make people happy.

But being able to see someone again is so exciting, unbearable and joyful.

Shi Jichang didn't even climb over the wall, and accidentally broke a big taboo by kicking over the gravel in the flower bed.

Lou Huaiyu opened the door before he knocked.

He seemed to be a little thinner than when he left, and his illness was as good as he imagined. His lips were not as rosy as before, but his eyelashes were still soft.

When Shi Jichang reached out to touch his forehead to measure the temperature, he hurried over, thinking so.

Shi Jichang firmly believed that he had made the right choice. He could not reveal the secret to someone he did not trust, and he should have chosen to evacuate at the right time.

But Lou Huaiyu seemed very unhappy, seeing that the corners of his mouth were drooping and his eyes were dimmed.

Shi Jichang wanted to see the light, so he apologized and said sorry, so he explained and said the reason.

It just seemed self-defeating.

Lou Huaiyu became even more angry, and was so angry that she wanted to bury herself and ignore him.

I was so angry that I cried.

Shi Jichang didn't know what to do, he didn't want Lou Huaiyu to cry at all.

Lou Huaiyu's tears seemed to be different from other people's tears, they were particularly corrosive to his heart, they could produce a chemical reaction only through the optic nerve, making him feel heartache.

"What should I do?" Shi Jichang had no one else to ask, so he had to ask Lan'er.

Lan'er was silent for a long time, as if she was digesting some indigestible food, after a long while, she said: "What can I do if I make people angry, I apologize."

Shi Jichang didn't understand: "What are you giving?"

Lan'er smiled on the surface: "Give me a little red flower."

Shi Jichang picked wintersweet, and was turned away by people in the cold night wind in the north.

That was the most idle time in Shi Jichang's twenty-odd years of life.

He spared a period of time every day to wander the streets, not to chat or inquire about the team and the situation, but to look for a satisfactory gift.

Shi Jichang didn't understand at that time why even if Lou Huaiyu didn't respond to him, sneaking into a room deep in the enemy's camp in the middle of the night and putting down a gift that the other party might not like would still make him enjoy it forever.

It seems that he is only greedy for the air that Lou Huaiyu has breathed, and if he breathes a little at a fixed time every night, he can steal a day of peace of mind.

Later, he finally found a gift that Lou Huaiyu liked—he took Lou Huaiyu to build a snowman outside the city.

Shi Jichang also found out that day, and it turned out that the little red flower that Lan'er mentioned was meant to be given to his sweetheart.

He felt uneasy when he couldn't see anyone, because Lou Huaiyu was Shi Jichang's sweetheart.

Just reading the name makes me feel happy, because Lou Huaiyu is Shi Jichang's sweetheart.

It hurts to see him cry, but also happy to see him smile, because Lou Huaiyu is Shi Jichang's sweetheart.

The reason for being stupid regardless of the cost and the impulsiveness of disregarding the overall situation is that Lou Huaiyu is Shi Jichang's sweetheart.

Lou Huaiyu is Shi Jichang's sweetheart.

When Shi Jichang saw that the person he had coaxed for more than ten days finally broke into a smile, when he imitated him and said "little injury" playfully, he suddenly understood.

He stretched out his hand to poke Lou Huaiyu's soft cheek, Shi Jichang said: "You are so thin, how can you have so much flesh on your face, so soft."

But in fact, his heart was beating so fast, what he really wanted to say was: why is his sweetheart so cute.