In front of the North Gate

Lou Huaiyu looked up hastily as if frightened by him.

His eyes are big and round, and there is a little pink in the corners of the eyes that can be seen even in such a blackness, as if they are always in tears. When looking at people, they are pitifully glistening with water, which makes people unconsciously soften their hearts.

At this moment, Shi Jichang speculated maliciously, whether this was nothing more than Lou Huaiyu's method, and was deliberately done.

He had seen Lou Huaiyu circling the mountain pass seamlessly, Lou Huaiyu was obviously like everyone else, he could sit on his thighs and touch his waist, so why did he think that his shy eyes towards him and the red tips of his ears were real?

"Why are you shy?" Shi Jichang asked again, and he moved closer to Lou Huaiyu, "Aren't you and Hu Haitian very close? The audience is not willing to let go, why? Are you shy with me? Pretending Is it?"

Lou Huaiyu was stunned.

"So shy to touch your head?"

"Are you ashamed when you pinch your face?"

"What's so shy about getting a haircut?"

This is the question Mr. Shi Jichang asked him.

In the past, Lou Huaiyu thought these words were like candy in the beauty he imagined, and he could think about them over and over every night before going to bed, and taste a little bit of sweetness.

Listening to it again today, I realized what Shi Jichang meant.

"Why don't you talk?" Shi Jichang said again, he supported the person with one hand, and forced Lou Huaiyu to look at him, but the words he said were unbearable, "Have you acquiesced?"

Lou Huaiyu's eyes became a little blurred.

The sharp insect chirping suddenly became louder, drowning out any other sounds, as if it wanted to drill into Lou Huaiyu's mind, to pick out the memories that Lou Huaiyu had treasured and buried at the bottom, and to show him.

Shi Jichang who was covered in blood, Shi Jichang who examined him, Shi Jichang who smiled at him, Shi Jichang who held wintersweet flowers, and Shi Jichang who knelt down and told him not to cry, and Shi Jichang who apologized to him. Ji Chang, Shi Ji Chang who pushed him away...

Lou Huaiyu's thoughts were completely confused. He pushed hard as if trying to escape, and he also staggered backwards. Before he could stand firmly on his feet, he began to walk forward uncontrollably.

Shi Jichang misunderstood what he meant immediately, and his heart was very blocked. Looking at Lou Huaiyu's back that was getting smaller and smaller, he felt that his heart was being grabbed.

Shi Jichang chased after him in a panic, the more panicked he was, the worse he said: "I even forgot, you used to treat me like this, rubbing my thighs, learning the movements in those books, why is it that you were so proficient before, and suddenly you don't know what to do?" Will it?"

He laughed, and said some malicious words uncontrollably, wanting Lou Huaiyu to stop: "I found out that I don't like this kind of thing, so I changed the role? It's the same as Yamaguchi's acting, are you also acting with me? Why? Now Found that Hu Haitian is more suitable, do you want to change your backer?"

Lou Huaiyu felt that the blood all over his body was cold.

Only then did he realize that Shi Jichang had never changed, it was the same Shi Jichang who pushed him away and made him bear with it.

Lou Huaiyu had a dream in which she struggled, fell down, and got up again, thinking that the world was different.

How can it be different?Shi Jichang still thinks that he will only commit himself to others, still looks down on him, and just treats him as a bitch who clings to someone with all means.

Lou Huaiyu has done so much, thought so much, and still wants to find the meaning of life.

How ridiculous.

He was actually delusional...to get closer to him.

Tears flowed from Lou Huaiyu's eyes, and the temperature quickly evaporated, leaving only a cold trace in the wind.

Lou Huaiyu walked faster and faster, almost running, and uncontrollably let out some choking sounds from his throat.

He didn't understand, if Shi Jichang thought of him that way, why couldn't he tell him directly, why he should be nice to him, why he should be tortured like this.

If Shi Jichang thought of him this way, why did he come back again and again after leaving, why did he still give him those things, why did he rub his head and touch his face as if he felt sorry for him.

"Why?" Lou Huaiyu raised his hand and wiped his face.

Shi Jichang grabbed his hand vigorously.

"Lou Huaiyu!" Shi Jichang called him in a heavy voice.

Lou Huaiyu couldn't stand anymore, she just felt that the sum of all the grievances and unwillingness in this life was less than one ten-thousandth of this moment.

"Why?!" Lou Huaiyu also shouted at him.

He felt that he was so stupid that there would be no one in the world as stupid as him.

Lou Huaiyu cried and fell to the ground, Shi Jichang was still holding him.

"Why are you crying?" Shi Jichang asked.

Lou Huaiyu hated him to death, he raised his hand to shake him off, tried hard several times, but couldn't shake him off.

"Let go!" Lou Huaiyu shouted in despair.

He sniffled, suddenly lowered his head and realized that he was still wearing Shi Jichang's clothes, and immediately got up and pulled them apart.

Shi Jichang was just pulling his coat, as if he had completely forgotten what he was doing on the battlefield, he was tugging at Lou Huaiyu indiscriminately, and staggered a few steps when he was finally pushed away by Lou Huaiyu.

Looking up again, Lou Huaiyu ran away desperately.

This time, he was no longer afraid of the dark, nor was he afraid of falling. He ran all the way back to his small courtyard, but he still didn't have time to isolate Shi Jichang from the outside before closing the door.

Shi Jichang was holding the door, he was very strong, even if Lou Huaiyu tried his best, he could only stare at him with bared teeth.

Lou Huaiyu's face was full of crystal clear tears.

His eyes and nose were so red from crying, his facial features were wrinkled because of the force, his nose trembled slightly, and a teardrop fell from the corner of his eye and flowed down his cheek.

"...Don't cry." Shi Jichang felt a little regretful.

Lou Huaiyu screamed hard from his throat, and let go unwillingly.

Shi Jichang still pushed open the door.

Lou Huaiyu felt that Shi Jichang was a really bad person, and he wanted to gouge out his heart, and even followed him after gouging out, telling him not to cry.

How could Lou Huaiyu not cry? He has such a heart, and he knew to keep it safe since he was a child, but he was tricked by Shi Jichang and gave it to him, but he was thrown to the ground and trampled on.

Lou Huaiyu felt so painful.

Lou Huaiyu fell to the ground, but Shi Jichang came to pull him up again, calling his name and asking him to get up.

"Don't cry." Shi Jichang said to him again, he frowned, and wanted to touch the tears on Lou Huaiyu's face, but Lou Huaiyu beat him back in a disorderly manner.

Lou Huaiyu seemed like a very sad child, crying so much that he lost his basic ability to walk, and beat him repeatedly, then remembered something, and ran to the wardrobe in the house.

Shi Jichang thought he was going to get some clothes to wear.

But he didn't expect that the next moment, he was hit by a bunch of gadgets.

The thing was not big, and it didn't hurt anyone to smash it, but Shi Jichang was stunned by the blow.

He lowered down to pick it up in a daze, and Lou Huaiyu threw down a pile of books and old newspapers, hitting the back of his hand.

"I'll... return it to you." Lou Huaiyu said, he was a little out of breath from crying, and his voice became hoarse.

After finishing speaking, he stretched out his hand and rummaged around his body again, found a small metal object, and threw it on the pile in front of Shi Jichang: "This, this is also returned to you!"

Ji Chang was very familiar with the thing when he dropped it, it was the knife he gave Lou Huaiyu.

"I'm leaving right away," Lou Huaiyu cried, "I, I won't cling to you anymore, I don't deserve to stay here, I know, you don't have to worry, I'm leaving, just, no one wants it The face is haunting you, and no one will touch you any more and disgust you."

There is a special book in the pile of gifts, which is particularly wrinkled. From the cover to the inside pages, it seems that someone has kneaded it repeatedly. The person who kneaded it seems to hate this kind of thing very much, but he is reluctant to do anything with it.

Shi Jichang raised his hand to pick it up in a daze, and saw that in the book, every page with a picture of spring/palace/picture had been carefully folded, so that the content of the picture could not be seen clearly.

As Lou Huaiyu spoke, he stood up and looked for clothes to wear, and the others seemed to have calmed down a bit, buttoning up buttons and walking out crying.

Shi Jichang held the book and hugged him from behind.

"Don't leave yet." Shi Jichang said.

Lou Huaiyu struggled fiercely.Shi Jichang put his hands on Lou Huaiyu's waist, much tighter than Hu Haitian's, and hugged him tightly.

If jealousy represents love, Shi Jichang thought, then he may have liked Lou Huaiyu for a long time, much earlier than he realized.

He has long disliked anyone approaching Lou Huaiyu.

Xiaodong, Dr. Hu, Shankou, Lin Shuyi, Hu Haitian, he didn't like anyone, and he didn't like anyone who had met Lou Huaiyu.

Shi Jichang asked Lou Huaiyu if he regarded him as a mountain pass.

In fact, he knew that there was no difference between him and Yamaguchi.

He just wanted to lock Lou Huaiyu in this small courtyard. It would be best if only he could touch Lou Huaiyu in the world, so that Lou Huaiyu could only see him, like him, and hug him.

Lou Huaiyu was tired from struggling and crying. She stared at the ground and quietly shed a few tears.

After a long time, the person behind him who was holding him like a pair of iron clamps loosened his grip a little.

Lou Huaiyu felt a weight pressing down on his neck.

"I'm sorry." Shi Jichang said close to him.