Good day and beautiful scenery

On the way back, my mother called me. I glanced at it and was not in a hurry to answer it. I adjusted my body and sat down before answering the phone.My mother asked me if I got up, I turned my head and looked out the window, and said with a smile.

My mother seemed to be in a good mood. She answered a few gossips on the other end of the phone and said to me: "Don't go too far wherever you go. Eat at home in the evening. I brought you delicious food. Your aunt specially prepared it for you, she just said that you didn't even come to see her."

"Mom, I have something to go back to City S." I knew it would be difficult to speak, but now it's really hard to tell at this moment.

My mother probably couldn't accept it for a while, and I didn't make a sound for a while. I became more and more sad, so I called my mother again with a wry smile, trying to find a lie that she could easily accept.

"Something went wrong at work, and there was a problem with the design draft. If I don't correct it immediately, there may be an accident during the construction stage, and human life is at stake. I can't ignore it."

Although it's unlucky to say such things during Chinese New Year, but I know my mother, she is that kind of person herself, and things at work have always been a big deal, not to mention if someone dies...my mother can't understand.

Sure enough, my mother sighed helplessly, and complained in a low voice: "Are you the only one in your company? Or is your boss bullying you to be honest? It's fine, you are busy with your work, take care of yourself."

"Is there a problem with the design draft?" Shen Yan was so naive.

I leaned on the seat, tilted my head to meet his gaze, and looked at each other silently for a few seconds. I turned my head first to remind him to pay attention to driving.Shen Yan wanted to say something else, but I said it lazily, and simply closed my eyes and fell asleep.

All the way to the service area, Shen Yan stopped the car and asked me if I wanted to go to the bathroom. I didn't move, he went down by himself, and came back after a while, and handed me a cup of hot lemon tea.

Seeing that I didn't pick up, Shen Yan already had a feeling of embarrassment on her face, and said in a deep voice, "It's okay to warm your hands if you don't want to drink."

Not to mention, the weather is so cold, and there are rain and snow particles in the morning. Even if I wear thick clothes and gloves, my fingertips are still numb from the cold.I glanced at Shen Yan, took it over and held it in my hand silently.

When approaching City S, the rain became more and more intense, and gradually turned into a torrential rain. The road quickly accumulated water, and the visibility ahead was also very low, making it difficult to drive.

I felt that it was difficult for me to breathe. The plastic cup I held in my hand was unconsciously pinched and deformed. The lemon tea with only a little residual heat suddenly dripped into my hand, and my pants were also wet.

"Shen Yan..." I was a little out of breath, "Please stop by the side of the road."

"what happened?"

Shen Yan turned her head and glanced at me, quickly turned the steering wheel, and stopped the car with a sharp brake against the curb.He unbuckled his seat belt first, then leaned over to shake my hand.

I couldn't even dodge it, my whole body was stiff and pressed tightly against the back of the seat, panting with difficulty.I know that my heart is fine, but I have a psychological problem, and it is still a problem that no cure can cure.

Shen Yan held my hand with one hand, and wiped the cold sweat off my face with the other hand.Probably my face is really ugly, he looked at me full of worry.

"Xiaojing, relax a bit, we'll wait for the rain to pass before leaving, everything will be fine, trust me!"

I closed my eyes and smiled wryly: "Shen Yan, I can't believe you."

"Xiaojing..."

"Listen to me," I looked towards the front of the car. In the rainy and fog-shrouded world, all I could see was a vast expanse of whiteness.I asked Shen Yan, "I told you that I couldn't drive because I had a serious car accident, remember?"

"You said that when you gave me the car, of course I remember. I also told you that as long as you want, I can be your exclusive driver for the rest of your life."

"A lifetime is too long, I'm afraid I don't have that patience." I smiled with the corners of my mouth twitching, and I looked at him, "Shen Yan, what I didn't tell you is that I lost my only younger brother in that car accident."

"I guessed the truth." Shen Yan shook my hand, "But the matter is over..."

"Without the past, there will never be a past!"

Shen Yan spoke after a while: "Can you tell me about your brother, what kind of person is he?"

"You mean Wenwen?" I withdrew my hand from his hand to cover my eyes, and my unsteady voice sounded like crying, which was embarrassing, but I didn't care, "He's fine, yes I am fine!"

"So Xiaojing, is it in your heart that no one can compare to him?"

I put down my hands and looked at Shen Yan, completely unexpected that he would ask me such a question.I turned my gaze indifferently, looked at the void in front of me and said, "I never thought of comparing him to anyone."

"No?" Shen Yan asked in a strange tone, then smiled, and said, "Xiao Jing, I'm suddenly curious, if I changed the question just now, what would you say?"

"What do you mean?" I looked at him.

Shen Yan smiled at me, sat back slowly, put her hands on the steering wheel, and pointed her fingers casually.That was his small movement, a subconscious movement that mostly occurs when he is thinking or in a difficult situation.

"Zhou Jingchen," Shen Yan didn't look at me, but let me know his mood at the moment by connecting his name and surname, which is not as good as the mocking smile hanging from the corner of his mouth, "Your brother and I, apart from laughing, Any other resemblances? Any resemblances, any?"

As if I had been slapped countless times, my face felt hot and painful, and there were stars in front of my eyes. I murmured, "What do you mean?"

Shen Yan still didn't look at me with a downcast face, and smiled to herself: "When you were taking a shower, I saw an old photo under your coffee table, it should be your brother. I didn't realize until then , your dad stared at me for a long time yesterday, probably in comparison. But do you really think I look like your brother?"

"It's still similar." I finally heard my own voice, it was so dry and unreasonable, "You are one year younger than him."

"Really? What a coincidence."

Shen Yan was still smiling to himself, and suddenly slapped the steering wheel with one hand, and the bell rang loudly, but when the noise rang out, he buried his face and laughed, as if he had heard such a funny joke.

"Seven years." He turned his head to look at me sneakily, "Zhou Jingchen, who did you think of me these seven years? Shen Yan or your brother?"

"What do you think?" I laughed too.

It was raining endlessly, and the heater was turned on in the car, but I felt more and more cold, and finally I didn't even bother to talk anymore.Shen Yan is quieter than me, but she is also more comfortable than me, opening a little window to smoke.

I couldn't stand the smell, and my throat felt itchy like being scratched by a feather, but even though it was uncomfortable, I gritted my teeth and endured it.I just don't want to admit cowardice in front of him.

"Your car," Shen Yan blew out a smoke ring and said without looking at me, "something went wrong a while ago, I sent it to be repaired, and I'll drive it back for you when it's done."

I froze for a second, and immediately understood what he meant.He's giving me the car back, which is great, although I probably won't ever get to drive it myself again.

I smiled back at him: "If you give it to you, you probably won't take it, so I'll trouble you."

"No trouble." Shen Yan looked at me blankly, then quickly looked away, pressed the cigarette butt that was almost burned to the fingertips into the ashtray of the glove box, and said, "Send you back to the company?"

"No, I'll go to my colleague's house to get something." Even I have to admire myself, now my lying skills are getting more and more proficient.

Finally, the rain gradually became lighter, and people with umbrellas passing by in twos and threes began to be seen on the street. I looked out the car window and sat there for a while, but finally opened the car door and walked out.

The retribution of self-willed rain came quickly, and I was afraid that the cold, which I could not avoid, would patronize me enthusiastically again. I kept sneezing and sneezing, and my body temperature shot up like a rocket.

I took a lot of cold medicine, antipyretics, and painkillers, and my heart was beating unbearably. I was wrapped in two quilts and lay in bed, but I couldn't sleep because of groggy.

But half asleep and half awake, I still had a dream.

Said it was a dream, but in fact it couldn't be more real, as if it just happened yesterday.

The day Zhou Jingwen left, he was in such a bloody state, and even the glass flakes in the first skin on his face were still clearly in their original positions.It's just that he couldn't speak at that time, but now he can run towards me with a smile on his face and blood dripping from his face.

I knew it wasn't the real Zhou Jingwen, but I desperately hoped it was him. I wanted to avoid his approaching hand, but roots suddenly took root under my feet, and I couldn't even take a step away.All I could do than stand still was close my eyes and wait for those pale, bloodstained hands.

Zhou Jingwen acted like a baby with me as usual, put his head on my shoulder, and when he was talking, the warm and humid breath sprayed on my ears, making it itchy and numb.He said it hurts.

But Zhou Jingwen, who has such a strong personality, has never been injured and bled, so he can't even say a word.That's the case for my parents, and for me, only when he is in unbearable pain, will he pretend to be pitiful and lean over.

He often complains that I don't care about him enough.Not really complaining, more like coquetry.He said it wasn't enough because he always thought it wasn't enough.He wants me to treat him like my whole world.

When he said that, I just laughed and stretched out my hand to rub his hair, but I never told him once that my world is too small, so small that apart from him, there are only exams left.

In the dream, Zhou Jingwen told me it was painful, and I could also smell the bloody smell on his body in a trance, and I even felt the warm blood bubbling from his wound, gradually covering my whole body.

Zhou Jingwen hugged me very tightly, as if to vent his dissatisfaction.But I know he's not venting, he's just reluctant.

I remembered that when he left, in the emergency room of the hospital, the doctor took my parents out, leaving me alone by his side.

Zhou Jingwen had tubes all over his body, even in his throat, but those tubes didn't help him.His breathing became weaker and weaker, his consciousness was not clear, and there was only a dimming light in his slightly opened eyes.

I knelt beside him, buried my head in the blood-soaked sheet beside his hand, until his hand fumbled to cover the back of mine, I looked up at him, and saw him laughing.

Zhou Jingwen has no strength anymore, no matter how strong and flexible his body was before, it is extremely difficult for him to move his fingers now.But he finally tried his best and grabbed my hand weakly.

I think he must have used all his strength to make me feel the pain of the fingers held by him, so painful that I can't breathe.I leaned down and kissed lightly on the hand he held mine.

Zhou Jingwen's shattered body finally trembled uncontrollably. His eyes suddenly widened and stared at me. I saw his smile from his eyes that gradually faded.Laugh mischievously.

At this moment in the dream, Zhou Jingwen was still as broken as he was then, but he was able to get up alive and hug me, like a child, blowing warm air in my ears, and calling me "brother" with a smile .

I woke up very peacefully, not startled or particularly sad, just like opening my eyes naturally after sleep satiation.I remembered everything in and out of the dream, and vaguely felt that this was the reunion with Zhou Jingwen after a long absence.