start learning to love you

My parents' memorial day is here and I showed up at the cemetery as promised. My sister's eyes were red and swollen, and her shoulders were shaking violently. She has been crying for an hour. Under her extremely powerful appearance, she hides a soft and fragile heart. .I looked at her side face and suddenly felt guilty. My sister used to like to laugh and play like me, but then her parents passed away suddenly and in order to take care of me when I was young, her smile was covered by ice.

Small raindrops were scattered in the sky, I raised my face to let the cool rain hit my face, sister, don't cry, I'm still here, don't cry.

We stood in front of our parents' tombstones like this for a long time. When we got back into the car, my sister Xiaoya hugged me. At that moment, my sister curled up in Xiaoya's arms like a child who had found warmth. hair.I drove them back to their residence and left the car alone. Sister Xiaoya said to me when helping her into the house, "Jinse, how could you break your sister's heart."

I was stunned in place, the rain was getting bigger and bigger, walking in the rain and watching the pedestrians running past in a hurry, my footsteps finally stopped in front of that beautiful lakeside villa, time situation, how are you, I really want You, I really miss you.After returning to the rental house that night, I had a high fever in the middle of the night. In my dream, I saw Shijing approaching me with a smile, but she was holding Wu Man’s hand beside her. In my dream, I saw my deceased parents stretching out their hands to me. Let me go over to them.

I don't know how long I slept, but after waking up and looking at the snow-white ceiling, I suddenly wanted to cry, but now it's all right, no one is in charge of me, I'm free.

Dragging her sick body to work, Sister Zhu is very serious in her work, and she asks not to reveal a little bit. She not only has high standards for herself, but also for the people who work with her. After I stayed up for two nights to organize After reading the information, I finally couldn't bear it anymore.I called Shijing and I was crying on the phone, and I said, "Why are you so cruel, let me go when I say go, why are you so bad, you lost me and ran away with others." Soon Shijing came to the address I gave and took me back. On the familiar bed, she hugged me and gave me stomach medicine to lull me to sleep.

"Hmm...uncomfortable." It was rare to sleep without a dream, and finally woke up by my stuffy nose. Shi Jing turned over and lay on top of me, broke my face and asked me why I was uncomfortable, and I said I couldn't breathe and my body was limp. She advised me to go to the hospital, and I agreed, because I also felt that the illness was really serious this time.

When I arrived at the hospital, I went through the hospitalization procedures. The doctor said that it was a viral flu, and I had to be hospitalized for observation. Could it be that I just caught a cold and had a fever? Why are you so serious?I was lying on the hospital bed staring at my two eyeballs spinning around, and when Shijing finished the hospitalization procedures and came back, he washed the strawberries for me.

"I had a fever yesterday. Don't worry about what I said. Thank you for sending me to the hospital." It's really crazy why I opened my mouth like this. She didn't think it was accidental. When it came to my mouth, I said again: "You go back to work, I can do it by myself, I guess I can be discharged from the hospital tomorrow, please." She looked at me with the box in her hand without saying a word, and after a long time she got up and carried the bag He left the ward and never came back.

I thought she must have really left, so I fell asleep, and when I opened my eyes again, my sister and Xiaoya appeared in sight. As soon as I saw my sister, I immediately sat upright.

"Why are you sitting so upright?" Sister Xiaoya stuffed a lollipop into my mouth and joked with a smile. I held the stick of the lollipop and looked left and right, but didn't dare to speak to my sister.

"Why are you dumb? I didn't know how to shout when I saw your sister. Don't tell me you want to sever ties with me." My sister opened the mouth first, and I naturally wanted to use the slope to get off the donkey. I quickly put on a grinning face. He opened his mouth and said to his sister: "How dare I, didn't I just think about how to praise my sister for being beautiful, my sister is the most beautiful woman in the world, there is no one, hehe."

"Grumpy"

"hey-hey"

"Fever for a few days"

"Today is the third day."

"You have a fever, don't you know?"

"I know, I had a fever when I went back that night. I didn't have any medicine, and I was too anxious to buy it at work. Didn't I end up in the hospital?"

"Oh, it's quite natural."

"Well, I will definitely buy a lot of medicines when I leave the hospital tomorrow, so I can save myself a trip to this hellish place." Although I said it humorously, my body was so stiff that both my parents died on the emergency table. There is an inexplicable sense of fear in the hospital, and I will not come here unless I am killed as a last resort.

"Why are your hands shaking so much?"

"Is there, no." I subconsciously raised my palm to look at it, how did it shake like this, I was so timid, I secretly scolded myself for being worthless.

My sister stayed with me in the hospital until after ten o'clock in the evening. When she and sister Xiaoya left, she also called Shijing out. I don't know what they were muttering at the door of the ward. The only sentence I heard was that my sister said The sentence: "She is my only sister, the only sister."

When Shi Jing came back, her face was not very good-looking, but she still showed an ugly smile in front of me. I know that her life is not much better than mine, and my sister must have caused her troubles during this period. .She fell asleep by the bed at night, and I could even feel the exhaustion emanating from her body. She didn't go to work the next day but stayed with me in the hospital until I finished the last drop bottle.

"Thank you, I'm fine, you go back, I can go back by subway, don't affect your work."

She seemed to want to say something to me, but in the end she got into the car parked on the side of the road and drove away. On the way back to the rental house, I received a message from Shijing, a very simple sentence, take good care of me Own.

Looking at the standard font on the phone, I whispered softly, you too, take good care of yourself.

After returning to work, I started to get busy again, and the time flowed away in the busy work gap. The New Year is here, and we, who are chasing our dreams, also stop and get ready to make great strides next year.

I didn't go to my sister's place on Christmas because of work, and I didn't go to the dinner party on New Year's Day. I took a taxi and went straight to my grandma's house on the 31st of Chinese New Year. Late set.

"Master, I won't sit anymore, how much money."

"forty"

"For you" I got out of the car in the middle of the main road, wrapped my coat and ran to the intersection next to the road. I passed a jewelry store on the commercial street. In the store, I saw a platinum necklace and a pair of rings. The diamonds are Inlaid in gold, it looks very low-key and unassuming.After asking, the price tags add up to less than [-], which is still within the acceptable range. I took out my card, swiped it, packed it, and left the store.It's just that when I was walking towards my grandma's house with the gift box in my hand, I looked at the small bag in my hand and thought, who did I buy it for? Now I'm alone.

After walking for an hour and 45 minutes, I finally arrived at the place. When I entered the house, my first thought was to find a warm baby to cover my hands.

"Shijing, why are you here?" Shijing accompanied grandma to water the flowers in the small garden. I held Nuan Baobao and stared at her in disbelief. At this time, grandma entered the house from the outside and kept saying, "Shijing Come to see me every week, not like you heartless little thing."

"Hehe, I'm busy with work."

"Busy, you are the only one who has a job, why do people know to come and see me, an old lady, to talk to me."

"She... that's for receiving a big red envelope tonight."

"Hmph, this is what you thought."

"Hey, why can't you hide anything from grandma, you have sparkling eyes, how much do you plan to give to Jinse this year, five thousand or ten thousand."

“Not a dime”

Grandma entered the house and Shi Jing and I stood in the small yard. I raised my hand and handed the two small bags to her and said, "It's not as valuable as what you bought. I give it to you. Happy New Year." She took the box I opened it and looked up at me. I smiled and said, "Shijing, I wanted to put on the ring for you and tell you the three words I love you. When I just bought it, I thought of that picture again. That's what I thought when I was 17."

She silently took out the ring and put it on the ring finger of her left hand without saying a word. I felt sad and walked over to hold her left hand and pulled out the ring, then bent down and kissed the back of that fair hand.My sister is here, sister Xiaoya is here, all my brothers and sisters are here, they came to the yard one after another, and watched with their own eyes that I knelt on one knee and put on that unglamorous diamond ring for Shijing.Her tears hit the palm of my hand, and I held those teardrops tightly and placed them on my heart, burning like fire.

I looked at my sister's angry eyes, and kissed the lips of the situation, Xiao Jinse, be brave again, don't run, don't hide, let them take a look at you, it is possible and capable.

"Believe me?" After the long kiss, I leaned into her ear and sighed, "Believe" is the answer she gave, so no matter what difficulties I encounter in the future, I will never let go of your hand again, let you go, my favourite.