start learning to love you

We didn't go home that night. It was the first time I stayed at Shijing's mother's house. My uncle was friendly to me, and my aunt's attitude towards me was not too bad.

Walking into Shijing's bedroom and looking at the empty water glass on the table, it must have been used by Wu Man just now. I suddenly grabbed Shijing's hand and felt uncomfortable. Has she already used all of Shijing's things? , even the elders who opposed their being together at the beginning now want the two of them to get back together.

Shijing told me to take a shower first, and she went out first, I nodded and took the nightgown she handed me and went into the bathroom. When I was washing my hair, I vaguely heard my aunt's voice, and she said: " Wu Man has looks and ability now, he is no better than Xiao Jinse, she still likes you, didn’t you also like her before, even if you choose a woman, you have to choose a good one, why do I have to find a good girl like me Eat soft rice."

After taking a shower, I casually dried my hair. Shijing didn't come into the house until I went to see Duke Zhou. The next day I woke up very late, and the people around me had already gone to work after getting up from the bed.After washing my face and going downstairs, my aunt saw the disgust on my face, she said: "Throw away the garbage when you leave, and wash your clothes yourself in the future. Don't let my baby do it for you. It's dirty to death."

"Oh, I see." I lowered my head and took two slices of bread that were placed on the table in my mouth. I walked out of Shi's house in a dingy manner, threw the rubbish into the trash can at the corner, and got on the bus. When I came to the job fair, I thought in my heart that it would be better to live than to die, so let's make do with it.

I don't know if it's memorizing or my request is too much. For a month in a row, no company let me go for an interview, not even a phone call to notify me of the written test.I went to my sister's house on Sunday. Sister Xiaoya was very happy today. She said that her sister bought her a limited-edition sports car and said that she would drive me for a ride later.

My sister and Shi Jing went upstairs and didn't know what they said. After going downstairs, the faces of the two of them were not very good. My sister saw me lift my foot and kicked my leg. I immediately got up and made room for the queen. Nook to sit and play games.

"I think this graduate student has been studying in vain. It's been a month, not to mention a decent job, but he hasn't even found an internship job. It's a shame to our Xiao family."

"He worked so hard to find it, and I don't need to do anything about it." I muttered indignantly, but my sister's ears are too sensitive. My voice is so small that I can't even hear it when I'm sitting next to me. Clear, but my sister listened to everything without saying a word.I think that if my sister lived in ancient times, she would definitely become a peerless heroine. She slapped me on the back, so that I didn’t faint directly. I shrank my neck and hid behind the time. My sister's motivation to amused her was gone.My sister said that I was worthless, that I was embarrassing to her, that I couldn't keep up with the heat, and that I looked like I didn't know that the sky was falling, and I didn't know that I was in a hurry, which made her mad.

I really want to say, I am in a hurry, why not in a hurry, I should say that I was not in a hurry before, but after that night, I suddenly realized that the situation where there are talented wolves and tigers and leopards makes me feel bad .Now it's not a question of whether I should think clearly about whether I can give Shijing a promise, but as long as I'm not careful, Shijing will abandon me at any time and go away with another woman.If you ask me if I want to take the risk of being together, I'm definitely hesitant, but if you ask me if you want to watch another woman hold Shijing's hand with your own eyes, I will definitely say no.

My baby is suffering, but who can I tell it to? I can’t say it. I’m sorry. I accidentally overheard the content of your private conversation, and even more so, I accidentally heard that you and Wu Man still miss each other. Kind of words.This month I got up early and ran late every day, but I can’t blame me if I can’t find a job. Now that the market is in a downturn, apart from fraudulent companies and individual outdoor companies, all of them are being included, okay?I am so anxious that my mouth is full of fire bubbles. None of you black-hearted guys really noticed me. Didn’t you realize that I even drink less water now? What? Get angry, hum, you are all bad sisters, so I will ignore you.

I muttered in my heart for a while, but in the end I was frightened by my sister's wink, and obediently got up and went to listen to her reprimand, who told me that I am not up to date and have no ability, let's admit it.

"Jinse, cool or not." Sister Xiaoya drove her sports car to take me to the high speed at night. I was wearing a seat belt thinking about a large shopping mall I went to a few days ago. Their manager said that there was a lack of people in the warehouse. If you want to do it, you can go there and try it.

"Jinse"

"what"

"what do you think"

"Oh, job hunting."

"Would you like me to contact the contact person for you? Your sister really doesn't know how to help you move around."

"No need, I can do it myself, hehe." Sister Xiaoya looked at me with sympathy, she sent me back to the time realm before driving back, standing at the door, I suddenly didn't want to go into this door again.The phone rang after half an hour, "Hello..."

"Where is it? Xiaoya said that she has sent you back, and where did she go to play again? Tell me the address and I will pick you up."

"No, I'm at the door, let's go in now." Hang up the phone, press the password, open the door and enter the house, take off your shoes, go upstairs and enter the bedroom, Shijing is still working See me enter the door and put down the documents in my hand Get me my nightgown, and go into the bathroom to get me the bathwater.

"Go in, why don't you go in when you get home, what kind of nerves do you have?"

"Well, you're busy and I'm going to take a shower." I don't know why I suddenly felt that what my sister said seemed to make sense. How can I compare it with Wu Man? I still have outstanding appearance. Neither of these two things seems to be dominant, so I was very depressed when I took a shower.

In fact, I was very afraid of having a particularly intimate physical contact with her after I got the time environment before I went to college. At night, I quietly put my hand into her nightgown. She didn't move or stop me, but I violently My heartbeat and churning stomach kept me from making an aggressive move, and I withdrew my palm to grasp her fingers on the side of her body, fortunately, there were still no decorations on the fingers.

I ended up going to that supermarket and became a warehouse clerk. Every day I wore gray overalls and took a notebook and climbed up and down the high shelves to check the goods.

After working for a week, I gradually became familiar with my friends. Our back office manager is very good. When she gave us a meeting, she said that as long as you work hard, you won’t just stay in the dark forever. I remember this sentence in I wrote a small notebook and started to work hard.

"Hey, my old waist, come and give me a hand."

"Jinse, this is not enough. I'm not strong enough. I need to exercise. Let's go for a run in the morning."

"I'll go, how old are you and how old are I? Do you hear me? It's not big or small."

"It's inappropriate for you to be called sister at such a young age. You see, when we go out, they all say that I am older than you."

"Hehe, it really is, a model of premature aging."

"Hey, the few of us went out to drink at night and got caught together."

"No, my waist is hurting like hell, I have to go home and lie down."

"You're really twisted, you're not kidding."

"I'll go, whoever is joking with you, quickly help me to sit for a while."

After work, a few colleagues went out to drink together. I squeezed onto the subway with my old waist. I really wanted to yell at the old lady who squeezed me: "You are so physically strong and let us young people give up your seat. They're all old bastards, and they're all relying on their elders to sell their elders, so why don't they go to the Olympics if they're so crowded."

But when I got home, I wanted to lay down on the bed and lie down comfortably for a while, but I didn't expect to hear Shi Jing and my sister's noise as soon as I entered the door.

"What's the matter with Wu Man? If you don't want to get along with Jinse, you can break up with her quickly and kick her out of your life. Jinse is young and ignorant. Maybe you are 30 years old. Don't you understand why?"

"Wu Man and I are just a cooperative relationship, and we have no other contacts other than normal work handover."

"Are you lying to ghosts, time, what was the relationship between you two before, lovers, a pair of lovers who are so inseparable, don't tell me that you have forgotten her. Don't tell me that you have not You are looking for Jinse, not because you have fantasies that one day she can come back and take away your people and heart again."

"Jin Yan, we have been friends for so many years, am I this kind of person in your heart? Well, let me tell you the truth, when I was with your sister, I was really only because of sustenance, because of the void, because she can fill it Let’s talk about the missing position of Wu Man, I once regarded her as Wu Man, you are satisfied with this.”

"You are shameless, Jinse was only 17 years old at that time, how could you deceive a child who is not yet an adult."

"Yes, I was very sad and helpless at that time. Could it be my fault that you brought her into my life when I was most empty?"

"It's not your fault, it's my fault, it's all my fault."