Just right

Li Zihao's words are so light that they can be blown away by a gust of wind, but to Xiang Zheng's ears, they are as heavy as gold, and he is firmly nailed to the spot. He looks at Li Zi who is standing in front of him. The pickaxe, obviously within reach of one's hand, already seems to be separated by thousands of mountains and rivers.

"Why, how could this happen?" Xiang Zheng was trembling all over, he didn't dare to look at the bouquet of flowers on the ground, "Ah, auntie..."

That Chen Ziyi who is always cautious in front of Li Zihao, that Chen Ziyi who is happy and overwhelmed after knowing that she is Li Zihao's friend, that Chen Ziyi who makes a living by dancing and singing in the sea flowers and who has raised Li Zihao so well, Are you gone...

"Remember that day, the last time we met, I slapped you at the school gate."

This was the first time they talked about that day after their reunion. Seeing Xiang Zheng's twinkling eyes and trembling body, Li Zihao tried his best to resist the urge to hug him tightly, "Then I ran home."

Xiang Zheng almost blurted out, "But you weren't there when I chased after you."

"Yeah, why am I here?" Li Zihao smiled wryly, "As soon as I opened the door, I saw the person I least wanted to see in my life."

Speaking of this, Li Zihao's whole body tensed up, his hands hanging on both sides of his body were involuntarily clenched into fists, and his joints were bluish white due to excessive force.

Xiang Zheng paused, a little uncertain, "Your father?"

Li Zihao's eyes froze when he heard these two words, "It's him." Then he took a deep breath, "You should always want to know why I disappeared in the first place, you must have hated me back then."

Xiang Zheng was still in great shock and didn't notice the trill at the end of the sentence just now. After a while, he shook his head, "I don't hate you."

I have blamed you, but I don't hate you because I can't bear it.

"Really." Li Zihao was stunned for a moment, the answer was beyond his expectation, "But I hate you."

Xiang Zheng's heart twitched violently, Li Zihao's words were like an invisible big hand tightly grasping his heart.

Hate him, his chestnut cake said he hated him.

"Don't you want to know the reason, then I'll tell you the reason today." Li Zihao sniffed, pointing his hand downwards with a gesture of breaking the boat, "At this intersection, I was almost hit by a car, My mother... my mother was hit by a car a few meters away in order to save me."

Li Zihao squatted down slowly, rubbing his hands on the road beside the bouquet, "Right here, she was lying here at that time, that was the last time I saw her in my memory, blood kept flowing from her mouth and body It flowed out, dyeing the snow-white skirt red..."

Xiang Zheng was in a daze at this moment, he opened his mouth but couldn't make a sound.

The flicker in Li Zihao's eyes hurt Xiang Zheng's heart. He knew how hard Li Zihao had to endure to keep his tears from shedding. He knew that he would be pushed away, but Xiang Zheng still couldn't help but want to hug Li Zihao. Zihao, he couldn't just watch and do nothing, even if he did, it wouldn't help.

He took a step forward, hugging him tightly in his arms, stroking Li Zihao's trembling back with his palm, "It's all over, don't be afraid, let's go home."

Li Zihao's eye sockets were instantly moist, and the tears he had endured for a long time were about to burst out of his eyes, but he forcefully forced him back, he pushed Xiang Zheng away, "No, I want to be alone now."

Xiang Zheng was taken aback for a moment, Li Zihao's words scared him more than the empty arms, "That, that, I will take you where you want to go, and I will pick you up later."

"No need for Xiang Zheng, you didn't understand what I meant." Li Zihao shook his head, avoiding his eyes that dared not look directly at Xiang Zheng, "I don't want to go back to your house."

"Then you..." Xiang Zheng couldn't even utter a complete sentence now.

Li Zihao's words were clearly heard in his ears, he was talking about your home, not their home.

"I'll go to Qu Jingtong's first, or Si Qi's is fine. I think we all need to calm down now."

"Fucking calm down, I don't want to be fucking calm!" Xiang Zheng couldn't take it anymore, he grabbed Li Zihao's arm so that he could no longer hide from himself, "Li Zihao, you still haven't listened to me It’s not fair to sentence me to death if I explain it!”

Li Zihao hurt a little from his grip, and he wanted to break free but couldn't, "Okay, tell me."

"I'm sorry about what happened to Auntie, but I want to tell you that I didn't do what happened that time. I took the video, but I didn't want to show it to anyone. The phone fell on the roof the day before. I don't fucking know."

"Later it was found out that Liu Wei did it. He took my phone and took a screenshot of the picture and released it. He is taking revenge!"

"Are you finished?" Li Zihao asked.

Xiang Zheng was taken aback for a moment and nodded.

"I see, thank you for telling me the truth." Li Zihao twitched at him, "So can you let me go now?"

"I won't let go." Xiang Zheng said stubbornly without letting go, like a child protecting candy, "Don't go."

Don't leave me alone.

"Fair, how can there be fairness in this world!" Li Zihao pursed his lips tightly, stretched out his hand and pushed Xiang Zheng away forcefully, "Is it fair to me for Liu Wei to post my photo on the school bulletin board for revenge? Is it fair for my mother to be hit by a car to save me?!"

"You want fairness from me, so who do you want my fairness from, and who do you want my mother's fairness from?" Li Zihao looked at Xiang Zheng and shook his head, and said the most ruthless and hurtful words, "You still want to be fair?" Don’t understand? Xiang Zheng, if you didn’t beat Liu Wei then, maybe he wouldn’t have picked up your phone and involved me in order to get revenge on you, then I wouldn’t have run home in a fit of anger, and I wouldn’t have bumped into that man. After that conversation, I won’t run out in a fit of anger and don’t even look at the car, so my mother won’t get hit by a car just because of me.”

Xiang Zheng was shocked, "I..."

Li Zihao gritted his teeth, "It's all because of you, are you satisfied with this answer, can you let me go?"

Xiang Zheng's hand drooped down, and every word Li Zihao said just now was like a sharp dagger, stabbing his heart continuously until it was dripping with blood.Before this moment, he had thought about countless reasons why Li Zihao left him, but it was not like this now, it was beyond recognition that he couldn't bear it at all.

Seeing that he stopped talking, Li Zihao took a deep look, turned around and stepped out of Xiang Zheng's sight step by step in the opposite direction, but Xiang Zheng stood still and could only watch him go, there was nothing he could do, he didn't In order to retain his position and qualifications, his eyes did not leave Li Zihao's back for a second until that thin and stubborn figure completely disappeared.

Xiang Zheng's legs went limp and he squatted on the ground, his head buried deeply between his arms. The feeling of powerlessness that year swept over again, engulfing him whole.

What he couldn't see was that Li Zihao burst into tears the moment he turned around.

It was dark when Xiang Zheng drove home. He parked like a soulless shell, sat in the car for a long time without knowing what to think, then got out of the car and closed the door and pressed the elevator. Standing at the door of the house, he suddenly lost the courage to enter the password. After leaving Li Zihao's house, it must have become empty again.

Pushing the door open, what greeted him was not the darkness of the room, which made his heart beat wildly, and he rushed over without changing his shoes, "Li Zihao!"

"Damn it, where the hell have you been, and you know you're coming back." Qiu Wencheng put the phone aside and complained, "You didn't answer the number of calls you made, and where did you hang out with your family?"

Xiang Zheng looked at Qiu Wencheng who was sitting on the sofa in the living room, "..."

It wasn't him, he said it himself, he wasn't coming back.

Xiang Zheng, wake up your fucking mind.

"Fuck you, aren't you? I just said a few words to you, why are you crying?" Qiu Wencheng was frightened by Xiang Zheng, so he hurried over, "Oh, don't cry, I've been looking for you all day long Now, you can't even let me complain, it's not fair."

Unexpectedly, these two words stepped on Xiang Zheng's painful feet, he pushed Qiu Wencheng away, "Fucking fairness, shit!"

Qiu Wencheng was pushed and staggered unpreparedly by him, and he was a little anxious, "Why are you so crazy all of a sudden!"

Xiang Zheng didn't speak, but his reaction was enough to explain everything. Qiu Wencheng understood it all at once, "Where is Li Zihao... The two of you are talking about it?"

"Fuck, I knew it."

Xiang Zheng was shocked, "What do you know?"

"How much did you two talk about today?" Qiu Wencheng glanced at him, "I know what you know, and I know what you don't."

"What do you mean?"

Qiu Wencheng sighed, patted his legs and got up, "Let's go, let me show you something."

"where to?"

"my home."

……

Li Zihao wandered on the road for a long time, but he didn't go to Si Qi's house after all. What he needs now is not a child who asks questions, but an adult who can tolerate him silently.

Now he doesn't want to hear anything, he doesn't want to say anything, he just wants to find a place to lie down.

The doorbell rang, and the door opened quickly, "So fast, I don't have any money...Li Zihao?!"

Qu Jingtong, who was pulling on his slippers, stood inside the door and looked at Li Zihao in surprise. He put the money in his pocket, and moved away to let Li Zihao in. gone?"

Li Zihao walked into the room, "Because I have nowhere to go." After speaking, he fell headlong on the sofa and curled up.

Qu Jingtong frowned as he looked at him. He was no stranger to Li Zihao who looked like this. When he first met him in England, he looked like a half-dead man. He finally got better now. Why did it only take a few days? If you don't see it, you will return to before liberation?

"What happened?" He took a thin blanket to cover Li Zihao, sat down and asked.

Li Zihao quickly wrapped the booth tightly, his face shrunk inside, and a muffled voice came from inside, "Xiang Zheng and I..."

"broke up?"

"No..." Li Zihao sniffed, "But it's almost there."

"I think you're both serious, what's going on?" Qu Jingtong didn't look like he was joking, and patted his leg, "I don't know what's wrong with you two today, I don't think you want to say it, and it's okay. I think you need to calm down, get some sleep, and maybe everything will be fine when you wake up."

Li Zihao didn't say a word, if he can get well after sleeping, then can he go back to that time if he sleeps now, if he can, he won't choose to slap Xiang Zheng and run away, he will listen to his explanation, so that There will be nothing that happened later, his mother will not die, and he and Xiang Zheng don't have to go around for so long and end up falling apart.

He heard a very soft sigh through the blanket, and he didn't know whether Qu Jingtong was speaking to him or talking to himself, "It's not easy to have someone who loves you and you love, especially when you are alive. For us like this, there is nothing more important than being with each other for the rest of our lives. Since there is love, there are no barriers to overcome."

Li Zihao was startled, he suddenly remembered what Zhang Zhen said earlier, compared with love, those hates are nothing.

He covered his face, tears wet his palms, and as soon as they came out from between his fingers, his body trembled uncontrollably.

Qu Jingtong looked at the trembling stall and sighed.

It was only a few thin pages, but Xiang Zheng's hands kept shaking, "This..."

Qiu Wencheng looked at him, "That's all you want to know."

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