After being scum, I sent the scum to the crematorium

"Are you happy?"

Zhou Xun once met an interviewer from a small column group on the street.The young host smiled and asked him this question.

So he also smiled and replied: "Of course..."

And that day was the day he only slept for two or three hours a day for a week.His eyes were red and bloodshot, and there were thick dark circles under his eyes.

I remember that when he just graduated, he and Qin Yusheng started a business together.With no money in hand, he could only live in a cramped rental house.

After returning from running business every day, I have to cook and clean.

But at the time, he really felt that life was fulfilling and sparkling.

Being able to stay away from that haunted home and live with the one I love the most.

And later...

Later, the company grew bigger and bigger.He finally had more rest time, but also suffered from insomnia.I often close my eyes, and the sky dawns before I know it.Feel very light.

It has been a long time since I slept so deeply like now.

It might be strange to say that, but Zhou Xun clearly realized that he was sleeping.

Can hear people talking.The sound was long and slow, like a lullaby.

The arm is a little numb.There seems to be sunlight passing through the window and sprinkled on the shoulders, which is extremely warm.

Where is he now?

"Searching……"

"Zhou Xun..."

"stand up!"

The last sentence made Zhou Xun wake up suddenly.He opened his eyes suddenly, and saw a familiar but unfamiliar man standing in front of him.

The man had a beer belly and a ruler in his hand.

"Sleeping soundly?"

As soon as the words fell, there was a roar of laughter.

Zhou Xun was still in a daze.

"Let you go up and answer the questions, and you are here to cheer me up."

The man tapped the table with his ruler a few times, "Either go up now, or go out and stand for me."

Zhou Xun followed his line of sight and saw that there was a blackboard in front of him, and several math problems were listed in sequence.Several students in school uniforms were already standing in front of the blackboard, leaving only one seat vacant.

Zhou Xun squinted his eyes.

Are you dreaming?

Although more than ten years have passed, it is obviously his school uniform in high school.The man in front of me was also very familiar, he seemed to be a high school math teacher.

Have you ever dreamed about yourself in high school?

why?

Because of the class reunion?

The math teacher was still sitting there when he saw people, and became impatient: "Are you so sleepy? Doing the questions..."

Before he finished speaking, he saw the boy standing up in front of him.

Math teacher: "That's right..."

Then, seeing the other party turn around and walk out of the classroom.

math teacher:"…"

He became angry with embarrassment, "You stand outside for me! You are not allowed to come in before get out of class is over!"

The students laughed privately.

"What's wrong with that guy? He actually contradicted Niu Lao?"

"Oh, I think he's sleepwalking in a daze."

"I can't do such a simple question. How did you get into our high school?"

Mathematics teacher Niu was very angry and slapped the ruler: "Stop gossiping. You, go up!"

The face of the classmate who was talking nonsense fell down, and he walked up to the podium unwillingly.

Leaving the noisy classroom, Zhou Xun didn't stay, but went to the toilet.

He now wants to confirm one thing as soon as possible.

High school toilets remain a vague impression in memory.The entrance is the sink, and the inside is the urinal and squat toilet.In order to save costs, the school does not install doors in all squat toilets.

Therefore, squat toilets are hardly used by anyone.

With a quick glance, he looked into the mirror.

The person in the mirror is very young, with no wrinkles on his face, very immature.It's just that there is a trace of confusion in the eyes, and it seems that the status quo has not been sorted out.

Zhou Xun raised his hand, and the person in the mirror also raised his hand.

He pushed down his glasses, and the person in the mirror followed suit.

He froze, and the person in the mirror also froze.

"... "

This is me in high school.

When he was in high school, he had just experienced the death of his grandmother, so he came to his mother's house to be a "troublesome outsider".The whole person is out of his mind.

It should be the most wanton and flamboyant age, but it is too dull and gloomy.As if he had lost his soul, he flinched and stopped.

——Just like myself at the age of 28.

Zhou Xun twitched the corner of his mouth.

He thought he had changed.But whether it is ten years later or ten years ago, it seems to be the same.

Zhou Xun took off his glasses and turned on the faucet.

He desperately wants to wake up now.If you do this, you might be able to wake up from the dream.

The water in the faucet is just as I remember it, whether it is hot summer or cold winter, it is cold water.

In the third year of high school, in order not to let himself fall asleep in class, he would come to wash his face after almost every class.

The cold water irritates the skin and tightens the pores.

Zhou Xun listened to the sound of water, and the water dripped down his chin drop by drop.Raising his head, the boy's hair in the mirror was also a little wet.His lacquered eyes were as deep as crow feathers.

He paused and turned off the water.

Zhou Xun hates his face very much, because it is the combination of the most hated parents.

Especially those eyes, exactly the same as that of the alcoholic and domestic violence father.He looked at himself as if he saw his former father.

So, even though he had normal eyesight, he still begged his grandma to give him a pair of glasses.From then on, the world is blurred and no longer scary.

Zhou Xun wiped his face with his cuff.

Even so, he didn't wake up, but it made him more aware of his current situation.

He is now standing in the men's bathroom in high school, and the layout is exactly the same as he remembers.

There is a big tree outside the window of the men's toilet.The big tree is new green, and the buds are emerging.It seems that spring has just arrived and the weather is slightly cool.

Classes are going on outside.When I first left the house, the door plate said Grade One【3】Class.

Based on the above, one conclusion can be drawn.

——I probably went back 13 years ago, when I was just in high school.And it was in the first half of the semester of high school.

When he graduated from the third year of junior high school, he got the news of the death of his grandmother who raised him.Entering the door of his biological mother and stepfather's house, he started a life of being rejected.

Then met Qin Yusheng.He thought that the other party was the god who pulled him out of hell, but he didn't want the other party to be the demon who cut the spider's thread.

Zhou Xun put the glasses in his pocket.

in case……

If this is not a dream, if God really heard his wish and planned to give him another chance...

He closed his eyes.

Then it must never happen again.

This time, I can no longer live to please others; I can no longer live to avoid being rejected.Even for the sake of his deceased grandma, he had to fight for his breath.

Whether it's the "family" or Qin Yusheng, it has nothing to do with him anymore.

Study hard and get ahead.

Let grandma in that world see that she can live well by herself.

The school bell rang.

Thinking that it would be troublesome for the math teacher to find out that he was not there, Zhou Xun walked out of the toilet.

There were already many students in the corridor, and they almost rushed out to breathe after class.Zhou Xun looked at the door and found that the math teacher had already left.

Apologize later.

Zhou Xun thought to himself.Although this matter may have been familiar to the teacher, he still wants to study hard now.Now starting from 0, it is inevitable to ask a teacher for advice in many places.

He looked at the blackboard full of writing, and found that he couldn't even understand the title.

It is said that the most knowledgeable age of a person is in the third year of high school, and then it plummets.

Not to mention that he went to college and worked in the society for several years, so he had completely forgotten many basic concepts.

The only fortunate thing is that I was not reborn before the third year of high school.It is less than a year since high school started, so there should be time to make up.

Perhaps it was because he stood by the door for too long, a girl walked up timidly: "Student, classmate, who are you looking for?"

Zhou Xun looked over.

He only felt that this girl looked familiar, but he had completely forgotten her name.

Does it mean that the other party doesn't remember his name, and doesn't even know he's in the same class?

Zhou Xun once again felt how badly he was doing.

"My class..."

He replied and returned to his seat.

The female classmate kept staring at him from behind, until she saw him sitting down, and then she yelled like a ghost: "Damn!"

"My ears!" The people nearby covered their ears, "What's your ghost name?"

"That person is Zhou Xun?" The girl grabbed the sister nearby, "Wearing or not wearing glasses is too different, I didn't even recognize it just now!"

The sisters also looked over.At this time Zhou Xun was hanging his head, taking out all the textbooks.

"Fuck!"

Then she called out too.

Zhou Xun is thin, but he is 1.8 meters tall.Originally, she should have many admirers based on her height alone.But he usually has a hunchback, long bangs and glasses, like an otaku, so few people pay attention to him.

Now that he took off his glasses, he has the air of a gloomy and beautiful boy.

The girls started whispering among themselves.Zhou Xun only focused on flipping through his textbooks, but didn't pay much attention to what was being said around him.

After seeing the cover of the textbook, he paused slightly.

The cover has been drawn and written a lot of curse words.

Sissy, low IQ, get out of our class...

Zhou Xun remembered that he would wrap the book in a leather case every time.But those people would write new swear words on the book cover, and day after day, he gave up resisting.After all, new book covers also cost money.

He never fought against these people, and he never told the teacher.Because once this is done, the teacher will tell the parents that the matter will become even bigger.

For him at the time, the last thing he wanted was to be hated by his mother.So I swallowed it all in silence.

Later, these people intensified, and the only one who extended a helping hand to him at that time was Qin Yusheng.

The face of that person suddenly appeared in his mind, and Zhou Xun shook his head.

In any case, the bullying in high school affected him deeply.But now he is an adult in his heart after all, looking back, he only feels extremely childish.

Zhou Xun opened the textbook.

There are also many pages inside that have been crossed and doodled, but there are no notes.It is estimated that he had given up struggling at that time.

He ignored the graffiti and flipped through the catalog quickly.

Although the school has just started, the teacher's progress is very fast.Basically, the textbook will be finished in a month, and then additional knowledge will be added.Remember that the process is basically to brush up the questions-the main topic is the lecture.

The content in the textbook is easy to understand, and some will involve the knowledge points of the previous semester.So I have to start reviewing from the first year of high school.

Zhou Xun was making plans in his mind, and he didn't notice anyone approaching him at all.

Until a hand snapped over and closed his textbook.

"The sissy can still study?" The man's tone was provocative, "No matter how hard you try, if you fail the exam, who will you show yourself to?"

Zhou Xun raised his eyes and looked over.

A slightly stout boy is shorter than himself.Although he was smiling, no matter how you look at that smile, he deserves a beating.

Zhou Xun immediately remembered this person.

Qi Hao...

After all, in the freshman year of high school, this person bullied him for a full year.

Zhou Xun no longer remembers the opportunity.Maybe not at all.

This person scolded him, found fault on purpose, and even beat someone, just because the other party thought he was unhappy.

The word sissy is just because he doesn't like sports and his hair is a bit longer than other male students.God knows he just doesn't have the money for a haircut.

"Hey, did you take off your glasses?" Qi Hao sarcastically said, "It's been so long since school started, who will show you your beauty? Do you think you are ugly because you wear glasses?"

Zhou Xun didn't care about appearance at all.Rather, this face that resembled his father also made him feel ugly.

So he pulled out the book without saying a word.

But just such an action made Qi Hao feel that he was being provoked.

"Who are you showing your temper for? Your skin is itchy, right?" Qi Hao said viciously, "Come out for me..."

He was originally in a bad mood to find fault.

Originally wanted to use Zhou Xun to calm down, but this sissy dared to resist him?

Following him were two or three boys in the same class, all of whom were unlearned and bad students in the school.

One laughed and said, "That's not good, it's time to go to class."

Another person: "Come on, you, class is not just playing games."

Zhou Xun looked at the three people expressionlessly.Then his gaze crossed his shoulders and landed on the blackboard behind him.

Today's date is written on the corner of the blackboard: [March 3]

He realized something, and couldn't help but grip the book tightly.

For these people, beatings and name-calling are commonplace, but usually just a few pushes.

But only on this day, Qi Hao didn't know why he was so angry that he dragged him to the toilet and beat him up, even attracting the teacher in charge.

He had never fought before, and he had no power to fight back in front of three of his peers, so he could only lie on the ground with his head in his arms.

And this is also the encounter between him and Qin Yusheng.

He and Qin Yusheng didn't know each other at that time.Again during class, no one else in the toilet came in.

But Qin Yusheng came.

He was lying on the dirty ground, embarrassed, his face was bruised and purple.

And Qin Yusheng was the hero who rescued him.