God, he's reborn

Lin Zhao was so excited by what Qin Muyang said, as if he was really a pillar of the country and could be admitted to Tsinghua University and Peking University in minutes.

After a while of enthusiasm, Lin Zhao calmed down: "I ranked first in the entrance examination because I have been studying hard for three years in junior high school, but I didn't study much in high school. Half of the three years in high school have passed, how can I do it?" Can catch up."

Qin Muyang didn't answer him, but changed the subject: "Can I ask you a question? Of course, you don't have to answer."

"what do you wish to ask?"

Qin Muyang asked: "Since you worked so hard to get into No. [-] Middle School, why did you give up after getting into No. [-] Middle School?"

Lin Zhao was silent.Many people asked him this question, and some people were curious even though they didn't ask, but he didn't say anything to anyone.

But the moonlight is beautiful tonight, which is very suitable for talking about what's on your mind.

"I don't know if you have heard about my family." Lin Zhao said without waiting for Qin Muyang to answer, "My mother ran away with someone when I was in elementary school, leaving me and my father to live together. Of course , I’m not discouraged from studying because of this. After all, my mother didn’t take care of me when she was at home. I don’t have deep feelings for her. It’s my dad who really hurt me. The two lived together for the rest of their lives, but he brought my stepmother into the door after my high school entrance examination, and my stepmother was still pregnant with a child."

"At the beginning, I also had a fight. Later, I saw that my father was too difficult between me and my stepmother, so I slowly compromised. I comforted myself that there should be as many people as there are in the family. Anyway, my father is still my father. You can't take him away."

"But it turns out that I was too naive. I was willing to let things go, but my stepmother didn't want to. She whispered to my father every day that she had nothing to do, saying that it is not easy to raise a child now, and the family's finances are not broad, so we should plan more everywhere. She also said that there are so many college students now, and spending so much money to study in college can't find a job. It's better to go out to work early and earn some money to subsidize the family. Anyway, the meaning behind the words is to let me stop studying and go to work .”

"Although I was very annoyed by her words, I didn't take them to heart, because I knew that my dad would never listen to her words. But who knows, the fact gave me a loud mouth."

"On the day I signed up for No. [-] Middle School, I didn't see my dad. I asked my stepmother where my dad had gone, and she told me proudly that my dad went to province Y to buy her tonic, and it would take two days. I can’t come back. I don’t believe it. My dad knew that those two days were the registration days for No. [-] Middle School, so how could he leave me and go to Province Y. I stood at the door waiting for him, waiting for him to come back and pay my tuition. I waited all this time. For two days, he didn't come back."

Lin Zhao laughed: "Did you know? When I was young, my dad said the most to me, 'Xiao Zhao, study hard, get into a good university in the future, find a good job, don't be like me, uneducated, just sell Coolie'. I studied as hard as he expected, but he didn't stay with me as I expected. Now that he has given up on me, why should I try my best to meet his expectations?"

"There may be some misunderstanding here." Qin Muyang said.

Lin Zhao looked at Qin Muyang, emotionally: "It's a fact that he found a stepmother for me, and it's also a fact that he didn't pay my tuition fees. He gave up on me even after he had a young son. What misunderstanding can there be?!"

Qin Muyang took back the words that came to his mouth, and gently patted Lin Zhao on the back to comfort him: "Lin Zhao, don't do this. The matter is over, and even if there is a mistake, it is their fault. Don't be sad."

Lin Zhao had been holding on until now, but when he was comforted by Qin Muyang, he immediately burst into tears: "I don't understand, my dad and I have always had a good life, why did it suddenly become like this. I waited He waited for him for two whole days without sleeping, why didn't he come back, why?!"

Although he later signed up for high school with the help of his junior high school teacher, and although Lin Junguo took good care of him later as if he wanted to compensate him, the two days of desperate waiting left an unhealable pain in his heart. No amount of compensation will help him.

Qin Muyang hugged Lin Zhao, who was crying out of breath, and secretly blamed himself. If he knew this question would bring back so many painful memories for Lin Zhao, he shouldn't have brought it up.

While blaming himself, he was also a little thankful that these things had been weighing too heavily in his heart, and as time went on, he became less able to speak out, and finally became an eternal shackle in his heart.In the previous life, Lin Zhao didn't ask, and he didn't ask, which led to the shackles that bound Lin Zhao for the rest of his life; but in this life, he asked, and Lin Zhao also said, maybe things will turn around.

In short, no matter what, he will not let the tragedy of the previous life happen again.