coward

He did not defend himself a single sentence, at the mercy of the law.

This incident set off a wave of controversy in the small town and then quickly subsided. No one paid attention to so many after-dinner tea thoughts.

Little people only appear on small stages.

Li Qinghe couldn't tell what he was feeling, he didn't want to think about it, it was too tiring.

The pain had bound him for ten years, and when he was truly loosened, the strangle marks had already penetrated into the flesh and skin and grew together.

Let it go, no matter whether it can really pass through Li Qinghe's heart.

People can be true to themselves and also compromise with themselves.

I am miserable, but I am not miserable.

Li Qinghe is still talking and laughing as before, arguing with his brother, and whining with his boyfriend, but it seems that he will never go back to the past.

Li Qinghe took a bunch of sunflowers and Li Xiluo to a small grove in the small town that was pretty nice.

This is where my mother lived for ten years.

Under the soil, the root gaps are mottled.

He came to this place many times when he was a child, and he even stole peaches from the small orchard next to him.

A foot away, there are still his engraved words on the mulberry tree.

miss mom.

The wind hurts the eyes.

The fog in August swallows everything.

Li Qinghe put the bunch of sunflowers under the mulberry tree.

Li Qinghe looked at the sunflower stretching its petals, which looked like the one outlined in the footer of the yellowed diary in his memory.

He curled up beside the mulberry tree, hugging his legs and burying his head in his arms.

The wind caressed, as if he was still nestled in his mother's arms.

Li Xiluo sat beside Li Qinghe, neither hugging nor comforting.Just next to him.

Li Xiluo raised her head, her eyes were red.

He said, "Mom, let's raise another wild dog."

Li Qinghe hugged his suppressed sobs back.

Biting Li Xiluo's clothes with his teeth, he refused to let go, trying to bury the roar that rose up in his throat.

Li Xiluo stuffed the small pendant into Li Qinghe's hand, and wrapped his knuckle hand together with Li Qinghe's.

The other end of the pendant was wrapped around his neck, and together with his body temperature and pulse, it was handed over to Li Qinghe.

………………

One day in September, the town was still hot and dry, and the summer had never been separated.

Li Zhenxing and his wife are here.

Li Xiluo froze for a moment when he saw them.

In the past half a year, I haven't had much contact with them.

family.

Of course, it broke up badly.

"What the hell are you thinking? It's wrong! Absurd!"

"How can our children be gay!"

"Since you are my son, how can you do such a bad thing!"

"Good boy, let's go and have a look. Now that the technology is so advanced, your parents will definitely be able to cure you."

"I don't have your son."

September was dumb and unable to speak, letting the cold wind push and scold and staggered to the ground.

"Yeah, you chose a bastard back then! You chose a gay! Goofing off and doing nothing!"

deserve it.They deserve it.

No one escaped.

"Let me go..." Li Xiluo said hoarsely, like a winter crow.

I was originally a wild dog, neither a good boy nor a good student, let alone an outstanding and arrogant kid.

Am I innocent?

It hurts too much to be a human being.

Let me go please……

Wu Guang sent off the guests with a cold face.

He hooked the necks of the two children and rubbed them one by one.

………………

The world is impermanent, the owner of the auto repair shop went bankrupt, and he took his original family property with him.

I am going to sell the auto repair shop and go back to my hometown for development.

Brother and Brother Jiaxing partnered to take over the store.

The auto repair shop reopened.

Even the skateboard on the wall of the store that has not been moved all year round was taken to fly again.

Brother Xi can also play the guitar. On the first night of the opening, several brothers dragged Li Xiluo and Li Qing and they had a row around the barbecue stand with beer bottles and a guitar for most of the night.

…………

Li Qinghe will start school in a few days, and Li Xiluo is still early, half a month away.

Wu Guang's birthday was early.

The two little ones said it.

Wu Guang wanted to laugh when he thought about the ugly bowl of noodles and the slobbering kiss since he raised a baby boy.

"Is it still here this year?"

"Ah, no matter how you say it, you have to have a good birthday." Li Qinghe said.

The two were arguing that Wu Guang made a wish, blew out the candles, cut the cake, and wanted his brother to wear a birthday hat. Wu Guang stared, "Have you grown up?"

"Not ugly brother!"

"Don't wear it! Take it away! Take care of him!"

The birthday of three people can also be noisy.

After drinking, Li Qinghe whispered in his brother's ear, brother, I love you.

Wu Guang was stunned for a long time, then raised his wine glass and mumbled, "It's really annoying."

Li Qinghe secretly wiped away tears.

In the end, the elder brother was held down by the two little ones and put on a birthday hat, and he was compared to scissors stupidly by breaking his hands.

The three brothers left a group photo.

The little ones are jubilant, and the big ones are laughing too.

My brother is 24 this year, but I always feel that he lives like an old man.

No matter eating or drinking, no love, no comparison and no vanity.

Stable enough to stand aside and move nothing.

My brother has a cut head, a scar on his brow bone, and he doesn't like to smile. At first glance, he looks fierce.

Brother never said love, and I rarely said it.He is so reserved that he never says certain things.

Brother, wait for me, when I grow up, my brother will give me a home.Oh, let's have another younger brother in our family, even though this younger brother is pretty fucked up.

…………

Li Xiluo and Li Qinghe went to the fields in the south.

The wild dog was ripped from the chain.

The endless fields meet the wind.

Green fields, clearings, old trees, sky.

The boy is running in the wind and laughing in the free wilderness.

The laughter here will fall on everyone who has experienced suffering.

End of the full text.

The author has something to say: it's over.

You and I are bound together,

Thanks for all the company.

Everyone has a different way to go, and it is unclear.

Let me just tell you how I feel about writing this article.

This article was written during the summer vacation after my senior year in high school, and it was completed after my military training at the university.

It's not long and the story is simple.

It turns out that the name is not a coward, but a child not to be brave.

Story Background The school is the high school campus where I lived for three years.

After graduating, I stumbled and grew up, and I suddenly wanted to write something on a whim, leave some words, and leave some thoughts for myself.

In fact, most of the time I am writing about myself, cowards are me and they are also.

The name coward does not have too deep meaning, everyone has their own unavoidable fear and helplessness.Timid, ordinary, ordinary, even low, inferiority complex, too common.

Living may be difficult or easy. Everyone's shackles and ties are different. I hope everyone has the courage to live.

Look forward, work hard, life is really not so good, let's make it less fucked up.

Goodbye, everyone.

Goodbye cowards.

Goodbye stupid kid.

Goodbye to my childhood, my youth, all my miseries.