Dip in fire

Zhu Ying froze in place.She and Zhang Weilan don't talk much, but they can probably feel each other's way of dealing with people. The opening is such a forceful bombardment, unlike Zhang Weilan.

"I have my reasons for coming here." Zhu Ying smiled, "I just think we need to have a good talk."

"There's nothing to talk about." Zhang Weilan was hot all over, and her bones were already scorched. "Xiao Huan doesn't want to go with you. It's useless for you to talk to me."

"It's useful." Zhu Ying looked at Zhang Weilan with indescribable eyes.

Zhang Weilan frowned, and just about to open his mouth to say something, Xiao Huan happened to come out from behind the door: "Brother? Brother, you are back..."

"...Auntie?" Xiao Huan slowly wrinkled her face when she saw Zhu Ying.

"Xiao Huan." Seeing Xiao Huan like this, Zhu Ying was inevitably a little disappointed, "I really don't like my aunt coming? My aunt came all the way here just to see you."

She pointed to the car outside the courtyard again: "Auntie brought you a gift."

Xiao Huan didn't respond, and stared at Zhang Weilan in a blink of an eye.

Da Duozi was still at Zhang Weilan's feet, uttering mournful cries, rubbing his head against Zhang Weilan's calf.

Zhang Weilan looked down at Da Duozi, ignored it, and said to Xiao Huan, "You go into the room first."

"...Oh." Xiao Huan looked at Zhang Weilan's face, she didn't want to enter the house for a while, but she couldn't resist her brother, so she could only go in first, close the bedroom door, and slump behind the door head.

"Come in." Zhang Weilan said to Zhu Ying, leaving Da Duozi to bask in the sun by herself in the courtyard.

"I'm sorry to bother you." Zhu Ying could also see that something had happened.At least from Zhang Weilan, she felt a suffocating low pressure.

This made it difficult for her to carry out the following conversation.

"We have nothing to do with each other. You came to me because it was Xiao Huan." Zhang Weilan poured water for Zhu Ying even if he didn't care.Now his head has exploded again, and he has the heart to strangle himself, so he doesn't care about those at all.

Zhu Ying didn't care about this either. When Zhang Weilan asked her straight to the point, she agreed, "Yes. You're right, I still want to take Xiaohuan away."

Zhang Weilan rubbed her eyebrows.One thing after another, nothing good, made him breathless: "So I said it a long time ago, this matter..."

"Xiao Huan can't take the initiative to leave you now." Zhu Ying suddenly interrupted, "You...you may not want to listen to me saying that. You are half-brothers, and you have grievances from the previous generation. I actually never thought that Xiao Huan could rely on you so much, and you could love this 'sister' so much."

Zhang Weilan closed her eyes and asked dryly, "What do you mean?"

"What I mean is, Xiao Huan actually only listens to you." Zhu Ying stared at Zhang Weilan intently, pressing her every step of the way, "In other words, if you want her to come with me, she will."

Zhang Weilan frowned, and said coldly: "It's a joke. Her choice..."

"You are a smart person. Is it true that you don't understand? Or is it intentional?" Zhu Ying didn't budge, "Her choice is yours. As long as you agree, she will be willing. Even if she is unwilling at first, she will gradually , she will also be willing. After all, she is only a child, and I have the patience to treat her well."

Zhang Weilan hated Zhu Ying's statement very much, because it was too harsh to say, and also because... that might be the reality.

"Exaggerated words." Zhang Weilan gritted her teeth and said.He took a deep breath to suppress his emotions.

Coming out of Yan Huiwan's ward, he couldn't control himself even more.Like an insane lunatic, he hates this state.This kind of him...Zhang Weilan's brain is dying, no matter what time it is, whether it is appropriate...Anyway, he misses Zhong Ning again.

—— Zhong Ning would not be happy to see him like this.

In the room not far from him, Zhong Ning was in pain, endured, wronged, and hardened, not to see him like this.

Zhang Weilan took a deep breath into the bottom of her lungs, and then slowly exhaled it from the slit of her lips.

He heard Zhu Ying pause for a while, and then said: "Whether I'm being pretentious or not, you actually know."

Zhang Weilan didn't speak.

Seeing this, Zhu Ying hurriedly continued, "Are you going to college?"

Zhang Weilan glanced at Zhu Ying.

Zhu Ying met Zhang Weilan's gaze: "Compared to high school, college is actually not that easy, nor is it free. After college, you still have to work, and Xiao Huan is growing up slowly."

Zhu Ying asked Zhang Weilan: "Have you thought about all these?"

think?Think about the future?Think about the future?He never thought about it.For a long time, just "now" and "right now" are enough to make him half-dead.

Zhang Weilan also knows that the iron hook of the "past" has been drilled in his spine, and he has never escaped from those darkness and pain.Otherwise, why did he punch a child today?

He asshole.

He can blow the wind and look at the light, but only because of Zhong Ning.Zhong Ning is his umbrella.In Zhong Ning's absence, he showed his true colors and completely grew back into the darkness.

Zhu Ying still said: "Xiao Huan's current age, you may not feel it yet. But in a few years, you will find that things are not that simple. There are many things that you can't do."

Can't do it?He couldn't do much more.

He couldn't ease the relationship between Lu Qingqing and Zhang Zhiqiang, he couldn't take back his relatives from the hands of death, he couldn't keep Xiao Huan from crying, he couldn't...he couldn't get closer to Zhong Ning...

He is nothing.waste.

Zhu Ying was explaining Zhang Weilan's "impossibility": "Xiao Huan is a girl, but you are a man. When she grows up, there are many things you don't understand, and you can't interfere. Moreover, she lost Mom and Dad, she doesn't have much. It's not something you can make up just by being 'brother'."

"This..." Zhu Ying directly stabbed Zhang Weilan's chest, "You should understand this best."

In the summer, Zhang Weilan suddenly felt so cold that his whole body was stiff, and he even wanted to shiver.

Yes, he understands best.Isn't that what he is?What he doesn't have, he can never get back, and the things that drive him crazy will torture him for the rest of his life.

But Xiao Huan still has it.Zhang Weilan looked at the woman opposite again. ——Xiao Huan also has her own uncle and aunt.In a certain city in the south, in a certain unremarkable countryside, Xiao Huan also had her own grandma and grandpa.

Xiao Huan still has it.Xiao Huan is different from him.

"This is also good for you. Xiao Huan will grow up well if you entrust us to take care of it." Zhu Ying said, "You can also reduce the burden, go to university, work, and don't need extra pressure."

"Of course, we took Xiaohuan away, not to make her deny you as a brother." Zhu Ying laughed again, "I heard that your academic performance is very good. Have you decided on your college choice? Actually, we have It's a very good school. If you come to school in the south, you usually have to see Xiaohuan, we won't have any complaints, I promise."

Zhang Weilan did not speak for a long time.Zhu Ying sat opposite and waited until the smile on the corner of her mouth froze.

Finally, Zhang Weilan spoke.To Zhu Ying's surprise, he just asked, "How did you hear that I got good grades?"

Zhu Ying was stunned for a moment, then sighed: "Xiao Huan told me. She said that my brother is the best at studying."

Zhang Weilan rubbed her face with the palm of her hand: "You have said so much, I just want to ask you a question. Why? You are so kind to Xiaohuan, I can't figure it out, and I can't fully believe it."

"You are really ruthless..." Zhu Ying raised her hand, and used her fingers to shake the hair behind her ear.

Zhang Weilan could tell that she seemed very reluctant to mention this.The corner of Zhu Ying's mouth twitched, and she hesitated for a while before saying, "I've always wanted to have a daughter."

"What does this have to do with Xiao Huan?" Zhang Weilan didn't understand.

"I had an illness three years ago and had my uterus removed." She subconsciously placed her hand on her lower abdomen.

Zhu Ying: "I want a daughter. I want a complete family. Later, I found out that there is Xiao Huan. Instead of adopting a 'other person', I would rather raise my own child."

"I say that, can you understand?" Zhu Ying smiled wryly, "It's strange, when a woman reaches her age, it seems that she really wants to be a mother. I really want to treat Xiaohuan as my daughter, and I will definitely always Be nice to her."

Zhang Weilan leaned against the back of the chair, refusing to talk any further.

Zhu Ying can probably grasp that Zhang Weilan's mind may have begun to waver.At this time, there is no rush.She stood up and took her bag: "I will stay here for a few days, you think about it, I'm telling the truth."

After Zhu Ying left, Xiao Huan came out of the room resentfully and went to Zhang Weilan.

Zhang Weilan glanced at her: "Your aunt is coming to see you, but she didn't tell me? Why haven't you told me anything lately?"

The sense of powerlessness is obviously a depressing thing, but it can still be menacing.

"Because brother, you recently..." Xiao Huan pursed her mouth and muttered in a low voice, "I just don't want to tell you... I was wrong."

"You are quick to admit your mistakes." Zhang Weilan sighed heavily, and didn't mention it again.

At night, Zhang Weilan took a tube of ointment and applied it to Xiao Huan.

There was a prickly heat rash on the girl's back, which might be more itchy or painful. Zhang Weilan used a cotton swab to apply it to her little by little, until her arms were sore.

After applying the medicine, Zhang Weilan asked Xiaohuan to pull the clothes on her back.

Xiao Huan's current age is already an extreme for him.In another two or three years, four or five years, if Xiao Huan had prickly heat on her back again, it would be impossible for him to apply ointment to Xiao Huan.

In addition to this, there are actually many more.Men and women are not the same after all.In the past, Zhang Weilan didn't have to worry about these things, because there were Yan Huiwan and Zhong Pei, but now they are gone.

He glanced at the closed doors and windows of Zhong Ning's house - the Zhong family had treated him with the utmost benevolence up to now.They wouldn't bother him anymore, he knew.

It turns out...fucking "independent" and fucking "strong", he is just relying on them under the banner of ego.

He relied on Zhong Ning, Zhong Pei, and Yan Huiwan.When did he ever really stand up for a moment?all fake.

It's a pity that those "reliances" have completely abandoned him, and now he is nothing, really, a lonely and desperate coward.

Zhang Weilan went to the toilet to wash her face. The well water in summer was warmed by the sun, and it wasn't very cold when splashed on her face, so it didn't have any effect on waking up.

Zhang Weilan's face was full of drops of water, staring at her face in the mirror, her dark pupils were filled with damned anger.He seemed to be staring at an ugly monster.

A monster too ugly to exist.