[full-time master] bitter lovesickness

Ye Qiu's physical fitness is good, and he almost returned to his normal life in a few days, but Ye Xiu still insisted not to let him do strenuous exercise, so Ye Qiu still stayed in bed and played with his mobile phone for most of the day. Sleep when you are up, life is very comfortable.

It's rare for him to be so free, but it's rare that his heart sinks, and he can think about something quietly.

For example, Ye Xiu and Ye Jiu.

After careful calculation, it has been almost 20 years, and in the past ten years, he has seen Ye Xiu very few times, and even the memories of them have been so long that he can't remember the details clearly, only those emotions Sorrow and joy have nothing to do with each other and twisted into a knot without logic, making Ye Qiu's shady emotions follow it again and again.

Perhaps many years later, he would not even remember Ye Xiu, nor their past, but he would only remember that he loved him.

He couldn't accept his liking for Ye Jiu, as if his 20 years of infatuation had turned into a ridiculous joke, as if he was satirizing him, it was nothing special, a person like him could replace him.

He couldn't love Ye Jiu, never could.

Ye Xiu hasn't been sleeping well for the past few days.He always dreamed intermittently about his childhood, those years when he lived with Ye Qiu, those long and dim days, rolling back and forth like waves, revealing the pale desert.

He dreamed that when they were 15 years old, Ye Huan had just returned, and the atmosphere at home was very depressed. Ye Huan was also a careless person, and couldn't remember their birthdays at all, so he didn't even eat a bowl of longevity noodles when he woke up that morning. Ye Qiu who arrived was inevitably a little frustrated, so Ye Xiu took Ye Qiu to skip class that day.

At that time, the two poor ghosts had only 20 yuan in total, and they couldn't even afford a car, so they just walked along the street aimlessly. He remembered that Ye Qiu asked him, "Brother, do you have a dream? "

He remembered that he didn't answer Ye Qiu at that time.

At the end of that day, they found an unremarkable cake shop and bought a small cake. The two of you shared a bite with each other. That was... their last birthday together.

In Ye Xiu's memory, he only gave Ye Qiu a birthday present twice.The first time was when they were seven years old. They had just entered primary school. At that time, the little boys liked to play marbles. Ye Qiu always wanted to join in, but those boys formed cliques, and Ye Qiu tried several times. , still failed to join.

For his birthday that year, Ye Xiu went to a nearby department store at that time and bought a large box of glass balls, each of which was different.

The second time was when Ye Qiu was 20 years old. Before their two birthdays that year, Ye Qiu accompanied Su Mucheng to a jewelry store. There was a very beautiful necklace. The pendant was a pearl surrounded by a ring of broken pieces. Broken rhinestones.At that time, I didn't know why, but I thought of the box of glass marbles when I was a teenager, bought it, and very savagely got the pearl and sent it to Ye Qiu. At that time, I was complained about for a long time.

In the end, he dreamed that Ye Qiu came to Xingxin to look for him that year and asked him to go home, but he woke up all of a sudden.

Ye Qiu, I'm home.

Ye Qiu will never be the same to him, how many years they have walked together, how many dust and dust along the way, he has seen Ye Qiu's most innocent youth, and now he will feel this kind of deep pain.

Ye Xiu must have a lot of strength and perseverance to support him in this world that is not very fair to him, and he has been going on. Thinking about the ten years he left home alone, he has tasted all the flavors of the world.

The lights of thousands of houses are on and off, and there is no one for my beloved.

But when he really looked back, he found that there was someone who had been waiting for him.He just stood there, time made his stature taller, his eyebrows and eyes widened, and the clothes on his body changed from a blue and white school uniform to a military uniform and then to a light beige windbreaker, and then he looked at the other person with him motionless. People with the same face walked away.

Only the tenderness in the eyes has not changed.

Those words that have been lingering in my heart for countless times always turn a corner in my throat, and I can't say it anymore, and even the thoughts that have appeared in time have sunk in my heart.

Xingxin won the championship this season, so it naturally attaches great importance to the next season. Even the proprietress notified him in advance, hoping that he could return to the team a few days earlier, but Ye Xiu was really worried about Ye Qiu, so he didn't immediately Agreed, just to see the situation.

That night, Ye Xiu wanted to talk to Ye Qiu about this matter, but he just raised his hand and patted him, Ye Qiu jumped up like a conditioned reflex, looked at Ye Xiu and smiled awkwardly, then asked: " Xiao Jiu, what's the date today?" But before Ye Xiu could answer, he took out his phone and glanced at it, his face immediately changed, and he rushed out without taking an umbrella.

Ye Xiu was a little puzzled by Monk Zhang Er. Before he could find an umbrella to chase after him, he heard the sound of starting a car outside the door. Ye Xiu could only curse inwardly, and took a coat casually He chased after him, and jumped into the car at the last moment when Ye Qiu drove away.

Along the way, he asked Ye Qiu many times where he was going so late, could he go without an umbrella or go back to pick it up, but for the first time in his life, Ye Xiu was completely ignored, but as the scene became more and more The more familiar he became, Ye Xiu finally understood where Ye Qiu was going.

This is the way to the cemetery.And Ye Xiu finally found out about this day in his memory, oh, this day was originally his death day.

Suddenly nothing can be said.Look at the entrance of the cemetery, Ye Qiu slammed on the brakes, jumped out of the car impatiently, and disappeared with a whoosh, Ye Xiu had to pull out the car key and lock the car, and then took the The coat chased him out, but luckily he still knew the way, and finally found Ye Qiu.

Ye Qiu ran in a hurry, propped his hands on his knees and was panting heavily. After a while, he raised his head and said to Ye Xiu's tomb, "I'm late this year, I'm sorry."

Ye Xiu was standing right behind him, listening to his sorry, and hearing him saying that he was fine recently, at that moment he said to himself, Ye Xiu, you are such a fucking bastard, you don't even have the courage to take responsibility, you Not even his brother.

At that moment, he thought, it was time to make a decision.

"If your brother was still alive, would you be happier than you are now?"

Ye Qiu turned around slightly, and said, "Of course. But this possibility doesn't exist at all, he's already dead." After he finished speaking, he paused for a while, "I saw it with my own eyes. He died right in front of me, with my own eyes have witnessed."

"He's still alive."

Ye Qiu shrugged, "Of course, it lives in my heart."

Ye Xiu stepped forward, grabbed Ye Qiu's uninjured right shoulder, and pulled him towards him, "Then let me tell you now, your brother is still alive, and he is standing in front of you."

Just as Ye Xiu finished speaking, Ye Qiu opened Ye Xiu's hand angrily, "Stop joking, I saw it with my own eyes, I saw it with my own eyes!" After saying that, he stopped looking at Ye Xiu's past. go back.

"Do you know why I gave you that bead when I was 20 years old?"

Ye Qiu stopped suddenly.

"I passed by that jewelry store at the time, and they were advertising that they would give it to the original person. The bead was pulled from a string of necklaces, and the slogan of that string of necklaces was..."

"You are the apple of my eye."

Ye Xiu saw Ye Qiu turn his head to look at him a little stiffly, and this glance passed through all time.It suddenly occurred to me that twenty years ago, the self holding a box of glass marbles might also be in the same mood. You are my younger brother, so I want to give you the best in the world.

He walked forward, and for the first time in his life, he gently held Ye Qiu's hand, "Brother idiot, let's go home."

You waited for me back.Since then, we have never lived apart except death.Now that I'm younger than you, you won't be in pain again. Believe me, Ye Qiu, I always keep my word.