childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

When Su Ran swung his fist at Li Xuan, he exhausted all his strength. He wanted to return what Ji Jingyan suffered, a thousand times, a hundred times back.He wants everyone to know that he can touch anyone, but Ji Jingyan, he doesn't allow anyone to hurt him!

Li Xuan squatted on the ground, wrapped his arms around his head, and was in a panic.But he no longer minded, this is what he has experienced thousands of times since he was a child.It's just that when the other party became the hero in his heart, somewhere in his chest was still uncomfortable like suffocation.

"Su Ran, do you really think that Ji Jingyan doesn't know anything?" Li Xuan sat on the ground with his head lowered, his deep voice covered all his emotions.

Su Ran's fist was fixed in the air, and Li Xuan's words were like a heavy hammer hitting his chest. This was the pain that he always wanted to avoid but could not avoid at all.

He knew, he knew a long time ago, Ji Jingyan is so smart, how could he not know anything...

Seeing Su Ran's fists frozen in mid-air, Li Xuan barely swallowed the bitterness in his heart: "Su Ran, after all these years, do you think you really know Ji Jingyan?"

This sentence happened to hit the pain in Su Ran's heart, his fist fell down uncontrollably, his mind was blank, but his mouth was still vaguely defending himself: "You obviously don't know anything What the hell are you talking about! You fucking shut up!"

Li Xuan still didn't let Su Ran go, and hit the softest corner of Su Ran's heart mercilessly one sentence after another: "Su Ran, your feelings can't even fool me, how can you naively think that you can fool me?" Ji Jingyan?"

Scenes of Ji Jingyan's relationship emerged in his mind. His slightly alienated smile and his calm refusal seemed to silently confirm Li Xuan's words.Su Ran desperately denied it in her heart, but the more she denied it, the more she wanted to cover it up.

Sometimes feelings are like this, can't be said, but can't be denied.

Afterwards, Su Ran was like a mad lion, with blood red eyes, bruised veins on his forehead, fists dropping one after another, until the arrival of Gu Anyuan and Shen Tang, the crazy Su Ran was pulled away from Li Xuan.

Su Ran's arms were clamped behind Gu Anyuan's back, but he still struggled non-stop, taking advantage of Gu Anyuan's distraction, he ruthlessly mended his feet a few times.Shen Tang hadn't seen Su Ran lose control for a long time, and she was still shocked when she saw Su Ran like this.

It turns out that Ji Jingyan has become so important in Su Ran's heart...

Shen Tang turned her eyes to Li Xuan who was sitting in the corner, her eyes were full of sadness: Su Ran, do you think you can really get out of here?

Su Ran struggled recklessly, swearing non-stop: "Gu Anyuan, let me go, let me beat this grandson to death!"

Gu Anyuan increased his strength, and said to Shen Tang who was staring at Li Xuan blankly: "Shen Tang, why are you so dazed, take Li Xuan away quickly! I can't hold Su Ran back after waiting for a while! "

It took Shen Tang a moment to react, and hurriedly dragged Li Xuan towards the entrance of the alley.

Su Ran looked at Li Xuan who was limping, and spat fiercely on the ground: "Damn it, Li Xuan is the grandson!"

Gu Anyuan let go of Su Ran when the figures of the two disappeared at the entrance of the alley. Su Ran turned around and gave him a hard look: "What are you pulling me for? You should pull Li Xuan, will you persuade me to fight?"

Gu Anyuan gave him a blank look: "Fart, if I drag Li Xuan, you won't beat him to death?"

Su Ran glanced at him, didn't answer any more, and didn't care whether it was dirty or not. She turned around and sat on the ground, leaning her head against the dirty wall, raised her hand and said to Gu Anyuan, "Do you have a cigarette? Give me one."

Gu Anyuan fumbled in his clothes for a long time, and handed him the cigarette: "You smoke, does Ji Jingyan know?"

Hearing the name Ji Jingyan, Su Ran paused his hand for lighting the fire, then lit the cigarette again, took a deep breath, and exhaled smoke rings: "What does it have to do with him whether I smoke or not? Why does he have to know ?”

Gu Anyuan looked at Su Ran's decadent face behind the smoke, and knew in his heart that there might be some problems between the two of them. Although you didn't want to intervene, you still asked out of concern: "Ji Jingyan is in the hospital now, you don't need to Want to see it?"

Su Ran took another deep breath of cigarettes, her voice hoarse: "His parents are with him in the hospital now, so I don't need me."

Gu Anyuan responded, lowered his head and pondered for a while, and briefly explained to him that he turned around and was about to leave when Su Ran's low voice suddenly came from behind: "Gu Anyuan, do you take me as a brother?"

Gu Anyuan was taken aback, and looked down to see that the cigarette in Su Ran's hand had burned to the very end, but Su Ran still held the cigarette between his fingers as if he couldn't feel the heat, with his head lowered, unable to see his expression clearly.

Seeing this, Gu Anyuan strode up to Su Ran, took the cigarette from his fingertips, put it under his feet and stomped hard, then sat down next to Su Ran, and said without any shame: "Who is he?" Mom treats you like a brother, shameless!"

After hearing this, Su Ran sneered, took out another cigarette, and lighted it lightly. Just as Gu Anyuan was about to stop him, he raised his hand to stop him: "What do you think about my relationship with Ji Jingyan?"

Gu Anyuan put away the cigarettes and lighters beside him and put them in his pocket: "What's the matter, haven't you two known each other for more than ten years?"

Ten years?This number deeply hurt Su Ran's heart, feeling as if he was suffocating.

That's right, I have known him for more than ten years, why have I never gotten to know him?When did it all start...

Su Ran lowered her hands, watching the cigarettes at her fingertips burn shorter and shorter: "Through this incident, I suddenly discovered something extraordinary," Su Ran took a deep breath, as if to puff up his whole body The courage to say it: "I seem to have never understood him..."

Gu Anyuan was taken aback. Although he had known Su Ran for a short time, the young man in his memory had always been high-spirited. He had never seen such a decadent look before, as if all his confidence had been drained.Such a sudden contrast made him froze there, not knowing what to say for a while.

Su Ran watched the cigarette in his hand burn shorter and shorter, as if heralding the relationship between him and Ji Jingyan, and it came to an end step by step...

Gu Anyuan turned his head and took a deep look at Su Ran, took out the half-burned cigarette from his hand, and took a deep breath.Behind the smoke, a handsome young man appeared, smiling slightly at him.

Su Ran, do you know that what you are experiencing now is everything I have experienced...

Su Ran turned her head to look at Gu Anyuan who was smoking, the expression behind the smoke was a little strange, Su Ran still couldn't suppress the doubt in her heart, and asked, "Gu Anyuan, what disease did you take a year off from school for treatment? "

Su Ran's intuition told him that Gu Anyuan's reason for dropping out of school was definitely not just a simple illness.

Gu Anyuan flicked the cigarette ash with his slender fingers, and seemed not to care about Su Ran's question: "Didn't you tell me? I went to get medical treatment."

"What disease?"

Su Ran pursued him relentlessly, as if he had broken the casserole and asked the end.After hearing this, Gu Anyuan's expression didn't fluctuate much, but Su Ran could tell that he looked into the distance with deep yearning.

Gu Anyuan stubbed out the cigarette in his hand, stood up, and looked like he didn't want to continue the conversation: "You should go to the hospital to see your Ji Jingyan! No matter how much you say no, you still worry about him?"

When Su Ran heard the name "Ji Jingyan", a bitter smile appeared on the corner of Su Ran's mouth.

That's right, no matter how much you deny it, no matter how much you doubt it in your heart, if you like it, you like it, what else can you do?

It's okay to alienate me, it's okay to hide something from me, as long as I can stay by your side, that's enough.

I rejected all the ambiguities just to wait for you an uncertain future, the outcome is whether you win or lose, I don't care anymore.

When Su Ran arrived at the hospital, he was carrying the porridge bought downstairs in his hand, wondering if Ji Jingyan would like his porridge.When they got to the door, they found that the door of Ji Jingyan's ward was half-closed, Ji Jingyan's faint voice came from inside: "Do you still like Su Ran now?"

Then there was silence, Su Ran thought for a while, hid at one side and looked into the ward through the crack of the door, and saw Shen Tang sitting in front of the bed with his back to him, without any expression.

After a pause for a while, Ji Jingyan continued: "This seems to be the first time we have been alone together. We have known each other for three years, but there is always Su Ran between us. This time I finally have time to be alone, I want to talk to you " Ji Jingyan paused, and then said: "It has nothing to do with Su Ran, it's just a matter between the two of us."

From Su Ran's angle, he could just see Ji Jingyan's expression, and suddenly felt that there was something wrong with Ji Jingyan's eyes looking at Shen Tang, but he couldn't tell what was wrong, and felt a faint uneasiness in his heart.

Seeing that Shen Tang straightened her back slowly, Su Ran finally raised her lowered head to look at Ji Jingyan, and the word she said reached Su Ran's ears: "Ji Jingyan, I know what you are going to say , I'm not stupid, and my EQ is not negative, but Ji Jingyan, feelings are something that you and I can't control, just like I only like Su Ran, just like..."

The uneasiness in his heart was gradually magnified, and Su Ran almost instinctively wanted to close the door, but Shen Tang's words reached his ears without warning, like a muffled thunder: "It's like you like me, but I don't like you." you."

At that moment, Su Ran seemed to hear the sound of the world collapsing. He had insisted on the belief he had insisted on for so many years, but it still couldn't stand up to the reality and Ji Jingyan's heart.

How miserable do I have to be to fall in love with such a person...

Ji Jingyan, how can you bear to be so cruel to me?