childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

He slowed down on his knees for a while, took a few deep breaths, then stood up straight and looked at Ji Jingyan, panting and said: "If I can give you a future, would you like to be with me?"

Looking at Su Ran's slightly red face, Ji Jingyan's eyes were a little sore, and he instinctively handed him the water in his hand.

He doesn't need Su Ran's promise, what he needs is his courage to face everything.

Su Ran didn't take the water, but just grabbed his arm and asked loudly: "I said I can give you the future, do you have the courage to be with me?"

Ji Jingyan could see that Su Ran's eyes were shining with hope, with expectations for the future and doubts about himself.He gradually clenched the hand hanging by his side, and said softly, "Su Ran, I..."

"I thought you were a smart boy, Su Ran." Ji Jingyan's words were interrupted mercilessly by Shen Wanyan: "It won't do anyone any good if you continue to stalk like this."

Su Ran raised her eyes, and looked at Shen Wanyan who was standing in front of her with her arms folded. He met Shen Wanyan's gaze, and his tone was undeniably firm: "The two of us will have a future," Su Ran's hands gradually shook. Tight, said loudly: "As long as we work hard, we will have a future!"

Shen Wanyan turned her head and chuckled, she took Ji Jingyan's arm, her tone was full of disdain: "Not everything, as long as you work hard, you will have satisfactory results, or come back to Ji Jingyan after you have a future Bar!"

After speaking, he grabbed Ji Jingyan's arm and was about to leave, but Ji Jingyan stood still.Shen Wanyan was taken aback, then turned her head and saw Ji Jingyan taking a step forward, kissing the corner of Su Ran's lips lightly.

A familiar temperature came from his lips, reminding Ji Jingyan that this is the most important person in his life.

Ji Jingyan chuckled, and he gave all his first time to this person in front of him.Even if this kind of love will be discriminated against by others and blocked by his family, Ji Jingyan knows in his heart that being with Su Ran is something he will never regret.

Someone pulled his arm suddenly, and Ji Jingyan was forced to leave the familiar lips, and then heard Shen Wanyan's voice trembling with anger: "Are you crazy!"

Ji Jingyan raised his hand and touched his lips, without looking at Su Ran's expression, he just lowered his head and pulled the suitcase beside him, and said in a hoarse voice, "Mom, let's go."

After that, she didn't care about Shen Wanyan's expression, she just pulled the suitcase and walked towards the boarding gate.

There were people coming and going at the airport, and there were only a few eyes cast on them, but Ji Jingyan already felt something strange with these few eyes.

I'm sorry, Su Ran.

The time with you has exhausted all the courage in my life, so I may not have the extra courage to accompany you to the future.

Goodbye, Su Ran.

Goodbye, my one and only love.

Su Ran touched the corner of her lips, where Ji Jingyan's temperature still remained.For some reason, at that moment just now, he seemed to feel Ji Jingyan's despair.

Looking up at Ji Jingyan's fading figure, the afterglow hit him, looking desperate and desolate.

Su Ran's fists gradually tightened, suppressing all the uneasy thoughts in his heart, there was only one thought in his mind:

Ji Jingyan, I will wait for you in the future.

Shen Wanyan looked at Ji Jingyan beside her, and when she thought of the scene where Ji Jingyan kissed Su Ran just now, she became angry: "Ji Jingyan, are you crazy!"

"Mom," Ji Jingyan's voice trembled, with suppressed crying: "I feel a little uncomfortable."

Hearing Ji Jingyan's tone, Shen Wanyan also felt a little uncomfortable.After all, it is her own child, and she should be forgiven even if she made a mistake. She couldn't help but soften her tone: "You are not sensible yet, you just play together, why is it uncomfortable? It will be fine after a while."

This is not a game, I'm really, really uncomfortable...

Shen Wanyan sighed, stroked Ji Jingyan's hair, and said softly: "I'm sorry, Ji Jingyan, mom really can't accept you and Su Ran..."

Shen Wanyan didn't say the rest, but Ji Jingyan understood that he was already very satisfied to be able to be with Su Ran for the past few days and gain happiness for such a long time.

Between family affection and love, he really couldn't abandon his only mother, so he could only give up his only Su Ran and his only love.

It was already dark when Su Ran came home. As soon as he entered the door, he saw his parents sitting in the living room watching TV.

Seeing him coming back, Mother Su hurried forward, took the luggage in his hand, and asked with concern: "How are you doing? Why is your face so ugly? Did something happen?"

"Mom," Su Ran lowered her head, took a deep breath, and said hoarsely with all her strength, "I want to come out."

Mother Su was opening the suitcase and was about to take out Su Ran's clothes. When she heard Su Ran's words, she frowned, as if she didn't quite understand the meaning of Su Ran's words: "Come out? What kind of closet? What do you mean?"

In the past few days, the happy moments with Ji Jingyan and Ji Jingyan have been circling in Su Ran's mind: in the shopping mall, Ji Jingyan's eyes full of envy for the couple; at the airport, Shen Wanyan's aggressive questioning; and Ji Jingyan before leaving The desperate kiss under the corner of his lips; the final frame was, in his eyes, Ji Jingyan's back slowly leaving.

He wanted to be with Ji Jingyan, not for a day or two, but for a lifetime.Whether others question it or have prejudice, he also has to work hard to pursue the happiness he wants.

Su Ran clenched her fists, every cell in her body began to tense, her mind was full of everything the two of them had experienced since childhood.In this way, little by little, Ji Jingyan gradually grew into his favorite appearance.

Taking a deep breath and opening his mouth, Su Ran heard his own trembling voice, with unquestionable firmness, every syllable was telling his love for so many years: "It's just that I like Ji Jingyan."

Su Ran exhaled heavily, no matter what we will experience in the future, I will stand in front of you and block all gossip for you.

I will prepare a future for you first, and then wait for you in a bright future.

because,

I love you, Ji Jingyan.

Chapter 34

At the moment when Su Ran said her heart, although she felt regretful and cowardly, what was more important was the comfort and joy she felt after telling her parents about her feelings that she had hidden for many years.

Su's mother stopped packing her clothes, she looked up at Su Ran who was standing at the door, and after a long pause, she asked, "You say... who do you like?"

"I said," Su Ran paused, took a deep breath, pursed her lips uneasily, and said the next thing: "I said that I like Ji Jingyan, the kind of liking that I want to be together."

Su Ran didn't know what he would face after finishing the next words, but he knew in his heart that no matter what he faced, he would not regret it.

Su Tengfei was the first to react. He put down the remote control in his hand and turned to look at Su Ran. The indifferent gaze behind the lens made Su Ran feel chills behind: "Do you know what you are talking about?"

"I know," Su Ran lowered her head, trying to avoid Su Tengfei's cold gaze.Because he was too nervous, his heart was beating fast, but he still insisted on finishing the next sentence: "Dad, I don't like other men, I only like Ji Jingyan."

As soon as the voice finished speaking, there was a "snap", and Su Tengfei hit the remote control on the coffee table hard on Su Ran's body. The remote control fell to Su Ran's feet and fell to pieces.

"Tengfei," Su's mother quickly stood up, hugged Su Tengfei's arm, and said anxiously: "Don't be angry, Su Ran may just be in a daze for a while, let's listen to him talk about it."

"Listen to what he said!" At this moment, Su Tengfei couldn't control his emotions at all, and raised his finger to Su Ran, his fingertips trembling a little: "When he told us about his classmates that night, At that time, I already felt something was wrong. Fortunately, I have been comforting myself for thinking too much, and I have always believed that our two sons cannot do such a thing..."

Su Ran lowered his head, he could feel his disappointment from Su Tengfei's anger, and the place on his body hit by the remote control was burning hot.Growing up, he never seemed to make his parents proud.

Su Tengfei took a deep breath and began to question: "Did you learn from Cheng Haoran? I said why don't you learn something better? Look at what you have done since you were a child? Is one thing a good thing! Let's talk about you Those friends around you, how many times have I told you to stay away from them, have you heard me!"

"I didn't learn from others!" Su Ran raised her head suddenly, and shouted at Su Tengfei with wide eyes: "None of my friends are friends. I have liked Ji Jingyan since I was a child, and this has nothing to do with Cheng Haoran!"

Su Tengfei has always been displeased with Su Ran's circle of friends, thinking that they are all punks in the market, and they will not have any great prospects in the future.But in Su Ran's eyes, among friends, only loyalty is more important than anything else.Su Tengfei can scold himself, but he doesn't allow insulting his friends like this!

Seeing that Su Ran started to argue with him, Su Tengfei didn't vent his anger. He raised his foot and was about to walk towards Su Ran when Su's mother stopped him: "Don't quarrel, the child just came back, let him go first." Sit down and talk to us." As soon as she finished speaking, Su's mother turned her head and gave Su Ran a wink, signaling him to come over.

Su Ran hesitated for a moment, twitched the corner of her mouth, and reluctantly walked over.

When Shen Wanyan came in, Ji Jingyan was tidying up the room.She looked at Ji Jingyan's messy clothes, sat down on the bed after thinking for a while and asked, "What are you going to do in the future?"

Ji Jingyan didn't stop tidying up his clothes, but said in a muffled voice, "What should I do?"

Shen Wanyan bent down, picked up the clothes on the ground, put them on her lap and folded them carefully: "You should be pretty close to the university that Su Ran applied for, right? Are you sure you can restrain your feelings?"

Ji Jingyan stopped folding his clothes, sniffed and said, "It's not very close. My volunteer is in the south, and his volunteer is in the north."

He lied to Su Ran.

When he first applied for volunteers, he lied to Su Ran that his volunteers were all in the north. If Su Ran believed in him so much, he would definitely not apply for schools in the south.At that time, he had already thought about his retreat.

Ji Jingyan knew very well that maybe he would be selfish and sorry for Su Ran if he did so.But in his heart, only the distance can dilute his miss for Su Ran and cut off his attachment to each other.

Shen Wanyan had a panoramic view of Ji Jingyan's sadness, she stood up, hugged Ji Jingyan slowly, buried her head on his shoulder, stroked his hair and said, "Good son, you still have your mother, and mother will accompany you Get through this difficulty. There will always be a few hurdles in a person's life, it's okay, don't be sad, mom will accompany you. "

Ji Jingyan raised his head, looked at the ceiling above his head, widened his eyes and tried to control himself not to cry.

Yes, in life, there are always a few hurdles to encounter.But he couldn't get over the hurdle about Su Ran, and he didn't want to get over it at all.

The living room of Su Ran's house was eerily quiet. Mother Su was sitting in the middle, and on both sides were the father and son with dignified expressions.Mother Su thought for a while, then turned her head to look at Su Ran, and said, "Su Ran, tell me first!"

Su Ran was taken aback, and asked back, "What did you say?"

"Tell me why you want to..." Su's mother paused for a moment, and barely managed to say the next thing: "Do you want to like Ji Jingyan?"

Su Ran pondered for a while, raised her eyes and looked at Su Tengfei cautiously before saying, "There's no reason. Because I like it, I like it..."

Sure enough, when Su Tengfei heard this, he immediately said: "He is a man, you like a fart!"

"What's wrong with the man?" Su Ran retorted not to be outdone, "They're both human, so why can't two men fall in love?"

"you……"

Seeing that the two father and son were about to quarrel again, Mother Su hurriedly took a chance to interject: "Does Ji Jingyan know about this matter?"

"Of course I know, and he likes me too."

When Su Ran said this, his tone was full of pride and pride.

The happiest thing in the world is that while I like you, you also like me.

Su Ran's parents, who were sitting by the side, looked extremely miserable, and Su's mother's eye circles had already started to turn red.Su Ran settled down, and said what was in her heart: "Dad, Mom, I really like Ji Jingyan. I have liked him for three years since I graduated from junior high school. I also dated other girls , but I still can't forget him."

Su Ran raised his eyes and saw that there were some tears in Su's mother's eyes. He didn't want to see his parents' disappointed eyes, so he lowered his eyes and said with a choked voice: "I know, I have never done it since I was a child. What makes the two of you proud, just keeps humiliating the two of you, and I know it will embarrass you both, and disappoint you two. But I really don't want to hide it from you two According to everyone’s wishes, find someone you don’t like, and spend your life unhappy.”

"Dad, Mom, life is really short, so I want to be with the person I really like. It doesn't matter whether he is a man or a woman, as long as I like it, that's enough."

Mother Su touched the tears on her face, took a breath and said, "Su Ran, go back to sleep first! After playing for so many days, get a good sleep. I'll discuss this matter with your father first, okay? ?”

Su Ran looked at Su Tengfei who was leaning on the sofa with a tired face, finally stood up, and bowed deeply to them: "Dad, Mom, I'm sorry, I hope you can...understand me..."

As soon as Su Ran turned around, she heard Mother Su's suppressed crying behind her.

Sorry, I really have no choice but to give up my only Ji Jingyan...

Su Ran walked back to the room, and the moment he closed the door, he saw his parents embracing each other, talking in a low voice.But he could feel the sadness and despair in the air.

Gu Anyuan never thought that so many earth-shattering things would happen between Ji Jingyan and Su Ran during the period when he was struggling with Cheng Haoran's relationship.

After hearing all this, his first reaction was to call Su Ran to confirm.But Su Ran's phone calls were always unanswered. Gu Anyuan thought for a while, so he had to call Ji Jingyan. The phone rang twice, and Ji Jingyan's weary voice came from the receiver: "Hey, Gu Anyuan, what's the matter?" ?”

Gu Anyuan could tell that Ji Jingyan's condition was not very good, so he understood in his heart, so he simply comforted him a few words, and before hanging up the phone, he casually said: "Su Ran is really out of the closet at this time. It's too messy!"

After a few seconds of silence on the phone, Ji Jingyan's voice came slowly: "You said that Su Ran... came out of the closet?"

Gu Anyuan responded: "What? You don't know?"

"I don't know...we barely communicate with each other..."

Only then did Ji Jingyan understand why Su Ran ran up to him and made such a promise to him before he boarded the plane.

If he knew that Su Ran would choose to come out at this time, he would never think of escaping, nor would he choose to fill in the opposite wish.

After all, it turns out that the two of them have always been destined to each other...

For Su Ran, the days after coming out of the closet really changed drastically: under the intervention of Su's mother and Shen Wanyan, he had less and less contact with Ji Jingyan, until the last week he could not speak a few words; His mother also began to frequently take him to and from various psychological clinics, taking him to see one psychologist after another; and the relationship between Su Tengfei and him, also because of his coming out of the closet, began to become rigid day by day. There seemed to be nothing left but a quarrel between the two.

Su Ran would also doubt whether the decision he made that night was right or not. He always thought that his parents just needed a period of time to accept it.As long as his parents accept it, he can be with Ji Jingyan without fear.All he can do is try his best to get through this most difficult time.

These days continued until the day when Su Ran was notified of admission, with only a simple form and a few words on the webpage, Su Ran seemed to see a bright future for him and Ji Jingyan.

But Su Ran didn't expect that the greater the expectation, the more disappointment would be caught off guard.

He never thought that Ji Jingyan, whom he trusted so much, would one day deceive him.

Chapter 35

Su Ran kept thinking, if she hadn't accidentally learned about this from Shen Tang, how long would Ji Jingyan plan to hide it from him.

When he was full of hope for the future, he didn't expect that it would be his favorite Ji Jingyan who personally cut off this only hope.

Su Ran seized the time when her parents were away, and raced against time to make a phone call to Ji Jingyan.This is the first call Su Ran has made to Ji Jingyan since he came out of the closet.There was almost no suspense, Shen Wanyan answered the call, still with a slightly alienated tone: "What are you looking for with Ji Jingyan?"

Su Ran held the phone with both hands, and said in a low voice, "Auntie, give Ji Jingyan the number, I have something to ask him."

There was a little impatience in the tone on the other side of the phone: "Just ask me if you have anything to do, and you should know that I really don't want you to have anything to do with Ji Jingyan."

"Just 5 minutes." Su Ran's eager voice already contained a trace of pleading: "Auntie, just 5 minutes. I really have something very important to ask him."

Shen Wanyan sighed over there, and after a few seconds of silence on the phone came her rather helpless voice: "Okay, it's only 5 minutes, but I hope this is the last time. You should understand that I I did it for the sake of the future of you and Ji Jingyan."

At this time, the sound of opening the door suddenly came from the entrance, and Su Ran hurriedly responded to Shen Wanyan's words, while carefully locking the door behind her.As soon as he leaned his head on the door, there came the voice on the phone that made him miss it day and night: "Su Ran, are you looking for me?"

Mother Su's voice came from the entrance: "Su Ran, are you in the room?"

The footsteps were getting closer and closer, and Su Ran had no time to worry about other things, so she hurriedly asked the question that had been circling in her heart for many days: "Are all the volunteers you applied for in the south? Did you not apply for the north at all?" volunteer?"

There was silence on the other side of the phone, and with the gradually louder footsteps beside his ears, Su Ran's heart was lifted into his throat little by little.He was afraid, he was afraid that Ji Jingyan would get an affirmative answer, he was afraid that Ji Jingyan would give up their future so easily, and he was not even given a chance to work hard.

"Su Ran, I'm sorry."

Ji Jingyan's voice was clearly transmitted to Su Ran's eardrums through the phone line. It was obviously the voice he was most familiar with, but the words he said were terribly strange, so strange that he didn't want to admit that it was the words of the person he loved the most.

There was a coldness in my heart, while the former self obediently followed Ji Jingyan's words to fill in the application form, while secretly looking forward to him and Ji Jingyan's wonderful college life.Looking back now, everything I did was as funny as a clown.

He is thinking of ways, trying his best to give Ji Jingyan a future, but the ridiculous thing is that Ji Jingyan doesn't care about having a bad future with him at all.

Su's mother's voice came from outside the door, and there was also the sound of "slapping" knocking on the door: "Su Ran, are you secretly talking to Ji Jingyan on the phone? Talk to me!"

Su Ran took a deep breath, he had no time to care about the angry tone of Su's mother outside the door, he clenched the phone tightly, and asked hoarsely with all his strength: "Why? Ji Jingyan, why on earth did you do this?"

What did I do wrong to make you avoid me in such a hurry?

Ji Jingyan's voice on the other side of the phone was a little flustered: "It's not like this, Su Ran, listen to me..."

At this moment, Su Ran's heart was in a mess, he couldn't listen to any explanation from Ji Jingyan, and now he felt that everything Ji Jingyan said seemed to be satirizing his ignorance and ridiculousness at the beginning: "Ji Jingyan, If you don't like me, just tell me. If you are a disgusting man, you can tell me directly, and I won't pester you. You are flirting with me and giving me hope, and stabbing me in the back at the same time. Are you serious? Have you ever thought about my feelings? My heart is not made of stone, and I will also feel uncomfortable, Ji Jingyan..."

"Su Ran, you..." Just as Ji Jingyan finished speaking, the phone was mercilessly cut off. At the same time, Mother Su rushed in with the spare key at home, snatched the phone from Su Ran's hand, Glancing at the call record, he asked, "Why did you call Ji Jingyan? What did you two say?"

Su Ran buried her head in her knees, sucked her nose vigorously, and said in a muffled voice, "It won't happen in the future..."

Mother Su frowned, she didn't hear Su Ran's words clearly: "What did you say?"

"I said," Su Ran raised her head, her eye circles were red, and her voice was trembling: "It won't happen in the future, and we won't contact each other again..."

Every word is full of hopelessness.

In this hopeless love, everyone was blocking and opposing. He thought that the person he loved would accompany him to face all the storms.But when I got to the end, I realized that everything was just a one-man show by myself.

Humble and ridiculous.

Ji Jingyan's eyes were red, and he hurriedly turned around to snatch the phone from Shen Wanyan's hand, with a tear in his voice: "Mom, give me the phone, I have to explain clearly to Su Ran, things are not what he imagined at all..."

"So what if you explain?" Shen Wanyan tightly held the phone in her hand, without giving in at all: "Since you have already decided not to go to the end with him, in this case, what is the difference between explaining and not explaining?"

Ji Jingyan was taken aback for a moment, but he was still unwilling to let go of the phone that was already holding a corner in his hand.

Seeing this, Shen Wanyan sighed, slowly took Ji Jingyan's hand, and said softly: "Mom knows you feel uncomfortable, just like when your father left, it took a long time for mother to heal the wound in her heart, so Mom can understand you. For you now, you will definitely feel uncomfortable, but you have to learn to let it go slowly. After a long time, you will naturally forget that you have such a ridiculous relationship. "

Ji Jingyan raised his eyes and looked at the ceiling above his head, but tears still flowed from the corners of his eyes.

That's right, since I have decided to live a life that has nothing to do with Su Ran in the future, why bother now.

Everything that happened now was chosen by the original self, so he has no right to blame others or complain about the injustice of the sky.All he could do was to bear silently, to bear the days without Su Ran in the future, and to bear the future that would not be happy.

That summer, Cheng Haoran, who was about the same age as him, experienced firsthand how to write the word "Nie Yuan".

Ever since they met that day, Cheng Haoran thought that his fate with Gu Anyuan had come to an end, but the reality told him that he was still too naive.

He and Gu Anyuan applied to the same university, coincidentally, they were still majoring in the same major.

Cheng Haoran was bored that day, so he had no choice but to watch his friend's dynamic space.Unexpectedly, after such a simple look, I saw the admission notice that Gu Anyuan showed in the space.

Cheng Haoran couldn't figure it out, obviously he had already made all the preparations to end it, but why, why did this bloody eight o'clock series between him and Gu Anyuan have no end?It was hard for him to get out of the harm that Gu Anyuan brought him, but in the blink of an eye, the two of them were about to meet again.

Cheng Haoran felt a deep sense of powerlessness.

Time is like this, every time you want it to pass slowly, it happens to pass quickly.Cheng Haoran hadn't figured out how to face Gu Anyuan yet, and in the blink of an eye, it was the day of registration.

Cheng Haoran is an only child, and it was the first time he left home, his parents were very worried about him, they brought a lot of things with them in large and small bags, and they kept telling them the precautions on the train before boarding the train.Cheng Haoran got dizzy when he heard it, and finally got on the train.

The train was very noisy, and there were endless reminders from students and parents who were about to go to school.Cheng Haoran could see his parents through the car window, saw their aging faces, and looked at the unconcealed concern in their eyes, his nose was a little sore.

Although my parents are ordinary, in my heart, they are greater than anyone else.

Cheng Haoran was brewing emotions here, when someone caught off guard and patted the top of his head.Cheng Haoran was about to get angry, but just as he raised his head, he met Gu Anyuan's smiling eyes.

Nie Yuan.

These were the first two words that popped into Cheng Haoran's head.

Gu Anyuan waved his hand out of the window and said loudly: "Uncle, Auntie, don't worry, you two! I will take Cheng Haoran back to school!"

Cheng Haoran's parents outside the car window nodded in satisfaction, Cheng Haoran waved his hand, and then turned and left in peace.

Gu Anyuan sat down next to Cheng Haoran unceremoniously, and said as if he had nothing to do with himself: "I happened to meet your parents when I came to the train station, and they asked me to take good care of you, and they also helped me change Take a seat."

Cheng Haoran sneered: "Fart! Who needs your care?"

Gu Anyuan narrowed his eyes slightly, without looking at Cheng Haoran: "Anyway, this is what your parents entrusted to me, if you want to blame it, blame your parents, don't blame me."

"You..." Cheng Haoran looked at Gu Anyuan's roguish face, but couldn't find a reason to get angry, so he had to suppress the anger silently.

Next, the two sat side by side on the train, looking at each other silently.

Cheng Haoran tried his best to ignore Gu Anyuan who was sitting next to him, but he seemed to be able to feel Gu Anyuan's eyes on him from time to time after looking at his phone for a long time.Cheng Haoran licked his lips in embarrassment, turned around and took out a bag of potato chips from his backpack. Just as he opened the bag to eat, Gu Anyuan's hand stretched out, and unceremoniously snatched the potato chips from his hand .

"Gu Anyuan!" Cheng Haoran turned his head and was about to get angry when Gu Anyuan suddenly raised his hand and stuffed potato chips into his mouth.His fingers brushed Cheng Haoran's lips inadvertently, carrying the temperature he is most familiar with.

With the potato chips in his mouth, Cheng Haoran just looked at Gu Anyuan with a smirk on his face. At that moment, he seemed to have found the Gu Anyuan who made his heart flutter when he was still in the third year of high school. .

While Cheng Haoran was still in a daze, Gu Anyuan approached slowly, pressed against his ear and asked softly, "Do you know what you look like now?"

Cheng Haoran shook his head in confusion.

Gu Anyuan chuckled, his eyes filled with tenderness, and he slowly uttered two words: "Stupid."

Cheng Haoran: "..."

He knows it!

"Cheng Haoran," Gu Anyuan asked after laughing enough, eating his potato chips, "Do you know that Su Ran came out to his parents for Ji Jingyan?"

Cheng Haoran looked at the potato chips in his hand reluctantly, he was so greedy but he didn't want to eat a bag of potato chips with him, so he replied angrily: "I know!"

Gu Anyuan noticed Cheng Haoran's gaze on the potato chips, picked up a piece of potato chips and handed them to his mouth, seemingly inadvertently asked: "If I come out for you and my mother, will you stay with me? "

Cheng Haoran opened his mouth to take the potato chips that Gu Anyuan handed to his mouth. Halfway through chewing, he heard Gu Anyuan's half-joking and half-serious questioning, and then raised his eyes to meet Gu Anyuan's serious eyes: "Cheng Haoran, you Will you be with me?"

Chapter 36

Cheng Haoran stared at Gu Anyuan in a daze, and even forgot to swallow the potato chips in his mouth.In the noisy carriage, Cheng Haoran's head was in a mess, but there was only one sentence in his mind that was particularly clear: "Cheng Haoran, would you like to be with me?"

Only then did Cheng Haoran realize that no matter how much he denies it, how hard he tries to deceive himself, he will never forget Gu Anyuan, and he still, deeply likes him...

The train roared away, overcoming many obstacles, carrying him and Gu Anyuan towards the distant and unknown future.

Sometimes I think about it, the college entrance examination is a very cruel thing, and the students who once sat in one classroom and struggled are scattered all over the country.Although the technology is advanced now, you can contact and meet at any time at any time, but as time goes by, everyone gradually loses the enthusiasm and acquaintance they once had, and then gradually drifts away.

Gu Anyuan and Cheng Haoran were relatively lucky classmates, they were admitted to the same school and the same major, and their dormitories were next door to each other.So even if it is a bad fate, you have to sigh the wonder of fate.

Su Ran's university is near his hometown, so there are many classmates he knew before, so he is not alone.Compared to them, Ji Jingyan's life is not so smooth.Because I grew up in the north, I still feel a little uncomfortable after going to the south.But for him, the biggest discomfort was not having Su Ran by his side.

But after all, all of these are his own choices, so he can only choose to face them.

Time flies like a white horse, and it is half a year in the blink of an eye.

Su Ran's life in the past six months can't be said to be very good, but it can't be said to be very bad either.Since the phone call that afternoon, he and Ji Jingyan haven't been in touch again.To Su Ran's surprise, even though the two of them no longer contact each other, life is not as bad as imagined.

Su Ran began to gradually choose to forget about Jing Yan and that hard-won relationship.

Just after the day of the phone call with Ji Jingyan, Su Ran stayed in the room for two whole days.In the past two days, he has been thinking about a question: Ji Jingyan has given up, so what's the point of persisting on his own?Since Ji Jingyan has already chosen to give up this relationship, why can't he choose to give up?

Then choose to forget him... Su Ran thought, if it doesn't work in one year, it will take ten years, if it doesn't work in ten years, it can take 20 years.He is still so young, one day, he will be forgotten...

This is the first time that Su Ran has the idea of ​​giving up on the relationship he has persisted in for so many years.

When Su Ran saw Ji Jingyan again, it was at the class reunion half a year later.Half a year later, Ji Jingyan was a little taller than before, probably because of military training, and his skin was tanned a lot.But no matter how he changes, he is always Su Ran's favorite appearance.

Because most of the students in the class didn't know what happened between the two after graduation, seeing Ji Jingyan arrived, the students sitting next to Su Ran quickly got up and warmly greeted Ji Jingyan to sit in their seats.Before Su Ran could speak, Ji Jingyan was dragged by that classmate's arm and sat in his seat.Everyone was busy chatting, and did not notice the awkward atmosphere between the two.

After a while, it was Ji Jingyan who spoke first, with a hint of cautiousness in his tone: "How are you doing recently? Are you okay?"

Su Ran turned her head and met Ji Jingyan's warm eyes, those eyes were still as clear as before, Su Ran could clearly see her own reflection in his eyes.He turned his head unnaturally, looked at the tableware in front of him and said, "Well, it's okay, how about you?"

"I'm fine too, everything's fine."

After that, there was no more words, both of them looked down at the mobile phone in their hands, but only they knew that their hearts were still firmly tied to the person sitting beside them and could not be removed.

Su Ran's expression remained the same on the surface, but only he knew how nervous he was now.he expected