childhood sweethearts on chrysanthemum

I put the photo of my head under the moonlight and looked at it carefully.There is a three-part image between myself and the teenager in the photo, and this three-point image is on my lips.

The uneasiness in his heart was gradually magnified, and Cheng Haoran was half sober from the wine.The photos placed on the bedside table, he doesn't need others to remind him, he knows how important it is.The self who was still excited about winning Gu Anyuan's favor just now looks like a ridiculous clown.The upturned corners of the mouth in the photo in his hand seemed to mock his ignorance.

Unwillingness slowly came to my heart, and the hand holding the photo frame gradually tightened, and finally with a "snap", the photo frame fell to the ground hard.Looking at the photo frame that was smashed to pieces on the ground, a sense of revenge surged in my heart.

Cheng Haoran rushed out the door in embarrassment, he didn't care who the person on the photo frame was, and he didn't care where that person was, he only knew that the person Gu Anyuan cared about was not him, and it was never him.

In this game between him and Gu Anyuan, only he foolishly took it seriously.

When he got into the taxi, Cheng Haoran's mood was unprecedentedly heavy. He was looking forward to a beautiful relationship that was about to start, and it would end in such a hasty way, and only he would call the curtain in a mess.

After returning from KTV, it was almost early morning, Ji Jingyan struggled to get Su Ran, who was unconscious from drinking, upstairs. Ji Jingyan was also a little drunk, and fumbled in his trouser pocket for a long time, trying to find the key to his house.But after touching it, Ji Jingyan vaguely found that something was wrong.

Su Ran, he is hard.

Ji Jingyan's face turned red, and after secretly scolding Su Ran for being shameless, he continued to touch the key cautiously.Because the lights in the corridor are voice-activated lights, Ji Jingyan was afraid of disturbing everyone's sleep, so he didn't dare to make too much noise.Just when he was still wondering where Su Ran's key was placed, Su Ran's hand suddenly grabbed his hand, and then he turned around. Before Ji Jingyan could react, Su Ran pressed him against him. on the door, and then he heard Su Ran's hoarse voice in his ear: "go to your house, I didn't bring the key."

The voice-activated light turned on in response to the sound, and at the moment of turning on the light, Ji Jingyan clearly saw Su Ran's lips opening and closing, with a strong smell of alcohol, but with a deadly sex appeal to him.

Ji Jingyan put his palm on Su Ran's chest and said, "Get out of the way, I'll turn around and open the door."

Su Ran didn't speak, Ji Jingyan waited for a long time, until the voice control light went out, Ji Jingyan felt Su Ran's figure gradually pressing down.Before he could react, there was a soft touch on his neck, mixed with Su Ran's breathing.

Ji Jingyan was taken aback for a moment, not knowing how to react.

Su Ran's lips gradually moved up, with a heavy panting sound, Su Ran's hands gradually moved to Ji Jingyan's waist, slowly rubbing his back through the cloth.

The corridor is dark, and when the sight is deprived, the sense of touch becomes particularly sensitive.Ji Jingyan felt that Su Ran's hand and Su Ran's lips were hot everywhere they touched.Ji Jingyan tried hard to breathe steadily, hoping to keep his mind clear.However, the moment their lips met, Ji Jingyan was brutally deprived of all consciousness, only Su Ran's face was particularly clear in his mind.

Su Ran's hands kept walking on Ji Jingyan's body, and he easily found the key he put in his pocket. Following his feeling, he inserted the key into the lock hole, and the door opened with a "click".

Su Ran walked in with Ji Jingyan's shoulders in his arms. As soon as he entered the room, he pushed Ji Jingyan against the wall, bowed his head and kissed his lips without hesitation.

Under the influence of alcohol, Ji Jingyan also began to lose his scruples, he put his arms around Su Ran's neck, and tried his best to cater to Su Ran's kiss.In the silent night, only each other's breathing was very clear, with a taste of sex.

Su Ran buried her head in Ji Jingyan's neck, pressed her palms tightly to his waist, gasped heavily, and kept calling his name in his ear: "Ji Jingyan, Ji Jingyan..."

Like a lost child, he kept calling the only name in his heart, flustered and at a loss.

Ji Jingyan raised his hand to touch the back of Su Ran's head, his voice was soft and tender: "Well, I'm here."

I am always here.

That night Su Ran was lying beside Ji Jingyan, the two of them did nothing, compared to the intense time when they entered the room, they were more peaceful lying on the bed.Su Ran and Ji Jingyan talked a lot, about the little thoughts he had buried in his heart for so many years, about the shadow of Ji Jingyan in the girls he liked before, about how he had already expressed love to Shen Tang when he broke up with Shen Tang. Tang confessed everything, and being with Ji Jingyan was the deepest wish buried in his heart.

Ji Jingyan lay flat on the bed, looking at the ceiling above his head.Under Su Ran's description, the ceiling outlines the time the two have spent together for so many years, from immaturity to maturity, from fighting with each other to now walking hand in hand, they are childhood playmates and the only one for each other.

Su Ran's voice became smaller and smaller, but in the end, Ji Jingyan still heard his last words clearly.

"Ji Jingyan, I hope to spend the rest of my life with you."

Ji Jingyan turned his head and looked at Su Ran's side face in the dark, suddenly felt that being able to spend his life with this person beside him might be the happiest thing in his life.

It doesn't matter if you are a man, as long as you love me, that's enough.

Cheng Haoran lay flat on the bed, looking at the dark ceiling.It's obviously past the usual time to go to bed, and I still drank a little too much tonight.But now his head is still extremely clear, his mind is full of passion between him and Gu Anyuan in the toilet, Gu Anyuan looked at his lips affectionately and the stinging photo that Gu Anyuan put on the bedside table stings him.

Cheng Haoran never thought of himself as a hypocritical person, but now, because of a photo of unknown origin, because of a boy he has never met, he has suffered from insomnia for most of the night.

He thought that he might really like someone he shouldn't.On the day Gu Anyuan warned him, he should have pulled himself out of this inexplicable relationship without hesitation, and he should not indulge in it, nor should he have illusions.

Cheng Haoran sighed, turned over, and looked at the family portrait beside the bed. The bright and happy smiling faces of the family of three in the photo reminded him all the time that he was the only child of his parents, even if Gu Anyuan would really choose to be with him Together, they can't have a future, what they have is just a short-lived passion.

Because they are all men, they will not have the future they want.

Early the next morning, as soon as Su Ran opened her eyes, the sun couldn't wait to squeeze in.He half-closed his eyes and was about to get up when he suddenly felt the weight on his shoulders.Su Ran lowered her head slowly, and saw Ji Jingyan's sleeping face next to him.

The sun shines on his slightly raised eyelashes, which are plated with a faint golden edge.Ji Jingyan's eyes are beautiful. Even with his eyes closed, Su Ran can imagine that when Ji Jingyan looked at him, the soft light in his eyes made him willingly immerse himself in his tenderness and never look back.

Ji Jingyan curled up slightly, like a well-behaved rabbit nestled in his arms, breathing lightly and patting his shoulders again and again, teasing his heart that was no longer calm.

Su Ran raised her hand to wrap around Ji Jingyan's shoulder, feeling his breath in her ear, a subtle feeling suddenly surged in her heart.

"I really hope that every day in the future when I wake up, I will have you by my side."

When thinking of this sentence, Su Ran suddenly remembered that Ji Jingyan asked him half seriously and half jokingly last night: "Su Ran, do you think we will have a future?"

future?Will the two men have a happy future?

Ji Jingyan woke up very unhappy, because he didn't wake up naturally, but was awakened by a strange smell.

Following the smell and walking towards the kitchen in a daze, Ji Jingyan saw a scene that he thought he would never see in his life.

Su Ran's upper body was bare, her lower body was only wearing underwear, and her mother's usual pink apron was tied on her body.Because the apron is a bit small, and the straps at the back are fastened tightly, the whole apron is tight on the body, with a kind of comical sex appeal.

At this moment, he was bending over, pouted his buttocks, and frantically looking for things in the cabinet.The sound of rummaging through things was very soft, and it was also mixed with scolding sounds that were suppressed as much as possible.

Ji Jingyan suddenly felt that this scene was terribly warm. When he opened his eyes early in the morning, he could see that his beloved was trying his best to prepare breakfast for him. There were a few scolding voices mixed in with the "gudong" of the rice cooker, but when the morning light hit him through the window, Ji Jingyan felt that all of this was warm and beautiful.

Ji Jingyan walked gently to the rice cooker, and turned off the cooker with a "click".Su Ran, whose back was turned to him, was startled, turned around and saw Ji Jingyan smiling brightly at him: "Good morning, Su Ran."

Su Ran was taken aback for a moment, then smiled, and replied: "Well, good morning."

The porridge from the rice cooker exudes a strange smell, but the eyes of the two meet in the air, with warmth and sweetness.

Ji Jingyan's gaze moved down slowly, and he naturally saw the embarrassing two spots on Su Ran's chest.Ji Jingyan was taken aback for a moment, and then burst out laughing with a "puchi".

Seeing this, Su Ran naturally lowered her head and saw that Ji Jingyan was smiling very happily. For the first time, she didn't retaliate. She just hurriedly untied the knot behind the apron and muttered slowly: "Auntie's apron is too small ah……"

Ji Jingyan looked at Su Ran's flustered appearance, and didn't hold back the smile on his lips, so he couldn't help walking around behind him, lowering his head to help him fix the knot behind him.Su Ran didn't take back her hand either, her two slender fingers were intertwined, and after the knot was untied, it gradually became intertwined.

At this moment, Su Ran's voice came faintly from the front, although his tone was casual, but still with his unquestionable firmness: "Ji Jingyan, I want to come out."

The author has something to say: Warm updates with both hands~

Because I have to prepare for the final exam recently, the update time has changed. Between 3:[-] and [-]:[-] every day, if I can’t update, I will ask for leave in advance. Thank you little angels for your support (╯[-]╰)

Chapter 23

Ji Jingyan was taken aback, but before he could react, Su Ran's words reached his ears one after another: "I know what you want to say, I'm not impulsive, but the result of thinking all morning," Su Ran's fingers gradually Tighten up, and hold Ji Jingyan's hand tightly: "I've thought about it a lot, and for a long time. You said you were afraid that the two men would not have a future, so I will give you the future you want. "

Ji Jingyan stood behind him, his eyes were sore and swollen.He hugged Su Ran's thin waist slowly, and whispered in his ear: "Su Ran, do you know? This is the most beautiful love story I've ever heard."

Su Ran held Ji Jingyan's hand in front of her, her voice was soft, with unlimited expectations for the future: "We will get married after graduating from university, and I will tell you whatever you want."

Ji Jingyan suddenly had an urge to cry, and he also hoped that he would be by his side after graduation, that he would wake up in his arms every morning, hear the other party say good morning to him, and then eat him to make The strange taste of rice.Just like my own parents, I live every day plainly and sweetly.

But Ji Jingyan knew better than anyone else that all of this was just his own dream.They can come together without hesitation regardless of social public opinion and social pressure.However, Su Ran's parents have only one son, and they will not allow their only son to be with a man.There is even greater resistance, which comes from my mother, because I am all she can rely on in the future.He has lost his only father, so he wants his mother to live a happy life and enjoy the family happiness, instead of being sympathetic because he is gay wherever he goes.

Ji Jingyan knew that even if Su Ran had the confidence to go hand in hand with him, he would choose to give up because of his cowardice.Because he doesn't see others pointing at him, he doesn't want to see his mother's disappointed eyes, and he doesn't want to hurt all the people who love him because he chose what he loves.

Ji Jingyan pondered for a while before slowly speaking: "Su Ran, you said you want to give me a future, but have you ever thought about your parents' future?"

Ji Jingyan felt Su Ran's body stiffen, he slowly took his hand out of Su Ran's palm, walked up to him, looked into his eyes and said, "Can you give me the future I want? It doesn't matter, as long as I have you in my future, this is more important than anything else."

Ji Jingyan's clear eyes only reflect his own figure, and he is the only one in these beautiful eyes at the moment, and a sense of satisfaction gradually fills up in his heart: "But I want to be with you for the rest of my life, not just a simple cohabitation relationship , and it’s not because I’m afraid of other people’s strange eyes that I bury our relationship in the ground and never see the light of day. I want to be blessed by the whole world, and I want everyone around me to know that the person I like is you.” Su Ran paused for a while, and then said: "Also, I'm not gay, I don't like men, and I feel sick when I see other men kissing, but it's not the same with you, because you are different in my eyes of."

Ji Jingyan could see the excited light in Su Ran's eyes when he talked about himself, as if he was referring to the most precious treasure in the world. His every word and sentence easily poked the softest corner of his heart, making him lose his helmet and armor, defeated.

Seeing Ji Jingyan's silence, Su Ran took a deep breath and said, "So I want to try and see if I have the ability to be with you forever."

The future is so long, the future is so far away, so I want to walk with you, so that I will not be lonely anymore.

Ji Jingyan's eyes were a little wet. Since he was a child, no one had ever talked about himself so affectionately. With full of love, he said every word that he wanted to give him a bright and aboveboard future.

Ji Jingyan sniffed hard, trying to organize the messy words in his mind: "Su Ran, I know what you think, but," Ji Jingyan took a deep breath, and mustered up the courage to say the next thing: "But I still If you are not ready, give me a year, okay? After all, no one can say for sure. If we are still as fearless as we are today, then I will come out with you, no matter what happens Whatever difficulties we encounter, we will face them together.”

Su Ran looked at Ji Jingyan's reddish eyes, and gently pulled him into her arms, and after a long silence, she responded, "Well, I'll wait for you."

Ten years, 20 years, 30 years, I will wait for you.

I hope that in the future, we can remember the bravery and fearlessness at this moment. After all, we have all loved without fear.

Feeling bad after a hangover, Gu Anyuan rubbed his head and struggled to get up, his head was cloudy, and his ears were buzzing.He shook his head vigorously, and when he turned his head, he saw the fragmented photo frame on the ground.

Gu Anyuan was taken aback, then got out of bed, looked at Mu Yan's sunny smiling face under the broken glass, feeling suspicious in his heart.

Regarding the memory of last night, he was blank, his brain began to fragment after meeting Cheng Haoran, how he came back, and why the photo frame fell to the ground, he had no idea.But when he was trying to remember, the name that he whispered over and over again when he kissed in the toilet suddenly flashed in his mind.

Mu Yan.

Gu Anyuan didn't remember the cause of the incident, but he remembered the unforgettable passion in the bathroom, the kind of passion that he had never experienced since Mu Yan left.

After thinking for a while, he took out his mobile phone and called Su Ran, asking himself who he was with last night, who was the person he was with in the bathroom.

Cheng Haoran suffered from insomnia because of a man.He fell asleep in a daze until early in the morning, and woke up before dawn in the morning, his head was full of Gu Anyuan.

Cheng Haoran shook his head vigorously, he was very puzzled, how could he suddenly become so hypocritical as a man, because a man is insomnia and bothering.

No, no, he can't do this.

He got out of bed and opened the curtains, the first ray of sunlight hit his face in the morning, bringing intoxicating warmth and a beautiful start to a new day.

Well, that's it, forget about him!

Just as he made up his mind, the phone rang unexpectedly. Cheng Haoran walked to the bed and looked down, his whole body was shocked.

The words "Gu Anyuan" on the phone kept challenging his psychological limit.

Cheng Haoran took a deep breath, tremblingly pressed the answer button, Gu Anyuan's voice came through the radio waves faintly: "Are you awake?"

fart!How could I answer your call if I didn't wake up!

Of course, Cheng Haoran just thought about it silently in his heart, and replied weakly, "Well, I just woke up."

Gu Anyuan's voice was a little apologetic, probably because he was used to being domineering in front of him, and hearing his apology brought a strange sense of disobedience: "I drank too much last night, so...maybe I did something wrong to you. Good thing, I hope you don't take it to heart."

Well, now it's time to distance yourself.Logically speaking, I should follow Gu Anyuan's words, tell him that I don't care at all, and tell him not to take it to heart.But these simple words are so difficult for Cheng Haoran.It was as if an invisible hand was strangling his throat, preventing him from uttering a word.

That invisible hand was his love for Gu Anyuan buried deep in his heart.

He didn't want Gu Anyuan to keep a distance from him, and he didn't want Gu Anyuan to forget him, he wanted Gu Anyuan to know...that he liked him.

Just as Cheng Haoran expected, Gu Anyuan's tone was slightly alienated: "In the next few days, let's keep in touch less, after all, if we stick to each other, it's not good for anyone."

These words were like a sharp knife, piercing Cheng Haoran's heart fiercely.His figure swayed, and he grabbed the head of the bed to barely stand still.

Cheng Haoran took a deep breath, pretended to be calm and said: "I know, so I don't plan to contact you anymore, I also want to get together with you, but," Cheng Haoran changed his voice, Then he said: "Anyway, I won't see each other again. Can you tell me who is in the photo on your bedside?"

Yes, after all, he was still not reconciled, and in the end he still cared.

Gu Anyuan was taken aback by Cheng Haoran's sudden question, he lowered his head to look at the photo in his hand, and slowly stroked the corner of his upturned mouth.The outline of him was drawn little by little by the fingertips, with deep love and nostalgia.

"He is my love."

Is my life, the only love.

Mu Yan, I'm sorry, I can't give you this honorable identity until after you leave me.

There was silence on the phone for a while, and then there was a busy tone.

Gu Anyuan put down his phone, scenes of his acquaintance with Cheng Haoran flashed through his mind, and the irreparable up to now.Gu Anyuan believes that his choice is correct, because no one knows better than him the loneliness and helplessness of choosing to be with a man.

Mu Yan held his hand, the emptiness in his eyes and the fragile breathing in the oxygen cylinder were the nightmares that Gu Anyuan still didn't want to think about after a year.

A nightmare that I don't want to recall for the rest of my life.

Holding the phone, Cheng Haoran sucked his nose vigorously, trying to suppress the overwhelming sadness in his heart.

He has always known that Gu Anyuan's heart is impregnable, no matter how hard he tries, he can't really walk into his heart.But he was not reconciled to having another person, so he easily achieved what he dreamed of.

He began to be curious, curious about Gu Anyuan's past that he didn't know about, and curious about who "his lover" Gu Anyuan called.

Cheng Haoran thought for a while, picked up the phone, and asked concisely after the call was connected: "Do you know Gu Anyuan? Do you have time? I want to ask you about him."

The two arrived at a coffee shop as promised, and sitting across from Cheng Haoran's childhood neighbor Ding Yan, who was Gu Anyuan's junior high school classmate, although they didn't know each other very well, Ding Yan still knew a little bit about Gu Anyuan. .

As soon as Ding Yan arrived at the coffee shop, Cheng Haoran couldn't wait to ask: "Do you know if Gu Anyuan has any good friends around him? It's the kind with a particularly good relationship."

Ding Yan was taken aback by Cheng Haoran's fiery questioning, and under Cheng Haoran's constant urging, he took a sip of coffee before slowly saying: "I don't know about my good friends, but I do have a good friend named Shen Muyan. "

Cheng Haoran frowned, carefully chewing on the name that was completely unfamiliar to him: "Shen Muyan?"

The author has something to say: I changed my pen name to Caramel Orange, which is a little shorter~

Speaking of which, it is really difficult to come up with a pseudonym. Many of them have been repeated with others. It took a lot of effort to change this pseudonym. I will not change it again in the future. I hope the little angels will support you~

Chapter 24

The moment he heard the name, Cheng Haoran instinctively reflected the bright smiling face of the boy in the photo. He looked at Ding Yan seriously and asked, "When did they meet?"

Ding Yan babbled, thought for a while and said, "It seems that we have known each other since we were young... When we were in junior high school and high school, Gu Anyuan and Shen Muyan were the most influential figures in our middle school. One is rich and the other is good-looking. They both have everything to say."

Cheng Haoran frowned, grasping the key words: "rich? Who has money?"

"Gu Anyuan," Ding Yan took it for granted, "Don't you know? His family has been soldiers since his great-grandfather, and his status should not be underestimated. He grew up in the compound of the military region since he was a child. You Does it mean that his family may have no money?"

Gu Anyuan's family has been in the army for generations?Cheng Haoran had never heard Gu Anyuan mention it.

Ding Yan became more and more enthusiastic as he took a sip of coffee and continued to speak enthusiastically: "Shen Muyan is the son of his father's driver. They grew up together, and their relationship is incomparable to ordinary people. Gu Anyuan and I are not considered I know him very well, but as long as I can meet Gu Anyuan, Shen Muyan will definitely be by his side."

"You said that two big men get tired of being together every day. After a long time, you can talk about everything. Once, a boy in a foreign class was gossiping, and Gu Anyuan heard him, tsk tsk tsk, what happened would be terrible..."

Cheng Haoran was too lazy to listen to Gu Anyuan's tenderness towards Shen Muyan, and it made him feel extremely uncomfortable, so he had to interrupt his words: "Just skip the useless ones, it's worth talking about."

"Valuable things..." Ding Yan stroked his chin, thought for a while, and said decisively: "Then there is no more. All I know is that they are always together every day, endlessly."

When Cheng Haoran heard this, the image of Gu Anyuan gradually overlapped with that of Su Ran in his mind.He knows how much Su Ran loves Ji Jingyan. Could it be that Gu Anyuan also likes Shen Muyan so persistently?

Ding Yan ignored Cheng Haoran's thoughtful expression, and continued: "In the third year of high school, Gu Anyuan fell ill and was hospitalized. Not long after he was hospitalized, Shen Muyan died in a car accident. After he was discharged from the hospital, he chose Repeat the reading, and you will know everything after that.”

"He's dead?" Ding Yan's words pulled Cheng Haoran back from his thoughts, his eyes widened in disbelief.

A person I cared about so much, a person Gu Anyuan loved so deeply, has long since passed away?

Ding Yan sighed, nodded, and his tone was full of regret: "Well, in fact, I didn't believe it at first. Shen Muyan is such a good person, and he is still so young. He just left. Don't say it's Gu Anyuan, it's me It's a pity for someone who doesn't know him very well."

Speaking of this, Ding Yan seemed to suddenly remember something, and asked, "Hey, Cheng Haoran, what do you ask me about Gu Anyuan?"

Cheng Haoran was taken aback for a moment, then shrugged his shoulders and tried to pretend to be indifferent: "There's nothing to do, just stay bored and be curious!"

Ding Yan didn't speak for a while, as if struggling in his heart for a long time, he said to Cheng Haoran with a serious face: "Cheng Haoran, I kindly reminded you for the sake of being your neighbor. Don't have any damn curiosity about Gu Anyuan, it will really hurt you."

When Cheng Haoran heard Ding Yan's warning, his heart was raised in his throat, and he asked in a daze, "Why?"

Ding Yan coughed lightly, straightened his sitting posture, looked at Cheng Haoran and said, "I told you just now that Gu Anyuan came out of the military compound, maybe you can't tell, but Gu Anyuan's family education is really strict. Especially his grandfather, who had high demands on him, so being his friend would be tiring. Also, Shen Muyan's death was definitely not as simple as an ordinary car accident. A friend of mine saw someone sneaking up on Shen Muyan's bicycle. At that stage, Gu Anyuan was still in the hospital, so Shen Muyan rode his bicycle home by himself. As a result, Shen Muyan had a car accident that night. Later I heard that some people in suits and leather shoes came to my friend's house and gave a Huge sums of money were used as hush money, and then this matter was suppressed."

Cheng Haoran sat in front of Ding Yan and listened to every word he said, obviously they were talking about the same person, but why was the Gu Anyuan that Ding Yan said so strange to him?It was from this moment that Cheng Haoran realized that perhaps he had never known Gu Anyuan before.

Only now did he clearly realize that from the beginning to the end, it was all his own wishful thinking.

Ever since Ji Jingyan returned to his hometown in the south, talking on the phone with him every day is one of the must-have schedules for Su Ran.Sometimes even if they don't speak to each other, it is a happy thing for them to just listen to each other's breathing quietly.

"Ji Jingyan," Su Ran lay on the bed, crossed his legs and looked at the ceiling and asked, "The results will be out in two days. Which school are you going to apply for?"

Ji Jingyan's voice on the phone was full of youthful magnetism: "I don't know, I feel that I did not perform well and did not pass the exam very well. But when applying for volunteers, it is best to choose a university that is closer, so that we can meet in the future It will be much more convenient.”

Su Ran put down her legs, sat on the bed and asked, "What do you mean by being closer? Let's report directly to a city, preferably a school. It's so convenient. I can see you every day."

"Su Ran," Ji Jingyan's voice sank, "university is very important, don't choose an inappropriate university for our relationship, otherwise you will suffer in the future."

Seeing that Ji Jingyan was about to start a long speech again, Su Ran quickly admitted his mistake: "Yeah, yes, yes, everything my family Ji Jingyan says is right."

Because in my heart you are the truth, and you are all my principles, so no matter what you say, I will obey and obey unconditionally.

As soon as Ji Jingyan hung up the phone with Su Ran, his grandmother asked him to eat.

The dinner table was still as quiet as ever. Grandpa passed away early, and only grandma was left to live alone. The old man didn't talk much.As for Shen Wanyan, since Ji Feng's death, she spoke less and less, even if she did, she still couldn't do without Ji Feng.

Ji Jingyan knew from a young age that Shen Wanyan was a very dependent person. Since her father left, the big tree that Shen Wanyan could rely on in her heart collapsed and became a mess.From the moment his father left, Ji Jingyan had already made plans in his heart that he would grow slowly and become a big tree that his mother could rely on.

So he can only choose one of family affection and love.

At this time, Shen Wanyan, who had never spoken much, suddenly asked, "How are you and Su Ran?"

Ji Jingyan was taken aback for a moment, then he involuntarily clenched the chopsticks in his hand, pursed his lips and replied, "I haven't had much contact, I just met at the graduation dinner and chatted for a while."

Shen Wanyan's sharp gaze swept over Ji Jingyan's slightly pursed lips, and his hands clenched with chopsticks, and suddenly sneered, and said, "Ji Jingyan, I have raised you for nearly 20 years, no one can compare you to what you look like when you lie. I know better."

Ji Jingyan hastily let go of the chopsticks he was holding tightly in his hand, and the chopsticks fell to the ground with a "clack", accompanied by Shen Wanyan's emotionless voice: "I don't expect you to break up the relationship between the two of you for more than ten years. , I want you to take your time and alienate Su Ran slowly, and it is best not to contact him in the future. Just remember that without his father, your father will not leave. "

Ji Jingyan nodded in response, and suddenly felt that since her father left, Shen Wanyan had become more and more unfamiliar, and less and less like her once loving mother.At this time, I suddenly remembered the things about Cheng Haoran that I had promised, so I asked Shen Wanyan: "My high school classmates are going to travel after applying for the exam, and I want to go with them."

Shen Wanyan raised her eyes, and slowly spit out a few words: "Su Ran organized?"

Ji Jingyan quickly shook his head: "No, it was organized by the monitor."

"Will Su Ran go?"

Ji Jingyan's heart rose to his throat, and he looked into Shen Wanyan's eyes, without pursing his lips or clenching his fists, trying to look as natural as possible: "I don't know, I haven't asked him yet."

Shen Wanyan took a deep look at him, didn't find anything unusual before she said: "Go if you want, just remember not to get too close to Su Ran."

Only then did Ji Jingyan let go of the heart hanging in his throat, and he breathed a sigh of relief.

In fact, Ji Jingyan was very puzzled. Although Shen Wanyan rejected Su Ran before, he had never resisted the two of them meeting so strongly like today.Thinking of this, Ji Jingyan suddenly realized: Could it be that she discovered something during her absence?

Thinking of this, Ji Jingyan couldn't help straightening his back, and kept filtering everything that might be discovered in his head.Most of Ji Jingyan's things are still in the previous home, and there are only a handful of things brought over. Ji Jingyan thought about it for a long time, but he didn't think of anything that might reveal his relationship with Su Ran.

At this time, I happened to see my grandmother walking by, Ji Jingyan thought for a while, then raised her body and asked, "Grandma, did my mother come to my room when I was not at home?"

Grandma nodded and pointed to the desk next to Ji Jingyan: "When I went out, I saw him looking at something in front of your desk. I'm old, so I can't see what she's holding." Then she asked Ji Jingyan with eyes full of concern: " What's wrong? Is something missing?"

Ji Jingyan shook his head quickly: "No, I just want to ask you a few questions."

After grandma left, Ji Jingyan got up quickly, opened the drawer on the desk, and began to search.After looking for it for a while, he suddenly saw the same book that he had bought with Su Ran. He turned over the cover, and on the first page, the two big characters of Su Ran came into his eyes.

In the past, he often came to do homework together, and the notebooks were the same, so it was normal to take the wrong ones.Just when Ji Jingyan was about to take a quick look and put it aside, a small piece of paper flew out lightly.

Ji Jingyan bent down to pick it up, looked at the writing on it, his eyes widened, and his heart suddenly became cold.

The author has something to say: Tomorrow is the final exam, I wish my character will explode o(￣▽￣)d

Chapter 25

It was a small note passed between him and Su Ran in class, and it was a Q version of him and Su Ran.Ji Jingyan remembers that time