sunk into the earth

Zhang Chen has been busy re-arranging the music for a whole week. He chose a bold way to do it, and he didn't care whether others like it or not. In the words of Lao Liu-anyway, they all lose money in the end when they make music, but Make it up!

Cheng Sheng always called when he was not in the hospital, mostly to report the situation, and said to him triumphantly: "I took a cognitive ability test today, and the doctor praised me for my good brain, and the reaction time is the shortest among her records. .”

The studio was empty. Zhang Chen had just sent Lao Liu away for rehearsal, put down the work at hand, planned to chat with Cheng Sheng for a while, and said to him sincerely: "I told you that you have a good brain. I have seen you before." The smartest people."

Suddenly there was no movement over there, and after a while, a choked voice came: "How long are you coming to the hospital? I miss you..." But in the middle of the sentence, he hurriedly changed his mouth, "Don't talk about this, just do your best. I'm doing a great job here.

Zhang Chen said: "You let your mother go back, I will take care of you."

When Cheng Sheng heard it, he refused without hesitation: "No, no, you have work to do, so you can't spend it all on me."

He realized that his emotions were exposed too much, and he was afraid that Zhang Chen would put off all his work just to take care of him, so he didn't dare to mention this matter again, so he changed his mouth to talk about his work: "Frank came to see me yesterday. , asked me about the acquisition, said that there was a company intending to buy it, and asked me what I thought about it.”

Such a blunt turning point made Zhang Chen feel amused. He went to the refrigerator to get a bottle of Coke, but didn't break it. Instead, he followed Cheng Sheng and asked, "Do you want to sell it?"

Cheng Sheng was silent for a while and said: "They still don't know about my current illness, so they gave two plans, one is pure trading, take the money and leave, the other is to exchange shares, Frank and I can take the original team to go They are executives there, and the last one is more secure."

Seeing that he was going to talk about business, Zhang Chen walked to the balcony outside the studio to breathe, leaned on the railing and said, "But you want to choose the first one, right?"

Cheng Sheng said "yes" and explained: "According to the current condition, I will not be able to work normally after I leave the hospital, and I am afraid of making mistakes at work. I don't know when I will really recover, so I just take the money and leave. Most appropriate, I'm sorry Frank."

Zhang Chen said: "Maybe Frank also wants to take the money and go back to travel around the world. There is no need to be sorry for anyone in business."

The other side was very quiet, and Cheng Sheng said after a while: "I asked Frank to go back and have a meeting with Xiao Huang and the others. When he came to see me in two days, he brought the other party's information and we continued to discuss."

This time it was Zhang Chen's turn to be silent, and he said after a long time: "Such a big decision will be made after leaving the hospital, and now rest well."

After hooking up the phone, Cheng Sheng's mother came in from the outside, holding the rice she had just bought in her hand, she glanced at the documents in his arms and complained to him: "As soon as I leave, you work secretly, what have you become and still work? "

Cheng Sheng immediately put a stack of papers in his arms on the table, and surrendered, "No more work, no more work!"

Cheng Sheng's mother put the hot lunch on the table, but didn't open it directly to eat with Cheng Sheng. She went to the bathroom to wash her face, combed her hair again, and smiled hard in the mirror. After cleaning up in a slovenly manner, I went out to accompany my son.

The past few days have not been smooth as an escort. She has never done rough work, and she has no experience of accompanying patients 24 hours a day. She has to call Zhang Chen even if there is a small matter. At this time, she does not care about the relationship between the two , took the initiative to contact him, and the first opening was full of questions, sometimes it was "What if Cheng Sheng doesn't speak? Sometimes I call him as if he can't hear you." He looks unsupported, unable to walk or move, I dare not touch him, he lies on the bed and keeps looking out of the window, is he trying to commit suicide? What should I do about Xiao Zhang?"

Zhang Chen took care of Cheng Sheng early and had experience in taking care of Cheng Sheng. He answered Cheng Sheng's mother one by one, and finally reassured her that there is no need to worry. Many patients who are seriously hospitalized are like this. Calm down and talk about it in detail when he comes to the hospital.

What he said did not comfort an anxious mother at all. She was gradually tossed out of mental weakness, and her body was overwhelmed. At night, when her son was asleep, she always got up secretly, went to the balcony by herself, and wiped away her tears facing the night scene outside the window.

When the doctor came to make rounds in the morning, Cheng Sheng seemed to have regained the occasional positive attitude his mother had spoken of. He could chatter with anyone he caught, but when they left, he returned to his original sickness, and walked to the window sill without saying a word. Press your face against the glass like you do every day in the hospital and say nothing.

Cheng Sheng's mother looked at her son who had been lying on the window and looking out, but she didn't dare to sigh, and even slowed down her movements as much as possible to avoid making some mentally tense noises. She quietly took out a collection of poems from her bag, He whispered to Cheng Sheng behind his back: Mom, please read a poem to you. "

Hearing the sound, Cheng Sheng turned around and saw his mother's appearance at this moment.She was facing the sunlight outside the window, but her face was not bright at all, the corners of her mouth drooped, her eyes were dark, her expression was cautious when she spoke, for fear of irritating Cheng Sheng if she didn't pay attention.He knew that his mother's current appearance was all worn out by himself, and that he was hurting others, and his heart shrank and felt uncomfortable. He whispered: "I am already 28, and you still treat me like a child, telling stories and reading books." Poetry, how can there be such a thing?"

Cheng Sheng's mother lowered her head, flipped through the poetry collection page by page, and refuted him: "In my mother's heart, children will always be children, and they will still be children when they grow up to eighty."

This time, Cheng didn't say a word, walked back to his hospital bed and sat down in silence, put his two thin hands on his knees, and looked like he was listening attentively.

Mom glanced at him, smiled, and said, "I'll read you a happy song."

She first read two light-toned poems, trying to enliven the atmosphere, but Cheng Sheng showed an incomprehensible expression, and kept beating the side of the bed with her hand, with the same expression as before.

Mom glanced at him and said nothing. She put the poetry book in her bag back into her bag, took out a new one, turned to a page, stopped her hands, and returned to the usual slow tone. She read a long paragraph, looked up Suddenly, she found something she couldn't understand flashed in the eyes of the son on the opposite side. It was a little uncomfortable, but the voice of reciting poems didn't stop, flowing like a river, with a wonderful ability to soothe the nerves.

"When the mother moth sinks to the bottom of the cup with a foreign land on her back,

Children, to live is to make a scene.

The space tiger leaps and flies,

Let your nap overflow with boundless tranquility. "

Hearing the end of one of the verses, Cheng Sheng laughed, stretched out his two hands on his knees, and slowly covered his mother's hand, he said: "Mom, I will be sad if you keep reading such things."

Cheng Sheng's mother closed the book and put it back in her bag. For some reason, she suddenly choked up sobbing. She then grabbed her son's hand, wrapped it in her palm, and said, "Mom won't stop you. If you can get better, you are willing." You can stay with whoever you are with, Xiao Zhang is also very good, reliable, and you have to ask him about everything my mother doesn't understand."

Cheng Sheng asked with a smile, "Do you think he's okay too? Dad seems to hate him."

"Better than the sons of my friends' families, and able to take care of you all the time, that's enough."

Cheng Sheng broke away from his mother's hand, stroked his hospital gown, and said with a displeased expression, "I don't want him to take care of me all the time, you don't understand his goodness."

My mother was cautious about doing anything in front of him, and she didn't dare to refute him, so she could only follow along and say, "Okay, I don't understand, as long as you think it's good."

In the afternoon, Cheng Sheng was taken by the doctor for treatment. Sometimes it was physical therapy, sometimes psychological counseling. Every few days he had to undergo a re-examination and adjust the treatment plan at any time according to his condition.

Cheng Sheng's mother is in the field of teaching and research. She found a lot of domestic and foreign materials by herself, and read them one by one whenever she has free time.

These days are going well, except for Cheng Sheng who is always in a daze, she can handle most of it, but on the morning when Zhang Chen came to change shifts, she just went to the doctor to talk about her son's current situation, and when she came back, she found Cheng Sheng Lying on the ground looking for a way to self-mutilate, he had no tools to commit the crime, so he could only make do with what he had ready-made, and slammed his wrists and ankles against the wall with all his strength, as if he had completely lost his sense of pain.

There were only the two of them in the ward. She was so frightened by the noise that it took her a few seconds to react. She yelled "Sound" in a hoarse voice and hurried forward to help her son up on the ground, but she As soon as the hands touched his son's shoulders, he was pushed out by the force on the ground before he could stagger, and his body fell to the white wall behind him with a thud.

The woman in her 50s was pushed against the wall by her son, as if she couldn't believe it, her eyes were staring, her body did not move for a long time.

There were constant bang bang bang bang sounds on the ground, but the creator of the sound was also struggling, because the sound subsided after a while, and Cheng Sheng, who was lying on the ground, kept pinching his arm and Legs, making as little noticeable noise as possible.

When the sound gradually stopped, the mother recovered from the fright just now. She didn't care that her back hurt from being hit by the wall, and she was eager to help her son up on the ground, but she didn't even touch her hand when she took a step. When he reached his son's body, he was pushed back again with a strong force.

There was another muffled sound from the wall behind him. Cheng Sheng's mother didn't dare to move anymore, she leaned against the wall and swallowed her saliva, and asked cautiously, "Mom, can I call a nurse for you? I can't help you."

Cheng Sheng lying on the ground was completely motionless, and there was only the sound of wheezing and wheezing in the single ward. After a long time, his consciousness finally became clearer, but his eyes were still dim when looking at the ceiling, but at least he knew where he was at the moment. He said to his mother in a hoarse voice: "It's okay, just take it easy."

"That……"

Without even turning his head, he knew what his mother wanted to ask, and said first, "I just wanted to go to the window, but I couldn't move my legs. I suddenly felt that I was a waste that would only drag others down, so I couldn't help it."

The woman leaning against the wall blinked her eyes, as if she was about to cry, but she didn't shed tears in the end, she just kept saying, "How can you say that about yourself?"

Seeing that her son didn't respond, she wanted to call the nurse outside, but she was so frightened by Cheng Sheng's repeated reactions that her body could no longer listen to her own commands. As soon as she moved her feet, her legs softened, and her whole body slammed He fell to the hospital floor with a thud.

Hearing the sound of someone falling, Cheng Sheng, who was also on the floor, moved his neck, but as soon as his eyes touched the other side, his mother turned her head forcefully.The woman on the floor had never put on makeup except the first day she came to the hospital. At this time, her hair was disheveled, covering one side of her face, and the half of her face exposed under it was a tired sallow color, which was not the same as that of the lean-spirited ones who gave lectures to students in the school in the past. The image is very different.

Cheng Sheng only took one look and didn't dare to look again. He wiped the hair on his forehead with trembling hands on the ground. He sniffed and said to the air, "Mom, I didn't feel conscious just now. I didn't push it on purpose. Yes, sorry."

The mother said "ah", her eyes were red with force, she pushed back the hair that was scattered in front of her eyes, she didn't blame her son, but just nodded her head: "Mom knows, it's okay, didn't the doctor say that he is getting better slowly?" ?fine……"

Cheng Sheng sniffed again, turned his face to the white wall, and stopped talking.

Mom slowly got up from the ground, supporting the side of the bed with one hand, and tried to pull Chengsheng with the other, but she couldn't pull it, and sprained her foot again. This time, she couldn't stand up by herself at all.

In such a chaotic situation, the first thing she thought of was neither a nurse nor a doctor, but Zhang Chen who had been in contact with her all along. She sat on the ground, stretched her arms on the bed and scratched around, finally grabbed the phone, dialed a number, and heard There was a long beep on the other side, and when it was finally connected, I was relieved, and said to the other side in a tone that was not too embarrassing as much as possible: "Xiao Zhang, are you on the way? I fell down when my aunt was helping the way, and now I Neither of them can move, when will you come over?"

The person opposite said a few words, followed by the sound of an engine starting.

When she hung up the phone, Cheng Sheng's mother found that her impatience just now had disappeared.

The two of them stayed on the floor for half an hour, the door of the ward was closed tightly, and no one found out what kind of situation the people in this ward were in at this time.

Cheng Sheng's mother hesitated for a long time on the question of whether to call the nurse or not. She couldn't bear the sight of someone like herself shouting for the nurse on the floor without any image. She opened and closed her mouth and only shouted once. Small was not heard.Just when she finally got over the barrier in her heart and was about to call out for the nurse, Cheng Sheng on the side stopped her first: "Don't call the nurse and doctor, they will think that my condition is serious again."

She didn't know what to do, she was afraid that Cheng Sheng would be irritated, and she didn't dare to go against his wishes, but in the end it was out of trust in the person who was rushing to them, so she didn't call the nurse outside again in the end.

After an unknown amount of time, a series of hurried footsteps finally sounded at the door. As soon as the door opened, Zhang Chen just ran all the way from the parking lot.

Seeing the person coming, Cheng Sheng's mother finally calmed down, but Cheng Sheng covered her face and turned to the other side, not wanting Zhang Chen to see her expression at the moment.

There was still sweat on Zhang Chen's forehead just now, he didn't care, first helped Cheng Sheng's mother up, let her lean on the hospital bed that accompanied her, and then turned around and hugged Cheng Sheng who was on the ground back to his own beds.

Cheng Sheng kept his head down all the time, not wanting Zhang Chen to see his expression, but Zhang Chen seemed to be really angry. He had just run out of heat, but the air pressure around him was unreasonably low.

He leaned in front of Cheng Sheng, reached out and patted his face, and said in a bad tone, "Why didn't you call a nurse?"

There was no response from the other side, so he turned to Cheng Sheng's mother and repeated: "Auntie, why don't you call a nurse? How many times have I told you to leave things that cannot be done to professionals. He is a patient, there is no Judgment, you can't listen to him."

An elderly woman was reprimanded by her juniors, so she couldn't keep her face. She tilted her head and didn't answer or look at Zhang Chen.

Zhang Chen took off his coat and hung it on the chair as usual, picked up a bottle of water and took a sip before putting it down, walked to the bed, put a hand on Cheng Sheng's shoulder, and warned him: "Don't think about leaving the hospital early like this. , I'll find your doctor later and tell her your situation."

Cheng Sheng lowered his head and listened, like a child who made a mistake and was taught a lesson. It was obvious that he had done something wrong again—he obviously hated himself, but in the end he disturbed his mother and Zhang Chen.Just as he was thinking about how he should apologize, his body was suddenly pulled into his arms by someone. He was a little out of breath by the sudden force, and at a loss, he put his chin on the man's shoulder and kept rubbing it.

When he came back to his senses, he realized that Zhang Chen hugged him so tightly, and there was still an outside breath on his body, so he stretched out his hand, stroked his hair as comfort, and sniffed it as usual on his clothes. his taste.

When he moved his head away again, Cheng Sheng saw Zhang Chen leaving with his mother on his back. Before leaving, he told himself that he would take his mother to the general hospital next door to see the injury from the fall just now, and warned himself not to have any wrong thoughts.He didn't understand the meaning of this sentence, but after Zhang Chen left, his doctor suddenly pushed the door open and said to Cheng Sheng who was on the hospital bed: "Your lover just came to see me for a good chat, and our afternoon treatment has been changed to Psychological counseling, check the system again tomorrow."