Time is not alluring

Can you?

Can you?

I didn't have time to answer, the tears came rushing down, Liu Xu wiped my tears vigorously with her hands, and wiped them indiscriminately, I was sobbing and couldn't say a word.

"Don't cry, as for?"

"You said...uh...as...not at all."

I was sobbing and talking, my nose and tears flew together, I said it lightly, but I didn't know how heavy the listener was.

Of course, she doesn't know that I'm hanging on the beam and gouging the wall to steal the light and burn the cream to continue my study, but only get the rubbish score of mathematics. That's right, a good student like her who always ranks at the top doesn't understand this kind of feeling, right? .

As long as I think about it, I cry very disappointingly.

I almost wondered if Liu Xu was deliberately embarrassing me, so as to satisfy her vanity.

What science, what liberal arts, what mathematics, what grades, all die.

"How do you know I'm not enough, if not, can I tell you these things?" Liu Xu wiped away my tears with her fingertips, and said, "Don't cry, I feel bad when you cry."

"Just cry!"

Liu Xu smiled, "I didn't bully you."

"You didn't bully, what's the difference with bullying?"

It took me a long time before I stopped crying. Looking at the tears in her hands, I felt a little apologetic. I took out the tissue I had just brought to the toilet from my trouser pocket and handed it to her.

"Wipe it, it's too dirty."

Liu Xu smiled, "I loved crying so much when I was a child, and I love crying so much when I grow up."

I mumbled, "That's not because of you."

"What's wrong with me?" Liu Xu asked back.

"It's not that you say those strange things that make people want to cry."

"When you cry like that, it made me understand one thing." Liu Xu smiled.

"what?"

"It doesn't have to be science."

I looked away, wiped away my tears, and calmed down, not looking at her expression.

Her sentence lacks a subject.

"You know, I'm stupid, I'm not good at thinking, I can't make too many detours, I'm destined not to be a science student..."

"Sometimes when I think about it, you've helped me a lot along the way, always accommodating me and taking care of me...I haven't really thanked you yet..."

Before I finished the rest of the sentence, Liu Xu covered my mouth with her hand and pressed me against the wall.

At that time, I was only a palm away from Liu Xu, and I could count the number of her eyelashes, see me clearly in her eyes, hear her heartbeat, her breathing, and the flow of her blood.

Every cell in her body is waving glow sticks, clapping and singing in chorus.

"Don't say those two words." Liu Xu glared at me, "You don't owe anyone, I owe it to you willingly."

I nodded and raised my hand in reassurance.

Liu Xu let go of her hand and said, "Hey, it's not that we can't see each other anymore, it's just that we are divided into departments, why are you talking about life and death?"

"Because the movie said that it's better to say goodbye early, because when it really comes to the last moment, there is no way to say goodbye properly." I said hypocritically.

After I finished speaking, I felt that I was finished, and I am afraid that I will never be able to escape from the lines of Secondary School in this life.

Liu Xu said I was stupid, and asked me what movie it was.

I said I forgot, or I will find it for you some other day.

She said yes.

After saying this word, the get out of class bell rang, and Liu Xu and I sat there, watching the clouds in the sky and blowing the wind in the sky.

Liu Xu took out a pen and made a mark on my hand, I said what is this?

She said it was a secret.

"It's a godsend, anyway, I have to take a bath today, and I won't be able to see it tomorrow."

Liu Xu smiled, "That's okay, anyway, the days are still long, after today, there will be tomorrow, after tomorrow, there will be the day after tomorrow, but in the end, we are still together."

I nodded, thinking it made sense.

I saw her bending down again, and I walked over curiously, and saw her under the string of words, leaving her handwriting.

I, catkin, will take root and sprout here and thrive.

I looked at the words on it and smiled. Liu Xu said that I was crying and laughing at the same time, which was ugly.

I reached out to pinch her, but Liu Xu kept hiding, begging me to let her go.

"Bring the pen!"

Liu Xu rubbed her nose and handed the pen to me. I bent down and wrote a word neatly under the string of words just now.

it is good.

Liu Xu added another line below.

That `s a deal.

I looked at the words above and smiled at each other.

"Hey, tell me, what kind of mark should I make?"

"Why do you need to make a mark?" Liu Xu was puzzled.

"Sun Wukong also knows how to take a pee here." I thought about it, and a flash of inspiration flashed, "That's right, that's it."

I drew a small circle below, and Liu Xu asked what it was, and I said it was a secret.

On May [-]st, I didn't go to the student union's break-up dinner, but Xiao Huan, she packed a lot of things in a mountaineering bag. I told her that it was not for climbing, but for playing in the reservoir. As for it?

Xiao Huan wasn't too disappointed that I didn't come, she shook her head and said I didn't understand, I told her to be careful, she said she knew.

She promised so fast, who knew that the accident would come so vigorously.

That day, Liu Xu and I were watching a movie in my room.

The laptop was placed too far away on the table, I had to wear glasses to see clearly, so I simply tore off the cable of the speaker and put the laptop on the bed.

I asked Liu Xu what movie she wanted to watch, and Liu Xu said whatever.

"Then... what movie is it?" I muttered to myself, unable to remember for a while.

"what?"

"The movie Xiao Huan likes to watch, Thai movies, I forgot the name." I tried my best to piece together the fragments of my memory, and said, "It's because they loved to play games when they were young, and they hid gifts in one place for each other to go find..."

"Love of Siam?"

"Yes, that's right, have you seen it?" I asked back, and Liu Xu nodded, "Then forget it, you've seen it all."

"Then let's watch it again."

"Does it look good?"

I asked Liu Xu, she nodded and said, "It's okay."

Mayday in Guangzhou can change as soon as it is said. It was sunny just now, and now the wind is blowing. I ran to the balcony to take a look, and quickly brought in the potted plants on the balcony.

As soon as the window was closed, it started to rain.

I turned my head and asked Liu Xu if it was cold, and Liu Xu said it was fine.

The movie was still showing commercials, I sat on the bed and felt a little cold, I asked Liu Xu to help me get a blanket, Liu Xu opened the closet, turned to me and asked me, where is the blanket?

"The second floor above, didn't you see it?!"

Liu Xu said she didn't see it, and asked me to look for it myself. I pressed the pause button, ran down, reached out and got the blanket, and asked if she was blind, so she couldn't see such obvious things?

Liu Xu smiled, but didn't speak.

To put it simply, this film tells the story of pure love between two boys. To put it more complicatedly, it tells the story of family and friendship.

I saw Earth and Mew performing artificial respiration in the first aid class. I couldn't understand Earth's reaction. I turned my head and asked Liu Xu, would the reaction be so big when two men kissed?

Liu Xu told me to put away those dirty thoughts and watch the film carefully, not to miss the point.

After a while, the mobile phone on the bed rang. I went to see it. It was a text message. The forecast from the meteorological station said that there would be moderate to heavy rain today, so we should take precautions.

In the movie at that time, the scene that appeared was two teenagers lying on the same bed, and the scene turned to his mother, running around all night looking for him, with a tired look on her face.

Every time such a picture appears in a movie, I always think, what are those people thinking now?

Liu Xu and I leaned on the same bed, covered with the same blanket, the lines and soundtrack of the movie flowed like water, and the rain outside the window was falling heavily, hitting the glass and crackling.

It seemed to be getting colder again, so I moved a little closer to Liu Xu.

——Live alone, aren’t you lonely?

Mew turned her head and said to Tong, feeling terribly lonely.

Tong said again, what is terribly lonely?

——Lonely as a child means having no friends, right?Growing up, loneliness is worse than when I was a child...

……

So I asked myself, if we really love someone very much, can we really bear the least?If one day...we're going to lose him.

Parting may be part of life.

Do you think it is possible?Loving someone without worrying about losing him.

Seeing this, I suddenly started crying, not the usual crying, but the kind of silent crying.

Ask me why I cry, I don't know either.

Can you control crying?

Liu Xu took the tissue beside me and wiped my tears. I said thank you hypocritically.

She told me to keep watching the movie and not talk.

The lines of the film continue.

Another voice asked me again, is it possible?Not loving anyone, living alone, this is... loneliness.

Then Tong from the movie comforted Mew and hugged him gently.

Liu Xu also put her arms around me and told me not to cry, it's not because of my math grades, why did I cry so badly.

I imitated Xiao Huan's tone, and said, "What do you know, this is much more serious than a math grade, and you don't understand what loneliness is, and you have never tried the feeling of not having friends, you can come back if you fail in grades, friend If there is no, there will be no..."

Liu Xu didn't speak, I was talking nonsense while wiping my tears.

The two-and-a-half-hour movie was an afternoon of entertainment, and the movie gradually came to an end.

While the movie was playing the ending song, I went to the bathroom and washed my face. When I came out, I saw Liu Xu looking at my little prince.

Oh... I forgot to return the book I borrowed from the library.

I asked her to move a seat and let me sit down, Liu Xu put down the book and said to me quietly.

"Actually, when I watched it for the first time, I cried harder than you."

"Why are you crying?" I asked.

Liu Xu smiled and said, "Did you really watch the movie?"

I said yes, Liu Xu said no.

"Don't you think the relationship between them is complicated?"

I didn't speak, and then asked her, "Can two men... love each other?"

Liu Xu said yes, and I remained silent.

May I?

"Could it be curiosity?" I asked carefully.

Liu Xu curled up her finger, flicked it on my forehead, and said, "I tell you to watch the movie well."

She paused, then said, "Are you referring to the movie, or the people in your life?"

"Movie movie." I quickly admitted.

"Then take a good look at it again."

Liu Xu pushed the notebook to me, tapped it a few times, but there was no response.

I watched the strong wind blowing outside the window, and thought to myself, it might be the thunder that knocked out the network cable.