this turbulent love

Chapter 60

It was getting late when the two came out of Gu's house, and the cool evening wind made people look even more bleak, Gu Yan and Jian Mo went downstairs silently.

Although he tried his best to control it, Gu Yan's eyes were still red and swollen up to now. He and his mother were crying too hard, so they couldn't let it go. He didn't dare to look at Jian Mo, because he knew how embarrassed he was like this. I had no choice but to walk ahead without saying a word, God knows how much he wanted to turn around now and stay in his arms, even if it would be like this forever.

But the two of them just repeated the action of going downstairs.Going home this time, Gu Yan obviously felt that the Gu family's attitude had improved a lot, so although he felt sorry for his family, at least he had something to look forward to when he went back this time.

Thinking of this, he finally felt that the stone on his heart was loosened, otherwise he really didn't know how to impress his family.He knew that he would probably spend less and less time with his family in the future, so he didn't want to spend it indefinitely like this, but he couldn't do anything about this situation, and now this improvement is really going to make him explode with joy.

When he was about to go down the stairs, he still couldn't hold back, he turned around and threw himself into Jian Mo's arms. Jian Mo's hand paused before he hugged Gu Yan. He didn't speak, but put his hand gently on Gu Yan's head. Up and down, stroking.

In fact, what appeared on Jian Mo's face was not a happy expression, but a tangled and guilty expression. He lowered his head and looked at Gu Yan who was still in his arms, and the empty sadness in his heart suddenly became thicker.Should he really put Gu Yan in this situation because he 'wanted to be with Gu Yan'?

The indomitable belief in his heart was suddenly stunned by the scene of Gu Yan and his mother hugging each other and crying, he hesitated suddenly, all he knew was that he couldn't let go of this person's hand, in order to make himself desperate to come out like a family member, This move made him go the right way, but what about Gu Yan?

It's just that thinking about it now, the fact that he came out of the closet with his family put Gu Yan under so much pressure that he didn't even think about it. He kept saying that he loved him, but let him come out and separate from his family without any preparation. , Is this what I call loving him?

It's just that he can't let go, even if he wants to hold Gu Yan's hand for the rest of his life, he won't change. Isn't he too selfish?He frowned, walking down step by step, outsiders saw his injury, his pain, even he ignored it, the pressure that Gu Yan endured and the pressure of accepting the uncertain future.

He had already been hurt once, and he was always careful and sensitive, but he used these one or two things to force Gu Yan to follow his wishes helplessly, and he even forgot to take care of Gu Yan's emotions.

He looked at Gu Yan who was smiling in his arms, and suddenly felt that nothing he could do could make up for Gu Yan, he could only treat Gu Yan better, so as not to hurt him any more.Although I have been saying this for a long time, I still can’t help it, I want him to stay by my side all the time, I hope he becomes smaller, I hope he only sees me in his eyes, I hope he is happy, all the mood swings are because of me .

call.He sighed softly in his heart, pulled up his overcoat, wrapped Gu Yan in it, lifted it up, and walked downstairs into the car.

Gu Yan was taken aback by Jian Mo's sudden action, but he calmed down quickly. He didn't like how Jian Mo treated him like a girl, but he sat in the passenger seat cooperatively, looking at Jian Mo very much. He gently helped himself fasten his seat belt, and then got into the driver's seat.

"Want to go to the supermarket?" Jian Mo turned around with a smile and asked Gu Yan who was still in a daze.

Subconsciously agreed to Jian Mo's proposal, and then came back to his senses, he was suddenly moved by this warm homely activity. I don't know if it was because of being with Jian Mo that he became more and more likely to care about small things. The details, just like now, will be happy for a while because of these small proposals, maybe it's just because the person next to him is Jian Mo.

No one knows how much he likes Jian Mo, and how happy he is to be with Jian Mo again. As long as he is together, he watches the surrounding scenery change again and again, and feels that this is already very happy. Dare to hope, because it makes him feel that what he has experienced is not enough, not enough to have what he only had in his dreams.

He smiled, but actually felt that it was still like a dream. He looked at Jian Mo beside him, and was awakened by a ringing bell, which belonged to Jian Mo.Jian Mo was driving, and when he had time to spare, he turned his head to look at Gu Yan, tilted his head to signal Gu Yan to help him answer the phone, Jian Mo's phone was in his jacket pocket, and Gu Yan answered it, and then The smiling face gradually calmed down, and then became more and more ugly.

Jian Mo originally thought that it should be nothing serious, and was planning what to do in the future, or seriously thinking about what would be best for them, and how they should go in the future.It took a while before he felt a little strange, because Gu Yan was too quiet after picking up the phone. He just turned his head when he saw Gu Yan's mouth was open, his face was very ugly, and he hurriedly stopped the car at the nearest roadside. He was about to ask Gu Yan Is it uncomfortable, I heard Gu Yan's eyes were a little dull, looking in his direction, his lips opened and closed:

"Jian Mo, the person on the phone just now said that your mother and Xiaoqian were stabbed by a group of people when they were shopping outside, and are now in the hospital..."

He seems to be a little fussy, maybe more out of mind, more anxious than Jian Mo.When Jian Mo heard the news, his expression became very ugly, but when he saw Gu Yan's expression, he silently suppressed the anxiety that immediately surged up in his heart, made himself look as calm as possible, and then spoke softly :

"It's all right. Where are they now?"

"At the municipal hospital, Jian Mo..." Gu Yan came back to his senses, worry appeared on his face, and he wanted to let Jian Mo go to the hospital quickly, but when he turned his head, he saw that Jian Mo was suppressing him with all his strength. However, he still had an ugly expression and gradually emerged impatience.Feeling sour, how could Jian Mo still consider him first even at this moment?

"Let's go and see them." Looking at Jian Mo like this, he suppressed his urge to hug the person in front of him, and almost immediately the car slid out, much faster than before.Gu Yan didn't dare to show a tired look, and probably Jian Mo was also like this, the two of them didn't dare to show each other a little bit about the growing pressure and hesitation in their hearts in the face of such continuous events and the pressure that came one after another.

They ran through several red lights and took countless shortcuts, and they arrived at the hospital in the shortest time. After getting off the car, they rushed to the front desk, dragging a nurse to ask questions.

When they arrived, they saw several people waiting in front of the operating room. The one at the front was Jian Mo's father, whose back seemed to bend down all of a sudden, completely different from the high-spirited middle-aged man Gu Yan had seen before. It seemed that he couldn't suppress other emotions and expressions now, just standing in front of the door, looking at the red light in the operating room, seemed to be caught in an emotion.

Looking at that back, Gu Yan felt uncomfortable, but after the man turned his head, a smile appeared, as if he could not hold back after turning back into the indestructible father, he turned around, not I had the heart to see that figure who seemed to never fall and never waver in front of the child.

Jian Mo didn't make any big movements, but silently stepped forward to support his father's shoulders, and stood with him.The two of them are very similar, they both want to stand up straight in front of the people they care about, and they are afraid that others will hurt their most cherished treasure in front of them, so they have to stand all the time, standing in front of them to block all the hurt, forgetting You also need protection.

Gu Yan has never felt that their father and son are so similar at any moment, but this recognition at this moment makes him feel distressed.

He has been praying in his heart for the safety of Jian Mo's mother and Xiaoqian, and everyone waiting here hopes so.

Time seemed to stand still, until the light in the operating room turned green, and until the doctor took off his mask like a person in a TV series, everything began to flow. Everyone was eager to ask, but they all fell silent.

Fortunately, what the doctor brought was good news, and it was not as thrilling as the ones on TV. It’s just that the people waiting here couldn’t help but put their hearts back into their chests. How can you not worry about the people at the top of your heart?

I didn't meet them directly, but went back to Jian Mo's house together with Jian Mo to pack Xiaoqian and Jian Mo's mother's luggage. They still need to stay in the hospital for a few days.They don’t actually need to organize these things, but it seems that this can soothe the emotion that was terribly frightened at that time, and it seems that this can calm down the helplessness that was helpless at that time.

Jian Mo hasn't said a word since he arrived at the hospital. Seeing Jian Mo like this, Gu Yan shut his mouth in a sensible way, and stayed with and helped Jian Mo to do these things together.After Jian Mo sorted out all these, he seemed to remember something, and after talking to Gu Yan, he grabbed his mobile phone and went out.

Gu Yan had no choice but to sit on Jian Mo's bed, and then watched Jian Mo talking on the phone on the balcony, his voice was so soft that he could only hear individual words blown in by the wind.Gu Yan didn't care to listen, and vaguely heard Jian Mo's hidden anger voice, he had almost never heard Jian Mo speak in such a tone.

After being stunned for a while, Jian Mo on the other side of God's time had already made a phone call and entered the room. Seeing Gu Yan looking at him, a smile appeared on his face, as before, unchanged.Gu Yan stepped forward and hugged Jian Mo before he could react, because the condition of his height looked as if Gu Yan was throwing himself into his arms, but Jian Mo still hugged Jian Mo when Gu Yan pounced on him. Hugged Gu Yan.

Holding this person, it seemed that he could really become full of strength again, and could continue to walk those thorny roads, just because Gu Yan was still by his side, so he could keep walking and stand in front of Gu Yan.

He smelled the same fragrance from Gu Yan's body as his own, closed his eyes, carefully put away the negative emotions and sadness that he hadn't had time to hide just now, and was about to smile when he heard Gu Yan's voice next to his ear ,He said:

"Jian Mo, don't be so tired all the time, I'm your man too."

At that moment, Jian Mo felt that his heart was softer than ever.

"Well, I know."

Only at this moment did he realize that he could be warmed and cared for, but that person.

He looked at the person in his arms, that person could only be Gu Yan.

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