this turbulent love

Chapter 34

When Gu Yan heard that Jian Mo was drunk over there, he felt anxious, and then he couldn't care about anything else.He took off his hospital gown, then picked up his own clothes that were set aside, and was about to go outside.Li Sheng and Wu Yu over there didn't know what happened, they only knew that Gu Yan was like this after a phone call, but what they knew was that Gu Yan had just experienced gastritis, it was just right, how weak his body was can be seen at a glance, How could they let Gu Yan do something like this?

So Wu Yu pulled Gu Yan, and Li Sheng blocked the door, resolutely not letting Gu Yan go out.Gu Yan's heart became more and more impatient, and he wanted to open Wu Yu's hand and leave, but he relaxed his strength and let Wu Yu drag himself onto the bed.He looked at the resolute expressions of the two people, and knew that they were doing it for his own good, but no matter how uncomfortable he himself was, he would not let Jian Mo suffer any more. Now that Jian Mo was drunk and the situation was unknown, he felt that something was in his heart. Burning himself, he felt that he wished he could be by Jian Mo's side right now.

He raised his reddened eye sockets from anxiety, and tried to explain the situation to them, but he couldn't explain clearly.After he said something indiscriminately and found it was useless, he couldn't help shouting at them: "I will regret it! If we are still brothers, don't stop me now, let me go!"

Li Sheng and Wu Yu were stunned for a long time, and suddenly felt an inexplicable grievance in their hearts.It was they who stayed with Gu Yan most of the night; guarding Gu Yan, the two of them chatted all night and dared not sleep because they were afraid that something might happen to Gu Yan; seeing that Gu Yan was about to wake up, they rushed out to buy food for Gu Yan.But now the Gu Yan who made them treat him like this said, 'If you're a brother, don't stop me'?They just want to smile wryly now, who doesn't regard who as a brother?Who is it for? !

Li Sheng grabbed Wu Yu, pulled himself and Wu Yu aside, made a gesture of please, and then went out with Wu Yu.After Gu Yan finished speaking, he regretted it, and felt sorry for them, but Jian Mo had almost burned out his sanity, so he didn't have time to think too much. He quickly put on his clothes and pants, and then dragged his still weak body out of the hospital. Get in the car and drive towards the school.

When he got to school, Gu Yan really couldn't muster up much energy to do things like running. He rushed here after eating a little lunch just now. Now his whole body is as soft as noodles, and his stomach is secreting crazily. gastric juice.He could only pray not to fall, otherwise he really didn't know how to get up again and go to Jian Mo's place.

In this way, although I was anxious to death, I could only walk slowly to Jian Mo's dormitory.When he arrived at Jian Mo's dormitory, he immediately saw Jian Mo lying at the door of his dormitory, and there was a boy next to him who was holding Jian Mo's mobile phone and looking through the people he could contact.Gu Yan walked up slowly, thanked the boy, and took back Gu Yan's phone.The boy was startled when he saw Gu Yan's pale face, and hurriedly asked Gu Yan if he needed help.Gu Yan looked at Jian Mo who was collapsed at the door, and sighed, he probably had some difficulty even moving himself now.

He took out the key to open the door, and asked the boy to help him carry Jian Mo to Jian Mo's bedroom bed. After doing all this, Gu Yan thanked the boy with a sweaty smile, and then left the boy behind. number, hoping to be friends with the boy in the future, the boy agreed with a smile.

After the boy left, Gu Yan had a chance to see what happened to Jian Mo. After making sure that Jian Mo was only drunk, Gu Yan was relieved. But he had time to go out and get drunk, so he got up and went out to cook a small pot of millet porridge for Jian Mo, so that Jian Mo could eat it when he woke up.He cooked dried noodles for himself casually, stuffed some indiscriminately, and finally felt some strength in his body. After cooking the millet porridge, he put some in a bowl, and went to Jian Mo's bedroom to wake Jian Mo up Eat something to fill your belly.

Jian Mo was obviously drunk, and he was talking ramblingly.Gu Yan thinks Jian Mo like this is very cute, he has never seen Jian Mo get drunk before, so he finds it very novel.He put Jian Mo in a comfortable position on the bed, and then heard some indistinct words shouted from Jian Mo's mouth. He smiled and lowered his head to Jian Mo's mouth. This time he finally heard clearly. Mo said:

"Why don't you look back? I've always been behind you, always..."

Gu Yan froze all over, he raised his head and looked down at Jian Mo.On Jian Mo's face was an expression of pain and confusion that he had never seen before, looking very sad and painful.He couldn't understand what he heard. He tried to hear it more clearly, but after hearing it, he finally determined that Jian Mo was not talking about him... He lowered his head.There were too many "unseen" things today, so Gu Yan could only hear the moment when his heart was beating rapidly, and he couldn't hear any more sounds from the "thumping" sound. He was probably too tired So even Jian Mo's face was blurred.

He heard Jian Mo's sad or joyful voice intermittently in the noise, and he smiled bitterly. Jian Mo talked the most after he was drunk, and he couldn't hear a sentence or two clearly. He knew what Jian Mo said. It's not him, he can't bear it for the time being that there is another person in Jian Mo's heart, and it sounds like another person he can't let go of.

All the strength he had put up to get here before was finally exhausted at this moment. He seemed to have lost all his strength suddenly, and then collapsed in Jian Mo's bedroom where the curtains obscured the sunlight, leaning against Jian Mo. He didn't feel very good in front of the closet, but now he didn't want to spend any more effort in vain.

He tried hard to recall the beautiful past between himself and Jian Mo, and tried hard to expel the sadness and despair lingering in his mind.He didn't know when his tears were rushing out, he couldn't even wipe the liquid off his face with his hands, so he could only let them rage on his face and let his vision blur.

He just leaned against the closet like this, forcing himself to forget what he heard today, to expand and fill up the memories between him and Jian Mo, and not let himself think about anything else.But after working hard for a long time, in the end, Jian Mo's frail and sad sentence was completely broken.

He finally gave up and allowed himself to connect all the facts into a thread, combining what Jian Mo said with the reality that he had never thought of.

That's why he was so busy that he had to squeeze in the time for eating, and he would run out like this when he stayed up all night until day and night, and he would go out and get drunk by himself; that's why he rejected himself so firmly at that time, But he only knew how to bump into it stupidly. Jian Mo asked himself at that time, was it because he was too stupid?

After all, he still couldn't control the emotions he had been holding back all this time, and pressed his head heavily on his knees. He was in pain, but he couldn't feel it at all now.He buried his face in the crook of his legs, and finally cried out, every sound was heavy and sad, which made people feel sad.

He was sad, he was sad, he was angry, he was confused, he couldn't think of how to vent it, he could only vent his bewilderment and the exhaustion of forcing himself to catch up with that man's footsteps with tears like a child.He cried until he felt uncontrollable shaking all over, and then slowly stopped.Let the tears disappear in his pants, and then he raised his head, the direction he once looked firmly at, but now he doesn't know where to look.

The man on the bed was about to fall into a deep sleep, Gu Yan stared blankly at an unknown direction, his eyes were unfocused, he didn't even dare to look in the direction of the bed.He loves this person so wholeheartedly, but it hurts as much as he loves now, and the fact that there is another person in that person's heart makes him feel helpless.He leaned against the closet slumped, not knowing what to think about, and he didn't dare to think any further and come to the conclusion that a man might not even have a place for him in his heart.

His eyes dimmed little by little, just like this bedroom without sunlight.

"Gu Yan..." The man on the bed turned over uncomfortably, and then said these two words softly.Gu Yan trembled, and the 'buzzing' sound in his ears suddenly disappeared.He opened his eyes slightly, and turned to the direction of the bed. The man on the bed murmured his name like a dreamer.

His gray and miserable heart suddenly seemed to come alive a little bit. He was stunned, and then showed an ugly smile. Tears flowed down from the already stinging eye sockets. He slightly closed his fist and put it on his forehead. On, it was still for a long time like this.

So be it.he thinks.He is probably irrational, what he wants is the relationship between only two people, and he probably wants Jian Mo to stay by his side too much, so now he can't let go of his hand no matter how many steps back, deceiving himself.At that time, every sentence of not letting go that was silently chanted in my heart became a thought here, and the belief that was about to disappear was revived and jumped in Jian Mo's "Gu Yan".

He could act as if nothing had happened, he had never heard any words or voices, and he could lie to himself that Jian Mo was the only one in his heart.He hit his forehead with a fist that he couldn't hold back, and then said in his heart.He doesn't know anything, but Jian Mo, can you only like me in the future?He suppressed the sourness in his heart, and looked at Jian Mo again. He was really afraid that his weight in Jian Mo's heart would be over with just a few words, and that he would walk the endless and never bright road alone. Finally can only give up.

He can walk tens of thousands of steps alone, he can force himself to grow up, he can continue as if nothing happened, he can use "I love you" to explain everything, but he still hurts and feels uncomfortable.

He took out his mobile phone, sent a message to Jian Mo with great effort, sat on the spot and rested for a while and then left immediately after recovering a little bit of strength. He really couldn't wait for Jian Mo to wake up in the dormitory and act as if nothing had happened He couldn't help but say something to Jian Mo, he was so uncomfortable now, he wanted to escape for a while, and then return to reality and let them continue.

Not long after he left, his phone rang. He picked up the caller ID and was relieved to see that it wasn't Jian Mo.He picked it up, and the awkward and worried voices of Li Sheng and Wu Yu came from over there. Hearing their voices, he felt his eyes that had just healed become moist again.He wanted to say sorry to them, but when he opened his mouth, he felt that his voice was too hoarse, so he tried his best to respond to them, and then made an appointment to meet at the hospital.

When they arrived at the hospital, Li Sheng and Wu Yu had already been waiting at the door, and came forward as soon as they saw Gu Yan.Gu Yan said sorry when he saw them open their mouths. Li Sheng and the others were obviously taken aback, and then Wu Yu scratched his head uncomfortably: "What's the matter? Can we really get angry with you? Come in, doctor Said that you still have to hang a few bottles of water before you can leave." Gu Yan lowered his head and responded softly.He is He De and He Neng, who met Li Sheng and Wu Yu, who were by his side when he was most powerless.

Today's events were like a reversal drama, and the alternation of sorrow and joy made him overwhelmed.He looked at Li Sheng and Wu Yu beside him, then thought of Jian Mo, and closed his eyes tiredly. He just wanted to take a good rest and put all the messy emotions and things aside.

When Gu Yan finally came out of the hospital accompanied by Li Sheng and the others, it was already dusk. The three of them took a taxi and returned to the school, walking slowly on the huge campus.The summer has not completely passed, but the cool breeze at night makes people feel refreshed. They have rarely had the opportunity to do this since the beginning of school. Gu Yan's busy schedule even made the other two people rarely have the opportunity to talk to Gu Yan. If there is no gap between them, it seems that Gu Yan is getting farther and farther away without any gap.

But tonight it was as if nothing had happened. They were laughing and playing casually, as if they had returned to the city they had just arrived in. They stumbled and supported each other to live together. Indulge yourself.

Just give him a little time to let loose and he'll be fine.He silently recited it over and over again in his heart, as if deliberately letting himself know.

Gu Yan laughed loudly, then laughed, and suddenly burst into tears.

The author has something to say: Oh my god, I changed it a bit, and suddenly thought that I had done something incredible!

The Mina-san I saw...

Ahhhhh, instant amnesia! ! !

How to do how to do.....