You are my brother and my love

It seems to have become our intimate secret place, and generally no one He Ze would boldly hug me, kiss me, and touch me.But it's gone, now it's all gone, and what I was worried about happened.

I cried quietly under the quilt by myself. I bit the quilt vigorously and cried in a suppressed manner. Later, I cried harder and harder, and cried louder and louder.Finally, tired of crying, I fell asleep again.

More than a week later, I received a letter from Beijing:

Xiaoyi:

Sorry! I'm leaving first, but I don't want to.Zhao Qiang told my parents everything. When I went back, my dad questioned me. I admitted it. I begged them to allow us to be together, but my dad didn’t listen to me at all. He beat me up. After a while, my mother cried very sadly at that time. It was really the first time I saw my mother cry like that. I really couldn't bear to hurt a mother who was so good to me since childhood.My dad transferred me to study in Beijing, and he won't let me stay here any longer.But the time with you was really very happy. That summer vacation can be said to be the happiest summer vacation I have ever had. I don’t know if you are doing well there alone. In short, I am here every day I always think about you, when I am in class, I think about whether you are busy greeting guests, when I go to eat, I think about whether you are also eating, whether I am full or not, when I am free, I also think about what you are doing, before going to bed I miss you so much that I can't sleep, I don't know if you are asleep too, if you are thinking about me too.But don't worry, brother, I will never forget you, I just study here first, and I will definitely go back to see you after I graduate.Xiaoyi, you must live a good life there alone, and work hard to earn money. When brother comes back to see you, don't be so poor that you don't even have the money to treat me to beef hot pot.And I bought a mobile phone, the number is xxxxxxxxxxxx, you guys are not willing to buy one for yourself, and I can’t contact you, so remember to call me often and report to me about your life there situation, lest I worry.

何泽

1997. 10, 8

I looked at the phone number and quietly thought about what He Ze's life would be like there. In fact, he said that he misses me every day, but why didn't I think about him all the time——

I am the lovely dividing line——

During the afternoon break, I couldn't wait to run to the convenience store next to the restaurant, and dialed the number with the public phone. I felt excited and excited without pressing a button.

"Beep... beep...", the phone finally got through.

"Hello?" A deep male voice came from the phone, it sounded so strange, yet so familiar and kind.

I did not speak.

"Hello? May I ask who are you?"

"..." I still didn't speak

"Why don't you talk? If you don't talk again, I'll hang up."

"It's me." I said sullenly.

"Xiaoyi! Why didn't you talk just now?" He asked in an excited but strange tone.

"I don't know what to say." I was still sullen because I wanted to hide my joy.

"Hey, what's wrong with my brother, are you doing well there now? I miss you so much!"

"It's not good at all!" I said deliberately angrily.

"What's the matter? What's wrong? Is someone bullying you?" He seemed a little anxious on the other end of the phone.

When I think of his anxious appearance, I feel amused and a little proud.Hmph! You didn't say hello to me when you left, so it's right to make you anxious now. "That's right, someone bullied me. I was beaten, my face was swollen, and my body was covered with bruises." I put on a pitiful tone.

"Being beaten up? How did you get beaten up? What's going on? Tell me quickly!" He seemed to be serious.

"It's okay, I lied to you! Hehe..." I really can't continue acting.

"You're so naughty, you dare to lie to brother. When brother goes back, you will look good."

"Okay, when you come back, we'll see who looks the best." I deliberately provoked.

"Okay, I'll let you shudder first! But next time, don't scare my brother like this, it makes me really anxious." He said with a bit of complaint.

"Are you in a hurry?"

"I'm really anxious! Is it really anxious or fake anxious!" He seemed a little unhappy.

"Okay, okay, I won't bother you like this next time." Seeing that he cared about me so much, my heart softened immediately, "When you come back, brother, I'll take you to eat a big one, okay?"

"What big and small ones! When did I not treat you to dinner? But your brother still remembers this account."

"Yeah...you just remember, anyway, I'm a person who can't do anything else, so I'll renege on my debts, haha!"

"It seems that your kid is getting more and more slippery! Is it itchy again?" He said with a smirk.

"Yes! I itch everywhere! Would you like to scratch it for me?" I followed him deliberately.

"You know your brother can't go back now, but you still seduce your brother like this, it's really cruel!"

"Hehe, how can I control you if I'm not ruthless?"

"Okay, okay, I can't beat you, your brother, but you can be honest with me over there, don't go around seducing others! You will really suffer if you find out!"

"Don't worry, how dare I? Forget it, I won't say much, the phone bill is very expensive!"

"Okay, okay, then take care of yourself over there, and pay more attention to your body."

"Yeah, you too."

"Then I'll hang up first!"

"OK Bye Bye!"

"Bye!" After finishing speaking, only a short "beep" sound was heard.

Before going to bed at night, I kept thinking about how He Ze was doing there. Is there anyone to accompany him to eat his favorite beef hot pot, and is there anyone to accompany him for a walk and chat in the poplar forest? People told him not to drink too much alcohol... After thinking about it, my tears flowed out again disobediently.I really miss that time! At that time, he and I were like two innocent children who just knew how to play together all day long.Looking back now, I realize that happiness is actually that simple.

Brother, come back quickly!

10

The Chinese New Year was approaching in a blink of an eye, and the restaurant owner also closed the shop and went back to my hometown to celebrate the New Year, but I didn't go back.It is necessary to explain my family background here: I was brought up by my mother-in-law. When I was seven years old, my father died in a car accident, and then my parents divorced, but my mother never came back to see it. I have never given me a penny of child support. I don't know why she can be so cruel. A son who was born after a hard-working pregnancy in October actually didn't care about anything after the divorce.And my dad is also a relatively rough person, he is very fierce to my mother-in-law, scolding her every now and then, and sometimes even hit her, so the impression of my dad has always been very bad in my heart since I was a child.However, when I was nine years old, my mother-in-law also died of illness. At that time, I had just moved to the town to study. My dad kept leaving me at a relative’s house, and then went out to work, and never came back during the Chinese New Year. I dropped out of school at the age of 15, and then came to this city. I have done a lot of work in this city. I have always earned and spent my own money. I never asked my father for a penny. When I was suffering, I remember that one yuan was enough for me to eat for a day. I spent [-] cents to buy a bag of instant noodles in the morning, and another [-] cents to buy a bag of instant noodles in the afternoon. Although I was not full at all, I would never steal it. to grab.Now I am gradually getting used to living alone, and the hatred for my parents is not so deep. If I want to blame, I can only blame myself for casting the wrong baby.

After the restaurant owner gave me all my salary, I immediately went to the city center to look for a job. Because I had a lot of experience in restaurants, I quickly found a position as an assistant manager in a western restaurant.

On the eve of New Year's Eve, I called He Ze again and said happy new year to each other, and we were both one year older.I asked him if he wasn't coming back during Chinese New Year, he just said lightly that he didn't want to go back, and I didn't ask him why he didn't want to come back, and chatted casually about other trivial matters before hanging up.Now my work here is getting more and more busy, and I rarely think of calling He Ze in my spare time. 1997 has passed so leisurely, and some things have changed unknowingly.The new year has begun, and I have more demands on myself. I can no longer be as playful as before, and I must work hard.And I am also very satisfied with my new job now. Although I am busy every day, I have a fulfilling life.But no matter how busy I am, there will be a time to rest, and there will be a time when I am alone. Whenever I think of He Ze, but I didn't call him, because I really couldn't find any words to talk to him. Having said that, I'm not even sure if I can continue to love him and wait for him. All I do is use my daily work to numb myself, constantly urging myself to work harder and earn more money.

After working for about three months, the restaurant hired another supervisor. His name is Wang Kai. Wang Kai has a quick temper and doesn’t like to be in a hurry. Usually after work, I often ask everyone to have a meal, so I am very popular.I have been with him for a long time, and I feel that he has an arrogance in his bones, and he should be a self-motivated, daring person, so I invite him out for a drink or two alone from time to time, hoping to have more interaction with him in the future .

Once when I asked him out for dinner alone, I chatted with him about