when love is unforgettable

A16

After Lao Zhang and his wife left, some customers came intermittently. My heart never calmed down. I was so absent-minded when selling medicines and collecting money, and my eyes always stayed on the memory card at the cashier from time to time.

As soon as the customers in the store leave, I feel a sudden sense of fear. I am afraid of loneliness, I am afraid of loneliness, I am afraid of staying alone in the drugstore.

There are people coming and going outside the store, and on a midsummer night, I feel cold all over my body. I actually feel a little bit of coldness seeping in from outside the door, gradually freezing my heart, as if loneliness is my only destination!

Just like this, I let the time go by quietly in a daze. I suddenly looked outside the door. The people on the street were obviously sparse. Occasionally, only one or two people hurried past the door. Checking the time, I don’t know I didn't realize it was ten o'clock in the evening. According to the routine, there should be no customers at this point, and it's time to release the dogs again!With a low sigh, I stood up from my chair and prepared to pack my things and close up.

"Hello, welcome," the Lucky Cat rang. I lowered my head and smiled. I didn't expect there to be customers at this time. It seems that I have to kill him!Indeed, people who came to buy things with this point were quite generous. They bought either morning-after pills or condoms, or aphrodisiacs such as Rijiali, and of course essentials such as lubricating oil.

I raised my head, but I was stunned. The person who came in was none other than Lao Zhang. Seeing him walking step by step, I said, "Boss, hello, what can I need?"

Lao Zhang stopped about one meter away from me. I saw the tear stains on his face. I hardened my heart and said very coldly: "Boss, if you don't have anything to buy, then I will close the shop." , Think about what to buy and come back tomorrow.”

Lao Zhang's lips trembled, and he took another step forward, "Xiao Feng, can you really forget me completely? Can you really forget all the things we did in the past? Can I forget you again?", Lao Zhang's voice was very hoarse and mixed with incomparable desolation!

Yes, I can’t forget the past. I admit that I’m cheap. When I saw the tears on his face, my heart softened. I also had the urge to hold him in my arms. I know that I will never forget those who held hands together. days gone by.

"Who are you? How do you know my name? Do I know you?", I kept asking Lao Zhang, if possible, I really hope I never met him, at least my life is still peaceful.

"Zhifeng, please don't do this again, okay? I was wrong! I thought that I would forget you quickly after breaking up, and I would find another person like the past, but this time I was wrong. It will never fade away in my heart, my heart is very small, and I can no longer pretend to be other people." Lao Zhang begged bitterly, begging for my forgiveness.

"Hehe, why do I have a feeling like I just swallowed a big blowfly, damn it, besides being disgusting, it's still disgusting! Who broke my heart over and over again without repentance? Who indifferently What did you say that I did this for your own good? A joke! I heard a big joke tonight! Lao Zhang, don’t let me look down on you, okay?”, Hearing Lao Zhang say that he knew he was wrong, I really I wanted to laugh, how could someone like him admit his mistake?After I smiled sadly, I said to Lao Zhang, "Old Zhang, can you stop making me laugh? We can't go back to the past!"

A17

Lao Zhang cried, sobbing softly, suddenly he rushed over and hugged me, his body was still as hot as before, but I can no longer find the caring feeling at the beginning.

He murmured in my ear: "Zhifeng, don't hate me anymore, okay? I know I was wrong, I will never leave you again, uncle is old, I can't play with those fancy things anymore, I just want Find a companion to spend the rest of the day."

I pushed Lao Zhang away with one hand, and said bluntly: "Are you crazy? How do you do things so regardless of the occasion? This is a pharmacy, and outside is a street full of people coming and going. You... do you want the whole small town to Everyone knows that I'm gay? Do you think you didn't hurt me enough?"

Looking at my angry eyes, Lao Zhang was scared. He stopped crying and quickly wiped away the tears with the skirt of his clothes, "It's not like this, it's not like this, I never thought of hurting you! I admit that I was not good at the beginning. , I admit that I didn't really invest in the love between us at the beginning. For a long time, I don't believe that there will be a real love between men and men in this world. This may have something to do with my encounters when I was young. Frankly speaking, I have I fell in love with someone, and after being hurt repeatedly, I completely gave up on myself and indulged in this circle. From then on, I fell in love with having sex with different men. I feel that it is this kind of pain that can paralyze my nerves. After I met you, you changed me, and you made me believe that there is true love in this world, but I am afraid of this love, and I am even more reluctant to part with this lust You are in the circle of flowers and flowers, so I am determined to break up with you."

I interrupted Lao Zhang and said coldly: "Since this is the case, what else do you have to say? From today onwards, you will take your single-plank bridge, and I will take my Yangguan Road. Everyone has nothing to do with each other. Please don't bother me again." A peaceful life, the past is like the wind, I have forgotten everything, and I have never had you in my memory!"

Hearing my decisive words, Lao Zhang burst into tears. Maybe the warning just now was effective. He didn’t cry this time, and let those sad tears hang silently on his face, slipping down quietly. , flowing down the cheeks, a large wet area on the chest.

Looking at his twitching expression, I admit that my heart softened. After all, that is the old man I once loved deeply, and my face gradually eased down.

"Zhifeng, do you believe it? I regretted it that night after I broke up with you, but I was too embarrassed to look for you right away, so I secretly hid near the hospital every day and watched you walk into the hospital from a distance. When I go shopping for groceries, I always want to find an opportunity to say sorry to you. At that time, I realized that you have become a part of my life. The days without you even the sky is gray! When the courage was going to beg your forgiveness, I found that I could never find you again. I searched everywhere but found no trace of you. In those days, my life was worse than death! Maybe God has mercy on me, a bad old man, no Thinking of meeting you again here today, it should be God's will, our love is bound to end, Zhifeng, just let me love you again!"

If Lao Zhang's affectionate words were said to me yesterday, I believe I would not hesitate to throw myself into his arms.Unfortunately, I can no longer find the worrying feeling that I used to have. I thought, could this be a sign that I no longer love Lao Zhang?