when love is unforgettable

A18

Facing Lao Zhang’s bitter begging, I didn’t feel too much emotion. I calmly said to Lao Zhang: “I admit that I loved you very much in the past, but it’s been such a long time. The passage has gradually faded away. I'm sorry, I don't love you anymore, and I sincerely ask you not to disturb my peaceful life again."

Lao Zhang took a step back, turned his body slowly after standing still, he didn't look at me again, I only saw his shoulders twitching constantly from behind, and then he walked out of the store step by step, through the landing of the pharmacy. Glass, I saw, under the dim street lights, the long, long shadow dragged on the ground, how lonely and helpless it looked!

In an instant, I regretted so much, even if I don’t want to start over with him, even if I really don’t love him anymore, I shouldn’t say all the things that hurt his heart. Can't do it either.

I felt my heart hurt very much, and I really didn't want to see that desolate figure disappear in front of my eyes, so I hurried out of the store and yelled at the figure: "Old Zhang, you Come back to me!"

Lao Zhang's footsteps stopped suddenly, and then he turned around suddenly.I saw the surprise in his eyes, he hesitated but didn't return to my pharmacy, probably because he didn't believe his ears and suspected that he heard something wrong.

I yelled again: "What the hell are you still standing there for? Why don't you come back quickly!"

This time, Lao Zhang could hear clearly, and immediately turned into a man like the wind. It's hard to imagine that a person of his age can walk in such a hurry.

"Come in." I waved Lao Zhang into the pharmacy, and then pulled down the roller shutter of the pharmacy.

Lao Zhang's expression was very excited, and the corners of his mouth twitched involuntarily. I knew he had a lot to say to me but he didn't dare to open his mouth.

I just closed the roller shutter of the gate, and I can still see the scene of the street through the floor-to-ceiling glass. In other words, pedestrians passing the pharmacy on the street can also see the status of the pharmacy.In order to avoid people's eyes and ears, I decided to go into the small warehouse of the pharmacy and talk to Lao Zhang, lest people really don't know how to explain it when they see him crying.

The small warehouse is very small, about ten square meters. It is located on the right side of the pharmacy. It mainly stores the best-selling medicines and traditional Chinese medicines needed for stockpiling. It doesn’t really occupy a lot of space. How many medicines can the newly opened pharmacy backlog?I saw that there was still a few square meters of space, so I bought a small bed and put it in the small warehouse. Sometimes it rained heavily at night or I was too tired to go home, so I just slept in the small warehouse for a night.

"Old Zhang, let's go into the back room." I pointed to the door of the small warehouse and walked over by myself.

After closing the door, I lightly pressed the switch on the wall, and the small warehouse that I couldn’t reach out from my fingers suddenly lit up. Lao Zhang looked at the small warehouse carefully, and finally his eyes stayed on the small bed on the side. I saw There was an ambiguous smile on his face.

"Old Zhang, what are you laughing at? I just asked you to come in for a casual chat, so don't get me wrong!" I deliberately said to Lao Zhang with a black face.

A19

With this roar, Lao Zhang lowered his head again, standing like a poor little daughter-in-law, not daring to make a sound. There is nothing good about him, but he knows how to never talk back when I am angry. I am still proud of his attitude in the past. Complacently, I thought that he loved me like this, and it was exactly like this that I forgave him time and time again without regret.If Lao Zhang hadn't broken up with me cruelly that night, I guess I would still forgive me.

"Old Zhang, our business is over and it's over. I didn't ask you to come in tonight to have a romantic relationship with you. I just wanted to pay attention to your recent situation as a friend. It's as simple as that." Sitting on the bed, he patted the edge of the bed to signal Lao Zhang to sit down beside me.

"Zhifeng, do you still consider me a friend? Do you still care about me?" Lao Zhang sat down and looked at me with joy.

"Why can't I treat you as a friend? Why can't I care about you?" I asked Zhang.

"I know I was bad at the beginning, and I know you have been hating me, otherwise you wouldn't have resigned from the public office to open this pharmacy."

"Don't mention the past, okay? At the beginning, I really hated you very much, because you were too hardworking. Seeing one and loving the other caused great harm to me. But if you think about it, you can't completely Blame you, the temptation in the circle is really too great. As one of us who loves the old and one who loves the young, it is only fate. In fact, no one can guarantee when the fate will end. In this world There is no best, only better. Even if you love to death today, you will have to scatter things every minute tomorrow, not to mention that we have no contract binding, relying on everyone's sincere treatment of this relationship. Things have reached this point , Is there any point in hating you?", I tried to lower the volume as much as possible, for fear that Lao Zhang's worthless tears would burst out loudly.

The two sides were silent for a while, and Lao Zhang said cautiously: "Zhifeng, why don't we start again, I really can't do without you, it's been hard for me to find you for a while, when I calm down, I can't think It's you, when I think of my ruthlessness back then, I feel heart-piercing pain, will you give me a chance to redeem myself?"

Isn't my heart piercing pain?I can't escape the entanglement of memories every day, and I can't learn to forget the days when I was happy together.But I don’t know why tonight it seems that all of this is not so important. What keeps coming out of my mind is Lao Li, a man from the Northeast who I just met this afternoon. His shallow smile keeps expanding and expanding in my mind , eroded the depths of my soul and firmly occupied my heart.

"Old Zhang, if you don't love, you don't love anymore. Don't make unnecessary entanglements, okay? Maybe in a corner of this world, there is a person who loves you silently waiting for you. To tell you the truth, I There is someone in my heart, he should be different, I know that it should be impossible to be with him, but I am still willing to let that wandering soul stay for him, even if this waiting will become a blank, I have no complaints No regrets.”, I don’t want to give Lao Zhang any more hope, I think it’s better to be a human being, everyone should try their best to open their hearts and reduce unnecessary misunderstandings.

B9

I felt that I had just fallen asleep in a daze when I heard a knock on the door of my house. I sat up all of a sudden, put on my shoes and walked out of the room. I came to the door and opened the door. Seeing that it was Yao Damei standing at the door, I was so scared that I turned around and ran into the house. As soon as I turned around, Yao Damei slapped my ass, and she scolded me loudly: "Okay!" You Li Erfat, you can’t put on your clothes and open the door again, you’re almost naked.”

As I ran into the room, I answered her words: "This early in the morning, who would have thought that you Yao Damei would come to my house, and besides, there is no woman in my house, why am I wearing so many clothes?" As I spoke, I ran into the room, put on my shorts, and came out. Miss Yao had already entered my house. She was useless. I made myself sit on the sofa. On the coffee table, she curled her lips and said sourly: "Li Erpang, you can do it, don't tell me those useless things, and you don't have a woman in your family, that old Mrs. Chen is going from left to right." I don't want to go to your house to be frightened. If you tell me that, old Mrs. Chen is not a woman anymore."

I walked up to Miss Yao and answered her in a low voice: "Isn't old Mrs. Chen hospitalized? Who knew you could come? Miss Yao, what are you doing at my house?" Miss Yao listened to my words Her mouth curled even wider, and she stretched out her hand and slapped me: "What's the matter, old Mrs. Chen can come but I can't, why are you standing there and still not sitting down, you're afraid I'll eat you. "As soon as I heard what she said, I remembered that old Mrs. Chen had said the same thing to me, and I couldn't help but reply to her: "I really want you to eat me, it depends on how you eat me."

After I finished saying this, I regretted it. Sure enough, I saw Yao Damei lowering her head pretendingly. I don’t know if she was embarrassed after hearing my words or something. Her face was still red. I see When I saw his expression, he heheed twice in embarrassment. Just as I was about to speak, I saw Yao Damei moved her butt in and said softly to me: "Li Erfat. You should sit down soon. "

As soon as I heard Yao Damei's tone of voice, I don't know what happened today.I felt that there was an extra layer on my body in an instant. I took a step forward, turned around, walked to the sofa and sat down next to Yao Damei. I felt sweat on my forehead. Yao Damei saw me sitting When I got to her side, I turned my head to look at my big shorts, and said in surprise: "I said Li Erpang, your big shorts are pretty, where did you buy them? Okay, I also want to buy one for our old Liu." She reached out and touched my big underpants while talking, and said in her mouth: "Well, this material is very good, where you bought it."

I moved my body to the side, wishing to stay away from her, and answered her in my mouth: "My son brought me these pants when he came back last time, and I don't know where he bought them. Ah, when my son comes back, I will ask him to tell..." I stopped before I finished speaking, and I felt that Yao Damei's hand had reached the middle of my thigh, and she continued to stroke my cheek Underpants, said in his mouth: "Well, when your son comes back, you can ask him, I will buy a pair for us, even Lao Liu."

B10

I was saying in my heart: "If you buy it for your old Liu, you can buy it. Why are you touching mine, you." I was stunned when I said this. I felt that I was very strange today. As soon as the beauty said that she knocked on me, it was hard. Today she touched me, why didn't I respond? Just when I was puzzled, I heard the door of my house was knocked again, and at the same time I heard Lao Liu Shouting loudly: "I fucking asked you to deliver some hot soy milk to Lao Li and you didn't come out after delivering it for a long time. You should finish feeding him even if you're fucking breastfeeding him."

Hearing Lao Liu's cry, Yao Damei pressed her hand hard on mine before reluctantly taking it away. Yao Damei scolded Lao Liu in her mouth: "I'll fucking feed you, You are a three-year-old child, if you leave my mother for a while, I won’t be able to talk to Li Erpang about me.” When Yao Damei spoke, I walked to the door and opened the door, Lao Liu was standing in the room The door said: "You old men and old women, what good things can you say, Lao Li, what did my wife tell you."

I smiled at Lao Liu and answered him in a low voice: "Old Liu, you still don't know who your wife is, she is just a mother, what can your wife tell me, and he asked me again What I said about the two men last night." After listening to my words, Lao Liu nodded and said, "Well, Lao Li, I believe you, he is just a mother." Yao Damei said Poured out soy milk from the thermos and asked me: "Li Erpang, what does our old Liu tell me about me?" I quickly answered her: "Yao Damei, your old Liu is praising you, he Said that you never gossip about others, I'm saying that he likes to pass on his wife's tongue, it's a thing."

Yao Damei nodded in agreement after hearing what I said, and said, "Yes, my old Liu is not as good as me in this respect, he just likes to tell lies." After listening to my words, Lao Liu punched me in a low voice. I scolded me: "What are you, you can beat old women's beards." I covered my shoulder that was hurt by Lao Liu's beating, put my mouth next to his ear and said, "I don't want to beat her beards." Where am I going to get milk?" Old Liu punched me again after hearing what I said.He scolded me in his mouth: "You eat milk, you eat you."

Yao Damei finished pouring the soy milk and walked behind me carrying a thermos bucket. When she heard what Old Liu said, she opened her eyes and looked at me in disbelief. Yao Damei yelled: "Li Er Fat, what our old Liu said about you just now, he said you eat, Li Erpang, didn’t you have broken shoes with old Mrs. Chen, why do you like men, and you still eat men, you are too much of you. You are also gay .”

As soon as I heard Yao Damei say this, I shouted in my mouth: "My mother, I, what are you listening to? You can't listen to the second half of the sentence if you just listen to it." Half of the sentence, the first half of the sentence he said is that I will eat your milk."

As soon as Yao Damei heard what I said, she slapped me pretendingly, and said in her mouth: "Li Erpang, you are beautiful, mine is still reserved for our old Liu, I will give you a fart. "As she spoke, she rubbed her butt against me intentionally or unintentionally, and went out with Lao Liu.As soon as I closed the door, I heard Lao Liu yelling outside the door: "Lao Li, eat quickly. After we finish eating, let's go to the hospital to see Mrs. Chen."

Sticking tightly to the door, I didn't want to move for half a step, as if I had no motivation.After just one day, I actually miss that kid named Maple Leaf a little bit. I wonder if he has had breakfast at this moment?The half-open lips and the white teeth seemed to appear in front of my eyes, and I couldn't help laughing, but I didn't know what I was laughing at, I just knew that when I thought of him, my heart was sweet , as if you just ate honey.

I checked the computer a few times last night, but the kid was not online. Could it be that he thought I was an old man and not funny enough so he stopped chatting with me?

Thinking about it further, logically speaking, this should be impossible. During the video yesterday afternoon, I carefully observed the boy's expression. He was obviously very happy, which proved that he also likes to chat with me.

God!Why did I feel an inexplicable impulse in my heart when I thought of that kid's expression yesterday?I seem to like him?Bah bah bah!Such a great old man, how could I fall in love with him?It seemed that he missed his son too much, so he accidentally regarded that boy as his own son.

I hurried a few steps through the living room and walked into the back room. I will go to the hospital with Liu Damei, Lao Liu, and the others to visit the old lady Chen in the hospital. I want to turn on the computer to see if this kid is online, even if it's just to chat a few words.

Quickly plug in the power, I press the power button, why is the computer so slow today, the more I wait for the startup, the more upset I am, I wish the computer can enter the state immediately.Fuck, stupid!Why does the computer shut down?Didn't your son say that this computer saves power? The 24-hour power-on status is only less than one yuan, and if you smoke a few cigarettes, you will get it. Am I fucking crazy about money?

After waiting for the computer to turn on this time, I decided that the computer will not be turned off in the future. I can't afford the waiting time. I am afraid of the waiting process, and the days are like years!

My eyes flickered a few times, and the computer finally turned on. I was so anxious that I quickly entered the account number and password. Damn, that little penguin was just shaking there, but I couldn’t open QQ Huahua.I can't wait to smash the computer monitor with my fist, but I can't bear it. Although I don't know how much this broken second-hand computer is worth, it's a gift from my son. Besides, I don't have the spare money to buy a computer after smashing it. , Then wouldn't I have no chance to chat with that Maple Leaf again?

Thinking of not having a chance to chat with that kid, I felt a heart-piercing pain in my heart!Fuck, what happened to me today?All he thought about was that brat named Maple Leaf?Am I infected by what I heard in the taxi last night?No!No!No!This is impossible!I am definitely not gay!

QQ, which I hadn’t logged in for a long time, opened in an instant. I stared at the computer monitor with all my attention, longing to see that little penguin’s light turn on.Is it true that the greater the hope, the greater the disappointment? The column of QQ friends is gray, as if my heart is covered with a thick fog.I stared blankly at the gray head, just staring at it intently, as if the gray head would light up at any time.

B11

Soon, I was disappointed, a feeling of being stuck in my throat filled the depths of my heart, this kid hasn't gotten up yet?Today's young people are so lazy. Every time my son comes back, he sleeps all day long, but he doesn't know how to take care of his body.Going to bed early and waking up early is the correct work and rest time. Sleeping too much does not mean sleeping well. I am afraid that young people today have already forgotten this.

Clicking the mouse, I refreshed again and again. Every time I refreshed, I longed for that brat to appear in the next second. Unfortunately, disappointment is always greater than hope. Soon I will not refresh again. He will always come if he wants to come. I am here It's no use worrying.

Just staring at the computer monitor eagerly, why do I have such a feeling of looking at the husband stone?Bah bah bah!What am I thinking about?Li Liangwu, Li Liangwu, you are too hopeless, you can even think of Wangfushi?Are you still a man?I fuck you!

I really can't think of what to do while sitting, I sighed softly and stood up, after a few steps in the bedroom, I hurriedly sat back on the computer chair, and then there were bursts of crazy refreshes, no online or no Online, what happened to me today?Am I stupid?Why are you doing these boring things?Just an ordinary netizen, why am I so worried?I'm crazy about me.

I took out a crumpled cigarette case from my pocket, and I pulled out one and was about to put it in my mouth, when my son’s kind voice seemed to come from my ear: "Dad, smoking is not good for your health, please smoke less." .”

After thinking about it, I hesitated for a second or two and lit the cigarette. I feel a bit inexplicable today. Maybe the nicotine in the cigarette can relieve my uneasy mood.This is how people are. When they are lonely and weak, they hope to release their emotions by relying on external stress.

Nicotine is really a good thing, it paralyzes my nerves and blurs my vision, but when the smoke is filled, I feel that everything is starting to be strange, as if I don't even recognize myself.

For a vague moment, I felt a little bit sour in my nose. Is that the prelude to tears?Taking a deep breath, I tried my best to subdue the inexplicable sadness!

"Bah! Bah!", two knocks on the door woke me up, "Er fat! Li Er fat! Are you still going to the hospital?", Lao Liu's broken voice is really fucking different, I Was taken aback.

It's time to visit the old Mrs. Chen in the hospital. They are a one-night couple, Bai Yeen. I and the old Mrs. Chen can't be counted as husband and wife. There is still a bit of a relationship.

"Hey! Here we come!", I hastily responded loudly outside the door, turned my head and looked at the computer monitor again, the QQ screen showed that the brat named Maple Leaf was still not online.

Reluctantly, I stood up slowly, stretched out my fingers and slid gently on the head of the little penguin, and then resolutely ran to the gate.This time I learned to be smart. I didn't turn off the computer host, and I didn't even turn off the computer monitor. I want to open the QQ screen as soon as I come back, and I want to get his news as soon as possible!