sorry i left

mid-December.

City S finally ushered in the first heavy snow this year, the weather was gloomy, the sky was covered with thick grayish-yellow clouds, pieces of snowflakes swayed from side to side following the traces of the wind, and finally fell gently on the ground, On the roof, the flowers and trees seem to have found a good home, gradually merging together.It is also because of the weather that many people who originally wanted to get up early and do morning exercises stopped and returned to the embrace of the bed.

"Ah, ah, ah, ah, ah, ah." After the nth sneeze, An Jiayue sighed helplessly.

Today is Saturday, and An Jiayue, who thought she would not have to go to school the next day, was in a good mood. Last night, she stayed up until three o'clock, but she didn't expect to wake up at seven o'clock today.Then, he sneezed a couple of times in a very inconspicuous way, and then, An Jiayue was speechless... caught a cold.

Please, don't catch a cold every winter, okay?At least you don't have to visit me once a year. Today is a weekend.

I got up and opened the curtains, looking at the sky that was no longer bright because of the snow, replaced by this annoying and exciting snow day.An Jiayue turned her head and sighed heavily again. In the next second, the room without the sound of sneezing or sighing instantly became quiet. If she just listened and didn't look at it, she would never know that there were people in the room. exist.

It seems that the woman didn't come back last night, otherwise there might be troubles again, so that's fine, I can stay at home quietly and stop.Thinking in her heart, An Jiayue sneered, then leaned back, and lay down under the blanket again.Looking at Xiao Xia who was still sleeping soundly, with her hands behind her head, her thoughts drifted away.

It has been several months since An Jiayue and Qiu Yuqing met for the first time. During this period, An Jiayue told the other party her address so that she could come to see Xiaoxia in the future.Qiu Yuqing also came here quite a few times, almost every week on weekends and weekends when she had time, and bought a lot of cat food for Xiaoxia, and treated her the same as when they first met, talking and laughing, nothing unusual .It seemed that Qiu Yuqing considered it a coincidence that she named the cat Xiao Xia, otherwise it would have been impossible for the cat to not ask anything for so long.At the same time, it also denied An Jiayue's answer. She still remembered Xia Lingxuan, and Qiu Yuqing still remembered Xia Lingxuan.She dared to swear that for three years, this person had been living in Qiu Yuqing's heart without a trace of moving.

"Buzz-buzz-" Just as An Jiayue was thinking wildly, the phone rang without warning.

"Han Wei, is there something wrong with calling so early?" An Jiayue didn't realize that her voice was already so hoarse.

"I see it's snowing outside, do you want to come out and play for a while?" Are you sick?It’s still snowing early in the morning. Those who do morning exercises don’t go out. If you’re not at home, what are you going out to play? What fun is there in winter?Of course, these words were just in An Jiayue's mind.

"I'm not going out, you should stay at home, it's cold outside. Cough cough."

"An Jiayue, you don't have a cold, do you? I heard that your voice is not right and you are still coughing?" At this time, Han Wei realized that there was something wrong with An Jiayue's voice.

"Uh, it's okay, I'll just lie down at home for a while." Is there something wrong with my voice?Why can't she hear it?

"Is there anyone else in your family besides yourself?"

"Uh, no, what's the matter?" Han Wei suddenly changed the subject, making An Jiayue a little puzzled, and asked suspiciously.

"I'll go over to accompany you in a while, you stay at home and don't go anywhere." After finishing speaking, he hung up without waiting for the other party's answer.

"Er..." Looking at the hung up phone, what else could she say?Only this word was uttered, and at the same time, a warm current rushed to my heart along the blood.Besides Qiu Yuqing, Han Wei was probably the one who cared about her the most.It's been three years, I didn't expect that after three years, I can still experience this feeling of being loved, it's great.But, Han Wei, I still don't have the courage to tell you everything. Ever since I met Qiu Yuqing for the first time, my weakness and incompetence have reached the extreme.You know, I thought that I could completely control all my emotions, but now I realize that I am still not strong enough.

Facts have proved that if Han Wei does not become a courier in the future, it will be a waste of talent.No, in less than 10 minutes since I hung up the phone, her unique sound of "slamming" the door sounded outside.

"Here we come, don't knock." Shaking her head helplessly, An Jiayue calmed down and got up to open the door for Han Wei.

Why is this Han Wei always so frizzy, she doesn't look like a girl at all.

After opening the door, An Jiayue's gaze fell on Han Wei's glowing red cheeks. Since she was running over, Han Wei leaned on the door frame and panted heavily.The long hair hanging on the back was scattered on both sides in a mess due to her strenuous exercise. The dark blue down jacket was even more unbearable to look at. The zipper was only half pulled, revealing the pure white sweater inside. The cuffs and collar were obviously too much. I was in a hurry but didn't turn it over, and the corner of the sweater was even exposed from the bottom of the down jacket.The current Han Wei, if there are some bloodstains on it, I am afraid that some people will believe that she just escaped the pursuit.

"Uh, Han Wei, I know you want to come and see me, but you don't have to be so impatient." An Jiayue's eyes swept over Han Wei a few times before she said to the other party with an incredulous expression.

"Hey, I'm afraid you won't be taken care of and die at home, okay? You don't thank me for being so kind and you still mock me!" Han Wei expressed dissatisfaction with An Jiayue's attitude while tidying up her clothes.

"Yes, I'm sorry, I misunderstood you. Don't stand there stupidly, come in, move slowly when closing the door, Xiaoxia is still sleeping." After finishing speaking, without waiting for Han Wei's reply, she turned around and turned to Go in the direction of the bedroom.After hearing her words, the latter made a grimace before carefully closing the door and following An Jiayue's footsteps.

Regarding An Jiayue's unusual reaction when she met Qiu Yuqing last time, Han Wei saw it and remembered it in her heart.Don't look at her usual carelessness, if she really does something with her heart, I'm afraid even Cheng Yiqian, a college bully, can't be as careful as her.In the past few months, whenever she had time, she would think about it, and finally found the source of the problem.From Han Wei's point of view, the four of them had a good time when they first met, and even Qiu Yuqing, who just met for the first time, didn't see anything similar to being unhappy.But when An Jiayue was buying the cat, when An Jiayue was about to name the cat she bought Xiao Xia, she clearly saw that An Jiayue had never shown herself and Cheng Yiqian before, and Qiu Yuqing became stiff instantly. The movement of stroking Xiaoxia's body also stopped when An Jiayue's voice stopped.It has to be said that An Jiayue's control ability is indeed stronger than that of her peers. When Qiu Yuqing looked at her, An Jiayue had already changed into another emotion, and her discomfort was covered by happiness. If there were no later ones The dialogue and Qiu Yuqing's changed face, she really thought she was wrong.Now, Han Wei firmly believes that the name Xiaoxia was never imagined by An Jiayue out of thin air, it must be a person's name.

But who would Xiaoxia be?I had never heard An Jiayue say that she knew a person named Xiaoxia, let alone that day, seeing the reactions of An Jiayue and Qiu Yuqing, it seemed that they both knew this person named Xiaoxia, and their relationship was not like ordinary friends.However, An Jiayue, a dead woman, has an inferiority complex, how could she take the initiative to make friends and meet them?She said that she and Qiu Yuqing met on the Internet. Could it be that she also met this Xiaoxia on the Internet?Or did they meet on a certain chat software together?Every time Han Wei thinks of this, she always feels that her brain is going to explode, no matter how she thinks, it's wrong.Some people will also say, what are you doing with those brain cells? Don't you just ask An Jiayue herself that everything is clear?That's right, if it were Han Wei who didn't know An Jiayue well before, she might do this, but now she doesn't ask because she knows her too well.An Jiayue, if she wants to tell you, she will naturally tell you, but if she doesn't want to tell you, let alone ask, even if you put a knife on her neck and force her to say it, she won't spit out half of it. Character.Otherwise, it wouldn't have been so many years, and I still knew almost nothing about her.

"Why are you at home by yourself, Auntie?" Entering the bedroom, Han Wei saw Xiao Xia who hadn't woken up in the corner at a glance. Although she really wanted to touch this cute little guy, she was afraid of waking up its sweet dreams. Finally just crouched down and looked at it.

Well, it seems that An Jiayue has taken care of it pretty well, it is much fatter than when I bought it.

"She has something to go out, ahem." An Jiayue pushed the wheel chair beside the table in front of Han Wei, motioning for her to sit down.Then, he sat on the edge of the bed and looked at her.

"I said An Jiayue, aren't you too fragile? It's just the first snowfall and you caught a cold, will you not be able to go out in the future?" Han Wei was not polite, she got up and pulled the chair directly Sit in front of An Jiayue.

"It's just a small cold and I'll just rest for a few days. Don't make it sound like I'm terminally ill, okay?" It is conceivable that An Jiayue, after hearing Han Wei's words, can make a dead person alive. That face that cannot be described in words.Han Wei, Han Wei, can't you expect me to order?I just caught a small cold, are you exaggerating to the point where you can't even get out?

"Uh, cough cough. Well, does auntie know that you have a cold? Where did you go so early?" Realizing that she had said something too much, Han Wei pretended to cough twice and immediately changed the subject with a look of embarrassment.

"She didn't know I had a cold, and I didn't know where she was."

"Jiayue, I hear from you that you don't have a good relationship with your aunt, what happened?" Since Han Wei started following An Jiayue when she was in junior high school, her family Han Wei also visited Many times, but never met An Jiayue's mother.At first, Han Wei just thought that her aunt was out on business when she came, so she didn't care too much, but after hearing An Jiayue's tone today and the fact that she never mentioned her family's situation before, Han Wei found out.It's really not quite right, she's never seen An Jiayue's mother, it's been three years, it can't be such a coincidence that every time she comes, the aunt has something to go out, right?

An Jiayue, An Jiayue, how many things do you still keep from me? It feels good to keep it in your heart, doesn't it?Tell me you will die!I won't tell others, this will only be a secret between the two of us, even my brother and Cheng Yiqian won't know, you know?

"It's okay, everything is fine, you're overthinking." An Jiayue's expression was calm, and she couldn't find any flaws. People who didn't know her really thought there was nothing wrong with her.

Even knowing that it would be such an answer, Han Wei couldn't help feeling disappointed.Sure enough, this An Jiayue still refused to say anything.

When Han Wei smiled helplessly, a sneeze sounded in her ears without warning, which reminded Han Wei of An Jiayue's physical condition immediately.

"An Jiayue, I'll accompany you to the hospital for an IV. It will recover sooner, otherwise it will take a few days to recover."

"Uh, no, no, I'll take some medicine..." An Jiayue wanted to say that she would just take some medicine, but before she could finish speaking, Han Wei dragged her to the closet.Even if she was not as strong as Han Wei when she was not sick, this is what she has experienced personally, let alone herself who is sick now, the result can be imagined...

"I'll only give you 5 minutes. If you don't have money, I will. Don't worry, Xiaoxia. I think it's sleeping soundly and won't wake up for a while. We'll be back in the afternoon, and you'll give it to Auntie later. Call her and tell her, I think she will agree. That's it, you change your clothes, and I'll wait for you in the living room." After finishing speaking, he turned around and left the bedroom, and closed the door carefully, leaving only the stupid An Jiayue stood there stupidly...

"An Jiayue, I'm so bored, can you chat with me?" Seeing that An Jiayue was being dragged over by herself for an IV drip, she was lying on the exclusive white hospital bed with her hands folded on top of each other. Chest, eyes closed, lips slightly parted.Finally, Han Wei couldn't bear the loneliness, so she pretended to be pitiful.

"Han Wei, you were the one who said that you would come with me to get an IV drip. If you feel bored, you can go home. I won't stop you." The eyes of the person on the bed were still closed, and he didn't intend to open them at all.

"Uh, let's wait until you finish your drip, or I won't worry." Please, she just wanted An Jiayue to get better soon, she wouldn't lie here for an hour without talking to herself Well, that's enough patience.Cheng Yiqian also went to make up lessons, which made me so boring now.

"Hey, have you heard? Now both the news and the newspapers are reporting that He Chenyi, the leader of the biggest gangster in S City and the chairman of the He Corporation, died of lung cancer a month ago. Oh, he died at the age of 48. Really! It's a pity. I heard that he also has a daughter named He Xueyao. That guy is amazing. As soon as her father died, she took over the underworld and the company's business, and took over the old guys who wanted to take the opportunity to rebel after He Chenyi died. No one is left. After all, no one wants to live a life under the fence of others. They thought that once the tiger He Chenyi died, they would be able to dominate the monkeys. I didn't expect to create another He Xueyao who was more ruthless than He Chenyi. Not only that, I I heard that He Xueyao has established a good relationship with the chief of the police station and the mayor, and appeases all the old people who work in the He family. What is even more incredible is, do you know how old He Xueyao is? 26, at the age of 26, all these Things have been handled in an orderly manner, and it's only been a month. Alas, there is no one in S City who doesn't know He Xueyao's name. How many people want to get in touch with her? Even a little bit can turn a sparrow into a phoenix. If I can see her I'm satisfied on one side, she's really handsome and cool! But she doesn't seem to have any scandals, and I don't know what type she likes. Oh! Master Xueyao!" Han Wei said while gesturing with her hands, saying In the end, the nympho that a man should have appeared.

"Don't think about it too much, just be an ordinary person." In An Jiayue's view, any glamorous surface must be somewhat dirty.She doesn't know much about the underworld, but she doesn't know everything. No one knows how many shady things the He family has done, how many people have been killed and how many are innocent.If it was her, she would rather be an ordinary student, an office worker in the future, and then slowly grow old and die. No one will remember that there was a person named An Jiayue in this world.This is her life, and it is also the ordinary life she wants.Of course, she didn't want the people around her to get involved in the underworld or killing, that's why she told Han Wei, just be an ordinary person.

It was like a basin of cold water poured down Han Wei's head, instantly extinguishing her enthusiasm.Han Wei was just about to scold An Jiayue for her boredom, but before she could speak, the other party's phone rang before her.

"Hey, Jiayue, I won't go there if it's snowing today. How is Xiaoxia?" Han Wei and An Jiayue heard the phone ringing at the same time. Let me ask, if the phone is on the table, then a person lying on the bed next to the table Man, a guy sitting at a table, who's going to get the phone first?The next moment, the two gave the answer at the same time.

"I don't know how Xiao Xia is, but I know that An Jiayue is in the ward on the second floor of Ruihong Hospital. If you want to know what's wrong with her, come and see her." What's more interesting is that the call was from Qiu Yuqing.After Han Wei finished speaking, she hung up. Looking at An Jiayue's extremely cold face, someone was even more elated.

Haha, let you not chat with me, make you angry with me, this time this baby will just sit back and watch the show.

In fact, Han Wei never thought that Qiu Yuqing would come. After all, she hung up the phone before waiting for someone to answer. It would be nice if anyone with a bit of a temper didn't scold her for such an impolite behavior, but I didn't expect this Qiu Yuqing has such a good temper, she actually came here.

"Han Wei, how is Jiayue?" Within half an hour, when Qiu Yuqing pushed open the door of An Jiayue's ward, she saw Han Wei leaning on the table and fiddling with her fingers, and lying on the hospital bed. An Jiayue, who was on an IV drip, was lying sideways on the bed at this time, with her eyes closed, her breathing was steady, as if she was asleep.Out of worry, Qiu Yuqing asked Han Wei about the physical condition of the person on the bed as soon as she entered the door without even saying hello.

"Don't worry, she's not going to die, she's just caught a cold, I'll come with her and get an IV and she'll be fine." Han Wei was still playing with her fingers, she didn't look up at Qiu Yuqing, and she was very angry.What's the matter, I just asked Qiu Yuqing to come over to see her, so why did she fall asleep after glaring at her?Just go to sleep, I didn't expect you to really sleep, really, do you know that I will be even more bored.

"Huh, that's good." Hearing that Han Wei said it was nothing serious, Qiu Yuqing's heart that had been hanging all the way was relieved.Sitting on the edge of the bed, looking at An Jiayue's reddish side face due to the heat, she suddenly felt that the sleeping person in front of her was a little cute.Qiu Yuqing felt that she really couldn't laugh or cry. After the incident of naming a cat last time, she decided that no matter whether An Jiayue knew that person or not, she would regard that incident as a coincidence.From now on, she will treat An Jiayue like she treats Su Qing, treating her as a friend, a good friend.As for that person... It's been three years, should I really let it go, it just so happens that none of the friends around me know that person, Su Qing is no exception.If you give up, you can do it without anyone noticing, and you can still live as if you didn't know him, and no one will know.If... my heart agrees.

The furthest distance in this world is when I know I love you and I desperately want to get you back, but I can only watch you forgetting and indifferent.

"Ahem!" What are you doing, what are you doing, ah!After coming here to ask about An Jiayue, I ran to the bed and looked at her in a daze, thinking I was transparent?Besides, what's so good about that dead woman's sleeping appearance?Looks like a malnourished, why not look at me, at least I have a normal body shape.Han Wei roared in her heart, and finally couldn't help it, coughing twice.

"Uh, um, how is Xiao Xia, does anyone care about it?" Qiu Yuqing, who was awakened by the cough, remembered that this was a hospital, and finally remembered the original purpose of calling, and hurriedly asked about Xiao Xia's situation.

"It was still sleeping when An Jiayue and I came out, and she was the only one at home when I first went. If it wakes up now and Auntie doesn't come back, then no one cares about it..." In fact, Han Wei didn't know at all. When will Xiao Xia wake up? The reason why she said that was because she was afraid that An Jiayue would not follow her to get an injection obediently, so she told this white lie.Thinking of this, Han Wei felt a little embarrassed, scratched her head with her hands, and her voice became smaller and smaller.

"Why don't you go to her house and have a look, I think An Jiayue will agree." Suddenly, Han Wei raised her volume, but it was not loud enough to wake An Jiayue up, her eyes gleamed Said to Qiu Yuqing calmly.It looked so much like a puppy just trying to please its owner, it almost patted her head.

"Uh, well, you take care of Jiayue here, and if she wakes up, tell her, I'll go and have a look and I'll be back."

"Well, promise to complete the task."

Arriving at the door of An Jiayue's house, she opened the door with the key that Han Wei took out from An Jiayue's coat pocket.Uh, why does it feel a bit like a thief, forget it, anyway, I just came to see Xiao Xia, and left after reading it, and I don't know how to take anything.

Before Qiu Yuqing entered the door, she heard a cat meowing, and the corner of her mouth twitched. It seemed that the little guy had woken up. The sound sounded like it was coming from An Jiayue's bedroom.Qiu Yuqing moved away and walked directly into the bedroom.

The bedroom was the same as when I came here, neat and clean.Desks, wardrobes, chairs, and beds are all arranged in an orderly manner.Looking at Xiao Xia who was walking around in the bedroom, as if looking for something, Qiu Yuqing smiled deeper than before, walked towards Xiao Xia quickly, and picked her up.

"Xiao Xia, be good, my sister will take you to eat delicious food, hehe." After finishing speaking, she walked directly to the kitchen, and Xiao Xia obediently let Qiu Yuqing hug her as if she could understand her words.

"It seems that I'm really hungry, I ate so much." A few minutes later, Xiao Xia filled her stomach, as if relying on Qiu Yuqing, grabbed her trouser leg with her mouth, and pulled it into the bedroom, and the latter also Don't get annoyed, just squat down and pick up Xiao Xia and walk into the bedroom.

"Okay, you can play here, you must be obedient, otherwise my sister will be angry." Going to the bedroom, Qiu Yuqing put Xiao Xia down and "warned" it.Xiao Xia meowed, then turned around and walked towards the table with her little paws.At the same time, Qiu Yuqing's eyes followed Xiao Xia's direction.

"This is..." Someone picked up the dark red notebook on the table, and Xiao Xia called out.

What's this?Qiu Yuqing remembered that she had never read this book when she came to An Jiayue's house before. She flipped through it, and the densely packed writing in it flashed by, and at the same time, Qiu Yuqing solved her doubts.

This is a diary, An Jiayue's diary!Looking at the thick book in front of her, Qiu Yuqing suddenly felt as if she had found a treasure chest, and this diary was the key to the treasure chest, waiting to be opened by herself.As long as you open it, you can know everything about An Jiayue, everything she has done, her emotions, every fluctuation of her emotions... no no no no!This is someone else's diary, there must be some privacy in it that belongs exclusively to An Jiayue, how can I peek at it?Peeking at other people's diaries is bad behavior, no no no!Absolutely not to watch!Qiu Yuqing shook her head vigorously, forcing herself to put down the things in her hands, but...

Finally, after the ideological struggle was over, the little devil kicked the little angel away. Qiu Yuqing still planned to take a look, and said in her heart: I just look at it, just look at it, and I promise to put it back to the original place after reading it. It's as if I didn't see it, I promise...

Afterwards, An Jiayue hid the matter for three years, and Qiu Yuqing unintentionally revealed it...

If you believe in fate, then everything is destined by chance.If you don't believe in fate, then everything is destined to be accidental...