love like a shooting star

11.

That night, Wu Liuyi woke up from the haze and wanted to get a glass of water.Pushing open the bedroom door, I found Shi Jin's bed was empty, and my heart suddenly rose to my throat.There was no one in the bathroom, nor the kitchen. Fortunately, the room was not big, so he quickly found him on the balcony.

Shi Jin looked thinner and thinner, and his pajamas were loosely draped over his body, giving him the feeling of being too weak.He was looking up at the night sky, not knowing what to think, the back was lonely and desolate.

Wu Liuyi stepped forward, grabbed Shi Jin's shoulders naturally, and asked softly, "Why are you so engrossed?"

"A lot of stars."

Wu Liuyi burst into laughter: "Squad leader, are you sore?"

Shi Jin said solemnly: "I saw a shooting star just now, and I made a wish."

Wu Liuyi made a very interested look: "Can you tell me what it is?"

Shi Jin turned his head to look at Wu Liuyi smiling, his eyes and mouth were crooked, Wu Liuyi felt his heart beating rapidly, and he tried his best to restrain himself, not to let himself do anything beyond the rules.

"I pray that God will treat you better, that there will be a good girl who likes you and takes care of you for the rest of your life."

Wu Liuyi's heart was twitching in pain, but the smile on his face was exaggerated: "My God, monitor, you can do it, your teeth are almost sour."

Shi Jin's eyes were full of guilt.

Wu Liuyi couldn't stop laughing, and her voice was a little hoarse: "Squad leader, don't you know that you can't say what you've made? It won't work if you say it."

The guilt in Shi Jin's eyes deepened, accompanied by a soft sigh.

Immediately, he saw Wu Liuyi's face enlarged in front of his eyes in an instant, his waist was clamped by a powerful arm, and his breathing was blocked.It was a heavy and desperate kiss, so sudden.Wu Liuyi pressed Shi Jin's lips tightly, sucking his lips domineeringly, and his tongue was trying to invade further, but unfortunately it failed.

After a few seconds of blank mind, Shi Jin began to struggle.Of course, with his current physical condition, he couldn't escape Wu Liuyi's arms at all, but he was still struggling with all his might.Wu Liuyi felt Shi Jin's resistance, but hugged him even harder. The two of them struggled a lot on the small balcony. In the end, it was Wu Liu who pushed Shi Jin down on the floor, and then pressed his whole body down.

Shi Jin's eyes turned black, and he felt in a trance that he was about to be crushed.He didn't have the strength to struggle, so he collapsed on the ground and let him do whatever he wanted.Losing his mind, Wu Liuyi tore off Shi Jin's belt, and the pajamas slipped away with his movements. Wu Liuyi greedily kissed Shi Jin's collarbone, and began to caress with one hand.

"Liu Yi...let go...you let me go..."

An intermittent sound came from his ear, and Wu Liuyi froze when his fingers touched something.The blazing flames gradually extinguished, Wu Liuyi slowly raised his head, and all he could see was the hideous incision on Shi Jin's chest—the scar left by the open-chest operation.

The body is getting colder and colder, as if falling into an ice cave.What did I do? !he asked himself in his heart.His eyes moved up inch by inch until Shi Jin's face was pale and transparent under the moonlight, two desolate tears slid down his cheeks, leaving two wet marks.

"I'm sorry." Wu Liuyi wanted to slap himself, he had no face to face Shi Jin again, stood up abruptly and wanted to escape back into the house.

"June [-]st!" Shi Jin stood up and slowly fastened his belt. His figure was a little floating, but his waist was still straight.

Wu Liuyi paused, turned around, glanced at Shi Jin and lowered his gaze.

"Liu Yi, you don't have to feel guilty. I owe you this life. If you really want it, I will give it to you, but I have already promised him my heart... I'm sorry."

"No, squad leader, it's my fault. I'm obsessed with ghosts, and I won't do it again." Wu Liuyi said repeatedly, and finally had the courage to look Shi Jin directly in the eyes. Shi Jin was also looking at him with clear eyes, full of compassion.Wu Liuyi's eyes suddenly became hot, and he was on the verge of tears.Shi Jin approached with a smile and a sigh, and reached out to pat Wu Liuyi on the shoulder.

……

A few minutes later, the two lay side by side on the balcony looking at the stars, as if what happened just now had never happened.

"You……"

"You want to say I'm naive?"

"What's the matter?"

"That's right, I must be naive in your eyes." Wu Liuyi thought for a while, "The monitor, can I ask another naive question?"

"what?"

"The wish you made must not only be for me. What kind of wish did you make for him?"

"Childish." Shi Jin smiled, his mouth curled up.

"Come on, tell me, I won't tell others." Wu Liuyi deliberately teased him, but actually asked the bottom line.

Shi Jin's eyes flashed a look of narrowness, imitating Wu Liufang's talented tone: "Don't you know that you can't say what you have made? It won't work if you say it."

Wu Liuyi's heart ached again.

Spring Festival is coming.Shi Jin's illness didn't improve but it didn't get worse, which was good news for Wu Liuyi.Shi Jin said that he wanted to go back to the Northeast this year, so Wu Liuyi resigned from his job as a security guard, and he could go home in two days after packing up his things.

Before leaving, they bid farewell to Cui Ning, and the three of them sat together for a potluck meal.The dishes were made by Wu Liuyi, and Shi Jin came up with the idea.

Wu Liuyi chuckled: "Mr. Cui, you're welcome, I was going out to eat, but my squad leader said that it's kind and simple at home, don't mind."

"It's still your squad leader who understands me. It doesn't matter what you eat. It's good to sit together and talk like this." Cui Ning felt a little emotional, "Once you leave, I will be left here alone, and life will be even more difficult. "

Shi Jin said: "Thanks to your care during this period of time in Beijing, we all remember in our hearts that next year you will come to the Northeast to play when you are free, and Liuyi and I will also show our friendship as landlords."

Cui Ning sighed: "It's been a long time since I lived in semi-recluse, and I'm somewhat resistant to the outside world. I'm afraid I won't be able to adapt and cause you trouble."

"No. You are a strong person. The self-isolation these years is just a hurdle in your heart. In fact, as long as you take this step, you will stand under the sun." When Shi Jin said this, his eyes were clear and pure Yes, it makes people feel that everything is full of hope.

Cui Ning nodded: "Thank you, Shi Jin, I have been lucky to know you two." Then he said with concern, "Your illness, you still need to take care of it when you go back, don't give up."

Shi Jin smiled heartlessly: "Anyway, we have to pass that test, the gate of life and death! I have long wanted to open it, and I am not afraid of death."

Cui Ning was startled when he heard that, and looked at Shi Jin helplessly: "Don't talk nonsense."

Wu Liu, who hadn't spoken for a long time, glanced at Shi Jin, choked up and complained, "He's always been like this."

The atmosphere is a bit stiff.Cui Ning quickly changed the subject: "We are about to part, I really want to give you something as a souvenir."

"That's great! Shall we make one of your paintings?" Wu Liuyi also wanted to quickly get rid of the sadness surging in his heart, so he continued following Cui Ning's topic.

Cui Ning shook his head, and smiled lonely: "It's best for me to draw him. I can't see anything else, and I never draw." He thought for a while and said, "I'll give you a picture."

The three of them went downstairs to Cui Ning's room. In the painting, the young boy smiled at them from different angles. His clear eyes were similar to Shi Jin's at certain moments, but Shi Jin's eyes were warmer than his. Always full of a feeling called compassion.

Cui Ning quickly cleared the table to create an open space, spread the rice paper and ground the ink, took out a brush from the pen holder, and began to write like a snake.Wu and Shi watched from the side, only felt that the brushwork was fluent and gentle, and the handwriting was clear and handsome, but they couldn't tell what was written.Shi Jin smiled and said nothing, how could Wu Liuyi hold back.

"What is this writing, Mr. Cui, please tell us rough people."

"Liu Yi, as a senior artist, I have to teach you, even if you don't understand, don't say it directly. Look more, talk less, like your monitor, if you don't know, you may think that he is hiding something, but in fact... "

Shi Jin smiled with white teeth: "Actually, he is also an amateur!"

Wu Liuyi laughed foolishly.

Cui Ning said: "This is cursive. I'll find out the feeling first, and you will understand when I officially write in a different font." Putting down the pen, rubbing his wrists, sighed, "I haven't practiced for a long time, and my hands are raw."

"Don't practice, I think your writing is quite good now." Wu Liuyi's eyes fell on those unintelligible words, "This is quite tiring."

Cui Ning laughed and said jokingly: "Young people, don't underestimate us as artists. Writing is a skill, just like your soldiers practicing sniping. The first thing is to be calm, and the second is to be strong. .”

It was the first time Wu Liuyi heard this novel statement, and he immediately became interested. "Then write it quickly, it's official."

Cui Ning pondered for a while, dipped the brush in ink, raised his wrist and picked up the pen, and he did it overnight.Wu and Shi looked at it again, and the font was much neater than the cursive just now.

"Life does not meet each other, but moves like participating in business. Tomorrow is separated by mountains, and the world is boundless."

Wu Liuyi read it softly, even though he was not highly educated, he could feel the melancholy in it.Cui Ning shook his head and sighed: "What's wrong with me, parting is imminent, writing such sad things. This doesn't count, rewrite and rewrite." As if to throw the newly written work into the wastebasket, Shi Jin stopped him: " Don't throw it away, I think it's fine, that's it." Cui Ning thought for a while, then smiled: "Okay."

Regarding this painting, Cui Ning mentioned it to Wu Liuyi a long time later, when there was no Shi Jin in this world.Cui Ning said that it was originally a poem with one line at the beginning and one line at the end. It was not a complete poem, but it told the whole life.Life and death are boundless, love and hate are involved in business, the pain of falling in love and not being able to stay together is nothing more than that.

The Spring Festival is getting closer and closer. Shi Jin said that he wanted to go back to the Northeast on New Year’s Eve, so Wu Liuyi specially spent a few days to accompany Shi Jin through the streets and alleys of Beijing, day and night, to make a final speech to the city farewell.Those heavy traffic, those colorful streamers, those cold concrete buildings and fiery hearts, those gains and losses, laughter and tears, and that person who will never be forgotten in this life will all be sealed up and become a memory from now on.Goodbye Beijing.

Goodbye means never seeing each other again, and Shi Jin even tossed and turned until he lost sleep.But the turntable of fate kept spinning, everything was already doomed, and he was doomed not to be able to leave quietly.

Only follow the arrangements of fate.

In an empty room, with two large suitcases, Shi Jin and Wu Liu looked at each other with emotion.Wu Liuyi asked, do you regret it?Shi Jin said he has no regrets.Cui Ning reminded him that he would not be able to catch up with the train any longer.Shi Jin took a deep breath and said, let's go.

Just then Wu Liuyi's cell phone rang.

Wu Liuyi almost looked angrily at the word "Company Commander" displayed on the screen, and then reluctantly picked it up.

"Hey, Captain." He tried to keep his voice as calm as possible.

"Wu Liuyi, you kid resigned and didn't tell me!" Gao Cheng's tone was not so much blame as it could be understood as kindness, "Did you deliberately hide it from me?"

"...how can it be, company commander." Wu Liuyi chuckled twice, his expression was uglier than crying.

"Have you found a good job? Being a security guard is not suitable for you."

"Not yet. I plan to look for it after a year."

"Ah?" Gao Cheng's voice obviously paused, as if he was thinking about why you resigned if you didn't find a good job.

"Well, company commander, what's the matter?" Wu Liuyi glanced at Shi Jin, trying to calm down his guilt.Looking for a job after the new year is just an excuse, and it is true not to come back.

"Invite you to dinner, and Shi Jin, all the bastards of Qilian who can be contacted, one counts as one, and we will have a party a year ago." When Qilian Gaocheng was mentioned, he immediately became excited, with a little joy, as if he had turned back into The monkey jumping high in the sun.In the end, I still didn’t forget to emphasize, “Well, Shi Jin must come. In the past, so many parties disappeared, and everyone has opinions.” It really passed into Shi Jin's ears.

Wu Liuyi was silent, and at the same time glanced at Shi Jin again, which meant that you would give me a letter whether to go or not.

Shi Jin bit his lip, his bloodless face was almost transparent under the sunlight.

"Wu Liuyi, talk, is Shi Jin with you?" Gao Cheng became anxious.

Wu Liuyi simply shoved the phone into Shi Jin's hand, looked at his monitor with a look of pleading for help, and cursed in his heart what a fucking injustice it was.

"Wu Liuyi! Wu Liuyi!!" The decibels of the voice increased rapidly.

Shi Jin slowly put the mobile phone close to his ear, the sound made his brain buzz, and with the roar in that person's heart, he said softly: "Company commander..."

There was only one sound, and there was no sound in the receiver in an instant.Like a bullet piercing through the heart, there was a long-lasting dull pain.Gao Cheng couldn't recover for a long time, there was cold liquid sliding across his cheeks, and he knew he was crying.

Gao Cheng is not a person who loves to cry, but every time he thinks of Shi Jin recently, he feels that he is being overwhelmed by a huge sadness. For some reason, he just wants to cry.Maybe the pressure is too much... The relationship between him and his wife has cracked. Although the two are trying their best to maintain it, some things can't go back to the past after all.

Since that failed rape, Gao Cheng has slept in the study every night.Once when I woke up at night, I saw Ji Rou standing at the door, looking at herself with tears in my eyes.She said: "I don't care if you have someone else in your heart, please don't get a divorce?" Gao Cheng didn't answer, he didn't know what to say, he just felt owed.

"Today..." Gao Cheng called out the name he had been thinking about, and felt his body trembling at the same time, so he couldn't say anything.Fortunately, Shi Jin spoke up in time: "I really miss my brothers. I haven't seen you for many years. Don't worry, Company Commander. Liuyi and I will definitely be there."

"Damn it!" Wu Liuyi put his hands on his hips and couldn't help rolling his eyes.

"Ah, good, that's great." Gao Cheng didn't hear Wu Liu's cursing in a low voice, so he suppressed his emotions, calmly said the time and place of the meeting, and finally emphasized, "today You have to keep your word, you must come."

"Well, definitely."

"Then I'll hang up first."

"Goodbye, company commander."

There was a beeping blind tone on the phone, and the calm that Shi Jin had tried his best to maintain completely collapsed in an instant.Slowly sat down on the sofa, his body sank into the soft backrest, his face was unprecedentedly pale.Wu Liuyi sat down beside him helplessly, holding the cold hand with his warm hand, which made Shi Jin feel a little comfort in a trance.