inexhaustible

I have also thought about the circumstances under which I would bare my body to others frankly and unreservedly.At the time, I had given up hope of ever finding someone else in my life, which, I thought, would only happen if necessary medical treatment was given.

If calculated according to the global average life expectancy of human beings, one-third of my life has passed. In the eyes of most people, it is time to recognize the reality, be down-to-earth, and not extravagantly seek love.Therefore, even though I know that theoretically if there is a "true love", I should let him down and not be afraid to show him my true self, but I still feel that this possibility is very small, so small that it is infinitely close to a miracle.

I never expected that such a thing that even I thought would never happen unless a miracle happened... just happened.

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We stayed in bed for a long time, just hugging each other, breathing quietly, enjoying the tender moment after indulgence.

If it wasn't for the protest of my stomach's hunger, this state might have lasted longer.

After ordering takeaway with his mobile phone, Shang Muxiao carried me to the bathroom.

"On the day of the wedding, Yin Nuo told me about the bet." I still didn't understand one thing, "Why didn't you explain it?"

Although he explained that the bet still exists and cannot disappear, there is still a big difference between "cancelled halfway" and "continued until I find out".

Although I still feel disrespected for the former, at least I will not be like the latter, mistakenly thinking that I am hot from the beginning to the end, and the other party has no sincerity at all.

"I said it, because I was so angry." Shang Muxiao curled his lips and said, "I wanted to explain, but when I saw you coming back with that perverted veterinarian, I couldn't take it anymore."

It turned out to be so...

"I just met him on the plane. He dropped me off and asked me to borrow a record..." Then he bumped into me.

"He just has bad intentions." Shang Muxiao snorted coldly.

"I didn't know he was so nasty." Fortunately, after the police warned him, he was so scared that he never contacted me again, and even Yu Xixi was refused by him.For this reason, Yu Xixi also specifically complained to me about whether there was something wrong with He Weizhou, and somehow pulled black people.

With the help of Shang Muxiao, I took a shower and ate the takeaway he ordered. He wanted to stay with me, but I refused.

"Why?" He frowned.

"Because my exoskeleton is about to run out of power." I was a little thankful that I didn't feel the lower body, otherwise I would be so sore that I couldn't walk right now.

I leaned on crutches and got up to leave, but Shang Muxiao grabbed the hem of my clothes.

"I can help you take it back and charge it, and bring it back tomorrow morning."

I thought for a while: "No."

The charging device of the exoskeleton equipment is not small, it is fixed on the wall, and it is difficult to carry. This makes me, like "Cinderella", have to go home when the time is full, otherwise the magic will fail and I will be beaten back to my original shape.

He frowned even tighter: "You don't want to stay with me?"

I glanced at his lower body and sighed.It's not that I don't want to, it's that my body can't bear it.

"Let me have a good rest, I still have class tomorrow."

He didn't look very happy, the corners of his mouth drooping.

"Good boy." I touched his cheek and comforted him, "I'll be with you on weekends."

He looked at me for a while, held my hand, kissed the back of my hand, and then didn't let go.

"Then I'll take you back." He stood up, took my hand and shook it gently.

I followed him and walked to the door hand in hand with him like this.

Before he went out, he thought of something, let go of me and ran back, hugging the drowsy egg yolk on the carpet.

"I haven't walked it today." Shang Muxiao held the egg yolk in one hand, and continued to hold my hand when he came back.

It's not that I didn't meet anyone in the elevator, but Shang Muxiao never let go of my hand.

I originally wanted to walk the dog with him, but he was afraid that I would suddenly lose power and fall like last time, so he insisted on taking me home first.

It was delivered directly to the door of the house, and I suddenly felt a little bit reluctant, so I asked him if he wanted to come in and sit for a while.

He shook his head, he couldn't say anything, he was afraid that if he sat down, he wouldn't want to leave.But after finishing speaking, I stood in the door, he stood outside the door, and no one moved.

"Teacher, give me a goodbyekiss." He pointed to his cheek and said.

I leaned over, hooked Shang Muxiao's neck, and kissed him lightly on the lips.

"Good night," I said, "see you tomorrow."

In the eyes of extreme pessimists like Schopenhauer, happiness and joy are like mirages that can only be seen from a distance.Once approached, everything will dissipate.

I used to have similar thoughts, but my happiness and happiness are stars in the sky. Although they are not illusory, they are also out of reach for me, too difficult to possess.

And now, a star came to me by itself, so dazzling, so warm, so fascinated me.I just discovered that my pessimism can only be called "Schrödinger's pessimism".Maybe there has never been a pessimism that lasts until death in this world, but it's just that... I haven't met my own star.