flustered night talk

what do you think?the doctor asked.

I didn't kill them.I said.

No one said you did it, I just want to help you.the doctor said with a smile.

Will you erase my memory again?I asked coldly.

I never did that, it's your choice to forget.said the doctor gently.

The first time I saw you, you were also sad. At that time, you lost your parents and were abused. You imagined that someone would save you, so you had hallucinations.Hallucinations relieve your pain, but they don't change your status quo.The doctor said.

Your smile was the same then as it is now, and no one understands your pain, because no one can really understand the pain of others.The doctor said.

I'm very sorry.The doctor said.

You said the same thing last time, and I was still moved.I said coldly.

I didn't realize then that you suspected me of killing my guardian.If Yin Feng hadn't been present when he died, you would think I killed him.I said.

That's what you say boys don't exist.The doctor said.

He exists, I finally see him, he is my brother, we are twins.He died at birth without even having a name.But even so, he grew up with me.Now that he's really dead, he won't be in my life again and I've lost him forever.I looked at the doctor, who was staring straight at me and didn't speak.

You look at me like I'm a madman.I said.

I was just shocked, that's all.He said.

Our conversation was quickly over.I stood by the window, and my uncle and aunt were waiting outside the door.The doctor went to see them soon, and soon the aunt's cry was heard.

So I knew I couldn't get out.Through the bars, I saw my whole life, but I no longer feel sad at this moment.

Every day, I hold a book and sit on a deck chair on the grass, quietly waiting for the time to pass by me. The books have become decorations.My heart is very peaceful, I haven't dreamed for a long time, and those sad stories are getting farther and farther away from me.Sometimes I even doubt whether I have really been to such a place, made such a group of friends, and lost such a group of people.

Forget-me-nots are already in full bloom in the garden, and when I see them, I know a familiar friend is back.

I stroked the petals gently, and finally felt the coolness of the petals.

If you like, I can give you one.His voice rang behind his ears.

I thought you weren't coming back.He said.He looked at me and couldn't help sighing after a while.

That boy is gone, he was always with you before, I thought he would never leave you, never.He said.

he died.I said softly.

oh.He just groaned softly.

Losing a loved one is painful.He said.

What is yours is never lost.You told me that last time, but I lost my brother after all.I say sadly.

And you?I remembered his story.

Did you find that girl at last?I asked.

He nodded.

Found, she is free.he said with a smile.

I am a teacher now, I often come to do volunteer work, and there will be many opportunities to meet in the future.He said.

If there is anything you cannot tell the doctor, you can tell me, and I promise to listen patiently and not doubt the truth of those questions.He said.