hell cycle

Let the ugly words come first, the ABO setting in this article, don't like to get into it by mistake!

And, now I write fans basically: don't ask me when I will update, I don't know when I will update the next chapter, don't ask me when I will end, I don't know when I will end, don't ask me if I will Will cheat, I don't know if I will cheat, that's it.

Do this mentally and prepare to enter the pit.

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Mingcheng has actually been Ah Cheng eighteen times.

These words may be a bit incomprehensible to people, but for Mingcheng, he has repeated this incomprehensible life eighteen times.

In the first life, he died at the hands of his adoptive mother.

At that time, he was still too young to understand why his adoptive mother, who had always loved him so much, suddenly went crazy, beat him and abused him, and finally strangled him by the neck.

Suffocating to death is really not a good experience. The feeling of being out of breath, blood unable to flow and gradually blackening before the eyes is extremely terrifying.

In the first life, he died in this horror.

In the second world, when he opened his eyes, he was in the orphanage and was being handed over to her adoptive mother. He was crying and making noises, but it was useless. He was too young at that time, no one would care about him thoughts of his will.

For the next few years, he was trembling, always on guard against the sudden change of face of his adoptive mother who seemed to love him so much, and he couldn't help but try to remember all the time, how did he provoke his adoptive mother? Not fast?Where did he go wrong?Then, he couldn't restrain himself and desperately tried to please his adoptive mother, doing all the things the adoptive mother ordered and what the adoptive mother did not order, reading, reading, cleaning the room, so that the adoptive mother could see a clean and comfortable room when she came back from working all day. room, act like a baby and try to get close to the adoptive mother.

But it was useless, all efforts were useless, and that day still came.

The adoptive mother suddenly turned her face, and then he died in a dark and cold suffocation.

In the third life, he finally understood that no matter how hard he tried to please his adoptive mother, her adoptive mother would not show mercy to him, so he began to pay attention to the surrounding environment, and he began to try to ask for help.Then he noticed that his adoptive mother was working in a family named Ming, and was called Aunt Gui by the young master and young lady of that family. In his young cognition, he could be called by his adoptive mother as young master and young lady and serve people. They must be people who are more powerful than the adoptive mother, and they must be the ones who can order the adoptive mother, so he began to do everything possible to make these two people remember him.

For example, if the adoptive mother left something at home, he ran to Ming's house to deliver things to the adoptive mother, such as preparing a meal and delivering it to the adoptive mother at noon.

He will always remember that it was the third time he found an opportunity to go to the Ming family, and then he saw the young master of the Ming family for the first time, the Ming family who wore bright clothes that he had never seen in his short life. Young master, walking down the stairs, looking at him being brought into the house by the servant, when the servant beside him introduced, "This is Aunt Gui's adopted son, who came to deliver meals to Aunt Gui", the face of the eldest young master of the Ming family smile on the face.

The young master of the Ming family smiled and looked at himself who was struggling to stand up because he was dragging a food box that was obviously too huge compared to his young body, and said with a smile: "What a filial child, Aunt Gui will be blessed in the future. "

In this life, he did not die at the hands of his adoptive mother.

In an "accident", the young master of the Ming family accidentally discovered the injury on his body, and when his adoptive mother beat him up and locked him in the house, the young master of the Ming family and the young lady of the Ming family came to him saved.

Then he lived in the Ming family as a servant.

Just an ordinary servant, earnestly sweeping the floor, mopping the floor, cooking, and doing everything a male servant can do. He never slackens, plays tricks, and makes small moves. Although it is hard work, he is very happy because it is his first time. He can grow up, he is full of expectations, maybe he can save enough money to marry a wife and have a child in the future.

But everything came to an abrupt end one night. That night, someone broke into the Ming family's mansion.

The young master and the young master protected the young lady of the Ming family and evacuated, but he was hit in the temple by a strafing gun, killing him with a single shot.

At the moment of death, he saw the leader of the group. It was a woman he knew. It was said that she was Wang Manchun, the eldest lady of the Wang family who had been in love with the young master.

Wang Manchun raised his gun and fired, which was the last scene he saw before his death in this life.

Then he died.

Thus ended the sad life of a lowly servant.

In the fourth life, the moment he opened his eyes, he made up his mind that in this life he would never be a person at the mercy of others, a passer-by who would have no pity when he died.

Originally, he felt very happy to be able to have a safe and secure meal, and to be a servant with a place to live and a salary, he was very satisfied, but being slaughtered like a dog like that, he was angry !He is not reconciled!

The people who treat him best in this life are the young master and young miss of the Ming family, but will they shed tears for a servant?Will they remember his name?

he does not know.

Oh, I forgot to mention that the eldest young master of the Ming family is called Ming Lou, the young lady is called Ming Jing, and the Ming family also has an adopted young master named Ming Tai.

What about him?

His adoptive mother named him Ah Cheng.

He doesn't have a surname, so he has always been called Ah Cheng.

I don't know what name was written on his tombstone in the last life, could it just be the word Ah Cheng?

He didn't want to live like this anymore, so he often went to Mingfu before his adoptive mother started to turn against her, and used some seemingly "childish" innocent words and actions to win Minglou's attention. Minglou was reading a book, Minglou was very happy to see him coming and called him: "Ah Cheng? Come to deliver food to Aunt Gui? You, you are too filial, um, because you dislike our Ming family's food is not delicious Are you hungry, Aunt Gui?"

It’s not the first time Minglou teased him by saying this. The last time, last time he said it, I don’t remember exactly, but it probably means that it’s not that Ming’s food is not good, but that he wants to give it to his mother. Let's deliver food.

This time, he didn't speak like that. He looked at Minglou with his wet eyes open, and then his mouth shrunk, and big drops of tears began to fall down. This made Minglou panic, and hurriedly said: "Why? Cried?"

Minglou put down the book in his hand and walked quickly to his side, saying, "Why are you crying? This is it."

He looked at Minglou with his eyes open and said, "Don't fire mom."

Minglou didn't know why, so he asked, "When did I say I was going to fire Aunt Gui?"

He looked at Minglou with red eyes and said, "If you don't give food, you will be fired, right?"

Minglou smiled, rubbed his head, and said, "You boy, it's really... Don't worry, I didn't mean that."

He looked at Minglou timidly, and said, "Really?"

Minglou knelt down, stretched out his little finger and said, "Lagou, it's the puppy who lied."

He smiled through tears, stretched out his little finger and pulled the hook with Ming Lou.

He smiled happily, and in his heart, the unwilling soul of Ah Cheng was "watching" this scene with a sneer, and said in his heart: Ah Cheng, you really did not work in vain, you really know how to act!

Minglou saw that he smiled, and laughed too. Seeing his eyes move to the book he had just put down, he smiled and said, "Want to read? Want to read? Okay, I'll teach you."

That was the first time Minglou taught him how to read.

In this life, when he was rescued by Minglou and Mingjing, he didn't timidly hold his arms and huddle into a ball and cry. He was handed over to the care of other servants.

In the middle of the night, he secretly ran to the door of Minglou's room and curled up. When Minglou opened the door and saw him, he pretended to wake up and looked timidly at Minglou with wet eyes. Then he slept in Minglou's room. , until he came of age.

He puts his heart into doing all the things that Minglou taught him, figuring out all of Minglou's needs like he was figuring out his adoptive mother. This is actually easier than imagined, because in his last life, he has done more than a dozen tasks in the Ming family. year's servant.

Then he achieved the highest position among the servants of the Ming family - butler, and he became Minglou's right-hand man.

But everything has changed, from the time when Minglou went out to study without bringing him with him, and when Minglou came back again, he could no longer see the transparent building so easily, he no longer understood Minglou's needs, and he also began to He realized that Minglou was avoiding him.

Afraid of losing his status, losing everything, turning back to an ordinary servant, being slaughtered like a dog in his previous life, and then he made a wrong decision-to join the Japanese.

Then, he and his adoptive mother, the person he hated the most, formed a pair of traitor mother and son.

He remembered that before he and Minglou completely turned their heads, Minglou looked at him with such burning anger in his eyes, and asked him: "You grew up in the Ming family, drank the water from the Ming family and ate the food from the Ming family, how could the Ming family forgive you?" , you want to betray the Ming family?"

How did he answer Minglou?

He erupted, and the negative emotions accumulated in several lifetimes erupted. He roared angrily and crazily: "Where are you sorry for me? I am just a servant in the Ming family! I don't want to be a servant forever!"

Minglou seemed to understand, understood his anger and unwillingness, and then Minglou, who has always been invisible to others, smiled wryly: "After so many years, I can see your dedication and hard work, if you don't want to stay in Ming's house again Now, I can let you go, and I can forgive you for betraying the Ming family, but I can't forgive you for treason and being a traitor. You are from the Ming family and I raised you, so I should clean up the family."

He died a miserable death, Ming Lou killed it with his own hands, Ming Lou was Ming Lou after all, no one knew that he, a pampered young master, was so good at being an economist.

After all, he knew too little about Minglou, so he died, killed by Minglou himself, and finally lay in an abandoned warehouse without a body collector.

In the fifth life, he learned a lesson. He knew that the tacit understanding between him and Minglou did not start when Minglou went out to study. He knew that Minglou suddenly had many secrets, which were suddenly invisible to others. Well, all the changes started at that time, so he escaped from home, secretly followed Minglou, booked a train ticket on the same train as Minglou, and then he knew everything, why Minglou was in After going out to study, there was a barrier between him and him, like wearing a mask, so that he could no longer see clearly.

Because Minglou joined GD.

Standing there, looking at everything, he finally became a little timid, because he suddenly discovered that everything was no longer his small world, his small wish, his small unwillingness, and there was a wider world in Minglou's heart. ——Family, country and world.

At that time, he, the self who was only thinking about how to survive from the abuse of his adoptive mother and how to live a better self even after the fifth life, never thought about something broader, this is the relationship between him and Minglou. Different, he never thought of it before, this big difference is so scary.

He flinched and didn't catch up, and for the rest of his life, he was still a servant, even though he was the highest-ranking butler among the servants.

After all, there is a layer of separation between him and Minglou, which stems from his hesitation at the moment when he was able to catch up.

He didn't betray Minglou, he betrayed the Ming family, betrayal also requires capital, the relationship is not close enough, if you want to betray and sell, you can't sell it, and besides, he was slaughtered by Minglou once because of his identity as a traitor. I don't want to be slaughtered a second time.

In this life, he died safely. The Ming family went to Taiwan with his family 49 years later. He guessed that Minglou was still carrying the mission of GD behind his back, but he had no chance to confirm his guess at that time, and he stayed in the mainland.

And finally, a person like him is destined not to have a good time in this period. In fact, how many people had a good time in that period, so even if he was crippled in that period, he was still lucky Yes, because many people lost their lives in that era.

After the 80s, the Ming family returned to invest in China as a representative of Chinese businessmen, and the local ZF leaders came forward to receive them. Looking at the graceful Minglou and the graceful and luxurious mirror even though his hair was white, he stood there with a lame leg, far away. Looking at the busy and noisy people in front of the restaurant, they finally turned around and left with their lame leg.

He has always been celibate, and with his status, no one wants to marry him.

He died shortly after seeing Minglou and Mingjing for the last time.

In the sixth life, he bravely took a step that he was too timid to take in the previous life, and walked down with Ming Lou.

In Frunze he learned many things, many things that should not be learned by a subordinate, such as killing people, such as wiretapping, such as shooting... He learned everything an agent should know, and suffered a lot, but he feel worth it.

When he returned to Minglou, they knew each other's identities, and he stepped into the most real world of Minglou, and then he knew that Mingtai also knew Minglou's true identity later, and under the guidance of Minglou, he also Entered GD.

Then he couldn't help being jealous, crazy jealous.

He couldn't help but kept thinking about the previous lives. He was brought up by Minglou, and he was closer to Minglou than Mingtai, but in the end he could only be a housekeeper and a servant. Minglou, and Mingtai can enter the world of Minglou, and belongs to the same organization as Minglou.

What determines the difference between him and Ming Tai?What makes Mingtai become the protagonist of everything without much effort?What made Mingtai enjoy the love of Minglou and Mingjing so naturally?What allows Mingtai to get everything without having to pay the lessons of blood and tears of constant reincarnation and death like him?

Is it by birth?Because Mingtai is the child of the benefactor who saved Minglou and Mingjing, and he is just a mentally ill servant.

In previous lifetimes, during the last few years of the Anti-Japanese War, did Minglou and Mingtai depend on each other?After all, their identities determine that even in front of the mirror, many things cannot be said, but they can talk to each other and rely on each other.

Although he knew that in this hell-like reincarnation of repeated lives, only he was awake, and the others were brand new and never repeated lives.In other words, his imaginary scene of Mingtai accompanying Minglou to the end has not yet happened, but he is still jealous.

Because of Mingtai, in this life, they had a rift, because he was jealous of Mingtai, he did some things badly, or did not act intentionally or unintentionally, and then Mingtai died, his identity was exposed and died in the siege of the Japanese under.

Ming Jing almost went crazy, but when he knew that Ming Tai could have survived but his chance of surviving was ruined because of his intentional or unintentional mistakes, Ming Jing pointed at his nose and cursed: "Get lost! The Ming family doesn't have a child like you ! My mirror does not recognize you as a younger brother!"

Forgot to mention, at this time he is no longer called Ah Cheng, he is called Ming Cheng, and his identity is no longer just a servant, he has advanced to the younger brother of Minglou and Mingjing.

Mingtai's death made Mingjing anxious about him, and Minglou also had a estrangement from him. Later, after the end of the Anti-Japanese War, Minglou took the initiative to recommend him to his superiors to let him serve in the government. The wish to be fulfilled - to stand out from the crowd and be a master, holding power and majesty.

However, all of a sudden, it seemed that all this lost its attractiveness. He left Minglou, left Ming's house, left this home that he was jealous of and longed for, lost his soul, and seemed to have lost the motivation to continue fighting.

Then he understood that he would lose in the end. If he lost to Mingtai, he could get a high official and rich salary, but even if he had reincarnated six times like hell, the one everyone loves the most is still the young master of the Ming family. And he Mingcheng is just a dispensable existence.

He didn't want that.

Then intentionally, in another action, he could have dodged the bullet, but he paused for a moment and didn't move, letting the bullet pass through his heart.

He died, or one could say committed suicide.

Of course, when he was dead, he couldn't see Minglou's instantly pale face when he received the news of his death, the momentary panic on his eternally calm face, and the almost collapsed expression when he went to the morgue to examine his body.

He also didn't see Ming Jing's tear-stained face when he saw his body, crying and pawing his body and saying, "Ah Cheng, sister is angry at you for killing Mingtai, but sister doesn't want you to die! I sent Mingtai away, why should I send you away again!"

In the seventh world, he began to think about how to treat Mingtai in order to cure this kid.

Well, he came up with a way - since Minglou and Mingjing both love Mingtai, I want Mingtai to be afraid that I will value me more than Minglou and Mingjing, won't this create a food chain?

This method was very successful. He used both hard and soft tactics against Mingtai, making Mingtai, who was spoiled by Mingjing so lawless, afraid of him and getting close to him. Sometimes Mingjing really couldn't control Mingtai and would ask him for help. I didn't even notice the jealousy of Mingtai in his heart, but sometimes he would say with gusto: "You, big sister, one or two, you know how to spoil Mingtai, and spoil him so shamelessly." Already!"

This life should have had a good ending, but unfortunately he accidentally died again.

The Japanese killed him during the mission.

Well, when he got here, he, who had been a traitor for fame and fortune, already hated the Japanese to death.

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He reincarnated life after life, constantly trying to achieve his unfulfilled wish, and every time he made a different choice, it seemed that the development of many things turned in a different direction.

In several reincarnations, both he and the Ming family had achieved good results, but there were always some regrets.

In No.17 reincarnation, he and Minglou's family died in the United States. Both Mingtai and Minglou got married again and had children, but he was still single. Minglou, full of children and grandchildren, looked at the children playing and running outside the window. He said, "It's time for you to start a family too."

He looked at Minglou with a glass of red wine, his eyes were dark and deep.

He was thinking, life after life, I always revolved around you in the hellish cycle, but why didn't you, Minglou, circle me once like I circled you?Why do you always have so many things in your heart, I have paid so much and such a big price, why is it still so unimportant in your Minglou's heart.

Not only did I lose to my family, country, and world, I also lost to many things, such as Mingjing, Mingtai,...even Wang Manchun.

Can there be a time when I am more important than anything else, can there be a time when I desperately fight for it, use the bloody experience and lessons gained from hellish reincarnation to fight for it, and what I get in return is to surpass everything I am important, in anyone's heart, even if it is not Minglou, can there be someone who regards me as the most important person, instead of always being the second, third, or even fourth, fifth, and sixth The presence.

Fortunately, he still has many opportunities.

No. 18th, when he opened his eyes, he thought, maybe he can try hard to be the most important person in Minglou's heart. It's all about human effort, and he has a lot of time, doesn't he?

In fact, if Mingcheng can slow down, he will find that many things are not the same as he thought, but maybe it is because he has repeated it eighteen times. He has done it eighteen times, and he is too familiar, like a person. I walk across a street every day to go to work. I pass by in a hurry because I am too familiar with it. I often don’t notice whether there are new street lights or new vendors setting up stalls on this street.

Ignore it because it is too familiar.

So Ah Cheng didn't notice that in the fourth generation, the cook in the orphanage he was in changed. It wasn't that the original fat man became a widow with a son. The appearance of the orphanage in the fifth generation changed somewhat. Because the designers were different when it was built, how many important government officials of the Chongqing government at that time in the sixth century changed, how many did not defected as traitors, and how many did not defect originally , but betrayed.

Some of these changes are big, and some are small. When Ah Cheng makes different choices every time, different changes happen, some of which he is aware of, and some he does not. He just thinks that some people are just like him in every life. Made a few different decisions, so some things changed and some didn't.

He didn't care, just like he didn't care about the newspaper's headline editorial the day he was picked up by his adoptive mother again: "The impact of imperialist cultural invasion on young people-alpha? beta? omega? "Actually, he should really take a good look at it.

The author has something to say:

Well, this is the stalk I dreamed about the day before yesterday.

Recently, Meng Loucheng felt that the two of them were too sweet, and the order was too full. I went to find the article and found it unsatisfactory, because the official is too sweet, and the daily life, interaction, and plot are all too full, resulting in Fanrenwen has almost nothing to write about the big plot, unless it is empty. A few days ago, while watching the drama, I thought about it. Lou Cheng would write either dark or sadistic or empty, but even if he wrote it like this, he couldn’t think of anything good. The ideas can be integrated and written smoothly, and the officials are forced to die together!Then that day I was dizzy and dizzy when I made up the drama (updating at [-] o’clock every night is really painful), I fell down in a daze and wanted to sleep, half dreaming and half awake, suddenly this idea popped up in my mind, and I have been hesitating whether to write it or not. , the last Mid-Autumn Festival holiday, free, so I wrote.

But, well, be cautious when entering the pit, which means that you may not end the pit.

I also slightly corrected the typo, and enriched some content that I felt too tired to fill in yesterday.

By the way, I forgot to explain, that is, Ah Cheng thinks that he is repeating the same life over and over again, but in fact he is constantly traveling through parallel worlds, each parallel world is different, big or small, but he is a little aware of it and some is not. , but this time the parallel world he traveled through was a bit different.

That's it.