They are all men, what are you afraid of?

Li Xi took a sip of beer, it was so cold, it was like the wine he and his buddies in the dormitory in the class slipped out of school to drink that night, the difference is that he feels very refreshed now, but he drank it that day serious cold.

"That's it, it doesn't seem to be anything special." Chang Jiafei said with some disappointment.

"It's really nothing special, it's just that the feeling will be very deep after personal experience." Looking at Chang Jiafei's expression, Li Xi couldn't help but find it funny, could it be so loud and earth-shattering?

"Then why do you like him?" Chang Jiafei looked curious about the baby.

Li Xi is immediately happy now, if he likes it, he likes it, there is no reason, but think about it carefully, "Maybe it was love at first sight?" Although Li Xi also thinks this answer is nonsense, but his affection for Qu Zhe seems to be from the beginning. It started when they first met.

"It's love at first sight!" Chang Jiafei sighed inexplicably.

"Where is it?"

Chang Jiafei didn't answer, but asked: "Then what happened afterwards?"

"How can there be any later? Then there is no later, it's over before it even started." Thinking about it, Li Xi wondered why he was so cowardly at the beginning, and he took the lead in calling him Brother Li after being blinded by Scallion.

"How did that end?" Chang Jiafei turned into a curious baby again.

"Why do you have so many questions?"

Chang Jiafei blinked hurriedly, and after a while he still asked unwillingly: "But what's going on?"

"That night I said I was going to treat guests, and I took the people in our dormitory out of the campus to drink after I skipped the evening self-study. It's their business, so don't take anything that bothers me to heart. By the way, Scallion made a bet on him. Didn't he say that I was the top ten in the class and call me Brother Li? But he really called me that night. I was so happy that all the buddies in the dormitory yelled. And the way I drank that day shocked them all, so I kept yelling like that after that..."

"Brother Li, I got off topic." Li Xi was talking cheerfully, but Chang Jiafei interrupted him in time.

"Can't you let me have more happy memories?" Li Xi was a little dissatisfied, and then said: "Okay, let's talk about it later. Later, the news that I like Qu Zhe spread in the school, and then slowly appeared Some rumors, saying that it’s okay for me to have a puppy love, and I still like men, stealing other people’s boyfriends, etc., in short, it’s all kinds of rumors and gossips. The matter was quite big, and I almost didn’t get punished. Then Qu Zhe I went abroad, and Xia Yuan and I were no longer in the same class, and then I studied hard and made progress every day." Li Xi felt that the past was unreal, and almost forgot it, anyway, it was unbearable to recall, so Li Xi made a long story short Summarized in one go.

"This is too perfunctory."

"You can just listen, you can't keep letting me expose my scars!" Li Xi said half-jokingly.

"Since you have scars, can you still be with him now? Besides, that Xia Yuan also works in our company." Chang Jiafei couldn't help but add another sentence.

"In the final analysis, it is my own problem. At that time, I just felt that he didn't like me, so I was sorry for me, and I also blamed him for not even saying hello after he left. In fact, now that I think about it, I didn't even give him a chance to say goodbye. Li Xi just smiled when he thought about it now, "And he asked Qu Lian to give me a birthday present for my birthday in the summer vacation of the year he left. I thought it was from Qu Lian at the time, so I called Qu Lian to ask her It’s not a chicken, why did you give me a chicken tumbler? She hung up the phone before she could answer, and then called me after a while and said, ‘Didn’t you say today is your egg breaking day?’ I didn’t know about the gift In fact, it was given by Qu Zhe, because I only told him that, but he still remembered it."

As for Xia Yuan, I'm afraid that she had already worked in Jingyi Company when Qu Zhe was abroad. Not to mention that she and Qu Lian were still friends, but based on the friendship between the two of their predecessors, this job might have wronged her.But it doesn't matter, he won't be so cowardly this time, anyway, soldiers will block him, and water will cover him.

After Li Xi finished speaking, he waved his hand, and continued, "It's done, let's get down to business when we're done eating, and quickly pay the deposit to the landlord, so you can pack up and move here!"

"how about you?"

"What about me?" Li Xi was stunned for a moment before he realized, "It's nothing to do with me, of course I'm going home, you seem to be a slow-moving person who makes a decision quite simply, and it's done so quickly, I I almost thought that you specially invited me out for dinner, so I left."

After Li Xi left, Chang Jiafei stood there alone for a long time, he would have been pickier if he knew it earlier, and he could ask Rich to accompany him to look at the house.go home?He savored the word, he and Qu always live together, he just called it "home", Chang Jiafei, what else are you thinking?He shook his head and went to find the landlord.

After Li Xi went back, he lay down on the sofa boredly and pressed the remote control, the phone rang, and as soon as he picked it up, he heard his mother chattering over there: "Li Xi, what's the matter with you, you are on a business trip abroad What's the matter? It's been a long time since I didn't come back, are you crazy playing outside? You say you won't come back, and you don't have a phone call. I think I remembered it wrong. In fact, I don't have a son at all. "

Li Xi panicked when he heard this, he has been in Z city for so long, he is completely immersed in his love world, he has never been home on weekends, and he forgot to tell his mother.Even when Qu Zhe said he wanted to go home, why did he forget that he could go home too?Li Xi just wanted to scratch his own ears, and quickly explained: "No, um, mom, I changed jobs, no, and I can't say it's a job change, it's just a change of place of work, it's considered job hopping."

"Job-hopping? Where did you jump, and how soon can you quit? You're young and you're young, it's better to be steadfast, otherwise no company will be willing to employ you in the end." Li Ma said earnestly.

"I know, Mom. I'm not uneasy. Didn't I just happen to have a better opportunity to exercise? I did a good job in City Z, and I plan to work honestly here in the future."

"As long as you have a sense of your own affairs. You said that you haven't come back for such a long time, are you in love?" Li's mother asked with concern.

"I...I'm a little busy." Li Xi was surprised by his fucking intuition, and even he himself felt lame for lying for a while.

"What can you do when you just arrived at his company?" Li's mother obviously didn't believe it.

"This is not a new job or new environment. How familiar I am! Well, I'll go back later."

"Not busy now?" Li's mother teased, "Okay, I'll ask your dad to buy some food, and I'll make you some delicious food when I come back. Every time I come back, I feel hungry for hundreds of years."

"Hey, good." Li Xi smiled shyly.

After hanging up the phone, I immediately packed up and went home.

Just in time for lunch when he got home, his mother really made a big table of delicious food waiting for him!Li Xi washed his hands, and the family sat down to eat.But as he was eating, he felt something was wrong.

Li Xi stopped her chopsticks, raised her head to look at her mother and said, "Mom, just say what you want to say, you keep looking at me for a while and I can't eat well."

Li's mother was waiting for his words, but she still thought about it before asking: "Li Xi, did you change jobs because you were talking about friends, and didn't come back recently, is it also because of this?"

I have to say, his mother is his mother, just look at it!But what does Richie say?Although it is all true, it is not right to admit it now, nor is it not to admit it.

"mom……"

Seeing Li Xi's tangled look, Li's father said from the side: "Let the child have a good meal first when he comes back! If you have anything to say, you can talk about it after eating, you girls just can't hold your breath. Come on , son, eat first."

Li's mother didn't ask any more questions, but Li Xi couldn't eat anymore, he would have to talk about it sooner or later, if he hides now and eats in peace, his mother probably won't have an appetite.

"I'm full, let's talk now." Li Xi mustered up the courage and decided to confess.

"Look at you kid..." Papa Li looked at him and sighed as if he had guessed something.

"Dad, Mom," Li Xi glanced at them, both of them looked at him with concern, which made Li Xi feel a little unbearable, he always felt that the second elder shouldn't worry about him, but he really didn't The reason why he dragged on, "I'm in love, but... Actually, let's put it this way, you should remember what happened to me in high school. Although the school said in the end that rumors should be put an end to it, you probably know something It’s true that there’s no such thing as a storm, but you didn’t mention it so that I could study hard at that time. But I really... Although I didn’t realize the sexual orientation at that time, it was innate and I couldn’t change it. .”

Li's father tilted his head and didn't look at him, just sighed. Although Li's mother was a little surprised but more at a loss, she put down and picked up the chopsticks in her hand, and didn't know what to say for a while.

Although I don't want to continue, I still bite the bullet and continued: "I don't know how much you know about my situation, maybe you knew it from the beginning, but you just don't want to tell the truth, maybe you still have a glimmer of hope, hoping that I can find a girl to marry Give birth to a child and live a stable life." Li Xi paused when he said this, his Adam's apple moved, and continued with difficulty, "But, I think I really can't do it, I'm sorry, I... I'm sorry."

Li Xi didn't know what he had said, but he just said what he wanted to confess in his heart. He knew that he might disappoint his parents, but now he could only keep apologizing.

Papa Li couldn't take it anymore, turned around and went into the bedroom.Li's mother was stunned for a long time, then raised her head to look at Li Xi, she couldn't tell what emotion was in her eyes, she opened her mouth and didn't say anything, she also turned and went into the bedroom.

Li Xi looked at the closed door of his parents' bedroom, and then at the untouched sumptuous food on the table, he couldn't tell what it was like.After confessing, Li Xi didn't feel relaxed. His parents' reaction was much calmer than he imagined, but it didn't make him feel better at all.He stood up, cleaned the dining table mechanically, and then went back to his room, where he sat blankly.

The chaos in my mind was completely emptied, and I just sat there quietly.I don't know how long I've been sitting like this, but when Li Xi returned to his childhood, he glanced out the window, it was already dark, under the warm yellow light, three or five old people were sitting on the stone benches chatting and enjoying the cool air.

Li Xi came back and turned on the light, the bright white light hurt his eyes, and he turned it off, he lay down on the bed, thinking that it would be better than the street lamp outside the window, a little bit of light would make him feel more at ease.

This day is tiring enough, recalling so many past events, and having a showdown with my family, I feel a little depressed even with my emotions.In fact, this is not a big deal, the light ending he told Chang Jiafei later, in fact, was so heavy in his heart that he couldn't let it go, until now he dared to take advantage of the dark night and dim lights to carefully touch it that has been engraved on his heart for many years injury.

That night when he ran away with his buddies in the dormitory to drink outside the campus in a group, they were all very generous, yelling with him, drinking with him until the sky was dark, and drinking with him Crazy, that was the first time he felt so happy yet so depressed.Only Baozi has been silent by the side, neither participating nor persuading. He feels that Baozi understands him and he needs to vent.

Every time he drank a bottle of beer, he couldn't help mocking himself in his heart, what was he so hot about shaving his head, and he didn't even know whether he liked a man or a woman.He was so drunk that he almost smashed someone's stall, but he tried his best not to say a word. He was afraid that he would scare everyone by saying "Qu Zhe", so he could only vent by playing drunk.

What was Qu Zhe doing when he was screaming heart-piercingly and vomited upside down?He should have walked from their classroom to his own classroom, and then continued to help Xia Yuan with lectures and homework, but this time he will feel much more relaxed without himself being in the way!

It was the first time he got drunk that day, he was so drunk that he was completely broken, and it was already half an hour the next day when he regained his sobriety, but what awaited him was not the teacher's scolding, but the overwhelming rumors that spread quickly.He didn't see Qu Zhe again, and asked Baozi to ask for leave for him, and then went home.

During the period, Qu Zhe called him, but he didn't answer, and even rejected the calls from Baozi and Qu Lian. During that time, he lied and pretended to be sick and stayed at home like an ostrich.

Later, when he was about to graduate from high school, he found out from Baozi that if it wasn’t for the school’s punishment, which forced Qu Zhe to take it upon himself and leave the country, he wouldn’t even know how to go back to school, and during that time He was racking his brains trying to figure out why his parents would transfer him.

But after all, the paper can't cover the fire. I couldn't completely hide it from my parents a few years ago. There is no reason to hide it from them now. Even if I try to hide it now, there is no way to continue to hide it.

Li Xi didn't know if Qu Zhe liked him back then, and if so, how much he liked him, but at least he knew that Qu Zhe now liked him and could respond to him.