south shore corner

On New Year's Day, You Xian basically had nothing to do after finishing his postgraduate entrance examination, so Pang Qingyu took out four days off to go on a trip with You Xian.

"I bought two coats." Pang Qingyu showed the pictures to Pang Qingyu, "It will arrive tomorrow, our couple clothes. I checked the weather, Xi'an is colder than here, we wear long sleeves inside Just another sweater."

You Xian sat across the dining table and watched him smile, "Do you want to wear it out?"

"I think so~" Pang Qingyu replied

"Do you care about other people's eyes?" You Xian asked, taking a sip of his drink and biting the straw to look at him.

Pang Qingyu looked up at him, "Are you afraid?"

You Xian shook his head, all the efforts he has made are to get rid of gossip, whether it is studying hard, making friends, and finding a living environment that he likes more.

Pang Qingyu smiled and shook her head: "You are not afraid of anything I am afraid of...as long as you don't care...I..."

I can announce you to the whole world, and announce that the scumbag and the top student who have achieved nothing in the past are together. After 10 years of acquaintance, they finally get together.

But Pang Qingyu didn't dare to say these words.Afraid of frightening You Xian, he wanted to hold it in his palm, but it was unreal, and he was always afraid that it would break.

You Xian nodded, touched his hand, but said nothing.

"I...I want to make our relationship public." Pang Qingyu looked at You Xian, paying attention to his expression, "Is it okay?"

You Xian smiled, "Why do you have to ask me this?"

"I'm afraid you don't like this," he said.

You Xian looked at him with distressed eyes, "You are too careful, it will be too tiring."

Pang Qingyu shook her head: "I'm very happy, not tired~"

"Have you...announced your relationship before?" You Xian asked him, "On any software, your QQ has not been activated, and your WeChat has nothing, so have you announced it before?"

Pang Qingyu shook his head, then bowed his head again, he knew that You Xian was a person who valued emotions, he treated emotions very purely, love and friendship, there was a clear dividing line between right and wrong.

You Xian doesn't like ambiguous relationships, doesn't like insecure feelings, and doesn't want to think too much about it.

He seems to be very cold-blooded, but what he always does is the thing that can cause the least loss to himself and others.

He seems very sensible, but he actually fell in love with himself...

He seems to be very complicated, and he will never be able to figure out his thoughts and what he will say next, but his feelings are as clean as a piece of paper.

He once said: He still longs for love, but he still puts himself first, and loves others first and learns to love himself.

Pang Qingyu doesn't quite understand the full meaning of this, but she has regretted it many times. She shouldn't be so profligate, she shouldn't be able to control herself. It turns out that it's true that you love yourself first, but you don't know how to cherish yourself when you fall in love with him. I feel sorry for him even touching him.

Pang Qingyu is not lucky that he has not disclosed any relationship, because the other party is You Xian, and his thinking is avant-garde and limited.Whether this answer is satisfactory to You Xian, Pang Qingyu has no idea.

If you haven't disclosed your love affair, it may mean that you have not taken love seriously, so will You Xian think that you will do the same to him....

"I haven't announced my relationship..." Pang Qingyu said it anyway, he didn't dare to lie.

"Why? Are they not important or am I too important?" You Xian looked at Pang Qingyu without a smile in his eyes.

"I...I know you think that the feelings in a relationship must be enough to be together, but it is actually suitable...or...other reasons...you can also be together..." Pang Qingyu Said, "It's just... I haven't met enough to love each other before..."

You Xian nodded, and pounded the foam in the quilt with his hands, "How many people have you hurt!"

You Xian sneered, people who love and hate almost took half of his life...

Two days ago, You Xianzheng went to the bar where Pang Qingyu worked to pick him up. It was very late at night, after two o'clock in the morning, even the leaves on the road outside had rested, and the bar was still noisy.

You Xian seldom comes here, and basically waits outside for Pang Qingyu. Pang Qingyu drinks a lot of wine in order to accompany clients every night. His own stomach, Pang Qingyu will not come back drunk after drinking.

But today Pang Qingyu got into a fight because of a manager and a customer. As the boss, Pang Qingyu could only follow the customer's temper. Those who can go to the third floor to spend can't be provoked. They are not rich and love to play. Young masters and rich wives are old men who spend money without telling their big wives.

You Xian received a call from Ke Qi to pick up Pang Qingyu.

I went straight up to the third floor and entered private room 314 to find him. When I walked towards 314, I saw a scene outside the door.

A boy was talking to Pang Qingyu, crying and saying, You Xian couldn't hear clearly, "...please...love me...I'm not dating...clean... ..”

You Xian could only hear these in the loud music.

He didn't walk into the room at once, because the boy was crying very sadly, which he had never seen before. A man was squatting on the ground, holding someone else by the hand, looking at others beggingly, his face was full of tears, crying and discussing.

You Xian didn't know Pang Qingyu's love history, and he didn't want to face it and dare not look directly....

But today, he witnessed that the boy he likes may be liked and loved more by others than himself.

But no matter how much the boy squatting on the ground cried and begged, Pang Qingyu looked indifferent, and his face was extremely bad. You Xian had never seen Pang Qingyu with such an expression, so he didn't know whether he was relieved or sad for a while.

After hearing a few words, Pang Qingyu's face became more and more ugly, and she kicked the table away, pointed at the boy and cursed: "Who the hell do you think you are? You... think... that's it Well?...Just for fun...that's enough..."

After Pang Qingyu yelled, she closed her eyes and fell back on the sofa, talking non-stop, the boy's expression became more and more ugly, he didn't shed any tears, he held back his grievances, and looked unwilling to accept... ..

You Xian couldn't stand it anymore, as he said, he wanted to let him clean up the mess by himself, and he didn't want to take care of it at all.

He decided to go to the bathroom, maybe it will be dealt with later...

As soon as I came out of the bathroom, I ran into the boy just now. The boy was very cute.Yes, the word cute can be used to describe it, because it looks very milky and white, giving people a feeling of wanting to protect.

He pretended he didn't know anything and walked to the sink to wash his hands, and glanced at the boy who was trying to deswell his red eyes from crying out of the corner of his eye.

You Xian looked at him several times, and he couldn't stand it anymore, so he said to him: "Don't rub it with your hands, it will only make it redder and redder, just apply some cold water and it will be fine."

The boy gave him a thankful glance, tears were still in the corners of his eyes, after trying You Xian's method, he opened the tissue to see that You Xian was still by his side, and smiled at him to say thank you.

You Xian was stunned for a moment, and smiled back at him, "Never force yourself if it's not suitable, it's not necessarily the best. As a man, tears are always precious."

He said this just to comfort the boy, and wanted him to continue to live. No one can live without anyone. Excessive dependence and sloppy face are not the way of life that he likes. Love others first and love yourself.

The boy obviously reacted for a few seconds before saying to him: "So, it's you...I've seen your picture before, and I didn't recognize you if you weren't smiling..." The boy said with a smile, reluctantly The laugh, the sad laugh, the laugh that is about to collapse...

"It turns out...it's you...that prevents me from getting into his heart...I...I just said why it's so difficult...seeing you... ..seems to make sense again...." The boy still couldn't hold back his tears and looked up at him.

"... If you are really loved, you have nothing to fear... He actually said to me just now... He wants to live a clean life. It's ridiculous. Am I dirty? Am I dirty? Damn it So many years...."

"How many times have I been dumped by him in the middle, and how many times have I come to my room to beg for peace, I finally thought that he changed his mind and began to only fall in love with myself"

"...Thinking that he said that he likes me is sincere...but he said that he once wanted to have a good time with me, but he didn't have any passion, even his favorite kiss made him feel a little disgusted... ..."

The boy was crying and laughing, looking very embarrassed, "It's disgusting... anyone can say that about me, but he can't, but I have been with him for six years... Even a dog has a relationship... .”

"I envy you for making him feel at ease, but I also pity you for having such a boyfriend. He wants to find a clean person to get along with. You are indeed clean. You have a clean background, a clean appearance and an excellent education background. Enough for him to show it off..."

"It's a pity...it's a pity that he doesn't deserve it, you...you have to open your eyes to see clearly...what kind of man he is...you can't have a relationship in six years, it all depends on freshness Feeling maintained...." The boy patted You Xian on the shoulder: "...we look alike, don't you think?"

You Xian looked at the boy suspiciously, and the boy suddenly smiled and said, "He likes this kind of person, who looks cold but is actually very cute."

"I'm not related to being cute..." You Xian thought about his fierce face.

"That's what you think..." The boy washed his eyes with water again.

"Your eyes and mouth are very similar to mine, haven't you noticed?" The boy smiled and walked in front of You Xian.

"You...what are you trying to say?" You Xian looked down at him, the boy was much shorter than him, and to him he was a girl's height and build, a little shorter than Pang Qingyu.

"You want to say... I'm your substitute?" You Xian bent down slightly, in order to make eye contact with the boy.

The boy smiled and didn't speak.