glow boy

After reading the trip to Huangshan that you wrote yesterday, I couldn’t calm down at all. I opened the box you asked Xiaomei to give me, and looked at all the things related to me in your collection. Tears really couldn’t stop coming out. I thought , when my mother died, I had already shed all the tears in my life.

I have never opened this box since Xiaomei gave it to me. I dare not look at it. I am afraid that the more I look at it carefully, the more I will understand how deep your feelings for me are, and how deeply I hurt you. The possibility of you coming to me again is getting smaller and smaller, it's ridiculous, I actually hope that you didn't love me that much.

I saw a 13-year investigation and evidence collection letter of introduction, and you even kept this. I had too many things that day. Seeing that you were fine, I wanted you to help me check the basic information of a company and write that letter. When investigating the letter of introduction for evidence collection, I was suddenly under a lot of pressure, because your handwriting is being recognized as the best, so I really want to write beautifully and get your approval. It's ridiculous, I actually do this You really care about what you think of me. You must have seen through this point, so you secretly left this letter of introduction.As for the memory of that time, I only stopped at you telling me that you were fine in the afternoon, but it turned out that you deliberately made the person arrive an hour late in order to help me check the information. I was already very touched. I was so careful, I was shocked and scared, I actually hurt a person who cared so much for me.

I flipped through every photo you took of me. I never knew that someone had recorded my ordinary days so carefully. The year, month, day, hour and minute were written on the back of each photo.Me when playing cards, me when I'm working, me when I'm walking, me when I'm in the elevator, me when I'm taking pictures, me when I'm talking, me when I look up, me when I'm sleeping, me when I'm drinking, me when I'm singing ~~I have never seen so many different versions of myself.I laughed when I saw a Missing series in it. At that time, your mother was sick and hospitalized, and you didn’t come to the office for a week. Then, Xiaomei came to hang around my office door every time I had lunch that week. It's strange, I found out later that she was secretly taking pictures of me, and she was also very cute. During one of the pictures, she even forgot to turn off the flash. When there was a click, both Liu Hao and Wang Jun were stunned. Liu Hao: "What's going on? .”

Wang Jun: "I have to tell Yang Fan to your family."

Xiaomei didn't know what to do for a while, her face flushed, and she ran away. I was also taken aback at first, but then I understood.Afterwards, I have been waiting for her to take a picture of me again, and that one looks like a posed photo, it is the expression I have prepared a long time ago.

In fact, you don’t know, I also secretly took photos of you, but I don’t know if I have the chance to show you. When you sang, you liked to point out Lin Yilian’s scars. There is a sentence in it: "How ecstatic love is, just How hurtful, if you are brave enough to love, you must be brave enough to share." Can you not be so brave, can you be a little cowardly, can our love not be so ecstasy, so that it will not hurt so much.

When I was smoking a dull cigarette in the living room, Amu woke up and came out to look for me when he saw that I was not asleep.Seeing the photos on the table, I watched him wipe his eyes, light a cigarette, and stand in front of the French window with me.Don't you like floor-to-ceiling windows the most? I bought this house for you. I have imagined countless times that there is Leslie Cheung's vinyl record of Who Resonates in your favorite old-fashioned gramophone. I sit in front of the floor-to-ceiling windows with you, you Leaning my head on my shoulder, we watch the fireworks in the world together.

I want to find you, but I'm afraid, you really don't love me anymore, I'd rather live in fantasy, in the pain of thinking about you every day, than see the look in your eyes when you don't love me anymore.

Today, when I opened "Youzheng Law Firm", my heart was trembling, and I have to face the harm I have done to you.

The first New Year's celebration made Xia Tian feel so painful, because she would not see Cai Xinming for a long time, and while others were waiting for the joy of the Spring Festival, she was in anxiety.Parents have already called, urging her to go home early, but Xia Tian really wants to stay in Hangzhou for a few more days.

In the past few days, Cai Xinming has been busy socializing, preparing for the next year's business. In the lawyer industry, some socializing is necessary. Although this is also very painful for Cai Xinming, but people are in the arena and cannot help themselves. .

The time to go home in the summer is getting closer and closer. Every day at noon, people in the institute take turns inviting people to dinner. Today Xu Qiang is the host and brought his new girlfriend over. My friend still had short hair when he came to the clinic, why did he have long hair today."

Chen Cheng: "I thought I remembered it wrong, but it turned out not to be."

Zhang Xi: "What's so strange about this, it's very convenient for a barber shop to pick up hair."

Lin Dong: "No, but the girl who came to the office the day before yesterday had a square face, how can she have a melon face today."

Xu Qiang: "What are you putting P on?", and then said to his little girlfriend (Yuyou): "Yuyou, don't listen to their nonsense, they are not serious all day long."

Xia Tian: "Yuyou, you have to be careful, Xu Qiang can worry about the pervert No. 1."

Xiaomei: "Yes, that's not a good person."

Xu Qiang: "I knew I wouldn't bring it here for you to know, you bird people."

Yoyo (with an innocent face): "Since I choose to be with Xu Qiang, his past has nothing to do with me, I only care about his present and future."

Xu Qiang: "Did you hear that, did you hear that, what a girl, don't be scared away by you."

Yang Fang: "Yuyou, they were joking, Xu Qiang is still very good, and this year's lawyer business is also very good, I will remember everything."

Xu Qiang: "Sister Yang, you are the only good person in the entire Youzheng. I will treat you to dinner alone later."

Cai Xinming: "You invite Sister Yang to dinner alone, does Sister Yang dare to go?"

Xia Tian: "Hahaha, that's right, Youzheng Pervert No. 1."

While eating, Xia Tian noticed that Cai Xinming was very thoughtful, and he didn't know what was bothering him recently. If you don't observe him carefully, you can't see him at all. When he smiles, he knows that he is happy, coping, or resolving embarrassment. Cai Xinming's smile is not easy today. Most of the time, he is coping, and there must be something in his heart.

I'm going home tomorrow, Xia Tian was still a little worried, and at night, I thought, why not prepare a New Year's gift for Cai Xinming, at least it can make him happy.Xia Tian first went to the printing shop and printed a photo. This year, she thought Cai Xinming was the most handsome photo. Then she bought a notebook, which can be used tomorrow, and then bought a quick dove chocolate bar. When climbing the mountain, she observed Cai Xinming likes to eat chocolate.After everything was ready, I bought a gift box.After everything was prepared, I rushed to Youzheng early the next morning and put it in the second drawer of the office. In summer, I had something to do in the morning, and I had the ticket to go home in the afternoon.After doing things in the morning, I went back to Youzheng at noon, thinking about saying goodbye to Cai Xinming.

Xia Tian walked into Cai Xinming's office

Xia Tian: "Cai Da, I'm going home for the New Year."

Cai Xinming: "Well, be careful on the road."

Xia Tian stared at Cai Xinming for a while, thinking: "Did this person see the New Year's gift?!"

Cai Xinming also looked at Xia Tian, ​​not knowing why, finally Xia Tian smiled, Cai Xinming also smiled Xia Tian: "I'm leaving, goodbye."

Cai Xinming: "Goodbye."

After Xia Tian got home, he called Cai Xinming

Cai Xinming: "Are you home?"

Xia Tian: "Well, the second drawer."

Cai Xinming: "What?"

Xia Tian: "I hung up the second drawer in the office."

After hanging up the phone, Cai Xinming opened the second drawer, momentarily at a loss, more frightened than pleasantly surprised, after looking at everything, Cai Xinming closed the lid.That day, everyone in the office left, and Cai Xinming stayed in the office alone until 8 o'clock. After he finished smoking a cigarette, he sent a text message to Xia Tian, ​​"Thank you, please don't spend any more money."

When I received this text message, Xia Tian happened to be chatting with my mother, and all of a sudden, my heart and hands were empty, and I replied "Okay."

As usual, Xia Tian would call Cai Xinming on the first day of the new year to wish her a happy new year. She didn't have one this year. This year's Spring Festival is really a sad festival.

That day, the reason why I was so worried was because I realized that I was going home for you for the Spring Festival, and I was sad that I would not see you for the next few days. I tried to control myself, but found that I was a little out of control. This kind of out of control It scares me because I'm a person who always insists on doing only the right thing, and now, I can't help but want to make mistakes, and it makes me anxious.

When I opened the second drawer, I had some preparations in my heart, but I was still shocked. I didn't expect you to be so direct. That day, since I received your call in the afternoon, I have been thinking about how to deal with it. Over the years of getting along, I already know you very well, you don't know, I may observe you more than you observe me, I know your character, you are very paranoid.If I don't kill your affection for me in time, and let you sink further, you will never get married for the rest of your life. I can't delay you. Although I am very reluctant, I have to do so.

This text message was sent an hour after it was compiled. I didn’t smoke a cigarette, but a pack of cigarettes. I didn’t stay in the office until 8 o’clock, but I stayed until 1 am after receiving your text message. Point, that day was not easy for me.

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