kill a canary

"Is it fun to raise the child?... What if it's not fun?"

Shen Yixiu felt that he had said something wrong, so he could only smile uncomfortably: "No... I didn't... mean anything else.

Chen Ran is very sensitive now, sometimes he would think wildly when he said something casually, when Shen Yixiu was sleeping in the hospital, he saw Chen Ran tossing and turning at night more than once, unable to fall asleep, sometimes even taking sleeping pills didn't help, he would wake up in the middle of the night in the hospital corridor Walking around, sometimes even talking to himself.Looking at it like that, it was quite scary. Shen Yixiu felt that when Chen Ran got better, he had to get another psychiatrist...

……

That day, Shen Yixiu came to the hospital with the old cucumber and lean meat soup that had been simmering all afternoon, but he saw that Chen Ran's bed was tidied up and he had disappeared.

On the cabinet was a scrawled note:

Brother Yixiu, thank you for saving me, and thank you for taking care of me, but my mind is really messed up, I want to be alone.

Holding the note, Shen Yixiu felt lost for a moment. His eyes unconsciously saw the desk calendar on the cabinet. Tomorrow will be Chinese New Year's Eve. He came here today because he wanted to take Chen Ran back for a while. Year.

In the past, he never spent the New Year with Chen Ran. When Sun Yang was in Beijing, he would throw Chen Ran to Sun Yang. When Sun Yang returned to his hometown, he didn't bother to ask how Ran Ran spent the New Year alone.

I didn't think so before, but now that I think about it, Ran Ran has no home to go back to, no relatives to reunite with, will he go to see Sisi, but the care center can't stay overnight, so when he returns to Lilac Apartment, it will be so deserted.

Shen Yixiu thought about it, but couldn't hold back a drop of tears. He put down the things in his hands, turned around and ran out. This year, he must not leave Chen Ran alone for the New Year.

The author has something to say: lollipop, I really ate it a few nights ago, and I was really harmonized, crying. . .

☆, Chinese New Year

Shen Yixiu came to the small house that Chen Ran rented. At that time, Chen Ran packed up some things and was about to go out. He was not too surprised to see Shen Yixiu coming to him, after all, where else could he go.

"Where are you going?" Shen Yixiu stood at the door and looked at him. The light in the corridor was not good, and Chen Ran couldn't see the expression on his face clearly.

"I'm going to...a friend's house." Chen Ran had no choice but to say that, but he hadn't really thought about where he was going.

"It's Chinese New Year tomorrow, so it's not appropriate to go to a friend's house." Shen Yixiu went over and snatched the backpack from his hand: "Can I go back with me for a few days during the Chinese New Year? I won't stop you if you want to move back here after the Chinese New Year." you."

"Where I live is the same to you. You have to go home to accompany your parents and elders anyway during the Chinese New Year."

Chen Ran lowered her head and said that she really didn't know how to deal with it.These few days, Shen Yixiu's attentive attitude towards him has made him restless. When he broke up, he was still very determined, thinking that he would never have anything to do with the man in front of him again in this life. Embarrassingly in a dilemma position.

Come in, definitely not, Shen Yixiu once lied to him and hurt him like that, and he didn't believe Shen Yixiu's words that he would cherish him exclusively, he didn't believe in Shen Yixiu, let alone himself.What's more, he made such a big determination to break up in such a decisive way, and now going back, what is it?

Let's go back, Shen Yixiu's tenderness is pressing every step of the way, and the other party has saved himself after all, if he hadn't rushed to the nightclub that day, how would he be treated by those people, it's hard to say whether he is dead or alive, in this cold and huge He has no relatives and no reason, so maybe no one will find out if his body is dead or rotten...

Even if he is a passer-by, even an enemy, can he coldly refuse the favor of saving his life without even thinking about it?

So he had no choice but to run away, and ran away again, but unfortunately before he could run out of the house, he was blocked by Shen Yixiu again.

"No no, I'll celebrate the New Year with you this year, just the two of us, okay?" Shen Yixiu looked down at him, the injured hand was grabbing his arm, the gauze had been removed, but the scar on his wrist was still quite tight obviously.

Chen Ran looked at his wrist and remained silent. He knew that the Shen family's family values ​​were very strong. Every year during Chinese New Year, the Shen family's various uncles, cousins, daughters-in-law and unmarried granddaughters all want to be married to the whole country, even People from all over the world returned to Beijing to spend this year at the knees of Grandpa Shen.

Shen Yixiu is in Beijing, he really won't go back?

"Ran Ran," Shen Yixiu's voice was lowered, with an unnatural nasal voice: "I always wanted to tell you, you are angry, wronged, and the picture is fresh, I let you go out to play, but you are tired and sick If you are bullied, you still have to come back to me. I...I can't see you suffer."

Chen Ran raised his head and saw Shen Yixiu's lips trembling slightly, tears rolling in his eye sockets, he suddenly panicked, except in the movies Shen Yixiu made in his early years, he had never seen this man cry, and people like him would cry too ?What could make him cry...

Chen Ran's gaze was like an electric shock, and he subconsciously avoided the tears that didn't shed after holding on. He licked his lips, and after a long time, he finally said: "Then...just spend a new year together..."

Let me repay you for saving your life... Before he finished speaking, Shen Yixiu had already hugged him into his arms. He was so hard that Chen Ran's ribs hurt from being strangled, and he was almost out of breath.

"Great, great! Then let's go home right now!" Shen Yixiu hugged him excitedly, the joy of regaining was like fine wine or honey, strong and sweet.

"Well, let go, I'm about to die of suffocation..." Chen Ran struggled in his arms and cried.

……

The house in Lilac Apartment has not changed in any way since he left. Everything is placed as it is and cleaned spotlessly. Even the flowers and plants on the balcony and the succulents on the shelf are lush and alive.

Chen Ran walked around the room, looking at the cuckoo wall clock above the TV in the living room with some absentmindedness. He once put a camera in it to plot against Shen Yixiu.

Shen Yixiu also followed his gaze to look there. Of course he had someone dismantle the camera, but looking at it now, he still feels uncomfortable.

The two of them stood silently for a while without speaking, before Shen Yixiu came back to his senses, and said with a smile: "I didn't make any preparations for the Chinese New Year. In the past, my mother and the others prepared, and I didn't know what to do. For cleaning, before Let Sister Sun come here before going back to her hometown. What else is there? Let the driver on duty at the company go buy some food for the Spring Festival tomorrow...Let’s make a list now, what do you want for the New Year’s Eve dinner tomorrow? Let’s eat it at home ? Eating at home feels more like Chinese New Year..."

Shen Yixiu talked to himself for a long time, Chen Ran felt a little funny, scratched his head, flattered and at a loss and said: "Ah... anything is fine, I can eat anything."

"No. You can eat whatever you say. You name the dish, and I'll list the things you need." Shen Yixiu said while fetching a pen and paper, laying down on the dining table, and carefully wrote on the white paper Fang Zhengzhong wrote "New Year's Eve Dinner Recipe", and then turned his head to look at Chen Ran expectantly.

Chen Ran had no choice but to report the names of a few dishes, all of which were delicious and not too difficult to cook. He thought that although the wound on Shen Yixiu's hand had healed, it would be too much trouble: "Why don't I cook it tomorrow, you Just stand by and guide."

"Ha, forget it, you wash the vegetables and so on. I have a New Year's Eve dinner all year round. I don't want to try dark dishes."

"Oh." Chen Ran resentfully, sat down beside the table, moved her furry head over to watch him write.

"Dumplings are to be made for Chinese New Year, what would you like to eat?"

"Anything but leeks."

"Is leek bad? Leek is strong-yang." Shen Yixiu said slowly, turning the pen in his hand.

Chen Ran rolled her eyes at the ceiling: "..."

"Get stronger yourself slowly, and make little Shen Yixiu and others into [-]-meter sprint champions." Chen Ran blinked and said.

"Hey, don't act like it's nothing to do with you, sprinting is also sprinting you." Shen Yixiu looked at him with a squinting look: "After making the list, wash up and sleep, I'm not going to run 1000 meters, I'm going to run [-] meters."

……

"Hmm... take it easy..."

Although Shen Yixiu said he was going to run 1000 meters, he didn't show the patience that long-distance running should have. As soon as he came up, he pressed Chen Ran and kissed him madly.

Chen Ran was struggling to breathe under the pressure of his tall and strong body, and said with difficulty: "Brother, get up, I'm dying..."

Shen Yixiu let out a groan, propped himself up, and his movements were gentler, but his words were not forgiving: "Xiao Ranran, you really don't remember that night? We did this and that, and you screamed until your throat broke. Do you know? Oops, I didn't even see the waves..."

Chen Ran's pretty face was blushing, she turned her head and closed her eyes, and grabbed Shen Yixiu with one hand and said, "Hurry up and shut up!"

"Aww! You murdered your own husband!" Shen Yixiu screamed as he was caught at the vitals, and finally obediently shut up.

……

"Does it hurt?" Shen Yixiu patiently did all the preparations that should be done, but when he entered, Chen Ran still visibly trembled.

Maybe after all, apart from the night when I was drugged, I really haven't done it for a long time.

"One thing, it's okay..." Chen Ran gasped and whispered.

"Why don't you forget it..." Shen Yixiu withdrew. He used to be self-centered, and didn't really care about Chen Ran's feelings. Chen Ran got hurt all over his body, he doesn't want to do that now.

Chen Ran was lying on her side with her back to him, feeling that he had left her body, her tense nerves were relaxed, but she also felt a little empty and inexplicably apologetic.

After being silent for a while, Chen Ran felt Shen Yixiu move behind him, then hugged him with one hand, and supported himself with the other, pressing against his back one after another.

Chen Ran thought, Boss Shen has surrounded countless beauties in his life, so he probably has never been wronged like this...

Suddenly feeling a little smug in his heart, Chen Ran turned over and pressed on Shen Yixiu.

……

On New Year's Eve, the two of them stayed in bed until noon, when the driver delivered the food for the New Year, they lazily got up.

Shen Yixiu's list was densely packed, and when he sent it to the driver, Chen Ran was really sweating for the driver. When the driver, Lao Hu, stood at the door with several large plastic bags full of them, Chen Ran thanked him and put the The bag was brought over.

"Mr. Chen, Happy Chinese New Year." Lao Hu wiped the sweat from his brow and said with a smile.

"Happy Chinese New Year. Thank you for your hard work. How are you spending the night?" Chen Ran also replied with a smile.

"I'm on duty this year, spending time with colleagues in the company who don't go home."

"Oh. Ah, that's right, wait a minute." Chen Ran took the things in and turned around to give Lao Hu a red envelope.

But after he took the money, he remembered that there seemed to be no lai seefong at home.

When Shen Yixiu came out, he saw Chen Ran anxiously looking around.

"What's wrong? What are you looking for?" He walked over, put his arms around Chen Ran and kissed him.

"I want to find a red envelope, but I asked the driver to wait." Chen Ran said shyly.

"It's okay, I'll give them red envelopes when I start work." Shen Yixiu smiled: "Don't worry about it, lady boss." After saying that, he walked to the door, said a few words to the driver, and sent him away.

Chen Ran fell down on the sofa and sighed, thinking how could she be so stupid.

Shen Yixiu came over and rubbed against him affectionately, took his lips that were a little swollen from being kissed last night, and kissed him lingeringly.

"Why don't you take care of all my money from now on, lady boss, you can give red envelopes to whomever you want, huh?" Shen Yixiu kissed Chen Ran's little ear, and used his charming sex-sensual said the voice.

……

In the afternoon, both of them put on their aprons and went into the kitchen to prepare the New Year's Eve dinner. Chen Ran washed all the dishes and kept Shen Yixiu's hands from getting wet. Okay, let's stew the stew, and then cut up all kinds of side dishes, and put them on the plate by category.

"Hey, Ran Ran, sing me a song to stimulate my enthusiasm for work." When Shen Yixiu was handling a turbot, he suddenly turned his head and said to Chen Ran.

"Ah? What are you singing?" Chen Ran touched his nose.

"Sing whatever you want, just don't sing Xiaobaicai for the Chinese New Year."

"Oh, hey, I heard a song on the Internet some time ago. It's very fun. Let me sing it to you." Chen Ran cleared her throat and began to sing a divine song on the Internet:

——Hungry, hungry, hungry, I'm really hungry

……

Obviously I ate five bowls of noodles this morning, but it's very strange, I'm hungry now

……

Eat, eat, eat, eat all over the world

Everyone wants to eat with me

Please come and feed me

……

So hungry, so hungry, so hungry, I'm so hungry...

Shen Yixiu laughed faintly on the chopping board.

The author has something to say: Listen to Luo Tianyi's feeding song once, laugh and be hungry once~

☆, New Year's Eve

In the evening, when the two were preparing to make dumplings together, Shen Yixiu realized something was wrong and forgot to ask the driver to buy green onions.

"Old Hu is really, I didn't write it, so he doesn't know how to buy it? How to do it without green onions..." Shen Yixiu frowned and complained.

As an authentic northerner whose ancestors have been northerners for [-] generations, even Boss Shen can’t make traditional and authentic dumplings stuffed with cabbage and pork without green onions, not to mention that the dishes that are prepared at night basically need this kind A small side dish that is inconspicuous and not good enough.

"Why don't we make dumplings? In fact, our family doesn't eat dumplings during the Chinese New Year. We all eat wontons." Chen Ran hurriedly comforted Boss Shen with a gloomy expression.

"Oh." Unexpectedly, Shen Yixiu's face became more gloomy: "Then we are not only short of onions, but also short of wonton wrappers."

Chen Ran was choked and coughed, stepped forward and patted Shen Yixiu's back comfortingly: "Don't be upset, what a big deal, I'll just go buy what I need."

As he spoke, he took off his apron naturally, and was about to go to the bedroom to change, but just as he turned around, Shen Yixiu suddenly grabbed his arm, Chen Ran turned around, and saw Shen Yixiu staring at him closely.

Those eyes were very deep, and there was even some faint worry and attachment, Chen Ran's heart moved, was it because he was afraid that I would not come back after I went out to buy something?

He had no choice but to hold Shen Yixiu's hand instead, and said helplessly, "Why don't you go together? But can you go out?" Today is New Year's Eve, and those office workers who are too late to make purchases at this time may crowd the supermarket, and Shen Yixiu was recognized Will it cause any stampede accident?It's New Year's Eve...

Shen Yixiu seemed very happy, the deepness in his eyes was quickly replaced by a little joy.Going to the supermarket with your wife?It seems to be quite like that!

After putting on the hat and covering half of his face with a big scarf, Chen Ran went out with a dumpling.

There is a big supermarket at the gate of the community, Chen Ran pushed the cart in front, Shen Yixiu followed, lowered his head, trying to weaken his sense of existence.

But as soon as he entered the supermarket, Chen Ran felt that he was really worrying too much. During the last madness this year, this relatively high-end supermarket could be described as a mess. , the pretty housewife who is about to make New Year’s Eve dinner and finds that the house is out of gas, and the aunt who sees that the supermarket has everything for the New Year’s promotion and wants to bring some toilet paper, the supermarket is so crowded that even a chicken can’t get out.And everyone's attention is all on buying, buying, and buying. It is estimated that this time it is a manifestation of the gods, and no one will take a look at it from the corner of the eye.

Shen Yixiu also found out, and he breathed a sigh of relief. Just as he was about to take off the scarf, Chen Ran pressed it back with one hand: "Be patient, just in case." President Xingyi accompanied the mysterious man to the supermarket to buy something Buy' sounds good?"

Shen Yixiu put down his hands angrily, but became excited again in the next second.They were in the fruit and vegetable section at the moment, and Shen Yixiu saw the onion, ginger, garlic, and coriander on the shelves at a glance. They were picked in a mess, and they were all mixed up.

And among the green, yellow and white, there are only a handful of juicy scallions!

Like seeing a long-lost relative, he rushed over while wiping tears, but he was still a step too slow, a slender hand came out halfway, and took away the innocent handful of green onions.

"Hey, miss, can you give me this green onion? I need it urgently!" Shen Yixiu's eyes widened in front of the little girl.

The little girl looked at the uncle who was wearing weird clothes and acting even weirder in front of her. She took a step back in fright, and then thought about why there are so many people in the supermarket. What is there to be afraid of? Give it to you? Do you need it urgently and I don’t need it urgently?”

Chen Ran was two steps away, and he was in a bad mood. Ever since Shen Yixiu confessed to him in Xishan Villa, he felt that the man's business relationship had begun to decline rapidly. Now that he hasn't been together for two months, Boss Shen has degenerated. Have you become a mentally handicapped child?

Chen Ran stepped forward, smiled gently, and said to the girl: "You see, there are quite a lot of green onions here, how about we pay you for the purchase of green onions, and then you give us one or two, will that work?" ?”

"Yes, yes, yes." Shen Yixiu seemed to realize that his behavior just now was very mentally handicapped, and now he sorted out his demeanor, elegantly took out his wallet and opened it, took out a hundred-yuan bill, and handed it over.

The girl hesitated for a moment, just now she subconsciously thought that Shen Yixiu was trying to harass her with evil intentions, now seeing the young, beautiful and well-dressed Chen Ran, she wondered if this handsome guy also came to strike up a conversation?

"Forget it, I don't want it anymore, I'll give it to you." The girl handed the green onion to Chen Ran, but didn't accept the money: "I also sell some at my door."

Chen Ran hurriedly thanked him, but unexpectedly, the girl gave him a shy smile and saw that he turned to leave, and couldn't help being a little anxious: "Hey, handsome guy, don't you want to leave a phone call?"

Shen Yixiu: "...!", without any explanation, he took Chen Ran's hand and dragged him away.

……

After buying wonton wrappers and messy snacks, Shen Yixiu was satisfied, and walked back with Chen Ran carrying a big bag. There was someone writing Spring Festival couplets at the entrance of the supermarket, and Chen Ran took a more curious look.

Shen Yixiu said: "By the way, there are no Spring Festival couplets yet, hurry up and buy a pair and go back to post them."

"What can I write?" Chen Ran looked at the written ones, either five stresses and four beauties or a harmonious society.

Shen Yixiu didn't know whether it was intentional or unintentional, he muttered: "I wish to be a lovebird in the sky, and Lian Lizhi in the earth."

Chen Ran knew he was joking, and just as he turned around to laugh at him, the owner of the stall behind him responded with a smile: "Okay, write it right away!"

Before Chen Ran could stop it, he saw the boss swiping the brush, and the fourteen big characters were written. The boss rubbed his hands, put the two red couplets aside, took a horizontal batch and continued writing, and said to Chen Ran with a smile: "I'll give you one, 'Forever and ever'!"

Shen Yixiu smiled like a child, took out the money neatly, and waved his big hand, so he didn't need to look for it. He is an educated person who writes, he just has taste and love-interest!

Chen Ran was completely speechless, and when Shen Yixiu was content to drag him away, he hurriedly followed through with a normal-looking couplet placed by the side of the stall, without paying attention to the content.

Back home, Shen Yixiu pulled Chen Ran out to post the Spring Festival couplets. The two of them argued for a long time, but finally Shen Yixiu compromised and helped Chen Ran post the couple that he later accepted.

So at the door of Boss Shen’s hidden petite golden house, gorgeous and magnificent Spring Festival couplets were pasted neatly: The great motherland is like a brocade, and the heroic people are striving upward like a rainbow.

Shen Yixiu felt like a dead fish, struggled for a long time and vomited bubbles and said, "It's okay, I'll take a photo and show it to my grandpa when I go to his place..."

And the couple's lingering "Spring Festival couplets", under Shen Yixiu's insistence, were pasted on both sides of the inner side of the door.

……

After trying to make two different dumplings, Chen Ran was driven back to the living room by Shen Yixiu, leaning on the sofa to watch TV, Chen Ran changed a few channels at random, and found that each channel was related to the Spring Festival Gala, so he didn't bother to change. Now, think about it, I haven't watched the Spring Festival Gala for several years, so I will just glance at it casually this year, Shen Yixiu's mother will not be going to the Spring Festival Gala now, if it was in the past, what would it be like to see an acquaintance on the Spring Festival Gala... …

Chen Ran's thoughts were flying wildly, and Shen Yixiu's phone, which was placed on the coffee table, vibrated. It was a simple vibrate, and the ringer did not ring.

Chen Ran took it over and looked at it, and two words flashed on the screen: Mother.

"Brother Yixiu, Aunt Zhou's call." Chen Ran shouted towards the kitchen, Shen Yixiu wanted to listen to Chen Ran's movements all the time, the kitchen was not closed.

Shen Yixiu didn't turn his head back: "No answer."

Chen Ran let out a cry, and the vibration stopped. He glanced at the screen again. This is not the first call, to be precise, it is the tenth call. There are still two missed calls from Father Shen.

Chen Ran felt that this was not good, and just when he was about to persuade Shen Yixiu to answer the phone, a message came through his phone: If you don't go home for the New Year today, you don't have to come back later.

Chen Ran silently put down his phone and stared at the TV in a daze. Needless to say, it must be because of him. Shen Yixiu spent a year with him, and it was fun enough. His family background is cultivated, and he doesn't talk about it. In fact, he still treats his parents and elders. Very respectful.

However, this little episode didn't seem to have any effect on Shen Yixiu's good mood. While eating, he swiped his phone without any extra expression.

"You don't know how to make dumplings, do you always cook them? Go cook some dumplings, your husband is almost exhausted and doesn't want to move." Shen Yixiu patted Chen Ran on the shoulder, and suddenly regretted why he didn't go to the villa for the New Year. The servant is on duty. He has been working since he opened his eyes today, and he stood there all afternoon.

Chen Ran nodded and went, and saw that next to the small and exquisite dumplings in the kitchen, there were twenty delicate little wontons specially wrapped for him by Shen Yixiu, and they were filled with a different seafood that he loves.

The lights outside the window are just on, the lights of thousands of houses, the sound of firecrackers, and the reunion. It is a good time to say goodbye to the old and welcome the new.

……

After eating, Chen Ran packed up everything, put fruits and nuts on the table, took off his shoes and lazily leaned on Shen Yixiu's shoulder to watch TV, watching a wave of drowsiness hit him, his head tilted, almost He fell asleep directly, and couldn't remember how long he hadn't experienced such a heavy but reassuring sleepiness. Chen Ran felt safe and satisfied for no reason.After a long time, he will be like a frightened little animal that will be bullied and plundered anytime and anywhere. Whenever there is a sign of trouble, he will immediately put his whole body on guard. It is really exhausting...

"Sleepy? Why don't you just sleep now?" Shen Yixiu looked down at him and asked softly.

"Don't...you have to watch the age today." Chen Ran said vaguely, took a sip of tea, and forced himself to open his eyes. Two popular stars were singing on TV. Han and Xia Chun.

Xia Chun and Shen Yixiu had an affair, and Ou Han, Chen Ran remembered, he became famous because of the draft of "Singing the World of Stars" five years ago...

Shen Yixiu may have wanted to divert Chen Ran's attention, or maybe he felt that the topic he was going to talk about next was a bit serious, so talking about the Spring Festival Gala could ease the tension a little.

In short, Shen Yixiu looked at the TV and said casually: "Ran Ran, there are a few things that I want to tell you today. I don't want to keep it until the new year. I hope everything will have a new start tomorrow."

Chen Ran looked up at him.

"First of all, Yuan Yi and those other dudes have already been caught. Yuan Yi is no longer the kid you knew back then. He has done a lot of unscrupulous businesses in order to make money in recent years. It is estimated that you may not be able to come out this time. I will protect you well in the future and will not let anyone bully you again."

"Second, I donated a sum of money to Zeng Mochen through the school. Not only his mother's surgery fee, but also enough money for him to study abroad in the future. I will also help find a donor heart. About this person and this matter Don't blame yourself, and don't mention it again."

These two sentences are statements, calm but not subject to rejection or questioning, Chen Ran is silent, how should he express it?Weeping with gratitude?Rejoice?It seems inappropriate.

Shen Yixiu rubbed Chen Ran's hair, and continued: "The third thing, after the new year, I want to take you to meet the gold medal manager and producer in my company, don't you always want to sing? How about it?" ?Do you want to?"

☆, trust (repair)

Looking at Shen Yixiu's soft and quiet face under the warm light, Chen Ran had mixed feelings and didn't know how to answer.A few years ago, at the very beginning of their meeting, Shen Yixiu made it clear that he was not allowed to enter the entertainment industry, he didn't like him being contaminated by the atmosphere of the industry, and he didn't want him not to be around when he was looking for him.

Chen Ran has never had any clear plans for the future. Before, he was just an appendage of Shen Yixiu's private property. He had no qualifications or conditions to plan for the future. Now the other party has given in and is willing to use his own resources to help him have a relatively independent life. , or in other words, is helping him take a shortcut.Regardless of whether the other party's purpose is out of favor or compensation, there is really no reason not to do such a transaction.

But Chen Ran still hesitated, what exactly did he want?Some time ago, his only obsession was to break up and leave Shen Yixiu, but now this is the situation... If he accepts it, it is actually equivalent to agreeing to continue to return to Shen Yixiu's protection, in another form of transaction...

"What are you thinking? Ran Ran." Shen Yixiu touched his face lovingly: "I was too selfish in the past, I always thought it would be good to keep you at home and not let others see you, when I needed you , you must be here. Some time ago, you were not by my side, and I began to think about how you lived alone when I was not here. I only think about what I want, and never think about what you want What do you want..."

"I... I don't know, I think my personality may not be suitable for being in front of the stage..." The more Chen Ran heard Shen Yixiu's emotional words, the more he was at a loss. He felt that he was about to be unable to bear it. Maybe he doesn't deserve it at all...

Shen Yixiu just looked at him with a faint smile: "Then what do you want to do? You can do anything."

Chen Ran bowed her head and said nothing, the joyous sound of the party on TV echoed in the room.

"Ran Ran, do you not believe me?" Shen Yixiu asked him after a while.

Chen Ran thought it might be, but it would be too hurtful to say it, and it was when Shen Yixiu was trying his best to spend the New Year with him.So Chen Ran had no choice but to remain silent.

Shen Yixiu sighed silently, it is too easy to destroy trust, but too difficult to build it, you can't blame Ran Ran, he did it on his own.

Chen Ran had no intention of continuing this topic, and the two of them were relatively silent for a while, Shen Yixiu took the initiative to peel a few pistachios, stuffed them into Chen Ran's hands, and lowered his head to rub the tip of his nose affectionately: "Okay, okay , you think about it slowly, don’t worry, as long as you don’t want to be the president of the country, you can do anything else, and I will support you.”

Chen Ran finally nodded, leaned against him and listened to the Spring Festival Gala with her eyes squinted, chatting with him in a daze.

Before 12 o'clock, Chen Ran had already fallen asleep, and his body slid down more and more until he lay on Shen Yixiu's lap, breathing evenly and long.

Shen Yixiu didn't dare to move, until he felt that Chen Ran was really fast asleep, then he carefully picked him up and entered the bedroom.

When he came back from the shower, he saw Chen Ran sleeping soundly under the quilt, her fair and slender neck exposed to the air.He stood in front of the bed and had a fierce ideological struggle. Should he wake him up and drag him to take a shower and come back to work hard for [-] rounds, or should he just fall asleep with so few desires?He was afraid of hurting Chen Ran last night, so he didn't enjoy himself at all. He hasn't eaten much meat these days, and he's almost becoming a monk...

The two villains struggled in his mind for a long time, Shen Yixiu shook his head helplessly, he finally lost a treasure he got back, he couldn't bear to let Chen Ran suffer any more grievances, after all, the pain of loss was too deep and deep, he felt that in this life and in the next life I don't want to experience it again in my next life.

After going to bed and turning off the lights, he hugged Chen Ran in front of him, lowered his head and gently kissed Chen Ran's hair, ears and cheeks, and then closed his eyes contentedly.

To put it bluntly, Chen Ran has not let go until now, and has not agreed to move back, that is to say, he has not agreed to reconcile with him, but Mr. Shen is not worried. He thinks that with the current gratifying progress and good prospects, there will be no Spring Festival holiday , Ran Ran will definitely be able to coax him back.

……

At 4 o'clock in the morning, Shen Yixiu vaguely heard some movement. Before he woke up, he subconsciously touched Chen Ran's side, but he found nothing, and the quilt beside him was cold.

Shen Yixiu turned over abruptly, the bedroom door was ajar, as if a very faint light came in through the crack in the door.He held his breath, opened the door and went out.

With his back to him, Chen Ran lay on the dining table, staring at a candle in front of him. There was no wind in the room, and the small flame danced calmly.

Shen Yixiu suddenly remembered that on his birthday, Chen Ran had burned himself with wax oil in order to stimulate him. Now that he saw this scene in the middle of the night, he couldn't help but feel terrified. He was afraid that he would make a big move and frighten Chen Ran, so he stood stiffly for a while, Only then did he try his best to call out gently and calmly: "Ran Ran? What are you doing?"

Chen Ran was still taken aback, turned around suddenly and almost fell to the ground, he said incoherently almost without thinking: "I... I came to see a man, and he asked me... to light a candle."

Shen Yixiu was confused, Chen Ran's face was blurred in the hazy light and shadow, but his watery eyes were shining brightly, he walked forward slowly a few steps, seeing that Chen Ran had no abnormal reaction, he finally walked up to him Beside him, he pressed his head against his chest.

"What are you talking about? Who are you seeing?" Shen Yixiu asked gently and curiously, as usual as asking what you ate today.

Chen Ran buried her head in his warm embrace, but didn't say a word. He has come to his senses, and the child he came to meet secretly has already left.

Shen Yixiu waited patiently, he had to wait.

After a long time, Chen Ran probably felt that Shen Yixiu would not let him go if he didn't say anything. Such an invisible and oppressive atmosphere made him very nervous, so he finally hesitated and said: "Come to see a child, I... …Own."

Shen Yixiu looked down at him, showing neither doubt nor disdain.

"Brother Yixiu," Chen Ran's voice could clearly hear the uncontrollable trembling, and his big eyes were full of tears: "Every time I want to take a step forward, he will come and drag me Me, why do you think a child has so much strength?"

Shen Yixiu seemed to understand, but he only knew that looking at Chen Ran's panicked look and hearing his uncontrollable sobbing, his heart felt as if a thousand or ten thousand needles had been stuck in it, densely packed with pain.

"Ran Ran, it's over, no one can hurt you anymore." Shen Yixiu said so, pulling Chen Ran up into his arms, and kissing her with a very delicate and long kiss without lust.

……

On the first day of the Lunar New Year, Shen Yixiu stayed with Chen Ran for another whole day, none of them mentioned what happened last night, they tacitly regarded it as a dream.

The dark night is Chen Ran's protective color. It is not easy for him to say such a sentence hidden in his heart. Shen Yixiu knows that he can't be forced anymore. There is no special emergency medicine for heart disease, it can only depend on time and patience.

On the second day of the new year, after Shen Yixiu hung up three more phone calls at home, Chen Ran finally couldn't bear it any longer, and persuaded him gently and obediently: "You should go back and have a look. We are going to leave relatives during the Chinese New Year. Can you stay with me for a day? I'm already very happy. If you stay with me, your family will hate me even more."

What Chen Ran said was the truth, Shen Yixiu felt that with his mother's rich fighting experience of fighting with Xiao San'er all her life, her old man's toes could guess the reason for his abnormal behavior in the past few days, now he might not know how to anger Chen Ran Ran, his teeth are itching with hatred.

Shen Yixiu nodded: "Wait until next year. I will take you home next year."