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Embarrassed and angry: "Don't have such corrupt thoughts! Damn, if my younger brother can't even get into the school I was admitted to, then this poor IQ is not worthy of being my younger brother!"

I personally bought a plane ticket for him to pack and throw him back to his motherland. On the day of seeing him off at the airport, he looked very unwilling.I knew what he was upset about, but I didn't say anything, I just patted the bodyguard on the shoulder and educated him earnestly.

I used my status to pressure people: "He pays you, and he listens to me, so it doesn't matter if I make some demands on you as an elder brother."

The bodyguard was obviously used to us two brothers, and nodded helplessly.I was rambling, put my arms around his shoulders, and chattered a lot.

Tigers and wolves are around him, it is inevitable that someone will want to plot against him, so please pay more attention to the bodyguards, it is fine to ask him for more salary.Also, children's self-control is always a little bit weaker, adrenaline is causing trouble, but they still feel that they are mature and awesome, sometimes they will inevitably impulsive bad things, and adults still need to pay more attention.If there is any trouble, please call me in time, and I will try my best to help.

When I turned around again, my younger brother stared at me with a grimace, very unhappy.I said fiercely to him, "Why are you staring at me!"

"I'm leaving, my brother is still talking to others." He clenched his fists, "I'm jealous."

I was so fucking happy that I laughed out loud. Does this little idiot know what he is talking about? I am jealous. Is he reincarnated from the jealous altar?I rubbed his head, and he arched himself again, taking the initiative to get close to my palm.

"Isn't it enough to be pestered by you? What else can I say?" I said, "Go back obediently. If you pass the exam, you will be rewarded."

He stared at me with bright eyes: "What reward?"

I looked at him for a while, pretended to be mysterious and said, "Secret."

These days of confrontation with him, he has always been full of energy, not thinking about how to take me down for a moment.Every action of his is driven by this matter. He studies to let me give him lectures, and learns to cook to make me eat happily.His culinary skills have improved a lot, even if I am stubborn, I have to praise him for his improvement.He had a few scars on his hands, from accidentally cutting vegetables, and from being splashed by oil droplets.He is no longer the same as before, afraid that I will feel sorry for him and hide it, but shows it to me schemingly, asking me to give him medicine and help him lick it.

Of course, it's impossible to help him lick. No matter how good the effect of saliva is, it can't compare with ointment. This little bastard can't fool me.

And for some things, if there is one, there are two, and if there are two, there are three.After he appeared in the first erotic dream, he would appear in my dreams from time to time, and it was no longer like before, it was a simple childhood memory, but...

It's a shame that I declared to my colleagues and friends that I was pure-hearted and ascetic, so I have a guilty conscience.

I am not as strong-willed as I thought at first, after all, the principle that one makes two, is also applicable here.I took one step back from him, and it's not surprising that I took a second and third step back.

What's more, he is my younger brother and knows how to deal with me best.

But he is also my younger brother.

There is a gulf between us, and he is too young to see it, but I cannot.The mist that rises from that chasm always obscures something, or assists me in denying something.

Hey, I often wonder how good it would be to invent an emotion converter now that technology is so advanced.My love for him is higher than the sky and deeper than the sea. If I can convert a part of it into what he wants, then he can wake up happily from his dreams.

When I got home, the apartment was covered in his marks.

If I didn't sleep with him, he took my quilt away, insisting that he would fall asleep surrounded by my smell.The topic he wrote is still on my desk, together with my office documents.When I opened it, I could see the message he wrote to me.

In the past two years, I have learned to smoke. I don't have much craving for cigarettes, but I will smoke one when I encounter troubles.Sometimes I go out to parties with my colleagues and drink. When I come back, he complacently makes me hangover soup and never says a bad word.

But he reminded me in the note that he said, brother, don’t smoke too much, drink too much alcohol, and don’t stay up late if you can’t do a good job.He even remembered that when he was a child, he said that he would stop drinking on my behalf, and he was plausible. If I drank too much, he would occasionally want to secretly break the taboo and drink a little. Wouldn’t this quota be used up by me?

It's such a stupid nonsense, it made me laugh out loud.

He works so hard, and I'm not hard-hearted, but when he is in front of me, as an older brother, there are always some things that he is embarrassed to do.

I had previously asked a friend if there was any good psychiatrist nearby.After my brother left, I thought about it calmly for two days, and finally made a phone call and made an appointment.

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When I was studying, I had a friend who went to see a doctor once a month. That friend was from a wealthy family and was also cheerful and talkative on weekdays. I really couldn’t think of why he had such frequent psychological consultations, so I asked him directly what disease he had. .He was stunned for a while, then laughed and told me that there was nothing wrong with him.

It's just that he is a little confused about the direction of his life, and a psychologist is a very suitable person to talk to.Although it was a bit wasteful to pay a high fee for this matter, he didn't care about it at all. Instead, he told me boldly that maybe he can still be so happy and cheerful until now, because of the psychiatrist?

It is not a shame to seek professional guidance and help when you are confused.

Speaking of it, I really wanted to take my brother to see a doctor before, but he can't stay here for a long time, and seeing him for a short time won't help much. If he needs to change doctors when he arrives in China, it will be bad if someone else finds out.Secondly, he has also reached a critical period. He only has one senior year in senior high school. If he is asked to treat illnesses at this time, he may think wildly.It's better for me to stabilize him within this year, and then make plans according to the situation.

Raising this kid is really the biggest challenge in my life. I always have to look forward and backward, and sometimes play tricks.He is extreme and clingy, enthusiastic and sensitive, like a small time bomb, a fuse is pulled on me, even if it is extinguished, I don't know if there are other conditions to ignite it.

But at the end of the day, as long as I'm willing to make his wish come true, he won't have reason to be crazy anymore.

A meeting with a psychiatrist was scheduled for half a month later.

In the past half a month, I kept asking myself how I felt, but I still couldn't come to a conclusion.On the contrary, I admire my brother's courage. This guy's shamelessness is also an advantage. How can he fall in love with his brother without any psychological burden? It's so difficult for me to even try to like him.

He calls me on video every day.The third year of high school has already started to make up classes, and the homework load has also begun to increase crazily.I asked him where he was free, and he told me about his schedule, which was full. Except for the necessary exercise time, it was all about studying and some business. The only breathing time was with me. Half an hour of video.

In this way, he still felt that it was not enough, and complained to me that half an hour was too little, and wanted to readjust the schedule.I was so startled by him that I started to lie that I was also very busy with work, so I didn't have time to accompany him so often.

The day I went to see a therapist was a sunny day.To be honest, this is also the first time I have stepped into such a place, so I can't help but feel a little nervous.For more than 20 years, I have always been calm and normal. Even if I have troubles, I find ways to solve them myself. I have never even been to the psychological counseling room set up by the school before.

In addition, the content of what I want to ask for help is too much to say.

The psychiatrist is a kind lady. She is used to seeing patients like me. She comforted and induced me, and finally let me speak out a little bit.I briefly talked about my brother and I. The part about the imprisonment and the part where he twisted his mentality to want to be a woman expanded a little bit. Later, when it came to the fact that I promised him to give him a chance, my volume became smaller and smaller.

She asked me gently, "Are you disturbed by such an unreasonable relationship?"

I thought she would think that I came to ask for help with my brother's psychological problems, after all, I was talking about that paragraph in detail.Having guessed what was in my heart, I couldn't help but respect her and nodded.

"Do you want to continue this relationship, or break it?" She said directly, "First of all, I want to say that you don't need to be ashamed. First, you have not induced him, and his personal development is his own. You have no responsibility for your own affairs. Second, our society has changed, and the past ethics and morals have been weakened a lot today. We have a variety of sexual and emotional relationships, and the society is very tolerant. A strong sense of morality is a good thing , but if you are kidnapped by excessive moral sense to the point of hurting yourself, then the loss outweighs the gain.”

I breathed a sigh of relief.It's not that I haven't thought about these things, but it still gives me a sense of relief to be recognized when I say it from other people.

The consultation didn't last long or short. After I let go, the progress of the consultation was much faster.She analyzed many problems to me, including my brother's psychology, my psychology, and my current situation, and gave me suggestions.

She said that I was a rare good brother, which made me blush, but I didn't want to refuse, after all, it was the truth, and I had to admit it frankly.Then she also pointed out in a gentle way that the thoughts of adolescent children are changeable and extreme, especially my brother is still in a dangerous family environment. My evasive behavior after being confessed is the distortion of my inner thoughts. the direct cause of.

Helping him feel psychologically fulfilled by having a relationship with him based on how I feel about my brother