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Attending a class reunion that I haven’t seen in ten years, how should I dress so that I don’t look like a loser? How can I make the classmate look at me differently?

Yi Teng, who woke up in the heat wave in the afternoon, dragged his sleepy consciousness and body, and used the only clothes in the suitcase to turn over and match them with the materials he was extremely confident in but actually terrible.Before going out, he still changed into a round-neck black T-shirt and light blue jeans.

Seeing that he was approaching [-] every day, apart from his confidence in his stomach that was not fat due to insomnia and his genetically strong hairline, he had already begun to believe that all good feelings were due to "temperament".

In order to facilitate the funeral, Yi Teng rented a car a few days ago, and it is now parked in the corner directly opposite downstairs.

He stepped out of the unit door, crossed a row of tall and lush poplar trees beside the road, walked to the side of the driver's seat and was about to open the door, when he suddenly saw that the right rear wheel had collapsed.

After observing intently, he squatted down to check, only to find that the wheel had been punctured at some point.

Although he knew for a long time that the law and order in the factory and residential area is not as good as it was back then, he still couldn't help scolding his mother.

After cursing a sentence and a half, he raised his hand to look at his watch. There were only four or ten minutes left before the party started. It took half an hour's drive from here to the meeting place, and it was obvious that he couldn't make it in time to get the car repaired.

Helpless, Yi Teng walked out of the residential area for more than ten minutes, came to the main road, stopped a taxi, and rushed to the meeting place.

The class meeting place was decided by the class leader Li Yang, in a barbecue cafeteria upstairs in Lifeng International.

When Yi Teng arrived at the store, several people were already sitting at the long table that Li Yang had reserved in advance.When he went up to say hello, he realized that after ten years of changes, he could no longer recognize some classmates.Some students did not recognize him.

Seeing Yi Teng, Li Yang hurriedly asked him to sit down in the empty seat beside him, and asked him how many days off he would take and where he planned to go to play.

Over the years, Yi Teng has only had some contact with Li Yang.He also called Yi Teng to beg Yi Teng to attend this party.

Yi Teng didn't want to pack up his belongings at home, and felt blocked.More importantly, he wants to prove to his classmates that even after so many years, he can still live well.So he agreed without saying a word.But when he came here, he regretted it a little.

Because they lived in different circles and didn't have many memories in common when they were in school, the topics they could talk about were limited to work and marriage.As far as Yi Teng is concerned, he is unwilling to talk about these two things now.

He sat at the table with his hands folded, listening to the chatting of other students present, and laughed approvingly.The foundation on Shen Yihan's face, who was sitting opposite him, was ten centimeters thick, and the lip gloss on her mouth was shiny, and her boyfriend, ex-boyfriend, and ex-ex-boyfriend popped up from time to time in her words.

In high school, Yi Teng thought she was extremely good-looking.With a melon-seeded face and deer eyes, if he meets her eyes inadvertently, it will be as if a deer is jumping around in his heart.Even when she was wearing blue colored contact lenses in her sophomore year of high school and surrounded by a group of friends, Yi Teng still thought she was pretty.

He turned his gaze, and sitting on his left was Li Wenxuan, a recognized talent in his grade.Writing articles, drawing pictures, and playing the violin, Li Wenxuan was absolutely outstanding among the rough kids raised by the proletariat in the factory area.

But now he's eating fried chicken and telling bad jokes about his wife and kids.Yi Teng stared at his double chin for a long time, and thought to himself several times: "How did he become so fat? He's really not skinny. He's really fat enough."

"Aren't you a little bored without He Cheng? I haven't seen He Cheng for almost ten years. How is he now?" Seeing that Yi Teng was bored, Li Yang continued to look for topics as a landlord.

He Cheng was one of the few friends Yi Teng had in middle school.But after they went to Beijing with their mother, they also lost contact.If He Cheng was here today, maybe Yi Teng wouldn't be so boring.

How can it be.It's fun.Yi Teng drank water with a smile, took a sip, and then went to look at the broken tea leaves at the bottom of the cup.

Seeing this, Li Yang was silent for a moment, then clapped his hands suddenly, opened his fish eyes and smiled, "I almost forgot! Why isn't Xiaobai here yet? He said he was going to teach the children in the painting class to draw. get out of class has ended."

The problem that Yi Teng has been worrying about since just now finally came. Before he had time to say anything, Li Yang had already dialed Liu Rugui's number and called in a high voice: "You don't come every time, it's almost ten years The missing Yi Teng is here, it’s your fault.”

After that, I sat idle for another half an hour, staring at the table full of food. Yi Teng couldn't eat any more, and was afraid that others would ask him why he didn't eat, so he kept persuading him to eat more, so he walked to the soot at the entrance of the restaurant. Smoke a cigarette next to the trash can.

Halfway through the smoke, he saw a red baseball cap move a little bit from the bottom of the stairs to the door of the store.It was only when he got closer that he saw that under the red brim he was wearing backwards was Liu Rugui's adult face that had subtly changed.

Eh?Yi Teng was stunned with a cigarette in his mouth.

Liu Rugui also seemed to be taken aback for a moment, then grinned and said "Hey".

Yi Teng nodded his head and answered vaguely, Liu Rugui waved his hands and walked into the store, seemingly without any embarrassment.

"How old are you and still dress like that. Liu Rugui, can you be more considerate?" Yi Teng continued to smoke the remaining half of his cigarette, remembering Liu Rugui's chin was faintly sticking to ink that hadn't been washed off, and couldn't bear it. Living in his heart complained about his white graffiti short sleeves and denim baggy pants.

After smoking two cigarettes, Yi Teng returned to his seat.It was found that Liu Rugui was sitting at the bottom consciously, helping others to get and pass food, and running around the venue.Yi Teng wished he could give him a little tip, let him sit down and have a quiet time, and eat something.

"Xiaobai, what I want is bacon, not bacon rolls." Shen Yihan raised his eyebrows and said angrily, Liu Rugui obediently went to get two bacon rolls back.

"Xiaobai, I want to drink mushroom soup."

Before he had eaten two bites of the bacon roll, Shen Yihan gave another order.

Liu Rugui went for another trip, brought back all kinds of food for the others, and finally put a plate of bowls in front of Yi Teng.

It seems that Wantuo tastes good, but Yi Teng is flustered.He got up again and went to the bathroom door to smoke two cigarettes, and poured himself a glass of watermelon juice as he passed the drink area.

When he returned to his seat, Yi Teng heard everyone talking about Liu Rugui's work.It turns out that he is now a freelance photographer, and he also teaches children to paint in the studio on weekends, and helps his aunt take care of the children by the way.And the child Yi Teng saw last time was Liu Rugui's cousin.

ah?Yi Teng couldn't help but let out an exclamation when he heard the last sentence.

Everyone at the table laughed and booed, saying that he hadn't come back for too long and couldn't keep up with the rhythm of the people in the office.He turned his head and glanced at Liu Rugui, and met Liu Rugui's straightforward eyes.Liu Rugui bent his eyes and smiled, Yi Teng turned his head away.

Not long after the conversation, Shen Yihan began to order Liu Rugui to do this and that again.Yi Teng was filled with irritability when he heard it, just like when he watched the magician slowly push the hair-thin steel needles into the round balloon in a crowded circus performance. He knew that the balloon would explode, but it was too late. Can't wait for the balloon to explode.That feeling is really scratching one's heart, frustrating.

Yi Teng remembered that when Liu Rugui found him standing in front of the window last night, his expression was obviously confused and angry, but after a long look at each other, he didn't reprimand him, he just went back to the room and hurriedly searched for two pictures. Newspaper glued up the hole and drew the curtains.

He wondered why Liu Rugui was still as submissive as he was when he was a child, and when he saw Shen Yihan acting like a baby at him blindly, and his classmates begging him to do this and that, he became very angry.Finally, when Shen Yihan was about to eat tiramisu, Yi Teng said in a half-joking tone, go by yourself and lose weight.

"My shoes are rubbing my feet, so my feet hurt." Shen Yihan blushed and turned pale, and finally acted coquettishly.

But Yi Teng couldn't stand her gorgeous lip gloss that never fades, and continued to add, "How much does it take for a sore foot?"

For a moment, the atmosphere at the table was a little awkward.

Liu Rugui glanced at Yi Teng, his eyes filled with peace of mind.Finding that Yi Teng ignored him, he hurriedly said that it was all right, and asked everyone what they wanted to eat, and he brought them together.

Yi Teng drank all the watermelon juice in the cup in one gulp, pushed the cup onto the table in front of him, got up and told the students present to eat, then left the table and walked towards the exit of the restaurant.

After going down several flights of stairs and turning to the entrance of Lifeng International, Yi Teng turned around and saw the red hat following behind him not too far away.

What?

Seeing that Yi Teng was finally willing to speak to him, Liu Rugui hurried up to him and asked, "Aren't you going to eat?"

Yi Teng promised to turn around and continue walking on the street. After walking a few steps, he heard Liu Rugui continue to ask: "Will you not tell Li Yang and the others?"

Yi Teng stopped, glanced back at Liu Rugui's clothes, and explained that there was no need, as he was not familiar with them.

Liu Rugui nodded, and continued to follow Yi Teng on the brightly lit street.

Walking through a crossroad, Yi Teng was extremely impatient with the feeling of following him everywhere, so he turned around and asked Liu Rugui why he didn't go back to eat with his guys.

Liu Rugui stopped, stared at the ground and thought for a moment, raised his eyes and said, "I'm here to see you."

Yi Teng laughed when he heard this, and asked, are you doing it for the window glass?That's not what I did.

Liu Rugui shook his head and replied, "It's not worth much."

Yi Teng became angry when he heard this, and said righteously to Liu Rugui, it's not me, if you don't believe me, go to the community to investigate and monitor.

After all, he quickened his pace, but he didn't know where to go.It's the hottest time in Xi'an, and the streets are still hot enough to spread pancakes after nightfall.He wiped off his sweat, all he knew was that he was near Jinhua Road, and then what?This city is already very strange to him.There seems to be no difference between the unfamiliar and the night tour.

After listening to his explanation, Liu Rugui didn't say anything, and continued to wander around with him.

Groups of friends and couples walked by.Yi Teng looked back at Liu Rugui, who was following behind Yi Teng, keeping a distance of half a meter.

Yi Teng suddenly recalled that one summer, whenever he couldn't sleep, he would stand at that intersection and smash the window of Liu Rugui's bedroom.Then, Liu Rugui would sneak out of the house, and walked many nights with him like this.Why did the road stop later?

Thinking of this, they walked to a garden in the middle of the street.Yi Teng found a bench closest to the trash can and sat down. He took out a cigarette from his trousers pocket and was about to light it, but Liu Rugui confiscated it inadvertently.

Yi Teng raised his leg to catch Liu Rugui, but he had nimbly moved away and ran away.

Not long after, Liu Rugui appeared in front of Yi Teng again, carrying two bottles of watermelon flavor in his hand.Passing one of the bottles to Yi Teng, he sat down beside Yi Teng, unscrewed the cap of the bottle and drank a few gulps.Looks thirsty.

After quenching his thirst, he turned his face and opened his eyes wide and asked Yi Teng why he didn't drink.

Yi Teng sighed, unscrewed the bottle cap and took a sip.When he was a child, he loved to drink watermelon-flavored eye-catching drinks.It's hard to find now.

"Drinking this will turn your tongue purple." Watching him drink the soda, Liu Rugui smiled and stuck out the tip of his tongue to show him.

The nerves behind Yi Teng's left ear throbbed again. Seeing the right moment, he reached out to grab the cigarette case from Liu Rugui's wide trousers pocket. When he was about to light a cigarette, he heard Liu Rugui seriously ask: "What do you want?" Did you come to see me last night?"

Yi Teng put down the hand that was holding the cigarette, and the question was irrelevant: "Have you checked the monitoring?"

Liu Rugui shook his head and said no.

"Why. Do you think it's me?"

Facing Yi Teng's question, Liu Rugui stared at the ground under his feet, narrowed his eyes and thought for a moment, and said to Yi Teng with a smile: "No. It's not like I haven't encountered such a thing before."

Yi Teng put away his cigarette, and confirmed with a slow tone: "This kind of thing? Smashing the window?"

Liu Rugui glanced at him.There was no reservation in that look, and Yi Teng couldn't help but ask again: "Why?"

Liu Rugui's eyes became more frank.There was no anger, no injury, but a kind of calm beyond resignation.

Yi Teng seemed to understand something. He scratched his brows, stretched out his hands and gestured for tying the rope, and said, "If it were me, I would catch those farting people, tie them to the launcher, and light them on fire." Just a bang! They flew into the universe. It is better to install a pair of fixed brackets on their backs, so that even if they die, they will die straight."

Liu Rugui was overjoyed after hearing his words.After laughing for a long time, he put away his smile and asked with concern: "Don't speak so viciously. Tell me how long have you not slept?"

Yi Teng shook his head, and continued to answer irrelevant questions: "Have you heard a joke? An insomniac told the doctor about his troubles of not being able to fall asleep. The doctor tried various prescriptions, but in the end he had to teach him to count while lying down. Try it first." Count to 3000."

As he spoke, he reached out and took off Liu Rugui's hat, put it on his head, straightened the brim of the hat, and asked, "Guess what happened in the end?"

Liu Rugui shook his head to signal him to continue talking, his gaze shifted from his left little finger to the LED screen of the brightly lit movie theater across the road.

"A few days later, the patient went to see the doctor with a sad face and said: 'Doctor, I still can't sleep. I kept counting as you said, and when I reached 1786, I was so sleepy that I drank a cup of coffee. Pull yourself together, and finally count to 3000. But after doing this, I can't sleep again."

After telling the joke, Yi Teng rubbed his eyes and laughed to himself, but Liu Rugui didn't smile, his eyes were full of worry.

"You still have such a good laugh." Yi Teng felt bored, returned the hat to Liu Rugui, put away his smiling face and stood up to continue walking.

After walking a few steps, he felt his clothes being grabbed.Looking back, Liu Rugui followed closely behind him, shaking the hem of his clothes, and asked, "Do you want to watch a movie?"

Yi Teng said what's so good about the broken movie, and turned his head to continue walking.

Liu Rugui didn't let go, and begged, "I want to watch a movie with you."

After that, he added mischievously: "It's considered as compensation for the broken glass."

In Yi Teng's mind, sleepiness and sobriety were entangled, and the soles of his feet began to ache. He shook off Liu Rugui's hand, and clarified: "It's for you to read, not for compensation. After reading it, don't pester me again."

Sitting next to Liu Rugui in the nighttime horror movie with rough special effects, Yi Teng fell asleep unexpectedly.

The sleeping Yi Teng had a dream.In the dream, he seemed to be talking to Liu Rugui for the first time in his life.

In the dark theater, Liu Rugui said, why are you here?Deliberately suppressing the extremely low voice has no flattery or security.

Why can't you come? The movie theater is not run by your family.

Yi Teng muttered to himself and sat on the seat next to him, looking over the sparse heads to the big screen.

Just as his eyes fell on the back of a familiar head in the front row, Liu Rugui put an arm around the back of his head, tightly covering his eyes with both hands.

stop looking.Nothing fancy.

Liu Rugui said without letting go, motioning him to get up and go out together.

But it was too late.What should be seen and what should not be seen is still clearly seen under the dim light.