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In the blink of an eye, another month has passed.

Chen Fu works two jobs a day, one is reading and cleaning in a bookstore, the other is cleaning tables and washing dishes at a barbecue stall on the street, one is during the day and the other is at night, there is no extra rest time at all. But the salary is decent.

Seeing him busy like a spinning top every day, Ma Yao couldn't help feeling sorry for him.

Influenced by his hard work, Xiang Zhenli actually wanted to find a job, but then he continued to hide in the dormitory, procrastinating day after day, and the matter ended without a problem.

There is one more reason for Xing Kai to laugh at him.

These small episodes did not affect Chen Fu's busyness, he still continued his work, and his savings had already covered the tuition fees for next year.

It's been a long time since school started, and it's time for make-up exams. Xiang Zhenli, who failed three subjects, said that he needed Chen Fu very much.

Every time Xiang Zhenli failed a subject, he would shamelessly ask Chen Fu to make up lessons, stalking and threatening Chen Fu with all means. Later, whenever he failed a subject, it became a routine to find Chen Fu to make up lessons. Of course, there is a supplementary tuition fee.

So before the make-up exam, the roommates in Chen Fu's dormitory were very obedient and the atmosphere was very harmonious.

Ma Yao and Xing Kai were playing computer games, and Xiang Zhenli listened obediently to Chen Fu's lecture.

Studying in college depends on self-awareness, and Xiang Zhenli will never have this kind of self-consciousness.

Chen Fu drew the key points for Xiang Zhenli in detail, and explained the past to him one by one along the way.

Xing Kai cursed angrily when he lost the game.

Ma Yao is very quiet when playing games, because he is the one who cheats people and has no right to swear.

This harmonious atmosphere didn't last long, when Chen Fu's cell phone rang, like a thunderclap on the ground, which shocked several people's hearts.

Chen Fu's cell phone ringtone was set to gourd baby by Xiang Zhenli at some point, and Chen Fu didn't know whose cell phone it was for a moment.

"Monster! Let go of my grandpa!"

Xiang Zhenli: "..." Who is so blind.

An unfamiliar number, Chen Fu answered the phone through gritted teeth.

"Hello?"

There was silence.

Chen Fu thought, Xiang Zhenli wouldn't set his color ring to this, right?

"Hello, who are you?"

There was still silence over there, Chen Fu waited for a while, and just about to hang up the phone, there came a voice, a low, familiar voice.

"Chen Fu..."

He opened his mouth wide, and hummed in a daze.

Maybe it was just a moment, he heard this voice, that kind of feeling was so strange that Chen Fu couldn't speak, and even felt tinnitus for a moment.

The two were talking on the phone, neither of them spoke, or rather, they didn't know what to say. The turbulent emotions in their hearts could overwhelm them. Chen Fu couldn't breathe, and almost shed tears.

There was no sound over there, if the call mode was not still on, I thought he hung up the phone.

In fact, they hadn't seen each other for a long time, more than two years, and Chen Fu didn't know why he recognized his voice the moment he opened his mouth.

He knew that he should hang up the phone right away, he could hear his heavy, short, embarrassing breathing, just for a moment when he heard his voice, none of his roommates knew that he was a shameful, despicable homosexual, He had said goodbye to the past long ago, but he couldn't like women for the time being. He hated that period of the past, he hated Fu Liangjing, who was promiscuous, and now he is in his dream school, with good studies and good relationships, everything They are all things he dreamed of before, he should hang up the phone immediately, and absolutely don't have anything to do with the past.

But he couldn't do it, his hands were shaking badly, and he couldn't do it just by pressing a button.

The roommates became suspicious. Seeing him like this, they didn't know what to do.

Chen Fu's eyes were red.

After a few minutes, the phone still hung up.

A long-distance call costs several dollars a minute. He hasn't charged his phone bill for a long time. Now that his phone bill ran out, he was forced to hang up.

Chen Fu held the phone stiffly, looked at the screen, and suddenly became at a loss.

Fu Liangjing...would he think it was him who hung up the phone?Will he still call?Why is he making this call?

A bunch of questions were skipped in my mind, but there were no answers.

Xing Kai had already turned off the computer. Looking at Chen Fu like this, he couldn't believe his eyes. After hesitating for a long time, he asked, "Are you okay?"

Chen Fu was still in a daze, maintaining that stiff posture. After a long while, when Xing Kai thought he would not answer him, he moved a bit and said, "It's all right."

Xiang Zhenli frowned and asked, "Who called you just now?"

Chen Fu suddenly covered his eyes, as if about to cry, the phone dropped from his hand on the table with a "bang".

"...a very annoying person."

But he still didn't cry in the end, the weakness was only for a moment, he went to the balcony to wash his face under Xiang Zhenli's horrified gaze, and soon returned to normal.

Chen Fu stayed on the balcony for half an hour, the cold water made him suppress everything.

He went back and continued to give lectures to Xiang Zhenli.

No one asked him about that phone call again.

Everyone has a secret that they don't want to tell, it may be about the family, it may be about the past experience, it may be a person who is difficult to tell, Chen Fu deeply buried the wound in his heart, and several people thoughtfully avoided it.

The accident that afternoon was carefully buried in the ground by several roommates, and soon disappeared. Chen Fu was grateful for their thoughtfulness.

Fortunately, he was still very busy after helping Xiang Zhenli to make up his lessons. He was so busy that he had no time to think about things that were available.

Another week in a blink of an eye.

Chen Fu received another call from an unknown number that day.

He hesitated for a long time before answering the phone. When he pressed the answer button, his fingertips were still trembling.

"Hey."

There was still silence over there, and they didn't speak all the time, but Chen Fu could hear his breathing, mixed with his own, giving an illusion that the two of them were not separated, but face to face. .

In the middle of the night, he stood on the street with few passers-by. The night wind in late spring was still cold, blowing on his body in waves, but he didn't feel it at all.

The longing deeply buried in my heart finally broke out and began to grow vigorously. It reached the point where Chen Fu couldn't control himself. In two years, the memory beautified everything in the past, and the bad side was deliberately shielded. It's all about the goodness of that person.

It turns out that they actually have so many good memories.

When they met and when they ended, it was all this kind of weather, neither hot nor cold, a beautiful season.

So Chen Fu clenched the phone tightly and listened quietly to the blending of each other's breathing.

In the end, he was forced to hang up the phone because he had no bill, but this time it was not Chen Fu's phone.

Perhaps subconsciously waiting for the call, Chen Fu paid a large amount of phone bills like never before, and secretly scolded himself for being cheap.

Two years can make people grow a lot, but some feelings are not enough to be diluted.

That day Chen Fu returned to the dormitory half an hour later than usual, several roommates were asleep, and no one noticed this small detail.

Chen Fu lay on the bed and didn't fall asleep all night.

He thought about the past, the present, and Fu Liangjing, thinking about everything.

He even resented Fu Liangjing a bit, why did he call him, why he disturbed everything after he calmed down, why he cared about him so much, it was just a phone call with no voice and no one talking.

The complicated thoughts made his brain go blank, and the past that was deliberately beautified emerged in his mind one by one. He remembered Fu Liangjing's favorite seafood, and remembered that they were together on weekends. He was taken to a place by Fu Liangjing who had no driver's license. Another strange place to have fun.

At that time, there were only the two of them on weekends. Later, at Fu Liangjing's party, when he announced the whole world, his serious profile, the only lights gathered on the two of them, that feeling of being fearless to the whole world.

Even though everything became so bad later, there are still so many good memories.

Chen Fu closed his eyes, holding back his tears.

There was a class in the afternoon of the next day, and Chen Fu got dizzy and took the wrong book. When the teacher called him up to ask questions, he could only stand there stupidly, failing to answer the questions for the first time.

The teacher knew that he had good grades, so he sat down without deducting points.

Later, he broke a plate while working, because he usually worked hard, and the boss didn't ask him to pay for it.

The good luck and bad luck of the day are all consumed.

Chen Fu knew that this would not work, but his mind went blank and he was at a loss.

He returned to the dormitory with his head downcast, lay down on the bed and fell into a deep sleep, and another day ended.

For a week, Chen Fu lived in a daze.

The feeling of fullness during work and study disappeared, replaced by numbness and emptiness. His concept of time was vague, and he couldn't tell the passage of time clearly. The people coming and going in the bookstore made him feel disgusted.

In fact, this feeling has always been there. When I graduated, when I was studying, when I was alone, and in many cases, only a vague idea flashed by, but it has never been so clear.

He has always buried his feelings in the deepest part of his heart. Sometimes even Zhou Zhengxin, who has been with him since he was a child, doesn't know what he is thinking, but in fact, sometimes everything is hidden so deep that even he doesn't know Know what it is.

He studied hard, worked hard, and tried to let himself get rid of the past, but the extravagant hope buried deep in his heart never disappeared.

Fu Liangjing's random phone call brought him earth-shaking changes.

Let all his thoughts be turned out, exposed to the sun, and the rotten wounds intensified.

The more and more clear thoughts made him more and more at a loss.

He has always been clumsy when it comes to things like feelings.

Parents in many families give their children selfless love and teach them how to treat their families, but when Chen Fu was a child, the first thing his father taught him was "betrayal", and his mother taught him "sadness", which he never had Having stayed in a warm and harmonious family, even Zhou Zhengxin's parents were the kind of couple who seem to be in harmony with each other.

It was the first time he had such strong feelings, and it was the first time he knew that there was such a beautiful person in the world who made him reluctant to hurt, reluctant to leave, and reluctant to like him.

He couldn't express this feeling, Fu Liangjing's promiscuity made his heart ache, Fu Liangjing's righteousness made him restless, their relationship made him anxious, he wanted to be fearless like a soldier, dare to love and hate , but the guard against this world made him retract his head like a turtle, escaping from everything.

Fu Liangjing called again, but still didn't speak.

There was silence for about 2 minutes, still only the sound of each other's breathing.

Chen Fu could only ask first, "Why don't you speak?"

Fu Liangjing said hoarsely, "I'm afraid I'll scare you."

Chen Fu asked, "What happened to your throat?"

Fu Liangjing smiled and said, "It's nothing, just drink."

Chen Fu asked again: "Why do you want to drink?"

Fu Liangjing remained silent again.

Chen Fu didn't want to talk anymore, and stayed silent with him.

Two years is not long enough to say it is short, it is long enough to completely change some things and some people, but not short enough to smooth out some things and some feelings, the two of them hang around like this, Chen Fu feels that Fu Liangjing is not good today May speak.

This time the phone call was unprecedentedly long, probably because both of them had sufficient phone bills, when Chen Fu wanted to hang up, Fu Liangjing unexpectedly spoke up.

"Chen Fu, do you miss me?"

His voice was hoarse and unpleasant, and it didn't have the refreshing magnetism it had before. Chen Fu's eyes were red, but he still hung up the phone.

After that, Fu Liangjing never called again.

Chen Fu also adjusted his state and returned to normal, at least on the surface.

He has concentrated on his work again, has never broken a plate, is well prepared for class, and can answer every time when he is asked by the professor. The answer is perfect, and he got rid of the half-dead state in the dormitory. I breathed a sigh of relief.

However, this easy life did not last long.

Fu Liangjing called Chen Fu again a month later.

Chen Fu connected, thinking that Fu Liangjing would remain silent.

His condition this time was even worse than before, and Chen Fu could even imagine his appearance through the phone, probably very decadent.

He said, "Chen Fu, I miss you very much."

Chen Fu thought he was hallucinating.

Seeing that Chen Fu didn't speak, he repeated again and again: "Chen Fu, I miss you."

"I miss you."

Chen Fu's tears still fell uncontrollably, and he covered his face and began to cry.

Hearing his choking voice, Fu Liangjing was at a loss for a while, and could only listen quietly.

He had seen him cry once in total, that was when he took a hot spring in the third year of high school.

The last time I saw him cry, I gave him a glass of water to comfort him and left.

Hearing him cry this time, I don't know what's going on, but I feel very distressed.

At the end of the phone call, Chen Fu asked Fu Liangjing where he was now.

Chen Fu said, "Wait for me, okay?"

The distance between them was hundreds of thousands of miles, and Fu Liangjing knew that it was impossible for him to come here.

But Fu Liangjing still agreed.

"Ok, I will wait for you."

After hanging up the phone, Chen Fu went straight to the counselor's office.

He told the counselor: "My father was in a car accident. Although he never took care of me, I still want to take a leave of absence to see him."

He described the accident as very serious.

Because the school is far from home, the counselor gave him ten days off.

The counselor comforted Chen Fu and said, "I've also learned about your family's situation. Although your father doesn't treat you well, it's a matter of life and death. Take a good look at him."

Chen Fu wanted to laugh, very ironically.

He went back to the dormitory to pack two pieces of clothes, talked to Ma Yao who was not in class, and left.

After sitting on the train for two days and two nights, the train backed up twice before he came to the city where Fu Liangjing went to school.

Along the way, my mood gradually changed from anticipation and longing to loss and apprehension, and I was still top-heavy until I got out of the car.

He came to Fu Liangjing's side in such a hurry and recklessly.

Chen Fu didn't dare to think about Fu Liangjing's reaction the moment he saw him.

He couldn't help thinking that those phone calls might be him teasing him, it might be Fu Liangjing's boring pastime when he was bored, it might be a game he played with others, or he might be talking nonsense when he was drunk .

As long as there is a little accident, it is enough to pour cold water on Chen Fu's enthusiasm from beginning to end.

It's been two years, but I still haven't made any progress at all, and I can't change the problem of pushing an inch even if I give it some sweetness.

Chen Fu asked Fu Liangjing for his address, and after a little searching, he found where he lived.

A medium-sized community with a lake next to it, the environment is very good.

When knocking on the door, Chen Fu could hear his heart beating out of his chest, thumping, rhythmically like his knocking on the door.

It took a long time for the door to open, and Fu Liangjing who opened the door was decadent and sloppy.

Thin, this is the first thought of the two people seeing each other.

Fu Liangjing's hair was so long that it covered his eyes, the room and his body smelled of alcohol and sour, Xun Chen Fu stepped back, the curtains in the room were closed, and the light was so dim that it almost caught up with the old folks in the country house.

Fu Liangjing froze in place the moment he saw Chen Fu.

He couldn't help rubbing his eyes, as if he was dreaming.

Because of his action, Chen Fu's heart finally calmed down.

Fu Liangjing stepped forward and hugged him tightly.

Chen Fu's eyes were sore, he blinked, but did not let the tears fall, and slowly hugged Fu Liangjing back.

"I'm here, looking for you."

The author has something to say: My aunt came today... I tested 50 meters of physical education... standing long jump... and 1 minute of sit-ups...

I guess my stomach will hurt to death today...

Nima...╭∩╮