Shen Nian

○Fortunately, I am not alone

In fact, I have long been used to being alone, which was the case in my original school.

It was only after I got to this school that I started to get along with some people. Really, I just wanted Li Yu to feel that I had a good life, but I never felt that the original me had a bad life.

I became my old self again, doing exercises alone, and staying in my seat alone during recess.I thought no one would notice me, just like before, but I forgot that I had changed my surroundings and I had friends.

Taozi finally walked to my desk in a panic and looked at me seriously. "Just tell me what's wrong with you. You don't walk with me after school, and you don't talk to me or my classmates. We didn't provoke you, did we? Your mother invited me to dinner and let me take care of you Yes, you really make me unable to explain to my aunt."

"I'm fine." I said simply and clearly, without looking up at him, even though I heard not only blame in his words, but also full of concern, it was really warm, so warm that it almost melted my coldness .

"Actually, you can tell us something. Maybe you can't think about it when you are alone in a dead end, but as the saying goes, a bystander can tell." The longest thing you've said to me since we got together.

I'm really touched, in this situation.But I looked up at the two of them separately, opened my mouth, but still didn't say anything.I really can't say it, in the "concerned" eyes of the two of them and most of the students in the class, yes, because there are inevitably people waiting to hear gossip in the crowd.

"Well, since you don't want to say it, then we won't force you." Obviously Ji Yangchun also found that this is not a place to talk, but I still heard the concern, and I was very moved.

"Is there anything you can't say, idiot, tell me, my buddy will help you!" Tao Zi said even more excitedly because of Ji Yangchun's words.

We all bowed our heads and ignored him. I really don’t know how Li Yu would spend a meal to ask Taozi to take care of me. I was quite embarrassed when I first found out. In my memory, Taozi was still that handsome boy , After meeting, I knew, really, we are no longer children.Now my feeling is that Li Yu was a bit of a waste of money and food for such a human being who doesn't know how to read words and expressions.

Time passed slowly like this, and Tao Zi came to my desk with lightning speed when school was over.Well, in fact, I waited for him on purpose, otherwise he would not have "cut" me, because all my books are placed on the desk, and I never bring homework books or anything when I go home. There are a lot of materials at home , I can't finish reading.But Tao Zi is different, he carries a lot of books every day, the reason is that his mother said that his foundation is poor, and he needs to understand the most basic things in the second year of high school.Yes, I really have something to say to them, because I am really too eager to sort out my messy head, and I need Ji Yangchun's so-called bystander.

"Am I sick?" I said when there were only three of us in the room.

"If you don't get better, you will really get sick, autism." Taozi answered my words impatiently.

"You don't know what to do. I think you've been distracted in class recently." Ji Yangchun then asked me.

"I always feel that someone may be hurt by me. I am worried about her, but I don't know what I am worried about." I said, "I always feel that I am sick. The more I live like this, the more I worry about her. The more I feel that I am sick, but I still have to live like this every day, pleasing the people I need to please every day, I feel that I am sick, I feel that I am not happy." I was a little incoherent.

"Oh, it's so annoying." Tao Zi complained. "It's very simple. If you are worried about him, go to see him. Whoever his mother is, if you see that he is safe and sound, then don't worry anymore."

To be honest, I felt a little relieved for a moment, and then I glanced at Ji Yangchun, but he didn't say anything.But nodded in approval.

"Hey, I haven't finished talking!" Tao Zi said dissatisfied. "I want to say that since you don't want to pretend to please or don't want to please, then don't do that, no one is forcing you."

I agreed with the first half of Tao Zi's words, but automatically ignored the second half, because even if I didn't want to, I would continue to please, because that person was my mother, a poor woman.

I saw Ji Yangchun frowned and said nothing.My intuition tells me that Ji Yangchun knows something, but what would he know?Some people always live openly and full of doubts in the doubts of others.

In this crowded crowd, I was suddenly a little lucky.

Fortunately, I am not alone.