Shen Nian

○ still not possible

When I arrived at Chen An's house, for the first time ever, he was still asleep.

It was Chen An’s father, Chen Jiaqi, who opened the door for me. He told me that Chen An was resting, let me wait a moment, and he smiled apologetically at me after he finished speaking. Then he poured me a glass of juice and asked me to do whatever I wanted, and then Said something happened and left.

I feel like I've been sitting on Chen An's sofa for a long time, even if it's not very polite, I still turn on their TV because I'm so bored.The TV also didn't have any substantive content, I could only make do with watching a rerun of a variety show, and unconsciously my thoughts flew to the day when Jiang Yufei came to see me.God knows, I don't want to dwell on that day, but I just can't.Jiang Yufei came here on Wednesday, which means that on Thursday and Friday, she always jumped into my mind for no reason.

In fact, I have been very worried about her, and I don't know what I am worried about, because I really don't want her to visit me again, and I don't want to have anything to do with her, but I just worry about her.I always think of her tears, her canine teeth, and her questioning of me.But I'm still Li Yu's child, and I hope I can give her enough confidence, so I don't allow any external factors to break my changes, and neither can Jiang Yufei.

When Chen An woke up, the variety show had already ended, and the trailer of an idol drama was broadcasting on TV.Chen An hurriedly said sorry to me and went to wash up. When he came out again, I had already turned off the TV and stared at the glass of juice.

"My dad doesn't know that you don't drink fruit juice. He always thinks that girls like to drink this kind of sweet stuff. I'll change a cup of tea for you." He was already walking towards the kitchen with the cup in his hands as he spoke. His voice was also getting louder so I could hear him clearly. "We went to Shenzhen yesterday for an exchange meeting. I forgot to tell you. We flew back in the early morning, so..." He gave me an expression that you understand, and then put the brewed tea on the coffee table in front of me, Turning around, he took the breakfast left by Chen Jiaqi for himself.

"Don't you need to warm it up?" I was startled to see him start to sit down and wolf down the breakfast that had been cold for a long time.

"Oh, it's okay, I'm not in a hurry to finish eating." He said indifferently. "Besides, I'm used to it."

"Oh." Then I didn't say anything, just watched him mechanically put the food in front of him into his mouth, then chewed and swallowed it hastily.After a long time like this, he finished his breakfast.

"Actually, you don't like to eat what you just ate." I asked him after he finished putting away the tableware and returned to the living room.

"Why do you think so?" he asked, adjusting his gold-rimmed glasses.

"Because every bite is eaten quickly, but every bite is barely chewed, and then swallowed, and the most important thing is that you eat very little in every bite." This is how we spend a "treatment".Talk about some things, but this time is different, I really have something to ask him.It's just that I started with a topic that is not too rigid. This topic has nothing to do with my real purpose, but it can indeed make our conversation more natural and normal.

"You have the talent to be a psychiatrist, and you observe carefully." He said and then smiled.

"Forget it, I'm already a child with a mental illness, how can I be qualified to see a doctor for others." Without hesitation, I brought the topic to "illness".

"What?" he asked sharply.Because usually our chats are never brought here by me, and even after he said he should respect my orientation, he didn't pay special attention to it.

I told him all about Jiang Yufei's coming to see me, and also told him my true feelings, and my unreasonable worry about her.

Chen An didn't speak for a long time, and Shen Se seemed to be thinking about something.I just stared at him and didn't say a word, but I obviously felt a low pressure, which has never happened between us, even the first time I saw him, he asked me a lot about my deepest thoughts Not even time.

"Do you still have a strong resistance to men now?" He asked suddenly.

"It's okay." Well, I admit, I was very nervous. After he suddenly spoke, I was nervous for a second for no reason, and then recovered. "You know, it's fine to be friends. As for intimate contact, I haven't had it yet, but as long as I think about me and a man, I feel disgusting."

"Let's try." He said seriously.To be honest, my eyes widened instantly because I was so surprised, but I have always wanted to try it, so I just nodded without thinking.

When I nodded, he stretched out his hand, then held my hand in his palm, and looked up at me with a questioning look.I felt his palms were sweaty, and maybe a little nervous. "It's okay." I said.

"Then I proceed to the next step?"

"it is good."

When I was actually hugged by him, I started to feel a little nervous, and obviously felt tightness in my chest. I thought that was the feeling I should have when hugging a boy, so I nodded again foolishly, I know this Time shouldn't be cowardly, and the next step should be kissing, so I held my breath and waited.

Chen An seemed to be really nervous, I heard his heart beating fast, my ear was right on his chest, it was deafening.I felt his head start to drop, and I closed my eyes in cooperation. That period of time was like a century away, and my chest tightness became more and more intense, and finally I felt sick, but I was still there I resisted it, thinking that maybe it would be all right after the kiss, isn't it said that kissing is a wonderful thing.

At the moment when Chen An's lips touched mine, I still couldn't bear it. When I pushed him away, he was obviously a little stiff. I rushed to the bathroom of his house. There seemed to be a pair of eyes behind me trying to see through me, but I don't have time to explain any.

I didn't spit out anything, just retched a few times.

Then my world turned upside down.

The author has something to say:

I am a newcomer writer, and my writing skills are average. I am very happy to see that my articles have hits one after another.You are welcome to give some suggestions after reading it, and you can also ask about the development of the story. I like spoilers very much, although I only wrote eight chapters in word.Well, in fact, I hope to communicate with you, so that I will have more thoughts!In the end, I want to say that I am really lazy, and I am really overwhelmed by the discovery of Rigeng, hehe, I will work hard!