Shen Nian

○Your peace of mind

Chen An is the most gentle boy among the boys I have come into contact with.Yes, you read that right, "most", or "only".

I don't go to the high school that has the girl I like anymore, it's not even geographically far away.Li Yu brought me to this strange place in the same city. I rented a house near the school, and then I ran a melon and fruit shop from morning to night. Looking at me well-behaved every day, I seemed to be very satisfied.

I think Li Yu is a poor person. I found out when I divorced, and I wanted to give her the sense of security she wanted.But I am still afraid all the time, I am afraid that she will suddenly say "hasty, don't lie to your mother, I know you are still that sick." Then she will be more pitiful than when she was divorced, and I will be doomed .But I still have to lie to her, tell some boy what happened today, or bring one or two boys home one day, tell her: "Mom, this is my classmate or friend.", and promise her that I will definitely be there I fell in love with a boy one day, and I almost believed it myself.

Life goes on without fire

Now Chen An's "treatment" has become a part of my life, and he no longer charges Li Yu's "treatment fee", because he said that he doesn't use any professional knowledge on me now, he respects me, he thinks Everything is still going with the natural development.Of course he didn't tell Li Yu that. I've always wondered how Li Yu, a woman with strong self-esteem and strong principles, was persuaded by Chen An. Chen An said it was a secret.So I go to Chen An's house once a week, and chat with him quietly like an old friend, this is the so-called "treatment".

I already have a good friend in the new school, his name is Yuan Yuantao, everyone calls him Tao Zi, and I am no exception.Tao Zi is my classmate in elementary school, he is the kind of boy with full of male hormones, but he is also a straight-line thinking person. I think Li Yu must have deliberately arranged for him, so I am in the same class as him, and I have received special care from him .The deskmate in the new school is a boring gourd named Ji Yangchun, a very boring boy.

Yes, I have adapted well here, and I get along well with my classmates. I am very cheerful, at least in my own understanding.I am living in the way Li Yu likes, mixing with those "cute" boys in Li Yu's mouth, in her opinion, I have made great progress.

After Li Yu and Luo Yijie divorced, I was like this, cheerful and humorous like a fool

Sometimes I think that maybe I will be like this all my life, and I am very close to everyone, but after all, I can’t find anyone in my circle that I can love. Maybe I will get married in the end, with someone who can kiss and hug , Even a man who doesn’t get sick or wants to end his life when he is in love gets married, and then we will have our own children if possible. Boys and girls are not important, but I hope he will show his cute canine teeth when he smiles.

But sometimes I will be very unwilling, I hope I will be with the girl who has a sweet smile, we don't have to get married, but she knows everything I think.We live in a tiny apartment, we are happy every day, I can put my arms around her to sleep, and we decorate our "home" together.We got the blessing of our family, that is simply the happiest thing in the world.

But everything is "thinking".I still can't cuddle and kiss a boy, and I can't be with a girl I like.

I felt like my skin was soaked in water, it drank all the time, but it was still dry and ripped off.

Bloody.