Shen Nian

○Refuge and lively year

Jiang Yufei came, and she came when we were still laughing at Taozi's ridiculous things in the morning.

"What are you laughing at?" She asked as soon as she entered the door, she didn't notice my face with a frozen smile at all.

"Taozi poured water on the bed in the middle of the night, and when he got up in the morning, he thought he had wet the bed, so he put on his underwear and planned to escape." Ji Yangchun couldn't help smiling when he said that.

"No, Taozi's IQ is not enough, so he's not that good. Say, is there still your share?"

"That's right," Ji Yangchun shrugged and said, "I lied to him."

Jiang Yufei looked back at me with a smile, and then Ji Yangchun seemed to realize something, and said: "I haven't eaten, it's already noon, and auntie hasn't come back, let's go out to eat, I treat you."

"Me," I said.

"Why, do you still expect you to cook for us?" Ji Yangchun hurriedly said, the strange feeling that Ji Yangchun knew something came again.But in fact, he doesn't have to be afraid of what I say, because the moment I speak, I really don't know what I should say.

"Okay, let's go then." Jiang Yufei said loudly, not knowing what she was hiding.

"Yes, Auntie definitely doesn't want girls in the house." Tao Zi continued.

"Taozi," Ji Yangchun stopped him, "what are you talking about? Let's go, everyone, just remember to lock the door."

The streets during the Chinese New Year are a little hard to hide the loneliness, and there are few pedestrians.

We went to a Sichuan restaurant, and Jiang Yufei was surprisingly quiet, even after the meal, Tao Zi babbled on something.

I really feel sorry for her, I can't see her looking depressed in front of me, but I can't help it, I can't even make myself look more natural and generous.But I'm very glad that she didn't ask me why Li Yu didn't like girls at home.But when we were still together before, she would think of something and ask something.Why even she has changed, I don't know, I feel sorry for her, and I also feel sorry for myself.

They all went home, and the desertedness of the whole house frightened me for a moment.It was very late when Li Yu came, I knew that it would take her a day to go to which "neighbor"'s house, and I knew it when I saw the note in the morning.

"Both Zitao and that child have left? I thought they were here, so I stayed for a long time. Have you eaten yet?"

I didn't speak, I don't know why I actually had a kind of hatred welling up in my heart, and I looked at her fixedly.

"What's the matter? Are you unhappy?" She asked with concern.

"Why don't you get married?" I said calmly.

"what?"

"Why don't you get married? You and Uncle Chen, he treats you so well, why do you still go to see that man so cheaply, Li Yu, are you cheap!" I was suddenly very angry, really, in the morning I I was also angry when I saw that note, but it's not like that, I know some emotions are mixed in it.

I saw tears slip from her eyes, and she slapped me hard. "Grandma is old, can't I go and see her?" She shouted, she was also very angry, and her whole body was trembling.

I touched the place where I was beaten, and murmured, "Is that so?" It seemed to be asking myself, or asking Li Yu again. "Don't you know? Li Yu, you are deceiving yourself, I" I finally choked up and couldn't speak. While hurting her, I spared no effort to hurt myself. I pity her, and I love her, but I hurt her. she.

"I'm sorry, mom was wrong, mom won't, never come back." She hugged me and said, "Don't cry, don't cry, I panic when you cry, you know?"

"Mother."

If we hug each other, we can only be the ones who give each other warmth. In this hopeless world, we must support each other.Then I thought of Jiang Yufei during the day, she finally changed from crying softly to howling loudly, she really panicked, hugged me tightly, stroked my back one by one, but I suddenly felt so cold.I remember what Chen An said, to love someone worthy of my love within the scope of my ability, and then adapt myself to love.

I feel that I am living in despair, so desperate, so desperate that I feel that the self-confidence I have just established, my transformation, and everything about me has disappeared.

The warmth comes from Li Yu, I hope it can melt the coldness that suddenly swept me.

May we all stop being sad, which is a particularly bad thing.

The author has something to say:

Immediately into the university, and then some things can not hide after all.We're all going to be fine, where we can see each other, but I'm sorry, I love you, and I love her too.