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"Do you want to go out?" She held a piece of gilded paper between her pale fingers, her indifferent tone seemed to be stating an unimportant matter.However, I have never been out of this gorgeous courtyard since I was born, just like a captive bird has never left the cage specially made by a craftsman. bouncing.But in the future, I will hold the key to the cage door, but I have to lock myself.

Seeing my hesitation, she added: "No one will find out."

I looked at her eyebrows.I was reflected in her eyes, the exact same face as hers.So I hate eye contact with her, it's uncomfortable.It was as if my soul was imprisoned by her eyes.If one day I am locked in her body, it must be the worst nightmare.

"I don't want to go out." This sentence almost drained all my strength.

In the candlelight, her face was indistinct in the wind.There was a secretive smile on the corner of her mouth, she said: "His Majesty the Emperor will take his subjects to hunt and bring us the animal heads used in the sacrifice. He will definitely go there in advance to patrol the place. And I will also go there the night before the sacrifice Get ready for work the next morning."

"So what? With my father's formation, I will be discovered within half an hour if I go out."

She held my hand: "That formation is based on blood." Cold fingers clasped my wrist firmly.She showed a sad smile: "And we have the same blood on our bodies."

I understand.

According to her plan, as long as I change into her clothes, I can leave the cage openly.You'll have a chance to find him in the evening.And she would stay home as me.The formation can't really distinguish us, it can only be based on the fact that the number within a certain range is always no less than one.When we were young, we tried to escape together, and finally found that some small tricks can temporarily blind the formation.But a mere quarter of an hour can't go far, and we still failed to break through this time limit, so we gave up altogether.

And now, as long as I can come back and exchange with her before everyone wakes up.Everything will be like it never happened.The risk of this is extremely low.For those of us who hate and know each other, it is not difficult to imitate each other's words and actions.No one would have thought that I would be willing to challenge my late father's formation just to go out for a few hours at night.If caught I would face extremely severe punishment with very little reward for success.No one can understand my motives for doing this unless they perceive my feelings for him.

I don't know when that started, and I can't find any reason why.The rationale is that he was my only choice—if I had to choose an affectionate.What about him?Maybe it's out of sympathy, maybe it's concern for peers, maybe it's just treating me as an ordinary playmate. To him, I'm a tree on the side of the road outside his house. When he passes by, he will stop inadvertently. To me It is said that he is a pool of water in the boundless desert, maybe there are other lakes in the desert, but they are not places where I can go, only he can keep me from being scorched to death by the scorching sun.

As I became aware of my feelings I became increasingly anxious.And now, some ideas are starting to become clear.

We switched outfits that evening.She didn't shy away from changing clothes in front of me. The lines that belonged to women have become clear. The thin skeleton is not so thin because of the embellishment of fat and meat. From the back, she can draw a gentle and smooth curve.We were born from the same place, and we evenly shared the glory and sin of the same flesh and blood, but fate will knead us into different endings, and the accumulated sorrow will wind into thin blood lines after years, only Death brings us back to the same place.

I put on her clothes, a thick robe woven from deep crimson and fiery gold, the edge of the inner garment exposed from the neckline is white, and the bright silver trim is extremely dazzling.Every piece of heavy clothes carried her body temperature, layers of slight warmth finally turned into suffocating heat, I was trapped in it but couldn't help jumping for joy.Because I'm going to see him.

And she knelt down in front of me, took out her favorite lip balm and smeared it on me.The rich rose red smudged a little bit, and her icy fingertips touched my lower lip, gently choking the words I was about to say.

"Don't say anything. This moment, this is enough."

I didn't ask.I didn't ask her why I was upset, I didn't ask her why she was upset.I did not say anything, as she asked.When I left, the maple leaves in the yard were red, and under the sunset glow and the setting sun overlapped to form a large area of ​​gorgeous color. When I looked back, she was standing barefoot on the bluestone slab, leaning against the wooden door, the door opened Behind the door is a deep and mortifying gray black, and her long black hair hangs down behind her, hidden in the shadows.

Then, she smiled.That is, I have never seen a gentle smile.Sincere, clear, without a trace of malice.It's as if it doesn't exist in my memory, as a child.

I laid out what I will use tomorrow according to the list she gave me.Although our voices are not exactly the same, the difference can be adjusted to a very subtle level through skill. In addition, most of the people here have never seen me, and they would not think that the one who appears here is not the deity.

By the time the moon rose over the mountains over there, most people had fallen asleep.According to the previous arrangement, at this time he was inspecting the woods to the west.I changed out of my ordinary clothes and sneaked out.

The moonlight was very bright, and the woods were quiet and peaceful. Accompanied by the sound of gurgling water and rustling insects, I ran along the river alone.The woods, which are much wider than the courtyard, seem to have no end, the night sky that is not blocked by the wall, the river flowing to the unknown distance... These ordinary things used to be the scenery I dreamed of.

And I finally saw his figure.

He was so tired from walking that he stopped and walked to the river bank.

He scooped up a handful of water.Is he too sleepy?

He is on the other side.

But, I really want to see him, I really want to get to him as soon as possible.There are so many feelings I want to share with him.I jumped into the water and swam right up to him.

When I swam to the shore, he had already collected firewood.

"Come here and dry your clothes first when they're wet." He said while lighting a fire.I walk up to him.The sound of firewood burning subtly rang out at night, and I felt unexpectedly warm, a completely different feeling from candles.We sat in silence and he didn't ask, how I got here, or how I found him.I originally wanted to say a lot to him, but when I sat beside him, I felt very happy even without saying a word.

"How long does it take for clothes to dry?" I asked.

"I don't know, it will take a while. Don't jump into the river suddenly next time, it's scary." He complained.

"It's cold," I said in his coat.

"You have a lot to do. Forget it, come here."

I was stunned.

"What are you stupid doing there?" He complained and leaned over: "Is this better?"

"I'm fine, I'll watch the night with you."

"Forget it, it's okay. There are others anyway. Go to sleep if you're tired." He hugged me and yawned.

"It's okay, let's sleep together. There will be no beasts."

"He's really good at talking big."

"That's because I'm the elder brother of the witch."

Even though he sleeps in the wild, he is happy to be with him even though he is cold and hungry.

This was the most peaceful sleep I've ever had in my life.