GL at the same table

Distressed.

Even though the warm afterglow of the sunset spread around her, there was a bleak chill all over her that made my heart twitch.It seems to hold her in the past and send some warmth.

But, I dare not!

Maybe she turned her head when she heard the sound of my door opening.When he saw it was me, he froze for a moment, and then suddenly showed me a smile that he hadn't seen for a long time.So gentle, so beautiful.

She said, you are back.

I nodded, not knowing whether to walk over or not.

She tightly grasped the "diary"-like book in her hand, her eyes were smudged with some emotions that I didn't want to explore, the smile from just now was suppressed on her lips, and she said, Xiaoyu, I'm leaving our class soon...

When I heard her say to leave, my heart suddenly became anxious, and I hurriedly asked, you are leaving, where are you going?

Another class, another school.

He couldn't help walking towards her quickly, and there was a soreness in his eyes.I just stood in front of her, lowered my head, and looked at her without blinking.

She smiled again, which made me feel a little embarrassed.

She said, my parents said they wanted to pick me up to go to school where they work, and I also wanted to get some care that I had seldom received over the years.And X city is a good place, as my parents wish, maybe I will have a bright future.

But, I can't bear you.

I didn't say anything, I just asked in a low voice, when will you leave?I wanted to give myself a big mouth when I asked this question, it was too hurtful.There was a flash of water in her eyes, and the crying sound was suppressed in her voice, but she still smiled, um, after the final exam, should I leave after the winter vacation?

Something sharp pierced through my heart, and it hurt for a moment as if I was suffocating.I heard me say in a slightly choked voice, are you in such a hurry?

☆、"Girlfriend"

She raised her head, stretched out her hand to wipe off the cool moisture on my face, curled her lips, probably trying to comfort me with a smile, tried hard, but didn't laugh, she said, Xiao Yu, I'm sorry before.I thought I would fall in love like a lover, but I didn't know that it was my fault after a period of hesitation when I was young and ignorant.In the face of the reality and the future, the heart I set up that I thought could defeat everything turned out to be so fragile and vulnerable... Oh, I think, I probably didn't fall in love with you.It's like a best friend... just wants to monopolize your attention.

She also said, in the future... no, I mean, in the few remaining days, shall we be as good as before, back to the beginning...

Something in her eyes struggled to come out, but she suppressed it back severely.

I am so distressed, so distressed.

I could no longer suppress the remorse in my heart, leaned down~, held her tightly in my arms, choked up and said, I...I have an illusion, anyway...you can treat it as an illusion anyway, I found myself She seems to like you too... She trembled, and her arms that were hanging on her sides suddenly hugged me tightly.Then I heard her suppressed crying, I didn't want her to have any burden to go to her parents' city, so I had to continue, heh, just like you, it's the kind of love of girlfriends...

However, I never lack girlfriends.

But -

For a long time, we absorbed each other's breath like a homeless man cherishing the only water source in the desert. After all, there are very few opportunities to hug unscrupulously like now, and there are very few left.

Her greasy cheeks were pressed against my neck, she said, best friend... oh... but... but... she paused for a moment, and then said in a crying voice again, I can't bear it... I really can't bear it...

Can't bear anything, can't you bear me?She didn't say anything, she just hugged me and cried, crying depressingly, heartbroken.

Many years later, I found out that she was reluctant to part with this relationship that had finally responded and was no longer a one-man show.

As if nothing happened, we became good "girlfriends" who talked about everything, ate together, slept together, and were inseparable as close as we could.

Because our time together is running out.

Wen Caizi also approached her a few times recently, but she dismissed them with a few words. She said that they were not suitable, and that she had someone she liked in her heart. As long as that person was always there, she would not like anyone else.She also tried to forget that person before, but it was useless, her heart didn't seem to be her own, as long as she thought that that person would disappear from her heart, she would feel a throbbing pain, as if she couldn't breathe.

I was lucky enough to hear these things thanks to the gossip girls in our class who like to listen to the corners.

Is the person in her heart me?

It's not about being a girlfriend, it's an illusion——

But that feeling clearly told me that it was very real, and I found that when the night fell, I was so afraid that the day of parting would come.

If it comes—

Maybe, we will never see each other again in this life.

At the end of the term, it came quietly like that.When I was most reluctant and wanted to cry the most, I quietly broke into the casement I was tightly fastening.

I know that once the end of the period is over, it means loss.

I regret that I understood it so early, but mustered up the courage to admit it so late.

She said she wanted to watch the sunset with me.I thought about it for a long time, but never mentioned it.

On the lawn of the playground, she rested her head on my shoulder and closed her eyes. The biting wind blew by, and her body shivered from the cold.I put the coat that was put aside on her body, and reprimanded her in a low voice, look, I will say that it will be windy for a while, let you wear clothes, it is cold now.

She smiled, and said in a soft voice, Xiaoyu's body is as warm as a stove, as long as she hugs her like this, she will be extremely warm... As she spoke, she moved her body and rubbed against my arms, much warmer than a coat .

I was speechless and had no choice but to hug her tightly.Cherish it, time is really running out.

The golden light gradually faded to yellow and then became orange, and the light that finally disappeared into the clouds seemed to confirm our relationship.

In the end, after many years, intimacy will become strangers who have no intersection at all with the passage of time.

Even if, I can't bear it anymore!

☆, cut heart

I'm getting more and more afraid. Once the final period is over, it means——

No matter how scared I am, how much I deliberately want to do something meaningful in the only time I have so that she won't be too sad because the day of parting comes, but I can never make up for the guilt in my heart.

In the end, I still owe her a lot.

It seems that I have exhausted my whole body and mind to mend the previous wounds, but there are still cracks and scars.

I don't dare to be too ambiguous with her, for fear that an accident will hinder her final decision. After all, as she said, maybe in that city, she will have a brighter future.

But time always passes quickly, especially when your conscience finds that you want to cherish it, the second hand on the clock seems to make you regret it on purpose, and it clearly runs faster.

The bell at the end of the term rang inadvertently.As expected, the white horse passed away like a gap.

In other words, she was leaving.

On the day after the exam, our last night at school, Rong Jing and I chose to stay in the dormitory with a tacit understanding.

That day, the two in the dormitory all went home, and the whole school estimated that there were not many people left.

At night, she lay in my arms as usual, but the sweet atmosphere was haunted by the sadness of parting.

So many years have passed, and those words she said are still fresh in my memory.Some kind of long-unplucked string buried in my mind has a faint rhythm.

We lay together on her bed, silent, silent.Maybe I'm afraid that I can't help crying when I speak, or maybe I don't know what to say to express the feeling in my heart at the moment.

Anyway, at that time, I just wanted to be with her, and I didn't want her to be sad and cry alone in the dormitory.I thought again of her statue-like lifeless appearance when I went back to the dormitory that day, so desolate and lonely.I really, don't want to see it a second time.

For a long time, when I thought she should be asleep, I heard her speak suddenly. In fact, I was very selfish and very confused.Like talking to himself, but also like talking to me.I didn't say anything, I just put my chin on top of her head and told her I wasn't asleep.

She gave a low laugh, and said again, I think I'm a bastard... When I was hurt, I also wanted to hurt someone else once, as if that would heal my wound.I... I'm sorry Wen Zimo.From the beginning to the end, in that so-called relationship, I didn't give a single bit of sincerity.You said... she raised her head, even in the dark, I knew she was looking at me, her hand slowly raised, gently covering my face, rubbing, just like that night, I pretended Sleep the same at night.

However, the feeling in my heart is very different.

She said, do you think I am the most selfish bastard in the world... As she said, she started to cry again, but she still looked at me stubbornly.

I shook my head, feeling very sad, I whispered, no, I think that bastard should be me.Blindly only thinking about himself, but never caring about the feelings of others.Especially you... There is no goodness in this world without a reason, but your goodness, I seem to be enjoying it as it should be, squandering it, and at the same time hurting you like a bastard.

Reaching out to wipe away the tears from the corners of her eyes, I continued talking, as if I wanted to finish all the things I wanted to say to her once in my stomach tonight.

Because, I am afraid that there will be no chance in the future.

I said that the squad leader is the best person in the world, especially for Xiao Yu.She was just hurt and wanted to find someone to comfort herself.Actually, your vision is really good. Wen Zimo looks very handsome like Ming Dao.And he is gentle and gentle... Seriously, it's really embarrassing for you to break up in the cafeteria so easily, okay?I smiled on purpose, fortunately it was night, and she couldn't see the smile on my face, because I knew that smile must be uglier than crying.

Rong Jing smiled softly again, her head rubbed against my neck, and then I felt a warm and moist area there, and I knew it was her lips.

She said, you heard that, in the cafeteria that day.

I froze for a moment before replying with a word of um.

Yes, I heard it, I heard it clearly.

She asked, why do you always call me monitor?

I opened my mouth and didn't know how to answer. Could it be that I would be nervous, scared, or what if I called your name?

She sighed and told me stubbornly, Xiao Yu, I want to hear you call my name, okay?

The author has something to say: Unexpected third shift, maybe I plan to end this article before going to work tomorrow!Praise me, praise me, children's shoes, give me motivation! ! !

☆, say goodbye

The thing called the heart in the chest seemed to be about to jump out of the mouth in the next moment.What's wrong with calling her name, I also asked myself, but I couldn't restrain my nervousness, and my palms were sweating.

I swallowed, exhaled cautiously, and called out softly, her name——

Rong Jing.

My mouth was dry and I really wanted to drink water.It's so funny, I've been at the same table for half a year, and now it's such a relationship that I don't know how to say, it's the first time I call her name.

Suddenly, I felt a little ironic!

Rong Jing nodded slightly, and the palm she put on my face slowly slid down, and even stayed on my lips somewhat vaguely, gently touching and squeezing.

My body couldn't help becoming stiff again, what is she doing?

Then her suppressed low smile came from her ear, she said, has Xiao Yu ever kissed anyone?I shook my head instinctively, saying that her topic was a bit jumpy, and I couldn't get used to it.

In other words, they should have kissed before, but when they suddenly remembered the messy kiss that day, they couldn't help but feel a burst of fire on their face.If that counts, I'm also a person who lost my first kiss.

She asked me if I meant something else, obviously she was the one who hugged me and kissed me messily under the quilt, now——

I was still thinking wildly on this side, wondering whether my first kiss was still there, but the other side suddenly stood up, and then a burst of pleasant-smelling hot air rushed towards my face, and her lips were caught in her mouth.

I froze for a moment—

There is something soft and sweet slipping messily around my lips, I want to catch that wet and soft thing messing around my lips that makes me feel a little stuffy.So I opened my mouth, wanting to bite my teeth as a warning, but I didn't want that thing to rush into my mouth quickly, without direction, and started to wreak havoc in a mess.From the tip of the tongue to the tip of the teeth, it is as sweet and fragrant as a delicious "jelly".

That's her tongue.

The breath of the person on my body quickly became disordered, and I could feel that our bodies were getting hotter and hotter, as if we could burn with just a little more rubbing.

She didn't let go of my lips until we were out of breath and couldn't breathe.

She lay on my chest and gasped for a while, a little uneasy, and even said carefully, this is kissing, an intimate thing that can only be done with the person you like.In the future, if Xiao Yu...if she meets someone she likes, she can also...with him...

The voice slowly lowered, and she turned to listen to her sad whisper, in the future... Will you fall in love with someone else in the future...

My heart is completely messed up at this moment, everything is messed up.And there was a sour taste from the bottom of her heart, why did she kiss so skillfully.Could it be that she and Wen Caizi have already kissed, thinking that she will be hugged by someone else, no matter a man or a woman, and kissed as intimately as before.I feel like someone is slowly cutting with a blunt knife in my heart, and the pain is extremely uncomfortable.

With a slight effort in the arm, he lowered his head and asked, have you...uh...just pretend I'm curious, have you and...have you ever kissed...

But it doesn't seem to matter anymore, they broke up.Even if they kissed, it was a meaningless thing in the past.

She was startled for a moment, and suddenly understood what I was thinking, and then, as if she was afraid that I might misunderstand, she explained anxiously that Wen Zimo and I were just ordinary friends.You...you don't...I know she wanted to say, don't get me wrong, but she suddenly stopped explaining because of a certain thought.

Also, at this time, sincerely, this kind of question is not important at all, and there is no need to bother to explain it.

I made the atmosphere a little stiff for a moment, I didn't want her to leave unhappy, so I apologized in a low voice, I'm sorry... Then she covered her lips with her palm, and she said, don't say it, if I say sorry, it's me...

I reached out to take her palm, and deliberately said in a more cheerful tone, let's not get entangled in this kind of issue, okay?Say something meaningful.

After a while, she nodded her head, and then said, okay, as if she was afraid that I might not see you.

☆, bastard

Those years, memories that were stranded.

She asked if Xiaoyu would fall in love with someone else in the future.Her questions are always difficult for me to answer. Even if it is a particularly easy question to answer, even if it is perfunctory, I should tell her the answer she wants to hear.

but I do not have.

I pondered for a moment, and just said, maybe, there are thousands of people I like, but there should be only one person I love.

But I added silently in my heart, maybe that person will be you, maybe it will be a completely stranger to me.

I really want to have your participation in my future.

However, I deeply understand that it is a bit of a dream.

she says--

To this day, her words that seem to be a confession but have other meanings, thinking about it now, I still have some doubts and deep regrets in my heart.

She said, I am a very determined person, and if I believe in someone, no one can make me turn back.Now we are still young, adults, and even most people in this world can't agree with that kind of feelings, and think it is against social morality.However, as long as I think something is right, I will not compromise no matter how difficult it is, no matter how loud the opposition is.Right now I will obey the majority of people, because I deeply know that we are really too small, and the small ones have no social experience and status, so we can only accept their arrangements. One day, I will prove to them that I am No...I just like that person and my...

Same gender as her.

She just said "I didn't," nothing—

At that time, I didn't grasp this doubt, but I was slightly puzzled.She deliberately summed it up, as if she could swallow some of what she was about to say.

Many years later, when we met again, I deeply regretted the neglect in the past. If I knew where she was about to be sent to at that time, I would firmly hold her hand tightly, not because of my cowardice. and incompetence, and almost killed her for the rest of her life.

After ten years of separation, she has suffered so much.Her relatives, as well as me, brought it to her with my own hands.

Before I knew it, I always thought that we didn't talk too much, and when I gradually saw her outline, I started to panic.

It was dawn and she was leaving.

Before the exam, she told me that she wanted to spend this winter vacation with her parents.

I hugged her tightly in my arms with reluctance, and I heard her shallow breathing, and I suppressed my sadness and sadness.

Maybe it was a moment of capriciousness, reckless presumptuousness, I leaned close to her ear, and said in a low voice, let me tell you, I also fell in love with someone.Maybe stubbornness is contagious, anyway, I think if I can meet her in a strange city in the future, I will tell her personally that there is a bastard, how regretful I was at the beginning.When the person who treated her best fell in love with her, she foolishly dared not accept it. When the day of parting came, she deeply realized that her ignorance made her miss such a beautiful fate.

Her body trembled violently, and the arms around my waist were even more forceful. I didn't realize until now that this strength was due to her instinctive reaction of wanting to hold on tightly because she was afraid of losing.

After a while, she heard her self-deprecating and helpless laughter. She said, they really are two bastards.In the future... If there is a chance to meet her in the future, I hope that another stubborn person will not forget what she said today.She raised her head again and looked at me, her beautiful eyes filled with moisture again.

I nodded and said firmly, I will never forget!If she dares to forget, you go to her and pull her ears and beat her hard.

Rong Jing's tears still flowed out, and she said in a slightly hoarse voice, but, I can't bear to...

After she finished speaking, my tears couldn't help falling down, but my mouth deliberately teased, look, you have infected me with tears again.Don't cry, it hurts your eyes too much, and you haven't slept all night.

Rong Jing deliberately pulled the corner of her lips, okay, we are not sad.She glanced outside through the window and saw a glimmer of light. She smiled very sadly. She said, my parents will pick me up in a car later, can you see me off.I want to... let you leave while watching my back.

Let me remember that back view forever, so that I will never forget you.

I say yes!

Even if she doesn't say it, I will take the initiative to ask me to send her off.

After all, this time, I don't know when we will meet again.

Its daybreak.

When the first ray of sunshine in the dormitory fell on us, I knew that she was really leaving.

My heart is really uncomfortable.He wanted to cry, but he was afraid of seeing her cry, so he suppressed it, at least he would not cry in front of her.The last time, I waited until she got in the car before crying.

Rong Jing, I really miss you.

Especially now!

The author has something to say: two more chapters will be updated tomorrow, and it will almost be over

☆, farewell

Rong Jing looks very similar to her mother, they are both as gentle as water, graceful and moving.Such a capable and shrewd person doesn't know why he is so afraid of me, a poor student at a young age, and even seems to hate me.

Yes, I can feel it deeply.Especially when Rong Jing turned around and got into the car, I didn't control my mood well, I was in a hurry, and said in a hurry, if we have time, can we communicate by letter, her mother seemed to hear something dangerous generally.If I'm not mistaken, and her eyes were not dazzled, at that time, her mother's body trembled fiercely, her face turned pale, she stared at me sharply, and said angrily in her voice, if you want to do this for my little one Quiet, don't disturb her life in the future.

In that case, just saying it like that made my chest feel sore and my eye sockets became hot.

After all, I was timid and didn't dare to refute her, let alone say a small no, but I just looked at Rong Jing who was a little dazed.

Rong Jing glanced at me at the car door with red eyes, slightly disheveled hair, dancing with the cold wind, she smiled, Xiao Yu, don't forget what you told me yesterday, I will remember it, I will remember it forever!As she spoke, she gave me a deep look, which gave me the illusion that she wanted to remember my appearance deeply through this look, even as the years passed, she still would not forget me.Then, he got into the car without looking back.

Her mother also got into the car, and then the car started. Because I was very close, I could faintly hear some loud quarrels.The man she called her father never got out of the car from the beginning to the end.

In the end, I was the only one left, standing in the warm sunrise like an abandoned fool, but my body felt bitingly cold.

It's like a dream right now—

In the dream, the good feeling made me not want to wake up.After waking up, the porcelain doll, which seemed lost in the palm of my hand, was accidentally broken and could not be glued together again.

She really left.

Such a sudden arrival in my life made me panic and flustered for a while.The unexpected departure again made me unbearable and the pain was unbearable.

Rong Jing, what should I do, you just left me for a few minutes, and I started to miss you.Or even worse, since you told me that you were leaving me, I began to regret, feel sad, and miss you.

I think, I, who didn't know the taste when I was young, seemed to be enlightened suddenly.That love, really, is a sweet thing that torments the dead.

It is you who taught me how to like someone, even say love.

However, am I lucky enough to have your advice for the rest of my life?

Years later, in the busy bustling city, in the quiet and elegant art museum, in the slow-paced park with occasional insects and birds, I can always see a figure similar to you.I used this or that excuse to go to your city, but you and I were separated by a vast distance, and we searched for it for a long time but failed.

Only I know how I spent those unbearable years during the ten years apart.

And only I deeply understand, every time I put my palm on the shoulder of that person whose back is so similar to yours, how turbulent my inner excitement is, and when I see that completely unfamiliar piece of paper, I can't find any clues about you, and I feel so excited. What a loss and helplessness.

In the days that followed, many things happened——

I didn't let her down, the final exam was okay, and I ended up in the same class we were in, and my deskmate was replaced by someone else.

She left, and Zuo Si also left after the new year.When she left, she said, if I just feel guilty towards you, then treat it as a past and forget it.Because it's meaningless.

Oh, I want to forget too.But the past mixed with other feelings is really not something you can forget if you want to.

How much I wanted to tell her that I won the bet, but I dismissed the indifferent punishment, and she was not by my side, as if everything was meaningless.

By the way, Caizi Wen approached me once, he said he didn't blame you, he knew that you didn't like him at all, and he was full of another person in his heart.Even if he is dissatisfied, he is not qualified, because the person you protect is too strict, and his strictness makes him feel bad.I heard later that he was admitted to a good high school in the county and had a good-looking girlfriend——

Those are other people's business, nothing to do with me.

Do you remember what you said?

you say--

The author has something to say: the last chapter will be updated at night, and there is no time during the day.Also, this chapter was coded out quickly in the morning and has a slight flaw. I will change it at night, sorry!

☆, promise

Have you ever loved someone—

The years are rippling, time flies, we are no longer you and me who were young and ignorant.Ten years passed in a blink of an eye, and the ruts of time passed by the faint lines on the corners of my eyes and brows.

The world is impermanent. After experiencing some ups and downs that no one cares about, I think back to the past that was buried by time. Everything turned into dust in my memory. Only you, alone, was placed by me in that place full of cobwebs The cleanest corner in the heart of dust.

Ten years later

The boss of the workshop has been particularly displeased with me recently. The reason is that when I was leading the FDA verification in the United States, I made a mistake of irregularly pitting my teammates.

A moment of carelessness and my good "best friend" Meng Meng who is currently walking in a pair of trousers sat together, discussing which emperor gave birth to the most children in the past 5000 years in China.Another inadvertently delved into their harem beauties, three thousand beautiful, child molestation, oiran ladies, and so on. When it came to the time when the restricted class was inappropriate for children, the Yankee happened to come to us with a face full of old pimples, and he was full of curiosity Those who want to listen are very interested——

Then, hehe.The boss scolded him hard and fined him 200 yuan as punishment.My heart really hurts, and I'm swearing at that old lady in my heart.Over there, I heard Meng Meng sighing with some nymphomaniac. I heard that a group of handsome young students, beautiful, dignified and gentle ladies will be coming. I can't imagine that it is really not a lie, Xiao Yu, Xiaoyu, look at the corridor outside, there is a handsome guy who seems to be fascinated by me, and is giving me shameless winks?

I thought to myself, guess that the so-called handsome guy is very white, and the white is a bit sick.Anyway, in the eyes of this guy, as long as you are white and male, you are handsome.

I looked out of the window a little bored and perfunctory——

Heart, as if at that moment, stopped for half a second.

Just like when we first met, the warm sunshine shrouded her like a fine veil, and she stood like that in the crowd, not expressing herself intentionally or too much, but unexpectedly outstanding and unique as expected.

I often think, one year, two years or even ten years later, if we meet again by fate, what kind of scene will it be, and what kind of mood will we have.

She walked through the corridor with a smile on her face, pushed open the door, and walked to me, her eyes like spring water were full of affection.Just like that, he looked at me without saying a word, as if he was tracing my outline again.

The familiar feelings bloomed in her eyes like a good color, and her lips were also stained with the joy of reunion.

haven't seen you for a long time--

Do you remember what you said?

You said, you will wait for me, wait for me, always wait for me.

- until I fall in love with you.

I want to say, congratulations, you have waited.

The longing and unwillingness accumulated over the years, as well as the deep unspeakable words, made my nose sore, and my eyes began to have the urge to gush out water.

I took a step closer to her, and my lips were slightly raised with her smile.

Rong Jing, do you still remember what you said?

You said, you will wait for me!

It has been ten years, time has changed our appearance and everything we are familiar with around us, but the heart that once moved for you has never changed.

And you--

She took another step towards me, she could smell her breath, and the tip of her nose was full of familiar smells.

She said, as I said before, I am a stubborn person, as long as it is what you say, I will believe it for the rest of my life.Now, I'll cash in on what's mine.

I looked at her with wide eyes, something hot and humid rolled down from the corners of my eyes, I could no longer control the fluctuations in my heart, and hugged her.

Remember, what I said will naturally be remembered.

I laughed, of course, don't forget, I am also a stubborn person!

She let out a breath, as if there was something extremely uncomfortable that had been hanging in her throat, and it was finally put back firmly in her stomach.

Rong Jing, for the rest of my life, please teach me.

The author has something to say: Because the author wants to write the second part, the sweet content after meeting is in another article.Some students want to know what crimes Rong Jing has suffered in the past ten years, and some feel that Rong Jing has been giving, but don't forget, as mentioned in the next two chapters and the previous one, Mu Yu also had ups and downs in the past ten years.The second part intends to fill in the current pitfalls before writing. Some doubts will be clearly stated in it, and it is guaranteed that there will be no serious abuse, and there will be no mistresses to intervene, and will follow the sweet pet route.Not much to say, I have written all the way, thank you for your support!